Ghost
Put Me Back Together Or Separate The Skin From Bone
I laid in bed glancing over at the clock that laid on the nightstand in Brian's and my hotel room. It was just after 2 in the moring and I just couldn't sleep. Brian was snoring lightly next to me hugging a pillow that I put in place of my body. Maybe I should take a walk? I slowly and quietly got out of bed and changed into some more clothes before leaving our hotel room. I don't plan on coming back until later. I need to go to the one place that I love and feel like nothing can ever hurt me. My parent's house. I got into the elevator and waited as it desended before opening on the lobby floor. I walked out telling the woman at the desk that I would be right back. She nodded of course and I left the building. The walk to my house would be short but at least I was getting there. The night sky was clear and bright as I got to the driveway of my parent's house. I looked at the house that I was most happy in.
All the memories of my dad playing with me in the backyard and us watching crazy movies and just being us flowed back into my mind. My mom would always stay up with us and get us stuff we needed. I love her so much. I walked up to the front door and unlocked it with my keys and stepped inside. The house was still the same. Everything was still in its place. I tried to feel anything. Either it be my mom's spirit or my father's...but nothing was here. I sighed and made my way upstairs to my parent's room. Her room was still vibrant. I laid down on her bed taking in her scent that always calmed me.
"Why mom? Why did you give up on me? I don't understand..." I said out loud while tears started to spill over again. How am I supposed to say goodbye?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BRIAN'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up and Nix wasn't in bed. I sat up slowly and looked around the room and she wasn't anywhere. I pulled myself out of bed and walked over to the bathroom and opened the door but se wasn't there either. Where the hell is she? I quickly picked up my phone and dialed Jase's number.
"Yeah?"
"Jase have you seen Nix this morning?" I asked putting on my shoes.
"No why?"
"She's not here." I said fixing my hair a little. Damn bed-head.
"Maybe she went down to get breakfast."
"I'll go check but have everyone up and ready to go find her." I said walking out of my room.
"Brian she's probably just eating. She doesn't do that shit anymore."
"Do what shit?" I asked confused.
"You didn't know?"
"Know what?" I asked still very confused as I entered the elevator.
"She used to cut."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~NIX'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I must have fell asleep because when I opened my eyes, the sun was shinging though the drapes in my mom's room. I sat up in bed flinging my legs over the side and planting my feet firmly on the ground. I stood up and went into the bathroom and did my business and tried making my hair look as presentable as possible. I looked through my mom's room finding pictures that I want to take with me back to California. I sat down and flipped through one of the albums that I've looked at numberous times. It had pictures of all of us together. I missed those days...I wish I had my mom and dad again. I shut the album and went over to the dresser and looked through her things but there was nothing in there that I wanted. My mom was a very conservative woman. She was strong willed...or so I thought.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BRIAN'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I checked in the lobby and there was no one there eating breakfast. Where could she have gone? I went up to the woman at the desk.
"Have you seen a girl? She's about 5'6, has jet black hair?" I asked leaning on the desk.
"Oh yes. She came down here about 2 in the morning and she told me that she would be back later."
"Thank you ma'am." I pulled out my phone again and sent Matt a message telling him to get everyone down here. Within minutes they were all around me.
"So does anyone know where she could have gone?" I asked looking around.
"I might have an idea."
"What Jase?" I asked.
"She always goes to her parent's house when she's feeling low. Maybe she's there."
"Show us the way." I said following him out fo the hotel and we got into the car. Jase gave me the directions and we pulled up into the driveway. I got out in a hurry and barged through the door.
"Nix!" I yelled but no answer. I ran up the stairs and opened every door. I opened the last door and seen her gathering albums up.
"Nix?" I asked and she looked over to me.
"Hey Bri."
"What are you doing here?" I asked sitting on the bed.
"I had to get some stuff from my mom's. Besides I couldn't sleep."
"You could have woke me up. I would have brung you." I said grabbing her hand.
"I needed to be alone." She smiled and I wanted to ask her about what Jase said but I don't know how to start it and I don't want her mad right now.
"I know sweety but you could have told me. You had me worried sick when I woke up alone." I said pulling her down into my lap.
