Trying not to love you

Trying not to love "Angelica, I need another marker. Mines ran out." Matt yelled to me. I went and grabbed another marker and handed it to Matt. "Thanks." He said. It was just another day at warped tour. Me standing on the sidelines, while the guys signed autographs for there fans. I don't mind because I got to watch my crush, Brian, the whole time. We had been friends since forever and I've had the biggest crush on him ever since. He had no idea about my feelings for him and right now I'd like to keep it that way. I dont want to throw him off his game right now and last time I checked he only thought of me as a friend. "Here you go Matt. Anybody else need another marker?" I said, holding four more markers in my hand. Nobody answered me so I just put a marker infront of all the guys. I leaned in next to Brian and he grabbed my arm. "Whoa! Are you wearing perfume or something?" Brian asked me. I was completely thrown off by the question. Why the hell is he smelling me? "No." I said. "Well then whats that pretty scent you have on?" He asked. "Soap and water, babe. You should try it sometime." I laughed. "Okay." He laughed "Maybe I could join you the next time you use this 'soap and water' thing." He said. "Yeah. Okay." I sarcastically said and rolled my eyes. I walked away quickly because I could feel my face turning red and my heart start to beat faster. As much as I wanted that to happen I knew it wouldn't ever happen. He was just playing around with me like he always does. "Okay if you guys dont need anything else, I'm gonna go help Val out at the merch booth." I said as I turned the other way to leave. I figured the guys didn't hear me so I started to walk away but then I heard a voice that I know all too well. "Um aren't you forgetting something?" I turned and saw Brian, sitting there, signing an autograph with that silly grin that always drove me crazy. He stopped signing and looked up at me, still with that grin. I took in a deep breath and walked over to him. I leaned over to give him a kiss on the cheek, because I know thats what he was talking about, but instead I smacked him in the back of the head. "Ow!" He yelled. I didn't hit him that hard. Just hard enough for him to get the picture. The guys stared laughing at Brian and I smiled at him and then turned away and walked off to go help Val. I heard the guys start laughing and I knew they were making fun of Brian. As much as I wanted to actually give him a kiss, I knew I couldn't because I didn't want to be seen as one of those stupid fan girls that do whatever he says because he's Synyster Gates and because I knew he was just playing around again. Yeah I have these strong feelings for him but honestly I don't think he really sees me as a girl that he would even think about being in an actual serious relationship with. And thats what I want with him. A serious relationship. But he's too much of a playboy to even consider that kind of thing. He's more into one-night-stands, but even then it dosent last long. Some nights its more like a 'wam bam thank you mam' and then he's gone. And it starts all over again the next night. I tell the guys that it disgusts me and makes me sick and they think that its because of his treatment of the girls and how some girls just there so they can say that they slept with Synyster Gates even though he's still a no body, but honestly its because my heart breaks everytime I hear him talk about his latest 'fuck' or the latest chick he 'nailed' because I wanna be his only girl. I want to be the onky girl he sleeps with. I wanna be the girl he makes love to. Its really hard for me to fathom the idea of the one I love with a different girl every night. Thats why I started telling the guys that it made me sick to hear the stories because I just couldn't take it anymore. I would start getting teary eyed and my stomach felt like it justfell out of my ass and my heart jumped into my throat. It just wasn't a good feeling. I finally arrived at the merch booth where Val was and she looked drained. "Hey! Need any help?" I sarcasticlly asked. She just looked at me with a frustrated face. I gave a little laugh and took over while she went out and passed around demos of the guys songs. She hobestly worked harder than all of put together. I'd try to help her out but she'd go so fast that I just couldnt keep up with her. "How can I help you?" I asked the next customer. "Yeah, can I get a deathbat shirt in a large?" They said. "Yeah." I turned and grabbed a shirt from the pile of shirts in a size large. "That'll be 5 bucks." I said as I gave the guy the shirt. He handed me the money and left. "Next!" I called out. This skinny guy with messy hair walked up. I couldn't really see his face because the sun was in my eyes. "Yeah can I get two cds and a shirt?" He said. "Okay. That'll be $7.00." I said and went to go get the demo cds and the shirt. "Oh, wait. What size shirt and which songs do you want?" I asked the guy. "Shirt size is large and it really doesn't matter what songs. You chose for me." He said. I nodded with a small smile and grabbed a shirt and two cds. "Okay, here's your shirt and my personal favorites, 'Unholy Confessions' and 'Second Heartbeat'." I said, as I handed him his stuff. "Thanks and maybe if it not to much to ask I'd also like for your name and possibly your number." He said. I smiled and let out a little laugh. I looked up at him and saw a smile. I couldnt