I clicked the safety pin and aimed. A cardboard stood still in front of me, but yards away. My arms were trembling from anger and frustration, but I gotta keep them straight.

BAM! BAM! BAM!

Bullets flying from the release valve as I pulled the trigger three times in a row. Blaring sounds of other firearms surrounded me, as though they were music to my ears. This was how I released my temper lately. Went to a shooting range and shoot away these babies. I only come here after Brian had fallen asleep which I’m sure he had his girlfriend along with him on that bed.

Jeez, Addie. Get a fucking grip!

I’ve been on this task for almost two weeks now. And those two weeks had been nothing but confused feelings in me. I shouldn’t have slept with him in the first place. Hell, I shouldn’t even make myself visible in front of him. God, if only I could turn back time.

It was official that Brian had gotten back together with his ex-girlfriend, Michelle. His days of screwing around with ‘babes’ had been reduced to zero. It was almost as if he wasn’t interested in one night stands anymore. When he had an event, regardless by himself of together with the band, Michelle was always there to be beside him. I was there too, being his guard as usual but forced to look at their perfect little relationship before my eyes. He hadn’t tried anything anymore towards me but his eyes, God his eyes were the death of me.

I can never run from his stare no matter where I go. For instance, this morning he had an event where he would give a guitar masterclass to a bunch of kids in LA.

I was there with him, standing by his side and glaring around like always. The coast was clear these past couple of days. I hadn’t seen the killer with motives anywhere just yet. Maybe it was because they knew I was always there with him.

This masterclass event, he attended with open arms, greeting the fans as his usual flirty Synyster Gates and showing his skill in the cockiest way you could ever imagine. And of course, his girlfriend was also there. Whenever the press wanted to take his picture, she will always slide next to him. Making sure the world knows that he belonged to her.

As I watched him work his magic on the guitar, I didn’t realize a pair of eyes was glaring at me the whole time. I felt like the back of my head burned from the drilling stare. When I turned around, Michelle was standing behind me with her eyes sneered and immediately looked away. What the hell?

After the masterclass, Brian had this signing event and I had to stand near to him – without Michelle this time. She had to stand a little far away from us so she couldn’t actually see Brian from there.

“Addie can I have some water please?” I heard Brian asked while he was signing a CD booklet for a fan. I bent over to reach for a bottle of water from behind me. When I stood up I saw he was smirking at me. Moreover, at my ass. He bit his lower lip and smiled crookedly. My cheek turned red instantly.

“Here you go.” I handed it to him.

“Feed me.”

Shit. Now he was turning into this 27-but-act-like-a-10-year-old Brian again?

“Brian, your fans are watching.” I leaned over to him and whispered.

“So?” he replied lazily while his hands still busy signing off things the fans gave to him.

I rolled my eyes. He hadn’t tried anything on me for almost a week and now he’s back in the game? I opened the water bottle and he opened his mouth. I glanced at his fans who looked at us quizzically and some even took our picture together. Shit, if Michelle found out about this, I’ll be damned.

Slowly I put the water bottle in his mouth and let him drank the fluid calmly. His head rested on the side of my breasts and his eyes watching me carefully. After he was done drinking, he just casually smiled at me and his fans.

“Hands are full.” He said. Liar. He only had pens in his hands. Those fans just laughed watching him and I can’t help but blushed a little more. His eyes kept bumping into me whenever I turned my head towards him and everytime that happened, he winked at me.

Shit Brian. I missed this. I missed you. I missed your touch. Fuck.


“That’s quite good Addie. You’re improving!”

Huh? I didn’t realize I was out of ammo and the cardboard had started to move until it was just a few meters away so I could see my achievement tonight. Yeah, I’ve improved.

“Gee, thanks. What are you doing here?”

I took off my headphone and protector, not looking at Andy at all. His little ‘act’ with me during Brian’s party has made me gone awkward around him. Yeah, how could you look at your best friend the same way again after he kissed you out of the blue and told you that he was only being 'in character'? How the fuck do you deal with a friend like that?

“New info on the guy.”

“Which guy?” I sneered, still not looking at him. He threw a file on top of the counter and I took it.

“Oh that Moriarty guy? He’s actually Brian’s cousin?”

