I woke up with the sun shining in my face and I looked down and sen I was back into my human form. I pulled myself up and sat on the edge of the bed remembering what happened from the day before. I really miss Corey and I knew his death would be staying with me forever and I would never be able to let go. I got out of bed and grabbed some clothes and began changing. I could smell the food being cooked and it smell so good. I walked out of my room and headed down towards the smell. I entered the kitchen and everyone was there waiting for Zacky to finish cooking. I sat down in an empty seat next to Matt.

"Nice of you to join us this morning." Matt said smiling. I just looked over at him before getting up and walking out the front door and sitting down on the porch. I propped my elbows on my knees and laid my chin in my hands looking out over the land. I really needed just to sit alone for a while and not be bothered and just let my thoughts take me away. I was fixing to get up when the front door opened revealing Jimmy.

"Matt said to come and eat."

"You can tell him I'm not hungry and I just want to be alone right now." I said standing to my feet and walking off and changing into my wolf before walking over to the grave marker of Corey's final resting place. I said down in the grass that was growing and looked at the grave marker.

Corey was gone and I knew I needed to let go but my heart just wouldn't let me do that. I looked at the front porch and seen the door was closed. I stood to my feet and walked into the woods and went to the spot where Corey was killed. The blood stain was fading away in the hot summer sun but I sat down anyways. I looked up at the clear blue sky.

If there is a God up there the only thing I as of you is to keep Corey safe from whatever he may do up there. Corey was my only friend in the world who really understood me and I just cant imagine my life without him. It doesn't seem right that Corey is gone and I wish you hadn't taken him away from me like that. Is it not enough that you took my mother away from me? Is it not enough that you made me into what I am? I never asked to be this way! Why couldn't I be a normal person instead of a fucking animal?

I looked down at the blood stain on the ground and remembered that awful day Corey lost his life. It will haunt me forever and knowing that if I had just tried harder to fight off the bear he would still be here today with me. I stood to my feet as I walked out of the clearing and wondered through the woods. I came to a little spot with water and a small waterfall. I walked into the water and lapped the water. It was so fresh and clean. I walked the rest of the way in until my furry body was all the way into the water.

I swam over to where a rock sat on the edge of the waterfall. I climbed up and laid there letting the sun dry me. Corey was the only person I could share anything with but I know the guys would probably listen to what I have to say but I'm not chancing it. No one would fully understand me again like Corey did. I looked up to see a brown wolf taking a drink of the water and never noticing me sitting here on this rock. I stood to my feet and it looked up at me.

I'm sorry to disturb you.

Hmm a girl wolf.

It's alright. I'm just out here with my thoughts. I said and I watched as the wolf entered the water and came over to me. She climbed up onto the rock and laid down beside me.

Want to talk about it?

No. It's better left untold. So do you belong to Avenged Sevenfold too? I asked licking my paw.

No I'm a loner. My parents were the only wolves I've ever known and they were killed by humans who found out what my parents were. Luckily my mother hid me and they didn't kill me too.

Shit that sucks. My best friend was killed 2 days ago. Mauled by a bear. I said almost whispering the last part.

Damn that sucks! I bet that's going to be hard to get over.

Yeah it will be but I'm keeping him near me for as long as I can. The memories him and I share are the only thing I have left. I said hanging my head.

I have a lot of fond memories of things I did with my parents. I'm keeping them forever and trying not to let myself get down.

Good idea. I didn't catch your name? I said looking up at her.

Oh sorry. My name is Rogue. What's yours?

I'm Aerial. I said.

Cool name! I just had a thought. Do you think your leader would let me into the clan?

I would have to ask Matt so I really don't know. Can you hunt? I asked and she shook her head no.

I'll teach you. I said smiling. She smiled right back. We talked for hours about her life and mine and we had so much in common it wasn't funny. I perked my ears up when I heard distant footsteps coming our direction. I breathed in the air and got the scent of Brian and Zacky. Rogue looked at me funny.

What's wrong?

2 of my clan members are coming this way. Hide okay? I said and she ran off up on the waterfall hidden into the trees. I looked up and seen Brian and Zacky come into view. Zacky and Brian walked around the water and came right over to me.

Matt is furious. He wants you home now. Brian said and I rolled my eyes.

You need to come home right now. Matt will calm down if you do.

What the hell is he afraid of? That I'll go out and do something stupid? I have more sense than that Zacky. I said standing up.

I know that but he doesn't want what happened to Corey to happen to you.

I can't believe that I can't be by myself for just a day without someone having to come get me. I know when to be home. I said annoyed.

I know the feeling but Matt has a meeting with us planned and we need to get home right now. So come on. Zacky nudged me and I looked up on the waterfall and seen Rogue standing there. I gave her a look that I would be back tomorrow and to meet her here at noon. She nodded and I walked on with Zacky and Brian. I cant believe they didn't sense her presence while they were there.

I guess being so concerned blocks out your senses. We got back to the house and Matt was standing on the porch. Zacky and Brian changed back into their human form and I did the same. As I got closer to Matt he had the look of relief on his face. He smiled as I stood in front of him.

"Sorry but there are some things we need to discuss if that's alright?" Matt said and I nodded following him into the house. We walked upstairs to his office and I sat down in front of his desk.

"I know you need some alone time because of Corey's death but I need to assure you that if you need to talk, anyone of the guys are willing to listen and my door is always open when you have a problem."

"I know it's just that Corey knew everything about me and it would take days for me to explain it to any one of the guys here." I said crossing my legs.

"I know how it feels Aerial...to lose someone so close to you and not wanting to explain the emotions you are feeling but you need to open up. It's not healthy."

"Matt I'm fine alright. When I'm ready to explain myself, I'll let you know." I said smiling. Matt looked at his watched and sighed.

"Time to rest. Go on and get to bed and I'll see you in the morning." I nodded and licked his cheek out of respect before leaving his office and going into my room. I laid down on the bed and looked out into the night. I knew Rogue needs a home and I am determined to make my home hers as well. I know the guys will love her and it will give us one more wolf to add to our clan. She needs a home anyways. I would hate having to wonder around the woods and scavenge off other predators prey.

Notes

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