Desire of the Soul

Ana's POV

"Did I tell that you look awesome today?" ,Brian embracing me tight and kissed my neck.
"Yeah, only fifty times" I smiled and turned around to see his face.
He was strange, not strange like Jimmy in the last days, but also strange.
Jimmy seemed so sad, he was at one of his best friend’s wedding and of course he laughed all time, tried to act like the usually Jimmy, but I know that something is wrong.
When everyone danced, he sat there alone with a beer in hand and looked like a lost child.
And back to Brian, he was nervous, pale and I can swear that his heart is beating faster than normal. I put my hand on his face and stroked his cheek.
"Tell me baby, what's going on?"
"Nothing, really." He smiled at me, and kissed my lips.
Yeah, if you think that you can me distract with that you’re wrong, buddy!
But I'll think about it later, now its Matt and Val Bid-day.
They looks so happy together, it was so nice too look at them during the ceremony.
Brian looked over at Jimmy, and they nodded to each other.
"Come with me, baby" Brian grabbed my hand and led me to the far end of the house.
Here it was quiet, because all people celebrate in the garden and pool area.
Even so, here would take nothing of the wedding place, everything was decked out with many white lights and flowers.
We came closer to the guest room and I saw Brian's acoustic guitar lie on the bed.
"Maybe we sit down?" he smiled a little nervous, but he looked like if he felt sick. Slowly I started to worry.
Then he took the guitar and I can see that also his fingers were shaking, he was always so calm when he played. And now, I'm sure that something went wrong.
''I’ll play you, a new song, okay?" I didn’t know what this was all about so I just nodded.
He started to play a slow tune, and then he started to sing and I was shocked, in a good way. I just love his voice, not only as a support act for Matt’s voice.
To be honest, I couldn’t even focus on the lyrics he sang, I looked into his eyes and then his magical fingers.
Every sound which comes from his mouth was deep and amazing, every chord was thought out and played with a lot of passion:
“How can I describe my feelings to you?
How can I tell that I love you so?
How can I show what you mean to me?
One thing I know, is that you belong to me”

My heart started to beat even faster now and he continued:

“My heart is with you, wherever you are,
It's only one more thing I want to know, Can I asking you for more?
Can you stay with me forever?
Can you always be mine?
So I ask you this question now: Will you be my wife?”

I felt tears on my eyes and I froze when he sing the last question.
I couldn't say anything, because my stomach was churning.
Everything what happens now, I saw in slow motion.
He put the guitar aside, stood up and next he knelt on one knee, he grabbed my hand and starts "Ana, You're the best thing that ever happened in my life and I know that nothing can compare with you. Everything that I know is that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I love you, and I promise to love you every moment of my life"
He stopped for a moment, while my tears fall down my cheeks.
He took a deep breath and finished, "Would you do me the extraordinary honor of marrying me?"

I needed a few second to realize what he just said. When my head started to work again, he pulled a ring out of his pocket and grabbed my hand. He looked deeply into my eyes. He also looked like he's about to cry. " Ana, say something, please”.
"Oh Brian!" I said finally, but that was everything what I could say. I jumped into his arms and started to kiss him passionately.
"It means 'yes'?" he asked and smiled.
"Oh, of course, that means yes! I love you so much!" I embraced him tight and I couldn't help it I just started to laugh and cry at once. He holds my hand and with his shaking one and he puts a ring on my finger.
"Brian, it's amazing! Thank you so much! I'm so happy! I love you!"
"And I'm the luckiest man in the world"
We sat down on the bed again to calm down a little but still kissing and hugging.
"Come on, we need to go back, they'll wonder where we are". He grabbed my hand and led me back to the party.

"Brian, you're right on time! It's time for the first groomsman speech!" said Jimmy when we came to the main garden.
I have a smile on my face from ear to ear, just like Brian and I'm sure that Jimmy knew what this was about.
Brian took his glass of champagne from the table and held it high,
"Hi everyone, we're here to celebrate our best friends- Matt and Val’s- wedding.
Guys, you know that we all love you, and that we are so happy, that you two are finally getting married. Thank you that we could celebrate this special day with you. I hope that everyone has a lot of fun and a small Info in my personal interest that soon we'll will repeat it.
The thing is that I hope that you all will want to share my special day with me, too. Because just a few minutes ago, my beautiful Ana, has agreed to be my wife." he said the last part with a big smile.

Everyone started to applaud and congratulate us as well.
Jimmy was the first who started to hug us and told us how happy he was for us. After all the congratulations were done everyone went back to the celebration. I looked over at Jimmy again he looked bad, really bad. He wasn't the same Jimmy.
"Hey, did you talk with Jimmy in the last days?" I asked Brian.
"Yeah, why?"
"He looks strange, something is wrong. Did you notice anything?"
"Yeah, you're right. But I don’t really know what…"
"I'll go to talk to him" I said and kissed his cheek.
I walked over to Jimmy's and sat down beside him and grabbed his hand.
"Hey, what's up?" I asked him with a small smile.
"What's up with what? Shouldn't you celebrate your big day at home with your fiancé?" Jimmy replied.
"Hey, hey, stop the joking, just tell me what’s wrong" I stroked his hand softly.
"Annie, everything is okay, really"
"Don't lie to me, I can see it, okay?"
"Really, it's nothing."
"Jimmy, you can trust me, you know it, yeah?"
"Yes, of course", still he looked at his feet, not meeting my eyes.
"So why don't you do it then? ," I put my fingers under his chin so he had to look up to me.
“Look, I'm really thankful that you worry about me, but you have no reason for it"
I don't buy his lies. I put my head on his shoulder and sighed, I just didn't know what else I can do. "This is such an amazing days for me, I'm so happy and I want that all my friends are happy with me. I know that we don't know each other for a long time, but I never had true friends before I met Brian.And you know that you're my best friend now. If not for you and Romy I wouldn’t be Brian's fiancé now. I understand that might not want to talk with me about your problems, but I just want you to know, that I'm always here when you will need me."
I look at his eyes and they were so sad.
"Hey, it's not that. If something will happen, I promise that I'll tell you about it."
He gave me a smile but still not reaching his eyes.
In the corner of my eye I saw that Brian looked at me from the side.
"If you change your mind, just call me. Love ya" I hugged him tight, one last time and kissed his cheek and went back to Brian.
“Hey, do you wanna go home now? It’s been a long day…" Brian asked
"Yes, I'm tired" I replied and looked one last time over at Jimmy, still sitting there, all alone.
"So c'mon, I want to have my fiancé in my bed, finally…" He kissed my lips with a smile.
Fiancé, that was awesome to hear, and especially from the best man, from my man.
And I'll be with this man forever.

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