“Hey… where are you going? Don’t leave me hang…” Brian glanced down at his dick and noticed how hardened and blood-filled it was. “…hanging is definitely not the right word here.”

“Hold that up for me. I have an idea.” Emily replied from the door and went outside with a sexy smirk on her face, completely naked, as he waited for her on the bed.

“You should at least cover your butt, someone can see you out there.” Brian heard her laughter from afar and she quickly reappeared with something in hands. A tiny bottle of something he couldn’t recognize right away.

“Hm, well… I just happened to remember that Tony, my drummer, has hypoglycemia sometimes so he always keeps some candy in our cabinet just in case.” Brian watched her walking slowly back to the bed after locking the door, her tongue drawing her own lips as she opened the bottle and held it up on her mouth.

“He’s gonna be pissed at you when he finds out you stole his sugar.”

When it started pouring on her, by the orange mixed with brown color it had, he knew that it was honey. She closed her eyes and moaned while tasting it, making Brian get fervid and delirious just by gazing at her. When she kneeled on the bed, she had to look down and the honey ended up leaking on her chest and flowing straight to one of her nipples.

“Oops.” she rolled her eyes and picked at her bottom lip, licking all the honey she had on her chin. All that innocence she was showing was driving Brian closer to the edge.

“Need some help in there?” he cocked one eyebrow and stood up from his lying position at the same time, kneeling on the bed. He needed to lick all that body now, he loved honey but he loved her taste even more.

“Definitely.” when she answered seductively, his arms were already wrapping her waist and pulling her body onto him as he let his mouth drop directly on her breast, following the honey path that was drawn in her skin with his tongue and groaning all the way through.

Emily let her head fall in pleasure as he held her curved back to finish the candy trace on her chest and reached for her mouth, where they shared a flavored and ardent kiss for a long while.

“Hmm, one of the best I ever had.” Emily mumbled practically to herself, but of course he heard it and had to brag about it.

“Come again? I’m the best you ever had? Huh?” he set up one of those stunning naughty smiles to her and she could only shake her head in denial, chuckling right after.

“Lay back there, you arrogant ass.” Emily had to push his chest back to prevent him from attacking her again, as he was in the verge of reaching her neck. He laughed. “I’m gonna have my fun with you now.”

Brian let his body fall in the mattress and waited for her next action. She was the owner of that bottle after all. But he was planning to steal it somehow on her slightest distraction.
Emily straddled him and she let the honey drop ‘accidentally’ over his member. He had a feeling she’d get very occupied with his hard-on now. It throbbed at the same time she started covering it with the brown liquid.

“Oh no, oops again!” she opened her mouth in a big O and hid it with her free hand, faking a big surprise. Brian was getting more aroused at each staging. “I guess it’s my time to help you clean up this mess now.”

“Yeah, cause I’m feeling so dirty and sticky right now. You should do something about it.” she didn’t wait for him to finish and sank her mouth on his head, lapping all around it as if it was her favorite toy to play with. He had to grab the sheets. “Ahhhhh, why do I feel much more dirty now?”

“Cause you are.” She only pulled her mouth to answer it and went back to bury herself a little more deeply on his length, getting fascinated by the high she was having while tasting a little bit of his pre-cum mixed with that sweet and unique honey essence. How come she never thought about trying this before?

“Hey, c’mon babe, I’m hungry too. Can I join you as long as you don’t stop what you doing in there?”

She stopped, quizzical look in her eyes at him. “Yeah but… how do you plan to make that happen?” she moved her tongue around his girth just to tease him. He couldn’t talk for a moment, only gasp a few moans looking inside her eyes. She couldn’t even measure how much she burned for those pleasured sounds he made.

“Oh god, I can’t think while… hold on a second.” she stopped again and his breathing steadied. “Give me this bottle, there’s a way we can do this with a good deal for both of us. Let me show ya.”

Emily handled him the honey and he didn’t take his time to role play, he just let the content pour all over her breasts, in between them and in her belly. She didn’t even quiver, his body was so close and so warm she could never feel cold. He gave her back the bottle and he motioned his head down his own body in a sexy way, like signing it was her turn.

She let it drop all over his chest, abdomen, shoulders and spread more on his dick while massaging her fingers slowly around the head. She knew exactly what to do to paralyze him and she loved that advantage over him. He just loved her soft and slender fingers around his rod.

“Emily, c’mon, start… cooperating here, please.” he had to take all his strength to push her hand away from his foreskin and she suppressed a devilish grin. “D’you wanna be the 6 or the 9?”