“Yep. Also in line for the throne. Not some peasant. But he had been raised as a normal citizen until he’s 18.”

“So, he really did wanna kill Brian?”

“Nope. You were right. He didn’t. He was there just to kidnap him and bring him to Cericia.”

“That’s pretty – desperate. Why?”

“He couldn’t stand watching his grandfather suffer. The king apparently was asking about Brian for over and over again.”

“Senior or Junior?”

“I dunno. Both I guess.”

“So..Moriarty snuck his way out of the kingdom to find Brian here?”

“Exactly.”

I raised my eyebrows and blew out a breath. “Looks like now we only have one killer on the loose.”

“Yeah about that.”

“Why, what’s wrong?”

Andy pulled out his iPhone and showed me a series of pictures consisting Brian and the Avenged boys with their fans on random street, at events and wow, there’s even a picture of me from this morning, feeding him water in front of so many people. Shit. I knew it.

“I can explain this, Andy.”

“I don’t need to know what kind of relationship you have with him but look closely on these pictures.” He scoffed suddenly. He looked pretty pissed about it.

I took his phone and zoomed in with my two fingers. In every of these photos, there was a guy behind, among the crowds. He was bald headed, intimidating figure with a pair of RayBan on his eyes. He was the guy who got away.

“Shit he was following us and I didn’t realize it?”

“Relax, Addie. Nobody realized it. It was at random places. The most important thing is, now you have to be extra careful. Be beside Brian as near as you can for as long as you need to be. 24/7 if you have to.”

I opened my eyes wide. But his girlfriend is already there, eyeing me like a fucking hawk!

“I mean, don’t even fucking let him out of your sight, okay?”

I took a deep breath. “Okay.” Eventually I had to give in.

“But don’t get too caught up in him.” He added lastly, his gaze fell to the floor.

---

The TV screen showed only white noise, but still his hand kept pressing the remote buttons for over and over, though his eyes never fixed on the screen. He got lost in thought. It was 4 am and he couldn’t sleep. He’s been having trouble sleeping lately. Mostly because his sleeping partner was not to his liking and he can’t bring himself to look at her without thinking about Jimmy.

Many times she asked for intimate times and many times he avoided them. He didn’t have desire for her anymore. His heart was set to only one beautiful soul. He realized it when he accidentally called her name last night when Michelle was giving him a blowjob.

The look on Michelle’s face afterwards was frightening even for him. But he decided not to explain anything and let her wonder by herself.

Brian pulled out his phone from his pocket. He slid through the pictures in his gallery until he found a picture of her, which he took it secretly when they were at Guitar Center, where he gave a small inspirational talk about guitar skills and promoted his Hellwin amp there.



His thumb slid on the picture for over and over again, a smile grew on his face. He wanted to touch her again so much but he didn’t have the heart to let Michelle down again. And plus, Addie looked happy with her relationship with Andy. He couldn’t bear to break them up too. He looked at the clock. It was almost to 4.30 am. He'd thought of texting Addie, but wondered whether she had gone to sleep already.

He missed her too damn much. Fuck it, he thought. Just ignoring the clock, Brian's thumb typed away what had been playing inside his mind for the last few days.

I miss you, Addie. – Brian.

He sent that. He meant it. Now he just had to wait for her reply. She took a long time to do so, until he became a bit restless and nearly wanted to go to her house and kiss the shit out of her.

Go to sleep Brian. – Addie.

Damn. He thought. What can I do to win this girl’s heart?

“Brian?”

He jumped and quickly shoved his phone away. Michelle was reaching downstairs, wearing only his oversized Monster Energy tshirt and rubbing her eyes groggily.

“Yeah?”

“What are you doing down here?”

“Just..watching some football.”

Coincidentally the TV was showing a football game. Michelle bent down and kissed him on the lips briefly. He didn’t kiss back.

“Let’s go back to bed. We have a long day tomorrow.”

Brian shut his own eyes and rubbed his face repeatedly. He cursed under his breath for forgetting about tomorrow’s plan. He and Michelle were going for a vacation in Cabo, New Mexico with his whole family and Avenged Sevenfold. Unfortunately, the security crews weren’t obliged to follow but Matt will bring Big T as well.

“Okay. You go ahead. I’ll be there later.”

