Kiss me like you wanna be loved

Brian felt the horrible feeling wash over him again. The feeling of guilt. He had made her left.

He let out a loud growl and pushed the vase off the table. He left the kitchen and headed upstairs to their bedroom. Once he was there he found that all Simone’s things were gone, at least the most important things she needed. He pulled open the doors to her wardrobe, almost all of her clothes were gone. He slammed the doors shut and threw himself on the bed.

She had done this before, but she was always back in the house the day after, this time she wasn’t. She was serious this time, she was gonna leave him until...he solved his, problem.

“FUCK!” Brian growled. He hated this feeling he had inside. He wanted to drown the demon. He pulled himself together and began to search after the key to their drink-cabinet. He pulled open Simone's underwear drawer and rummaged through it, he knew she hid the key somewhere.

As the time went and he didn't find the key, he became more and more angry.

“Fucking bitch, where's the goddamn key?” He muttered and rummaged through her jewelery box. This time he found it.

“Finally..”he muttered as he walked over to the cabinet. He picked a bottle of rum this time. He got rid of the lid and took a few big gulps. He wiped his mouth and went to the bathroom ,which was connected to their bedroom.

He stripped down and looked at his reflection in the mirror. He looked even more terrible than before. His drunken, tired eyes looked back at him. He looked like something the cat had dragged in. He inhaled deeply and brought up the bottle to his lips and took a gulp.

He turned on the shower and stepped in, placing himself on the floor directly, leaning against the cool shower-wall, letting the water rain over him. He felt miserable and empty. He didn't knew other ways to solve his problems, he'd been drinking them away as long as he could remember, hell, he didn’t even remember when his drinking became a problem.

His toughs was interrupted by his phone buzzing in his jeans. He looked at it lazily while he took a few more gulps from the bottle. By the time he was done showering, he had emptied the bottle. He wrapped a towel around his waist and stepped out from the bathroom. He grabbed another bottle of alcohol before he lay down on the bed once again and listened to his phone buzzing like a maniac in his pocket. After the fifth time he picked it up and answered.

“Mhm?” He said lazily while he took a sip from the bottle. The brownish liquid burned in his throat. The Famous Grouse whiskey always gave him a nice buzz to forget all his problems for a while.

“BRIAN FUCKING HANER! WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!” Matt yelled thought the phone, making Brian cringe and pull away the phone from his ear.

“Dude, its too early for screaming” He muttered

He heard Matt sigh and try to calm down.

“We're supposed to have an interview in half an hour, where.the.fuck.are.you?” Matt muttered

“Oh, shit.. I'm sorry dude but I cant” Brian stuttered and bit his lip.

“WHAT?! What the fuck do you mean you FUCKING CANT?!” Matt yelled

“She left me OKAY? She fucking left” Brian slurred, the alcohol was beginning to affect him now.

“Simone?” Matt asked in surprise

“Yeah, she fucking left me!” Brian sighed heavily.

“Oh man... I didn't know.. I'm sorry. We'll fix the interview, dont worry dude.”

“Thanks man, I'm sorry shoulda told you sooner” Brian apologized

“Dont worry, we will fix it, see you later” Matt said

“See ya”

Brian sighed and called a very familiar number, a number he could tell in his sleep.
No answer. He tried again, no answer this time either. He tried a third time, this time he came to her voicemail. He took a large gulp as he waited for the beep.

“Hey babe... Honestly I dont now what to say... I'm sorry for what I did, I'm sorry that I've hurt you, but I bet its too late to convince you to come home? Brian chuckled

“I just wanted to tell you, that I am going to solve my drinking problems. I cant be without you, ever. I love you Sim. Dont ever forget that honey.” Brian sighed and hung up.

–--

Simone waited nervously for someone to open the door. A few seconds later she was greeted by her father in law, Brian Haner SR or Papa Gates.

“Simone! What a pleasant surprise, what brings you here?” He asked while he let her in

“It's..complicated” She laughed nervously as they walked into the living-room where Susy, Brians stepmother were.

“Simone!” She exclaimed happy when Simone entered the room, she stood up and gave Simone a heartwarming hug.

“So nice too see you, is Brian around?” Susy asked with a smile whilst Simone and Papa Gates sat down in the couches.

