I woke up to find myself laying in bed. I got up and stretched and I guess I slept through the plane ride and the ride in the car back to the house. I got me some clothes out and decided to take a shower. I stripped of my clothes and let the warm soothing water run down my back taking out all my stress. The water felt good against my muscles and I didn't even want to get out but I did once the water turned cold. I dried myself off and got dressed. I brushed out my hair letting it air dry and headed downstairs. I walked into the kitchen and Brian was standing there drinking a beer. I walked passed him and opened the fridge and got a soda. I popped the top and sat down.

"Well hello sleeping beauty." he said teasingly.

"Hey. Where is everyone?" I asked drinking my soda. I burped really loudly and I really didn't care.

"They're in the living room watching the football game." he said taking a drink of his beer.

"Oh. When you guys going on tour?" I asked finishing off my soda and throwing the can away.

"Well we don't know yet. I mean we are working on a new album right now so it should be soon." he said and I smiled and walked into the living room.

"Don't you guys have anything better to do than watch sports all day long?" I asked and they all shook their heads. I rolled my eyes and went back to my room to write a few new songs and listen to the radio. I wrote one for the memory of my mom. From what my friends said she always went to church on Sundays and never missed one until she was starting to get really sick.

I was not going to reveal the song just yet but I was thinking it would be soon. I wrote a few hard rock songs and continued to write songs of my own. I listened to the radio and soon I was able to play Welcome to the Family by Avenged Sevenfold. I loved that song and it told my story with the guys perfectly. I started playing another song by the Avenged boys and it was called So Far Away.

Never feared for anything, never shamed but never free
A life that healed a broken heart with all that it could
Lived a life so endlessly, saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could
Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Plans of what our futures hold, foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible, the truth is so cold
A final song, a last request, a perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind
Where you can stay, you can stay awake forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
'Cause as soon as I'm done
I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you're so far away

I love you, you were ready
The pain is strong enough despise
But I'll see you when he lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are tied
So far away and I need you to know
So far away and I need you to, need you to know

I finished the song and I looked up to see Matt standing there. I smiled and he walked the rest of the way into my room and sat down on the bed with me. I put my guitar down and turned towards him.

"How you feeling?" he asked crossing his legs.

"I'm good. I really need to do something. I mean to get my mind off of it." I said laying my hands in my lap.

"Well I have the perfect thing. We are having a barbecue at my house here in about 2 hours. I already let Zacky know and he said it would be a great idea." he said smiling and I smiled back and nodded.

"Alright well I'll see you at 5. I'm going home now to help Val get everything ready." he said and I hugged him and he kissed my cheek. He left the room and shut my door behind him. I got up and decided to take a long hot bath. I ran the water in the tub and got me some clothes to change into. I brought them back into the bathroom and got into the water slowly letting the warmness unknot my muscles. It felt so damn good. I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

"Come in! I'm in the bathroom!" I yelled and the door opened and closed again. I seen Zacky walk into the bathroom. Luckily I was sunken deep into the water so he couldn't see my body.

"Hey I wanted to talk to you about something." he said rubbing his hands together.

"What is it?" I asked laying my head against the back of the tub and looking at him.

"Your mom told me that you're step-dad died not too long ago." he said and I looked up to the ceiling.

"When did she tell you this? I asked closing my eyes.

"The day before she died." I rubbed my hand over my face.

"She wants me to tell you all doesn't she. The real reason why I left Tennessee?" I asked and he nodded. I sighed again.

"I'll tell you all later. I just need to keep my thoughts together. I mean at the funeral I thought my real father was going to start shit with me again and I was hoping he wouldn't especially when I'm grieving." I explained and he nodded.

"I'll let you get back to your bath and I'll be downstairs." he said and I nodded. He kissed my forehead and left the room. I sat there thinking about why my mom would tell him something like that when she doesn't even know him but she always had this thing about her that she could tell about people and instantly have respect for them.

I finished my bath and dried off letting my hair air dry once again and got dressed. I was wearing my gray skinny jeans and a black tank top that had a rebel flag with the words The South Will Rise Again! on it. I brushed my hair out and put on my Harley boots and attached my tons of chains to my pants. I knew Matt and Val had a pool but I wouldn't be going in. I didn't know how to swim and I had a phobia for water that came above my ankles. As I walked downstairs I could hear Zacky and Gena talking in the living room. I didn't want to eavesdrop but when they said my name, I sat down on the bottom step of the stairs and listened in.

"Rave misses her mom and this barbecue will give her a chance to meet everyone and make new friends here." Gena said.

"Rave has friends and I want her own friends to be here with her sometimes. I mean I know she needs some friends here but her friends there are closer to her than any of us and know more things about her than we do." Zacky said sighing.

"I know baby but maybe we should sit her down and talk to her privately or have Brian do it. I mean her and Brian are close. Maybe he can get something out of her." Gena said. I rolled my eyes and decided to walk in. I got up and walked into the living room.

"Hey Raven!" Gena said excitedly.

"Hey are you guys ready to go?" I asked and they nodded and we headed over to Matt's house. When we got there everyone else had already arrived. Zacky cut the engine and we got out. I could hear a dog barking as we came up to the door. Zacky opened the door and I seen this cute dog and I bent down and petted it. I smiled widely thinking about my 2 dogs I had before I left.

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