You know i make you wanna scream..

Fairly drunk myself, as I put an extremely drunk Eleanor down from carrying her up the stairs to bed, she smiled at me and slurred, 'I'm drunk,but thank you.' I hugged her tightly, 'For nothing, El.' I whispered.

As the hug finished, I looked down into her beautiful blue eyes, and before I knew it, I was kissing her, her small, satin soft lips against mine. My hands were on the small of her back, and she had hers on my chest. The kiss started to become more passionate, and I put her on the bed gently, before getting on top of her and kissing her roughly. As she ran one of her hands through my hair, the other one grabbed the hem of my shirt, and I pulled away as she pulled it over my head. I continued to kiss her again, but suddenly, I heard her phone buzz, which reminded me that I was on top of one of my best friend's girl, and my wife had just cheated on me. I pulled away and lay on the bed beside her. 'I better go to bed.' I muttered. I looked at Eleanor, who was basically comatose. 'Same' she slurred, 'Night.'

I got off the bed, and walked out. 'Goodnight.' I said, before walking out the door, and walking towards my room. What did I just do? I thought Zacky fucked up bad, I did worse.
I lay in bed, my mind racing. The way Eleanor kissed me, Val hadn't kissed me like that for years, and I hadn't felt the way I felt kissing Eleanor in a long, long time. Would she remember it in the morning? Would she think I was taking advantage of her intoxication? Would she hate me? I had been thinking about Eleanor alot recently, ever since I poured my heart out to her in Ireland. I knew it was wrong, but I honestly couldn't help it. I kept finding myself thinking about her and smiling to myself. I thought it was just because she was the only one I told, but after that kiss, it felt like there was something more. My stomach churned as I thought of Zacky. He was so going to hate me for what happened. Everyone was. I tossed and turned for the whole night, thinking about Eleanor and Zacky and Val and everything that was wrong with what was going on.

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