Desire of the Soul

Jimmy’s POV

It was early in the morning. I talked to Romy yesterday that I would come over by 8 then we both had enough time to prepare since the meeting at Matt house for the ceremony was at 10.
It was 7 am and I sat in my car at Romy’s flat. I should call her before I just knock on her door.
She picked up after the second ring, “Come on in, Jimmy, saw you outside… what are you waiting for?”
“Thanks.” I am so lucky to have friends like her.
I walked towards her entrance and she opened before I could knock.
“Why are you sitting in your car and not coming up here?” She looked a little concerned.
“I didn’t knew if you were up already… we said 8 and…”, she took my hand and pulled me inside.
“I am awake since 6, I need to do so fucking much, I don’t even know where to begin, my dress, my hair, my make-up.. I wanna look perfect.”
“Hm.. honey you know that it’s not your wedding, right?” I patted her hand reassuringly.
“Damn James, sure I know, but I told Zack that I would look especially beautiful today, for him... and I want to impress him…” she pouted a little.
“Oh Romy, you look fantastic every time. And he will love you in a dress in a towel and he will love you even more naked…” I laughed and she slapped my chest.
“Come on I made some coffee for us, let’s have a talk first, then we get ready, ok?”
“Sure.”

We sat down on her small couch and she looked at me questioning, what was now to come?!
“So, Jimmy as I can see you brought your suit, do you also have the ring?”, she was asking so seriously that I couldn’t help but laugh.
She started laughing as well, “Yes, Romy… I got the rings. Don’t worry. What a best man would I be if I forgot the fucking rings…”
“OK, just checking. And what else is going on, Jimmy? You can tell me, you know that. Why are you here so early and why did you stop by at Zacky the day after the tour ends?” , clever little Romy, damn it.
“What, can I not stop by? And is it a crime now, to be on time…?” I asked sarcastically.
“Damn it, James. Spit it out. Maybe you can fool the others, but you reek of whiskey and there is something else. We are best friends, aren’t we?”
“Sure we are.” I looked deeply into her eyes, should I tell her or not?
“Then you have to tell me, or I will go straight to big bro and tell him something is wrong with you, honey and with both don’t want Matt standing here on his wedding day all concerned because of you…”
“Oh god no… Ok you got me there… I just… you know after being on tour for so long I just hate the feeling of being alone. I just can’t cope with it, ok?! Do you remember in the early days when Matt and Val were starting off with their relationship I was so happy for them but they kind off shut me out and I am afraid that this will happen with the rest of you now… Damn Romy, I don’t know what I am talking about... just forget it ok.”
“Ohhh Jimmy”, she pulled me towards her and I lay my head onto her lap.
She absently stroked my hair and we just lay there, I needed this touch.
Romy and Val they were the only people that knew that I just needed this sometimes, sitting with someone having skin contact. Sure the guys knew it too, but that is different. And it’s nothing sexual with them it’s just how I worked if it was different from others or maybe even weird or strange for them well that doesn’t matter to me, I always did what was right in my mind and gave a fuck what other thought.

“You can always come over, Jimmy. You know that, don’t you? And if you feel lonely or just want someone to talk to just call, say one word and I will be there or your Annie will be there. Jimmy you are my best friend since ever and if you need me I will be there, doesn’t matter what. You promise me that you come to me, right?!”
I felt tear in my eyes, she was right, if I really told one of the other they would be there, but I didn’t want to be the 3 wheel all the time. That Romy now knew a little of my problem was enough, I haven’t told her everything, but I think it’s enough for now.
“Promise” I finally said.
“We should get ready now, you taking the shower first?” Romy started to get up and we began to get ready for Matt and Val’s wedding.

Zacky’s POV

I was on time and couldn’t wait to see how Romy looked. She told me something about making herself especially beautiful, so I was excited. It was a wedding, we could dress fancy and I like to dress fancy. I already got my suit and bow-tie on and my hair was styled. I only needed my girlfriend by my side and I was ready to go.
When I arrived at Romy’s flat I wondered because Jimmy’s car was parked outside.
What is he doing here again?
I walked towards the door and heard already Romy’s laughing from inside.
“JIMMY, don’t make me laugh again, or I have to redo my make up again… it would be the third time…”
I couldn’t help it but my good mood from earlier vanished in a heartbeat.
What is it with this guy? He is the most liked guy from everyone, the best friend of everyone.
How is he doing that, he must have no time for all of his friends, and still he is always there. And the worst of it all he is one of my best friend and this stupid feelings I had are not his fault, he was doing nothing wrong. Still I felt the tension rising inside of me.
I knocked on the door and Jimmy opened it.
“Hey Bro, you are a little too early. Romy is not ready yet… my fault.” He laughed a little.
“And you look good Zack, all dressed up.” He let me inside.
“You look good as well, nice suit, man. You ready? Got the rings? And why are you here anyway? Did I miss something?” I tried to let my last question sound as casual as possible.
“Thanks, yes got the rings. I am ready, hope that Matt is as well. I asked Romy yesterday if we could drive together, so I was here early, we had a coffee and that’s it. No need to be jealous, my friend.”
“Jealous? Me? No way.” I replied but even I couldn’t believe my lie.
“I am ready, Zack are you there?” Romy called from the bathroom.
“Yes, babe I am waiting for you.” I couldn’t wait to see her.
“Ok, I am coming out now.”
And then the door opened and Romy walked out her hair hung in curly waves around her head she had make up on and a red lipstick, with that her mouth looked even more kissable.
My eyes wandered lower and I saw a deep and I mean deep cleavage, my eyes lingered there a little longer and I knew that’s what all the other guys would be doing as well. But I was with her and that way it was ok for me. Her dress was a dark blue and it looked amazing, hugging her body perfectly.
“And? Do you like? You are not saying anything?” Romy asked shyly.
I looked back up into her eyes but I couldn’t speak. I just walked towards her grabbed her and kissed her and showed her exactly how much I liked it and in that moment everything else was forgotten. Why can it not always be like this?!

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