If Emily had disguised that naughty grin before, now she let it show on its entirety.

“Ohh, dirty boy, I just love how your mind works.” she kissed him hungrily and they laid back on the bed slowly, taking their time to clean every single part of each other’s body at the same time with their mouths. Intertwining their bodies and tongues hungrily, gluing them on each other and on the clingy sheets, playing with their smuttiness outside and inside their heads as the world never existed before them.

While she licked one of his nipples, he did the same with hers, sucking everywhere and making her breathe so fast he thought she was cuming. When the foreplay got the highest level of turn-on on both of them, she straddled him again but this time with her back facing him. She looked over her shoulder at him one last time, showing all the lust that was sailing on her bloodstream and lowered her mouth back to his cock. Brian helped her adjust her legs around his face and bit her fleshy thighs before he could set his large tongue inside her core for the second time that night. Her hips started to move against his lips and he had total control over her movements by manipulating her clit. She could only reply to that overwhelming amount of pleasure sucking on him harder and deeper, making his dick collide with all her mouth walls and teeth as her hands teased his balls.

The room got taken by a loud and muffled sexy music as they both felt their breaths blowing hard on their sensitive skins, their pace increasing at the max just as much as their moans. As their sticky bodies curved several times on each other, they exploded practically at the same time.

---

“WHERE IS SHE? WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED HERE?” Jimmy was just behind Matt, running towards the dark place where the body was found. His legs were trembling but he managed to walk. He didn’t know why but he was convinced it was Emily.

As soon as he got closer to where everybody was, Johnny, both Matts and Jason tried to hold him back before he could have the chance to see the body. He got even more angry and scared.

“Let go of me, what… why are you doing this?” Jimmy tried to pull his arms away from the guys but they managed to keep him distant. He could only hear girls crying. “FUCK, WHO IS IT???”

“Jimmy, cool down first. We know you don’t wanna see what’s in there so…” Matt stated.

“IT’S HER, ISN’T IT?” a million things went through his mind in a second.

What if she overdosed? Why would she use without him? They were supposed to look out for each other not to let that happen, that was always their deal. He was supposed to protect her, to be with her and while she was missing he could only… think the worst things about her. He felt like the most terrible person in the world of allowing her to die alone.

“It’s her Jimmy, the girl that just…” he didn’t even hear Johnny’s voice, he just found a way of averting from all the arms holding him in a moment of distraction and ran directly to the body lying in the ground.

“EM…” his eyes opened widely for a second, he felt his throat closing and his chest getting heavier. He felt the biggest relief but the worst guilty feeling all at the same.
It wasn’t Emily. It was a beautiful dark haired girl with pale skin and vivid red lips lying cold in the ground. Aymee.

“WHAT HAVE YOU DONE, YOU ASS?? WHY SHE RAN FROM YOU CRYING LIKE THAT??” one of the girls yelled to him, hysterically. He barely listened.

For not even a second he thought about her. His stomach churned and he had to run to somewhere away from them to puck.

When he was done, he sat on the bus door, his heavy head lowered into his knees, waiting for the dizziness to disappear. Matt set a hand on his shoulder.

“Hey, are you okay?” Jimmy didn’t reply. “What happened in there, Jim? Why you were stuck in that room with her anyway? Where’s Emily?”

“I don’t fucking know where she is. Why don’t you go ask your friend Brian?” he raised his head to say that and just lay back again.

Matt understood what this was about. He had a bad feeling from the beginning about that girl. He knew she would play with his soft-hearted friend. And as if it wasn’t enough one, she was messing with two of his best friends.

“Jimmy, we had to call the police. You need to tell me what you did in there. Her friends said she was epileptic and started to shake uncontrollably when she passed out. What did she take?”

“You think that she…”

“Answer me. I know you took something.” Jimmy breathed a few times and brushed his hair in embarrassment.

“We did some coke.”

Matt shook his head and crossed his arms. He was already thinking about the problems they would have to face with the police and the press. Their reputation would be so fucked up in the morning.

“Hell Jimmy, she was wearing a bracelet indicating she’s sick. You know her for so long, how could you not…”

“We… we always did that Matt, we even mixed it with other stuff, how could I... know this would happen???”

Jimmy was getting furious, he didn’t need Matt to be pointing out his mistakes. He knew all of them too well. When he was about to stand up again and disappear from everybody as he was always used to do, Larry rushed out of nowhere and started mumbling to them. News travel fast, apparently.