see much because of the sun but I definitely saw his smile. "Um, I dont have a phone at the moment and my name is-" "Hey! How's it going over here" Val cut me off. "It's going good over here. Kinda slow, but good." I said. "Okay. Who's he?" Val said motioning her head to the guy I was talking. "Oh!" I snapped. "This is..." I looked over at the guy hoping that he would say something. "Tyson!" He chimed in. "Tyson. This is tyson" I said to Val. "Tyson?" She said and put her hand over her eye's to block the sun. I saw people in the back of Tyson looking upset. I stepped off to the side and waved for the next person to come up. "Im so sorry. What can I get you?" I asked the girl. "Can I have a shirt in a small and maybe the lead guitarists number?" She giggled. Oh god! Another blonde bimbo fan girl asking for Brians number. Im gonna over charge her just to be a bitch. "Here's your shirt and no you can not have his number because he is poor as shit and cant afford a phone. That'll be $7.00" I said with a big smile. "$7.00 for a shirt?!" She yelled. "Hey, if you want Synyster Gates' number then he needs a phone first and he has to pay for said phone some how." I sarcasticlly said as I crossed my arms and snapped my hip out. The girl rolled her eyes, let out a big huff and handed over the money. "Avenged Sevenfold thanks you for your business." I sarcastically said with a smile. She rolled her eyes again and walked away. "What was that?" Val asked with a laugh and a smile. "That was me protecting the guys from a weird crazy fan girl." I started to call the next person in line. "No. That was you keeping a girl away from Brian." Val said "Whatever." I said. "So what did that guy want? Tyson, was it?" I asked Val. "Oh my go! Are you seriously going to pretend like you don't remember his name?" She asked with a laugh. " What?! I am not pretending." I said. "Okay. Whatever." Val sarcasticlly laughed. "Oh would shut up and get over here so we could trade." I said. Val and I had this agreement that we'd both take shifts with the merch booth. While she was out in the crowd passing out song demos, I'd be at the merch booth selling apparel. Then when she'd grow tired of the heat we'd trade places so she could cool off in the shade. val walked over to me and handed me the bag of demos and I handed her the money belt that we wore to deal with easier. I started out to the crowds and handed out demos to anybody wearing an Avenged Sevenfold shirt or wearing a shirt with a band similar to Avenged Sevenfold. It was hard to get through some crowds because the fans were in a rush to see their favorite band and were like hyped up to see the bands and most were drunk too. I was walking with the bag across my body, looking for more fans, or potential fans, when somebody walks past me and purposely bumps into me very harshly. I looked up and noticed it was that blonde bimbo from earlier. She looked at me and shot me this evil grin and it just pissed me off. "What a bitch!" I purposely said out loud. "What?! I just got here." I heard a guy say. I turned and saw this tall and slender guy standing in front of me. I looked up at the guy but the sun was in my eyes so I couldn't see his face. I saw him hold out his hand to help me up. I took it and he pulled me up. Thats when I saw his face and realized that it was Tyson. The guy from earlier today. "Hey! Tyson, right?" I said. I pretended to not be sure of his name because I didn't want to seem to eager or something. "Yeah and you are....I'm sorry, but I didn't really get your name." He said. I let out a little laugh and a smile because I really thought that it was kind of cute that he attempted to remember my name but just gave up because I never actually gave him my name. And he looked just so cute trying to remember. "I'm sorry for not giving you my name, but we got interrupted by my friend and then you just left with with out saying a word." I said, crossing my arms. "Oh. So it's my fault that I didn't get your name?" He asked with a smile. "Uh, yeah. It kind of is." I said as I smiled. "Okay. I'll take the hit for this one." He said. I laughed again at him. "So can I have your name now? Or maybe some time today? Or tonight?" He asked. "Well, seeing as how you already messed-up your first shot, its gonna be harder this time around." I said with an evil grin and started to pick up the dropped cds. He put on a worried face and began to help me out. "How about I tell you my name when you come and pick me up tonight?" I smiled a more nicer smile this time. An even bigger smile came on to his face. "Yeah! That sounds great! So where do I pick you up at?" He asked. "At the Avenged Sevenfold tour bus, also know as, our tour van." I laughed. He laughed as well. "Alright! I'll be there at around 7?" He asked. "Yeah. 7 will be great!" I said as I stood up. "Its a date! Ill see you then." Tyson said as he stood up and walked away. I could not stop smiling. I can't wait until tonight. I wonder what the guys will do when Tyson shows up looking for me. I have to tell Val about this! Oh crap! I have to go get ready. I mean theres not much I can do but I need to at least wash my face and put on some make up. I just need to get to Val. I made my way the crowd, continuing to pass out demos, back to the merch booth. "Oh my god, Val you will not believe what just happened to me!" I said. My heart was beating so fast and my breathing was heavy. "What happened?" She asked