I liked Lacey the most. She was nice. And not to mention she was as crazy as Johnny so they both are perfect for each other. I hope they will have babies soon and start a happy family together. Gena was a bit stuck up at first sight but once you get to know her, she will be the most affectionate woman you’ve ever known. She’s an independent girl, doesn’t cling on to Zacky 24 hours. That’s what I respect about her. Eventhough Zacky is very popular among their fangirls, Gena will handle it cool and well.

Valary is someone that I don’t expect her to be. She looked ladylike, graceful and very gentle with her son but once you start a hot gossip conversation with her, her lips won’t stop letting out curse words like;

“I don’t even fucking think that this shit could fucking happen. That fuckhead, can never mess with yo life bitch.”

I pitied River though. That chubby kid had to endure his parent’s vulgar language everytime. Maybe I should give him a pair of ear muffle as a gift? And did I mention that Valary can scream? Well, you already knew that didn’t you?

I glanced over at the long dinner table which now only consists of a person, isolating himself away from us. Gorgeously smoking his cigarette while staring down at me. Yep, looks like he hadn’t gotten out of that habit yet. His eyes still drilled a hole through the back of my head, maybe after I sent him a text telling that he should eat. What can I do? I can’t stay ‘the fuck away’ from him as he requested.

“Well, we are getting pretty tired. Gonna head back first. See you tomorrow Addie. Can’t wait to see you in a two piece bikini!” Lacey hugged me and I rolled my eyes.

“Yeah, you guys behave!”

“One thing you should know Addie dear, is that ‘behave’ is NOT my middle name.” Johnny showing his index finger up while pulling his wife closer to his body. I know where this is going. Jeez, get a room you guys! Oh right, they were going to their room.

They both giggled and kissed on their way and I just shook my head at them. I looked around again. My heart dropped everytime I watched Brian and Michelle being so intimate in public. Those two should also get a room and get the fuck out of my head! Gah.

“Another shot.” I ordered. The bartender gave me a worried look. “Don’t look at me like that. I’m not pathetic.”

“But that’s your ninth shot. Are you sure you’re okay?”

“I’m not a lightweight okay? Just give me the fucking shot.”

The bartender gave in and poured me another shot of bourbon as I watched Brian and Michelle tangled in a passionate kiss. What the fuck. Why can’t I stop being jealous? Why can’t I just return his feelings and be done with it? Why can’t I ‘break up’ with Andy? Why?

“Another.”

He poured again. The thing about vacation with your boss is, you’ll get an open bar at dinner like Chief did when the whole HQ went to Hawaii for a company vacation. Oh I missed my colleagues.

But not Andy. I don’t know how to express my anger for him.

He’s my best friend. How could he treat me like one of his used up relationship and made the ‘acting’ as the sole reason? It was enough that Brian had been messing with my head and now Andy?

The kiss didn’t mean anything to him. I’m pretty sure. But as for someone that had a crush on him for so long, of course I’ll take it seriously. What was the kiss for? It was unnecessary! Nobody doubted our relationship so why did he kiss me? God, I’m so confused right now.

“Another!”

The bartender crossed his arms on his chest. “No. You’ve had enough. Though Mr Sanders said to open this bar until midnight but I think you’ve had enough.”

“Bullshit! I can take it! Come on! Another!”

“No!”

“Fuck you man.”

I slammed the glass down and got up. WHOA. As soon as I stood straight, the world is fucking spinning beneath me. I shook my head repeatedly, trying to stop it. But it kept spinning that I stumbled as I walked. I heard murmuring voices of Zacky and Gena who were sitting near me and engrossed in a conversation so I went to them. From the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of Brian and Michelle still making out at the dinner table. Fuck. I need to just sleep it off and shut this feeling down, quickly.

“Guys, I’m gonna head back to my room. Do you know – um, where McKenna is?”

I saw two Zackys. And three Genas. Whoa. I should have laid low on that whisky shots. Zacky laughed at me, I didn’t know why. Gena slapped him on the shoulder and wrapped her arm over mine.

“Darling, you’re drunk. Do you know what you’re saying right now?”

“Um, where’s McKenna?”

Zacky laughed again. What the hell? “Addie, I didn’t know you want to jump Mac that badly!”

Huh? OH SHIT. I fucking forgot. When I’m drunk, my tone of voice will start to sound like I’m seducing someone. Hell, I must have sound like a horny bitch right now and I was asking for McKenna. Fuck my life.

