“Yeah, Andy. I’m going to Cabo for 3 days. Brian’s going to have a vacation there with the whole family. I’ll bring my fucking gun and everything, don’t you worry okay. Bye.”

I left a voicemail for Andy as we waited for the flight call to Cabo. I looked around; Brian was talking and laughing with Matt and Zacky. Johnny was reading a magazine with his wife, Lacey sat beside him, engrossed in a conversation with Gena and Valary. Arin was talking to Brian Sr and his family and finally I saw a hawk-like eye was watching me the whole time. Michelle glared at me but when I caught her eyes, she turned away. What the fuck, woman?

“Hey Addie. Looks like we’re the only force to protect them.”

I glanced behind; Big T was approaching with his canvas jacket always wrapped around his huge body.

“Yeah, they are one big family, aren’t they?”

“True that. Lucky you’re coming with us. I dunno how to handle them alone.”

I laughed. “Nothing’s going to happen. Just assume this is our vacation too.”

“Cool. I like your optimism. But careful though. Fans are unpredictable.”

Yeah he always said that. Maybe that was his principle in life. I looked at them again and caught Brian’s eyes were watching me. He smiled sincerely and made my knees buckled. I smiled back at him but then suddenly Michelle came up to him and started to eat his face away. What the actual fuck.

~*.*~

While on the plane, I was seated next to McKenna. Her bright pink hair now dyed in bright purple and I just can’t help but notice the resemblance between her and Brian. Their eyes. They were brown, big and lazy.

“Hey, I’m McKenna. You can just call me Mac.”

She lured out her arm and I took it. “I’m Addie.”

“I know. You’re the only girl security they have. Must have been tough for you.”

I chuckled. “Not at all. They are quite easy to look after. Except,”

“Yeah I know. Except Brian right? He’s a pain in the ass.”

I laughed quite loudly and McKenna cutting me off by cupping her hand on my mouth. Wow, she’s friendly!

“Shh! He could hear you. His ears are fucking sensitive you know.”

“Mac, stop with the swearing.”

My head tilted up when I heard that voice. But Brian was sitting quite far from me and Mac.

“Whatever, dad.” Mac replied. Oh it was only Brian Sr.

“Anyway, Addie. We’re gonna share a room since we’re both the only single ladies here.”

“Really? Awesome.”

“Yeah, can’t wait to tell you stories about me and Ava. Ava is my best friend and we share almost everything. She…..”

McKenna continued to babble on about her story and my mind just wandered off, couldn’t hear a fucking thing she said after that.

---

Michelle snaked in her palm on his thigh, rubbing it softly up and down making him stirred in his sleep. They were 45 minutes away from Cabo and Brian already fell asleep as soon as the plane took off. Michelle longed for his touch again, but they barely had sex ever since they got back together. It was either a blowjob for him or she was fingering herself while watching him taking a shower in that transparent glass wall bathroom. She wanted him to be inside her.
Her fingers brushed softly on his crotch. He stirred again, felt a bit disturbed. His forehead creased in a frown as little groans escaped from his mouth. Luckily they were in business class, so nobody really give a shit about what they were doing.

Michelle continued to rub his bulging crotch, he whimpered in his sleep.

“Hmm, Addie. Stop it.”

She stopped. Her palm hung on top of his groin and her nostrils flared, containing anger and rage for that bitch of a security girl. This was the second time Brian said her name. The first time he refused to say anything about it. She didn’t dare to ask. But now, twice? Is there something going on between them? Michelle pulled her hand away and folded her arms across her chest.

Brian fluttered his eyes open. He felt a dull ache between his legs and from under his lashes, he saw a growing boner on his crotch.

“Shit. Did you do this?” he scoffed at Michelle whose face had turned sour.

“Yes.”

“Finish it.”

“I don’t want to. Ask your fucking security girl to do it.”

Brian staggered at her remark.

“I will fuck her good and make love to her like I would never do to you but she’s not mine to touch. Finish this or we’re done.”

His voice sounded stern and harsh. Michelle couldn’t believe her ears. So her doubt was right after all. Brian definitely had feelings for Addie. She couldn’t bear to endure the break up again so when Brian got up and headed for the plane small toilet, she followed from behind.

Michelle closed the door behind her and locked it tight. The room was crammed as fuck. But it can fit two people in there. Brian unzipped his pants and pulled them down along with his boxers to his knee and let his hard on sprang free. He pumped it for a few times before looking into Michelle’s eyes with anger and lust flamed within his gaze.

“Get down on your knee.”

Michelle obeyed and as soon she went down, Brian slammed his dick inside her mouth and groaned when her teeth rubbed on his skin.

“Suck it, bitch. Just suck my fucking cock.”

Michelle sucked it hard and let her tongue ran all over it. She massaged his balls with her lower lip and sucked it hard there.

“Good. Now stay still.”

Brian grabbed her hair tightly and penetrated into her mouth without mercy. He went deep inside her throat and pulled it out, grunting and groaning in pleasure. He was his old self again, during his sleeping around with one night stands and groupies days. This is who he is.

Before he met Addie.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck! Oh God, Addie!”

He yelled Addie’s name again as he spurted seeds into Michelle’s mouth. And Michelle couldn’t stop her tears from falling down her cheeks.

---

We’ve arrived in Cabo and it was a beautiful view of a..beach? Beach again? Don’t they get tired of beaches? My backyard is a beach, why would I want to go all the way to Cabo just for a fucking beach?

I said beach too many times. Bitch. Ha!

After we’ve done checking in and collected the room keys, I immediately went to Brian. I need to be as closer to him as I can, right? I noticed Michelle wasn’t there with him and I wonder where she went. Did we leave her on the plane?

