When I arrived home last night, everyone hugged me but I kept my tears at bay. I had to be strong for Devon...my now only child. The funeral home called and I went with everyone to the place to plan out the services and pick out a casket and I took a reall nice outfit along with me. After all the arrangements were finished, we all went back to Matt's house and all I wanted to do is be alone and to sleep. I walked into the house with Devon in my arms and I sat down on the couch and Devon crawled into Zacky's lap. I propped my head up but started dozing off.

"Could you guys watch Devon? I really need some sleep." I asked rubbing my eyes.

"Yeah of course." I got up and headed upstairs to my room. I shut and locked the door behind me and I slid down to the floor, pulling my knees to my chest and silently balling my eyes out.

Why did he have to kill my boy? I got up and laid down on the bed and pulled the covers over my head. The tears continued to flow down my face as I laid there. I can't sleep especially when my heart is broken and in no way can anyone repair it. I don't have my parents, Rex or Raph, and now I don't have my son. If I could have anything in the world, I would want my parents, Rex and Raph, and most importantly my son back on this earth. I want everything to go back to normal. I shifted myself and soon I drifted off to sleep.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2 DAYS LATER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Today is the funeral and we all had got ready and headed over to the funeral home early. I stood at the casket and placed my hand on his and I was expecting him to open his eyes but nothing happened. I sighed deeply and quietly as I could.

"Rae?" I turned to see Rex and Raph's daughter Shelly.

"Hey Shelly." I said smiling.

"Rae, I'm so sorry about your son." she hugged me and held me for a long time.

"Thanks Shell." I said letting her go.

"Just remember, Owen is always with you. He watches you all the time."

"I know." I said smiling. Shelly hugged me once more before taking a seat. More and more people came in and I recognized all of them. They were people from Rex and Raph's funeral. Some of the women who came up to me know how I was feeling.

I know that a couple of them lost children for unknown reasons and the other lost theirs due to car accidents or cancer. People looked at my son and then said their condolences and all I could do is nod. The people took their seats and I was about to take mine when another couple came in. My blood instantly began to boil.

"Hello Rae." the woman said. I was standing face to face with the parents who created a monster. Xaiver's parents, Marlena and Jack Raynebolt.

"Why the hell are you here?" I spat angrily.

"We came to our grandson's funeral of course."

"You and Jack are not welcomed here." I said and if looks could kill they would be dead right now.

"We're welcomed here Rae just as much as everyone else."

"Get the fuck out! Both of you!" I yelled and Matt came over along with Zacky.

"What's going on?"

"These....people are Xaiver's parents. They created the monster who beat me everyday and killed my only son. Whoever wants there here please stand up." I said and everyone stayed seated. A couple of people had the look of anger on their faces.

"My Xaiver treated you like a queen!"

"A queen? Bitch you must stop bleaching your brain away! I know how he was! I fucking lived with him! Now you can either leave or I'll call the police. It's your fucking choice." I said balling up my fists.

"Marlena, let's go. we don't need the cops." Jack gently grabbed her arma nd led her out of the building.

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah I'm fine Zacky. Let's sit down." I said and I went over to a seat beside Matt and sat down. Devon crawled into my lap and held onto me as the preacher preached about the life of Owen.

The songs I chose were played and then we had one last look at the body. I can't believe he's gone. I'll never be able to hold him in my arms again. I ran my hand through his hair before kissing his cold forehead. I walked away with Val and the other girls, since Matt and the guys were the paul bearers, and I held Devon in my arms as I got into Matt's SUV. Matt got into the car and slowly drove to the cemetery. We all got out and the guys took Owen's casket to the grave. I sat down in one of the chairs with Devon on my lap. The preacher said some more words before the Lord's Prayer and Owen's casket was placed into the ground. I got up and made my way back to the car. I strapped Devon in and watched the workers put the dirt down in the grave. I turned my head and closed my eyes.

"Mommy?"

"Yes baby girl?" I said looking at Devon.

"Don't be sad mommy. You still have all of us and me." I smiled and hugged my little girl.

"And mommy."

"Yes honey?" I asked still holding her.

"I'm not leaving you ever."

"Good. I need my girl." I said and I kissed her cheek. I got into the SUV and draped my arm around her shoulder pulling her as close to me as I could. Owen will not leave my thoughts or memories and I know Devon won't forget her brother or let me forget either.

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