“Anyway, Mac is….gee, I dunno. Where is that kid? I saw her with Arin earlier. Hmm.” Zacky explained after he settled his laughter.

“Nevermind I’ll just go back to my room alone then.”

“Oh honey, you’re sure? You look kind of dizzy.”

“I am. But never mind. I’ll handle it.”

“Don’t seduce me babe.” Zacky added and I flashed my middle finger at him. After kissing my cheek, Gena let me go finally. I took one last look at Brian who was still eating Michelle’s face and just slurred my way back to my room. Even if I’m going to be alone.

I’m sure Brian will be safe and sound tonight.

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“I’ll wait for you in my room. Val won’t be there tonight. She’ll be at Matt’s.” Michelle parted from the kiss and ran her index finger down to Brian’s chest. Brian flashed a bitter smile and pursed his lips, cursing himself repeatedly for imagining Addie inside his mind while they were kissing.

“Sure.” He simply answered and Michelle got up from his lap. She blew kisses for him and walked away from the bar, heading towards her room. Brian rubbed his face and let it buried in his palm. He saw Zacky and Gena still drinking over by the bar counter so he decided to approach them.

“Wow. Finally the glue’s off your face huh?” Zacky sneered, placing his glass of Jack down on the counter. Gena smiled warmly at Brian.

“Are you okay, Bri? You look pale.”

“I screwed up guys.” He said, pulling his slicked hair tightly and let his palm hung there.

“What do you mean?”

Brian stared into Zacky’s eyes intently. “I don’t love her.”

“WHAT?” Both Gena and Zacky yelled in unison.

“I thought, you got back together – means you -”

“Well, apparently I don’t.”

“But you guys were making out…for fucking 15 minutes!” Zacky glanced at his watch, counting approximately.

“I don’t feel anything. What should I do?”

“Damn, Brian. She loves you too much.”

“I know. But I just..can’t.”

“Why the hell do you play with her heart if you don’t want her in the first place?”

Brian groaned and paced around for a bit. “She begged for it. I..I just..don’t know what to do!”

“Just break it off before it gets worse.”

Brian bit his lower lip and looked at them each, thinking hard. He wanted to break it off and start something with Addie but two big barriers were always in his way of making decision. Jimmy and Andy.

“I saw Michelle blew kisses at you. Where did she gone to?”

“Her room. Waiting for me.”

“Shit, Brian. Don’t do this to her. Don’t be a fucking jerk man. I don’t really like her because she rarely speaks to us but I can see that you and Jimmy really had been best friends with her. If you don’t have anything for her, don’t lead her on.”

Gena nodded at Zacky’s wise advice. Brian was really considering this. He tried not to think about Jimmy and instead, think of himself for once.

“You’re right. I probably should break it off with her.”

Zacky patted him on the back, giving him the push. “I’d rather you go back to your old self than breaking a poor girl’s heart.”

Brian chuckled softly. He’d always been a heartbreaker, the difference is they’re strangers and Michelle isn’t.

“Hey, have you seen my – um, security guard?”

“Oh Addie went back to her room just five minutes ago. Man, she’s fun when she’s drunk!”

“She’s drunk?”

“Drunk as fuck. I doubt she’ll end up in her own room. She would probably jump off into the ocean and seduce all the fishes.”

“Zack! That’s a mean thing to say!”

Brian was rendered speechless as his feet glued to the floor. Why would Addie get drunk tonight? Is there something bothering her? Is it me?

Without thinking, he went over to the bartender at the other side of the counter and ordered a cup of coffee to go. He asked for some Advil too, which the bartender magically had, and dashed off from the bar after saying thanks to the couple.

His heart pumped fast in worry, there was no image of Michelle at all. He’d completely forgotten about her. His feet paced forward to Addie’s room, holing a cup of coffee and Advil and some questions running through his head.

Why would Addie get drunk? Is it because she saw him making out with Michelle earlier? He’d told her to stay away yet she still cared whether he eats or not, her eyes still watching him in disappointment everytime Michelle is around.

What’s the fucking deal, Addie? Just show me a sign that you feel the same way!

Brian stopped right in front of Addie’s door. Sounds of ocean waves rambling echoed, the sea breeze hit him in the face and blew his hair softly, making him even more anxious. He raised his hand and knocked. Seconds later he regretted it, because he just remembered that Addie was rooming with his sister. He took a deep breath and decided to just give these to Mac and walk away.