“You two, I want you all out of here. I’ll handle the police and the girls, but get the fuck out of here and don’t talk to anyone about this. I’ll take care of it, alright?” their manager pushed them to start walking discreetly away from the parking lot. “Walk straight to the hotel and don’t look back.”

That’s what Johnny, Matt, Jason, Matt and Jimmy did, without hesitation. Larry knew what he was doing. But nothing could erase Jimmy’s wish he could be the one lying in that cold and rough ground for good instead of her.

Matt called Zack but he didn’t pick up, neither did Jess. Then he moved to Brian, voicemail. Emily, the same. They were unreachable.

“Hey man, are you gonna be okay?” Matt asked with a hand on Jimmy’s shoulder before they could take their separate ways to their rooms.

“I’m gonna try.”

“Do you want me to…”

“No, Matt, I’m fine. Go rest. We talk later.”

Matt breathed profoundly and turned his back after a few seconds, entering his room, not really sure about leaving his friend behind like that. Jimmy waited and didn’t do the same, not even checked if Emily was inside. He left the hotel to walk aimlessly through the night.

---

Emily arrived in the hotel a few minutes before the dawn, hoping Jimmy would still be partying with the guys in the bus. And for her relief, she was right, the room was empty. She crashed on the bed and felt like sleeping for an entire day after the night she had. She was sore and exhausted everywhere but she couldn’t be more satisfied. It was just not right, that much happiness heating up her heart. She felt something was about to happen again, as always in her life, but she was too tired to give a damn about her instincts. Her sleep took over her thoughts real quickly.

She only woke up again with incessant knocks on her door after a few hours.

“Emily! Are you there? It’s me.” Jess shouted and Emily rolled her eyes, trying hard to ignore her friend. “It’s important, damn it. Something happened. Open up.”

That was what it took to make Emily’s eyes wide open and her legs ready to jump out of bed and run towards the door. She knew it was all too good to be true.

“What is it? What did he take?” she was still dazed from sleep.

“What? What are you talking about?”

“You said something happened. It’s Jimmy, isn’t it?” she made space for Jess to move inside with her hand holding her temples.

Emily always had the churning feeling on her stomach about Jimmy and his drug use and she had been preparing herself for having bad news about him anytime by now. Bad news could never take her by surprise anymore, not like it did with her parents.

“No, it’s not him. But it’s related to him. How do you know?”

“I don’t know, I just do. Spill it.” Jess sat on the bed and Emily stood in front of her with arms crossed, worried as hell, but a little relieved that Jimmy was... alive.

“When Zacky and I left the bus to that tattoo appointment, Jimmy was searching for you everywhere, and he noticed somehow Brian wasn’t there too. He got really angry about it and started drinking. In the meantime, three girls joined on the bus. One of them was that girl I told you about. That girl.”

“So?” she didn’t seem to be annoyed by that revelation.

“You’re not even jealous?”

“Of course I am, but you know I don’t have the right. Go on!”

“Turns out that I went away, called you a thousand times and your phone was off, so was Brian’s. This morning we heard the news. That girl died right in front of the parking lot last night. Apparently Jimmy had something to do with it.”

Emily frowned with big eyes. Jimmy could never kill someone, she knew he was incapable of it. What was that all about?

“Meaning?”

“I heard Matt telling Zack he took her to the bus room and a few minutes later she stormed out crying. And then… dead, apparently from OD. Please, don’t tell them I told you, they don’t know I heard it.”

Jealousy and guilt were putting up a big fight inside Emily’s heart. She even had to sit down on the bed to think straight.

“Do you think they were… together in there? Shooting up or something? Or maybe more than that?” Emily clenched her jaw hard.

While all of this was happening, she was having a blast with Brian right next to them, clueless. Why did she have to forget about the world when she was with him? Why she was with him and not with Jimmy anyway?

For the first time she regretted being with Brian. Why the hell she let herself act so reckless this time? Not even caring to make an excuse to her boyfriend. It got out of her hand, she was totally lust blinded and that band just fell from her eyes.

“Yeah, maybe, but since the girl got out of there crying, I don’t think they… you know. She didn’t seem the type of girl that would cry easily, if you know what I mean. We’ll never know what really happened.”

“And where’s he?” Emily wore a permanent frown.

“Matt said he left Jimmy at his room last night. He wasn’t okay.”

Emily began to try his cellphone but she knew he wouldn’t pick up.