“Hey.” I greeted Brian.

“Heyy.” He was flipping through a magazine, but replied without looking at me.

“I’m rooming with your sister.”

“Greaat.” He didn’t even want to look at me now? What the hell did I do wrong?

“So, see you later.”

“Uh-hmm.”

Really Brian? Why are you being this way? Don’t you know that I want to look at your eyes at least? Jeez, this guy.

Nevertheless I walked ahead to my room and I realized that it was quite far from the lobby. I had to went outside, somehow, and went through a bridge heading towards a - holy fuck I’m in the middle of the fucking ocean! Woah. My room apparently built on the surface of the ocean and my God the water was fucking blue and clear I can see fishes swimming through the pillars.

I was dazed looking at them, running and chasing each other. We don’t have this in Huntington. Or LA.

“Beautiful huh?”

I jumped and spun around, it was Arin who stood next to me, his palm rose saying hello.

“Hi Arin. You scared me a little there.”

He laughed and rested his skinny elbows on the bridge rail. “You’re a jumpy girl, I noticed that.”

“Girl? Excuse me, I’m older than you.”

“Yeah, how old?”

“I’m 26 this year.”

“Meh, just a year older.”

“Old enough to be your sister!”

He laughed again and started to move ahead, towards his room probably.

“You’re staying next to me, Arin?”

“Yeah. With Brian.”

What?

“Wait, I thought he was rooming with Michelle?”

Arin shrugged. “Changed his mind. Michelle is staying with Val and River.”

“And..Matt?”

“Haha. Guess who.”

“Big T? Oh my God. Poor guy.”

“Yeah. Imagine if in the middle of the night he wanted to cuddle or spoon, when he looks to his side, BAM, Big T.”

I laughed aloud at his joke. Arin was actually quite funny once you get to know him. But my heart can’t stop beating fast when I know that I’m going to be next to Brian again, this time without his girlfriend around.

“So..you’re with..Mac?”

“Yeah. Why?”

He rubbed his neck, letting out a soft chuckle. “Just checking.”

Wait, I smelled something fishy. Yeah I know there were tons of fishes swimming underneath me, but this was stronger. Did he has a crush on McKenna…?

---

After a long and tiring tour around Europe and Asia for Nightmare, he needed this vacation. He’d been planning this long before everything. At first he wanted to just bring his family and the band but now that he had involved with two women at once, his head gone messy. He swore he didn’t want to treat Michelle that way. She was once his best friend. Whatever happened to that relationship, he didn’t even know.

But his heart longed for this other girl, who had been locked inside his mind ever since their first encounter.He just couldn’t hurt Michelle anymore, since she was a promise he made to Jimmy. That he will take care of her no matter what. After Jimmy passed, he only lasted that promise for a year. He thought that he could never treat a woman right again, or more importantly, he thought that he would never fall for anyone ever again.

Addie was a strange case. He wanted her for his lust only at first, but that desire grew stronger as he bumped into her every day, seeing her smile and knowing her funny side. How she would endure the rude name callings his fans gave to her, every cut and bruises she received from protecting him, made him fell even deeper for her.

Ah shit. He took a long drag from his cigarette and blew the smoke out while his eyes calmly viewed the ocean before him. He avoided talking to Michelle after their incident on the plane earlier. She was crying hard, and he just didn’t know what to do. He tried not to think about Addie but he just couldn’t.

“What a coincidence.”

Brian snapped back from his thoughts and glanced sideways. He was bemused as hell, seeing Addie on the other side of the balcony, resting her elbows on the wooden rail and smiling at him.

“Addie? Your room is…right next to mine?”

“Yep. With Mac.”

Brian got up to his feet and just forgot about the promise he made to himself – not to look Addie straight in the eye or he will lose control. He just swayed his hips over to her and rested his elbows on his side of balcony rail, leaving their distance only a few inches away.



They stared into each other’s eyes without saying anything. He kept glancing over her lips and back to her eyes, wanting to kiss them both.

“Why aren’t you with Michelle?”

His face fell, along with his jaw clenching hard, suppressing his frustration for Addie because she brought up this fucking topic all of a sudden.

“I don’t wanna talk about her.”

“Wow, you guys just got back together and in a fight already?”

Brian sneered at her. If only she knew what was the source of their fight.

“Where’s Mac?” he asked casually, changing the direction of this talk.

“She’s out with your parents. Probably to the hotel’s restaurant or something.”

He nodded once and quickly got into the mood again. He can’t stop looking into her eyes and can’t control himself anymore. He reached out to run his hand through her hair and Addie froze under his touch.

“Brian, don’t-”

“Shh. Just, stay still.”

Then he gently kissed her forehead, trailed kisses down to her eyebrows and the bridge of her nose and finally stopped in front of her lips. The only barriers between them were these balcony rails and clear sea water underneath their feet.

“Tell me you want this too, Addie.”

Addie opened her eyes. She didn’t realize that she had closed them tight. “I want this,”

Brian smiled and tilted his head to the side to take over her lips.

“But we can’t.” She added and he stopped midway. “You have Michelle in your life. And I have – Andy.”

Brian blew a hot breath on her mouth and she gasped at the warmth of it. He let her go and drew back a few steps. He tousled his hair in a mess. In his hay wired mind, he’d thought about breaking up with Michelle again, but he had been hurting her too much.

“You’re right. We can’t.” he paused before continued again. “So you should stay the fuck away from me then.”

Brian turned away, returning to his room and shutting the sliding glass door behind him. Addie let out a heavy sigh and mumbled under her breath;

“I can’t, Brian. I can’t stay away, or you’ll die.”

Notes

A/N: comments guys XD..yeah it's gonna be bumpy so bear with mee <3