while helping a customer. "I have a date tonight." I said with a big smile and wide eyes. "Wait, What?!" She asked me. Either she didn't hear me the first time or she did hear me and needs me to confirm what she just heard. "I'm going out on a date tonight!" I said. "With who?!" She asked as she started packing up the merch because the festival was already finishing. "Well, you remember that guy that was here earlier? The guy I was talking to when got herr?" I asked her. "Oh, yeah. Tyson?" She asked. "Yup!" "Oh my god! How? When?" She asked. She wanted details. "Well, I was walking around, passing around demos, when I got knocked down by somebody. It ended up being that chick I pissed off earlier. Anyway, I was about to get up when this guy walks up to help. I didnt know who he was until I saw who it was. It was that guy from earlier. Tyson." Val gasped because she. "Oh my god! You're going out on a date with Tyson?!" She asked. "Yeah!" I yelled. "Ahhh!" We both screamed and jumped up and down in excitement. "Okay so we need to get this stuff packed, fast, so we can get back to the bus before Tyson does so we can get you ready." Val said and she started to pack up the left over shirts from today. I started to help her pack up the shirts and started to pack up the cd's. We finished packing and then some of the roadies came by and picked up the boxes. "Okay so lets get you ready for your date." Val said putting her arm around my shoulders and made our way to the van. •••••••• We got to the van and all of the guys had already started drinking. "Hey, there you girls are. You two wanna beer?" Matt asked us. I was about to answer but Val cut me off. "I'll take one, but Angelica will have to take a rain check because she has a date!" Val said. All of the guys stopped drinking their beers and looked over at me. "Wait, what?" Matt asked. "I have a date tonight." I said."With who?!" Matt asked me, getting a little mad. He's so protective of me. He's such a big brother to me. Even though im older than him. "Calm down, man. So who's the guy? What's his story? Are we goona meet him? " Zacky asked interested. "He's this guy I met today. I don't know much about him but he asked me out and I said yes." I said, then I took a drink from Zacky's beer. "Hold on. You're going out with this guy and you don't know anything about him?" Matt yelled. "Chill out, Matt. It's not like he's a complete stranger." Val said. "She knows nothing about him, so yeah I'd say he is a complete stranger!" Matt yelled again. "Hey I know one thing about him!" I yelled out to Matt. " Oh yeah, and what would that be?" Matt asked me. "His name is Tyson." I said. Zacky, Val, Johnny and Jimmy started laughing. We all found it entertaining to see Matt over react. But this time, I guess, Brian didnt find it funny because he wasn't laughing. Matt started yelling at us for laughing at him which just made it worse because it cracked up Zacky, Johnny and Jimmy even more. Val and I started to calm down and she tried to calm Matt and the guys down. I walked up to Brian to see what was going on with him. "Hey. Are you okay?" I asked him. "Hey. Yeah. I'm okay. Why don't I look okay?" He asked with a laugh. I laughed with him. "No. You look fine. Its just that you didnt really join in on the laughter between the guys and I, so I thought that something was up or whatever." I said. "Nope. Nothings up. I'm just a little tired." Brian said. "Aw. Poor baby." I said and leaned in to him and put my head against his shoulder and he put his arm around my waist and leaned his head on mine. " You're okay with me going out with thus guy, right?" I asked Brian. "Yeah, but I'd feel a lot better if I met him first." He said. I smiled and was about to say somthing, but was interrupted. "Um, excuse me," I heard someone say. Everybody stopped and turned to see who it was. I stood up straight and turned around to see a very shy Tyson standing there. "Tyson! Hey!" I said and walked over to Tyson and gave him a hug. He wore the shirt he bought from me today and a pair of ripped jeans and a pair of high top converse shoes. I turned back to the guys and they all looked at him then back to me. "Everybody, this is Tyson. Tyson, this is everybody." I said and stood next to Tyson and smiled. Val quickly waved 'hi' to Tyson. He recognized her and said 'hi' back. Matt stepped forward and held out his hand to Tyson. "Hi. I'm Matt." "Hi." Tyson shook Matt's hand. "Its nice to meet you actually. I've been watching you guys perform and I've become a big fan of you guys. Your vocals are so sick, man. I wish I could scream like that." Tyson said. " Thanks." Matt said and backed up. Jimmy stepped forward and gave Tyson a hug instead of a handshake and tyson looked at me kind of confused. I gave him a reassuring smile and he hugged Jimmy back. "Hi, I'm Jimmy!" "Hey. My drummer and I have been wanting to met you. You are a crazy talented drummer." Jimmy just smiled a very humble smile and stepped back. I walked up to Tyson and introduced him to Zacky, Johnny and Brian. Brian had smile on that I just knew was fake. Somethings wrong with him, but I just cant figure it out. Does he have a problem with Tyson or what? I mean there isn't a reasin why he would have a problem with Tyson. Tyson hasn't been around long enough to cause a rift with Brian. Whatever it is, its gonna have to wait until my date with Tyson is done.

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