Simone took a deep breath.
“Yeah, about that... I need to tell you something..” She murmured as she watched a worried look appear on her parents-in-law faces.

”Brian and I, we have had.. some issues lately. Of course all couples have issues but this one, is a bit more serious.” Simone babbled on.

“Have my son abused you?” Brian asked with a serious expression on his face.

“No no no, it's...” Simone sighed heavily

“He have some major drinking problems, and I've had enough. Even the guys in Avenged tried to help him get out of it. He is always late to interviews, photoshoots and whatever. Sometimes he dont even show up. All because he's almost wasted all the time.” Simone continued and sighed

“Oh... how long has this been going on?” Brian asked her

“A while, about a year, almost two years. We didn't want to tell you cause we really thought he could get out of it... and why I'm here? We cant handle it anymore. I cant handle it..” Simone said and broke down in tears

“Oh sweetie” Susan said and moved to the other couch to comfort her.

“One day we can be happy, loving couple, the next day we are fighting and throwing things at each other. We haven’t seen each other that much recently, he have been out drinking.... and I dont want to be home when he's back, the alcohol makes him angry and always finds something to argue about. I dont like that Brian.” Simone sobbed.

“Sweetie, we will talk to him” Susan soothed and gave her a comforting hug.

“I'm afraid we have to do more than that, I think... he needs to be admitted into rehab” Simone murmured.

–-Few weeks later Brian and Simone stood in the reception in Huntington Beach Reliability Center. Brians parents talked to him and he came took the conclusion to be admitted into the rehab, he wanted to do everything to keep Simone by his side.

They sat in the waiting room. Brian was shaking slightly, nervous for what was going to happen.

“Baby, its okay” Simone said and gave him a reassuring smile.

It was a few days ago he had touched the last bottle of alcohol. Simone didn't like it and tried to convincing him to pour it out in the sink, but he had refused. Threatening to change his mind about the rehab and they had ended up in an argument.

“I'm so sorry what I have put you through, I didn't think it would ended up so bad” Brian murmured sincerely.

“I said I wouldn’t give up on you. And to be honest, these past days, I've have seen the Brian I fell in love with” She said and gave him a smile he haven’t seen for a while. A pure smile of love.

“Mr Haner?” a red haired woman called.

“Yeah” Brian nodded and stood up, followed by Simone.

“I'm Dr. Anderson, I will show you around” She smiled and shook Brians hand.

They followed Dr Anderson down the hallway and took off into another hallway who led them to the right side if the building. Dr Anderson opened a door for them.“This is the room sections. Mr Haner, this is your room, you can leave your bags here” Dr.Anderson smiled. Brian and Simone put away his bags and followed Dr. Anderson to another hallway.

“This is the hang out area” She said.

They saw a couple of people hanging around, some of them played cards, the other one played pool and a few sat in the couch and just chatted. It wasn’t so many people, a bunch of 5-6 peoples."Everyday you'll run on a schedule, which you'll get tomorrow. It will consist of individual and group therapy, and an activity, as sports or whatever you like” Dr Anderson informed them.

”Sounds good” Brian shrugged and glanced at Simone.

“Oh and you have group therapy about an hour Mr Haner” Dr Anderson said before they stopped in the reception.

Brian felt that this was it, It was time to say goodbye, from now he was on his own.

“I'll give you two a minute” Dr Anderson smiled and disappeared down the hallway.Brian stepped closer to Simone. He placed a hand on her cheek, stroking it soflty.

“I'm glad I am doing this. I don't wanna be that close to loose you again, ever” Brian spoke softly

Simone met his gaze.

“I'm glad too. Things can only get better from here” Simone smiled

“I'm gonna miss waking up next to you” Brian sighed and placed a soft kiss on her lips

“You will be out from here sooner than you think, besides, I promise to visit you as often as I can, If you want to?” Simone smiled, trying to hide the tears. She was so happy for him to doing this.

“Dont cry baby. Of course I want to” He said and kissed her forehead.

“Babe?” Brian asked

Simone turned her head and looked at him, a questioning look written over her face.

“Will you marry me?”

Notes

So part 2 is up! What do you think? :D I'm thinking to do a part 3 but I dunno, what do you guys think?