Instead, it was Addie who opened the door – only in her underwear.

“Yeah..?”

She looked half-drunk, her eyes squinted and her long straight hair was a mess. Brian traveled his eyes from top to bottom of her half naked body. Closing his eyes, he shoved the coffee and Advil to her.

Addie placed a hand on her hip, and smiled. The smile was so seductive that Brian felt like he was about to explode.

“I needed this. Thank you.” she took the coffee and drank it at once.

“Careful it’s-”

“Ouch!”

“-hot.”

He was actually referring more to her looks more rather than the coffee itself. Addie smiled shyly and wiped her lips. Every move she made affected his heartbeat and without knowing he drew closer to her until he towered over, looking down at her face. She looked up; her drunken smile still hadn’t worn off.

“What are you doing here, Brian..?”

Damn, her slurred voice sounded so seductive right now. He wasn’t sure whether he can control this urge.

“I came to check up on you.” he scanned around the room, and thanked God McKenna wasn’t there.

She laughed and pushed his chest softly. The warmth of the coffee cup touched his abs and immediately sent shivers down his spine. A heated sensation grew from under his stomach just by that gesture.

“But you already have a girl-”

Brian caught her lips and silenced her with an open mouthed kiss. He didn’t want to hear the rest. He inhaled deeply and felt everything was going the right way when she kissed him back. She moaned softly as he kicked the door shut behind his back and his tongue slid inside her mouth, landed on hers. He grabbed her naked waist and drove her to the bed.

Until he felt her legs was about to touch the edge of the bed, he parted from the kiss. She was stumbling a bit, feeling high from his deep kiss and her own drunken state of mind. Brian took the coffee off her hand and placed it carefully on the bedside table. Then he left her hanging and went for the door.

“Whoa, where are you going? You’re just gonna leave me here?”

He opened the front door and stopped, turning his head slowly to her.

“Now do you understand how I feel, Addie?”

Addie blinked fast and dropped open her mouth. So this is revenge?

Brian smirked and hung the DO NOT DISTURB sign on the doorknob and shut it tight, even locked it with the chains. He swayed his hips over to Addie who looked so confused and bewildered.

“Brian, we shouldn’t-”

“Yes we should.”

Addie looked up to his eyes. His moving built body was half hidden in the dark while the other half was only lit by the moonlight shone from the window to his left.

“Tell me why.”

“Because I don’t love her.”

Addie blinked at him questioningly. Love? Does he even know how to love?
“You – don’t? Then is there someone that you love, actually?” she asked with a sarcastic tone. Brian and love? Seems like two different things and come from two different planets.

“There is.”

“Who?”

“You know who.”
Brian went a step closer and crashed his lips onto hers, taking her jaw with both of his palms, and just forgot about the world. He didn’t care if this was cheating for both of them, he just couldn’t wait any longer.

Slowly he snaked in his palm behind her neck and his other arm wrapped around her waist, hoisted her up to his body. Her breasts pressed against his upper belly and he felt his groin aching with needs. His mouth softly trailed kisses down to her neck and bit it there hard, only to hear her moaned aloud. He gently sucked the pain back and parted, proud of his territory mark there.

He looked up to her eyes, she was closing them tight as he went down and kissed her collarbone to her covered breasts.

“Addie, do you know how much I want you, baby?” his teeth gently bit on her upper breast as he yanked the fabric of her bra down in a slow move. Addie looked down, searching for his eyes. She wanted him so much too, but didn’t dare to reveal it verbally. She moaned again as he started to suck her nipple and flicked his tongue on it, teasingly.

“I want you since the first time I saw you, Addie. I can’t stop thinking about you. I don’t care if you have a boyfriend or not. I just want you to be mine.”

“Brian..” she called, her breath blew on top of his head. Brian looked up from her breasts, his hands still cupping and squeezing them gently.

“Yeah, baby?”

“I want..” she panted, in rhythm with the movements from his hands.

“Tell me what you want.” He stood straight and kissed her hard, then parted again, gasping for air.

“I want you to shut up and fuck me already.”

He blinked. But slowly his lips grew into a slow smile, feeling so turned on by her dirty talk.

“With pleasure, baby.”

Notes

A/N: ahaha! okayy..until here todayyy XD i love your comments guys! this chapter is dedicated to my three lovely readers @MeRi, @Leyla.lp and @Kimmie <3 <3