Michelle kissed him softly again, and went back upstairs. He was considering whether to invite Addie to go along with them or not. Fuck, he didn’t want to spend his entire vacation with someone he didn’t love either! So Brian got up to his feet and went out of the door, slamming it shut and ran towards Addie’s house.

---

What Andy was suggesting, I don’t even know how to accomplish. Being by Brian’s side 24/7 is quite okay but being close to him all the time, I don’t know if I can actually do that. I can always go back to stalking him but that couldn’t be the best idea ever, right?

I glanced at the clock. It was already 4.30 am. From my laptop, I scanned my view over to the interior panel of his house, which I had the chance to install a few cameras when he was having a fever. Yeah, the first time we slept together. The bedroom and bathroom were the only places free from my cameras. Brian was leaning back against his couch in the living room, his TV showed nothing. What the hell? He didn’t sleep yet?

At that exact time, I saw him fiddled with his phone, but couldn't tell from afar whathe was doing with it. But then suddenly my phone buzzed.

I miss you, Addie – Brian.

Oh my God, Brian. You don’t know how much I miss you too. How much I wanted you back in my life. Shit, what should I reply? I was pacing back and forth just thinking about what I should reply this poor adorable cocky man. Suddenly from the second panel view, I saw Michelle was coming out from the bedroom and walked in the hallway towards the stairs.

Reality slapped me like a bitch.

Go to sleep Brian. – Addie.

That was all I can reply. I can never give him hope again. He deserved to be happy. If he’s happy with Michelle then, I couldn’t be more happier. My job here is to protect him and I’m doing pretty good so far.

Michelle went downstairs finally, greeting him with a kiss. I can’t really watch this. Though I always watch them kiss in front of me live, but to be honest, I can’t handle it. His eyes were watching me all the time when he was kissing her.

I gave up watching the cams and decided to take a shower. Being in that shooting range for over an hour make me smell like gunpowder and men’s testosterone. Jeez, when will I be able to embark in a girly activity like shopping or getting my nails done? Blegh.

In the middle of my shower I heard my doorbell rang. Who could that be? Andy? Shit, at this hour? I wrapped my body in a dry towel and just let my wet hair lose down my back.

I opened the door and there he was. The face that can stop my heart at anytime. He looked surprised seeing me without any clothes on, only a wool fabric wrapped around my body loosely.

“H-Hi.” He stuttered. I caught him swallowing while his eyes traveled up and down my body.

“Hi. It’s late, what do you want?”

He rubbed his face and looked around. “Um, about tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow is my day off.”

“I know.”

He was fidgeting with his ear nervously as his eyes kept staring at my exposed shoulders and neck. I should probably get dressed first.

“Brian, what is it?”

He inhaled deeply before answering. “Tomorrow we’re going to Cabo. The whole family. You…wanna come?”

I blinked at him. Wow, I didn’t know he was planning this! I can’t let him out of my sight, damn it! Should I follow him? But tomorrow’s my day off! I wanna play some games and go sightseeing around town!

“The whole family you mean..”

“Yeah, my dad, Suzy, Mac, Matt, Val, Arin, um..Zacky and Gena, Johnny and Lacey..the whole family.”

He forgot to mention a name.

“Oh and Big T is going too.”

Not that name!

“What about…Michelle?”

He raised his eyebrow and shut his eyes afterwards. “Yeah, she’s coming too.”

God, do I have to watch them getting intimate again? But I can’t make this about me. I have to do this, for my work. And work purposes only.

“Sure. But why do you invite me?”

“To guard me of course. Who knows I’ll meet some fucking crazy fans there and they want me to feel them up or something.”

“Hahaha. You don’t mind that, do you?”

“I do now.”

I choked with my own words and his smooth reply. I didn’t know what to say anymore and he too, didn’t continue talking. We stood in silence, drinking each other’s company in such a blissful way. I miss the heat coming from his body and how he would casually come near me –

“Okay, see you tomorrow Addie. We’re gonna take off at 9. So get your ass in the airport an hour early okay?”

He ran back to his house leaving me wanting and needing his touch. I can feel my nipples already puckered and now I know how he felt when I shut him down everytime. Damn it.

Notes

A/N: a filler, i think. haha but comments!! <3