“You went too far with this, Emily. You spend the night with him, didn’t you?”
“It’s not really a good time to talk about it, Jess. I gotta find Jimmy now.” Emily gasped, walking from side to side on the bedroom, impatiently with the phone on her ear. Not really knowing where to look for Jimmy now. She felt he needed her more than ever now.

“There’s no better time to talk about it! He’s aware of everything now, you two just brushed on his face you were together! You should’ve seen the look on his face when he noticed. Just set him free, Emily. He doesn’t deserve this!!”

“What? Do you think that’s easy? I love him, damn it. I know what I did last night was pretty stupid but I can’t just… turn my back on him now.”

Emily fixed her clothes, put her phone back on her pocket and brushed her hair, not really sure what to do next.

“You know this is all your fault, right?” Jess asked gazing at her friend’s eyes intensely. She was always like that, too direct. And that’s why their friendship worked, they never hide anything from each other.

“Yes, I know Jessica. That’s why I gotta find him. I gotta fix this.”

“I heard Larry was handling the situation. Maybe he knows where he is.”

Emily nodded and was about to get out when Jess held her arm.

"You gotta put an end on this. If you don't talk to Brian, I will."

With that, Emily left without replying. Too many stuff on her head to be thinking about Brian now.

---

On that windy but sunny morning, Jimmy chose a secluded grave to sit on and observed from afar as the people crying in black gathered and the funeral took place. After insisting a hell of a lot with Larry, he finally gave him the cemetery address she’d be buried at, begging him not to get close or make an appearance to her family. He couldn’t get any closer anyway, his legs wouldn’t let him.

Of all the countless mistakes he had done, this one had really topped all of them. How did she never tell him she was sick? Oh, maybe because she had her mouth way too busy with his dick and his ears only wanted to hear how she hated her academic life and how she loved to be there with him doing everything she wasn’t supposed to. He didn’t really want to hear anything other than how she worshipped him even though he knew she was destined to success if she didn’t spend that much time with him. He knew he was screwing up her life but he didn’t care. Until now. When he finally found a way to end it.

Jimmy was plunged into his thoughts when a warm hand touched his shoulder. It was too light to be a man, and the touch was too known. He closed his eyes and pursed his lips. He didn’t have space in his heart to feel all the rage he needed to explode at her. He was just too broken to feel cheated now.

But she was all he had left. Even if he already knew, deep inside, she didn’t belong to him anymore.

“Babe…” she pressed her fingers and yet he didn’t turn to face her. “Let’s go. You shouldn’t be here torturing yourself. It was an accident.”

“You know she was at…” he gulped cause his voice cracked. “…at senior year, law student. She was only 23.”

Emily understood he wouldn’t be leaving so soon, so she just sat beside him on the grave, his eyes still stuck on the mournful ceremony while hers started to analyze his state. She’d never seen him that motionless and spiritless before.

“It’s not your fault. You know it happens. We’ve all seen it, right?”

“Yeah, you’re right. It can happen to any of us. And that’s why my first thought when I heard about a… girl’s dead body in the parking lot, was... on you. I thought it was you.” He shook his head and smiled painfully, a storm forming inside those blue oceans on his eyes. “How stupid…” he snorted a laugh.

Emily swallowed as dry as the desert they were and closed her eyes, feeling every part of her throat aching in disgust. Disgust of her own skin again.

“I’m so sorry, Jim. I was… I was pretty tired after the concert and… ended up going to the hotel. I was gonna call you but I thought you should be there having some fun with the guys, I didn’t wanna drag you with me just because…”

He knew that was all bullshit. But her lies weren’t really affecting him this time. He had a big wall around his heart. So he just shoved away her words with his. He needed her to listen more than to hear her excuses.

“I was the last person to talk to her, you know? And I yelled at her. And threw her out minutes before she…” Jimmy closed his fists and held his head against them, waiting for his tears to be gone. But they were only increasing and overflowing from his closed eyelashes. “I killed her, Emily… I killed her. And I can’t turn back in time.”

He finally crumbled into a desolated and desperate crying and held his head tight on his knees. Emily whisked her own tears and pulled him into her arms. He didn’t resist, he just let his body weight fall on her lap, holding her arms tight, as he cried more and more on her chest.

"Everything’s gonna be okay, babe, I promise you. Shh…” Emily talked softly on his ear and kissed his hair, embracing him tight for endless minutes that, for different reasons, consumed all the energies they had left.

Notes

Curious fact: I wrote this smut on 9/6 hahaha and only figured the coincidence out when I finished it. I swear it wasn't on purpose! (well, blame my sex addict unconscious =p)

heavy chap to write...what u think is happening next?? =/