"I'm sorry about that Brian. When are we going back to California?"
"Tonight." I stated.
"Good. I need to get away from here. I can't stand knowing that mom isn't here anymore." I pulled her closer to me and rubbed her back comfortingly. She's so heartbroken and fragile. I'm going to make sure she doesn't get any more calls for her paranormal group for a while.
All the memories of my dad playing with me in the backyard and us watching crazy movies and just being us flowed back into my mind. My mom would always stay up with us and get us stuff we needed. I love her so much. I walked up to the front door and unlocked it with my keys and stepped inside. The house was still the same. Everything was still in its place. I tried to feel anything. Either it be my mom's spirit or my father's...but nothing was here. I sighed and made my way upstairs to my parent's room. Her room was still vibrant. I laid down on her bed taking in her scent that always calmed me.
"Why mom? Why did you give up on me? I don't understand..." I said out loud while tears started to spill over again. How am I supposed to say goodbye?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BRIAN'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up and Nix wasn't in bed. I sat up slowly and looked around the room and she wasn't anywhere. I pulled myself out of bed and walked over to the bathroom and opened the door but se wasn't there either. Where the hell is she? I quickly picked up my phone and dialed Jase's number.
"Yeah?"
"Jase have you seen Nix this morning?" I asked putting on my shoes.
"No why?"
"She's not here." I said fixing my hair a little. Damn bed-head.
"Maybe she went down to get breakfast."
"I'll go check but have everyone up and ready to go find her." I said walking out of my room.
"Brian she's probably just eating. She doesn't do that shit anymore."
"Do what shit?" I asked confused.
"You didn't know?"
"Know what?" I asked still very confused as I entered the elevator.
"She used to cut."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~NIX'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I must have fell asleep because when I opened my eyes, the sun was shinging though the drapes in my mom's room. I sat up in bed flinging my legs over the side and planting my feet firmly on the ground. I stood up and went into the bathroom and did my business and tried making my hair look as presentable as possible. I looked through my mom's room finding pictures that I want to take with me back to California. I sat down and flipped through one of the albums that I've looked at numberous times. It had pictures of all of us together. I missed those days...I wish I had my mom and dad again. I shut the album and went over to the dresser and looked through her things but there was nothing in there that I wanted. My mom was a very conservative woman. She was strong willed...or so I thought.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BRIAN'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I checked in the lobby and there was no one there eating breakfast. Where could she have gone? I went up to the woman at the desk.
"Have you seen a girl? She's about 5'6, has jet black hair?" I asked leaning on the desk.
"Oh yes. She came down here about 2 in the morning and she told me that she would be back later."
"Thank you ma'am." I pulled out my phone again and sent Matt a message telling him to get everyone down here. Within minutes they were all around me.
"So does anyone know where she could have gone?" I asked looking around.
"I might have an idea."
"What Jase?" I asked.
"She always goes to her parent's house when she's feeling low. Maybe she's there."
"Show us the way." I said following him out fo the hotel and we got into the car. Jase gave me the directions and we pulled up into the driveway. I got out in a hurry and barged through the door.
"Nix!" I yelled but no answer. I ran up the stairs and opened every door. I opened the last door and seen her gathering albums up.
"Nix?" I asked and she looked over to me.
"Hey Bri."
"What are you doing here?" I asked sitting on the bed.
"I had to get some stuff from my mom's. Besides I couldn't sleep."
"You could have woke me up. I would have brung you." I said grabbing her hand.
"I needed to be alone." She smiled and I wanted to ask her about what Jase said but I don't know how to start it and I don't want her mad right now.
"I know sweety but you could have told me. You had me worried sick when I woke up alone." I said pulling her down into my lap.
"I'm sorry about that Brian. When are we going back to California?"
"Tonight." I stated.
"Good. I need to get away from here. I can't stand knowing that mom isn't here anymore." I pulled her closer to me and rubbed her back comfortingly. She's so heartbroken and fragile. I'm going to make sure she doesn't get any more calls for her paranormal group for a while.
Aww. It's ok. I understand.
4/11/13