Desire of the Soul

Zacky’s POV

“Maybe we really should talk... alone?! What do you think, babe?” I looked at Romy and she really had tears in her eyes while looking at me.
“Yes, we should… thanks Ana…” Romy got up and let go of my hand, I didn’t like that so I walked around the bed and grabbed hers again as soon as I could.
Was it really true? Did she still love me?! I know that I love her! I had never stopped, but we should really talk this out what happened between us!
We walked outside and I didn’t stop at any our friends, I just walked past them and dragged Romy behind me.
“Wait… Zack, can I at least tell the other that we are leaving…” Romy replied, but I just walked towards the exit. I would let come anything between this talk and us.. No way!
“Nope… they can see that we are leaving.” I opened the passenger door for her and helped her climb inside then I ran towards the my door and got in as well, I started the engine and drove over to my house, during the 15 minutes drive we were both silent. I was concentrating and the drive and Romy was staring outside her window.
I was planning what I had to say in my head but I couldn’t come up with a reasonable thought.
Shit, I just hoped this conversation would work better then the last ones. But it had to be since I knew now that Romy still had feelings towards me.
I parked my car into the drive way and walked around to open Romy’s door for her but she stood already outside. Damn it…
Okay, so… I grabbed her hand again and we walked towards the front door. I opened the door and led her towards my living room… shit I haven’t thought that my living room looked like a mess… since I was sleeping and well living only here…
Why didn’t I clean up before?! Fuck, fuck fuck!!
Romy looked around and I knew what she must be thinking… what a slob!

Romy’s POV

Zacky was in such a hurry to get back to his home, that I didn’t have time to really think about what I wanted to say to him… that he had said that he still loved me was kind of a shock. Yes, we had spent the last days together at my apartment but I he never made a move towards me again, or did he just say he still loved me like a friend? Maybe he doesn’t want to disappoint Ana and he lied.
Oh god, I should get my hopes up… maybe this was all a huge misunderstanding?!
Zacky moved inside his living room and started to hectically put glasses and cartons away and I saw that he had slept on the couch… his blanket and pillow lay there… and was that really my shirt?
I walked towards the couch and picked it up, my favorite sleeping shirt I got from Matt. It was a Avenged Shirt from their first tour, ever.
Zacky stopped the packing away and looked over at me, his cheeks gone red.
“You.. that… I mean.. you still had some of your stuff here… I didn’t…” he stammered and looked at his feet.
Awwwnnn… Zacky…
“Yes, I know… I got one of your shirts stuffed under my pillow as well…” I smiled shyly at him.
“You… really?!” I turned towards me.
“Please sit down… you want something to drink?” he took the blanket of the couch and motioned for me to sit down.
“Yes, thanks. Water please.”
“Oh thank god, I think I don’t have anything else then beer and water here so…” He walked towards his kitchen and came back with two glasses of water.
I deeply breathed in and out… shit I was so nervous…!
“Why did you sleep on the couch, Zack?” I asked finally and looked around. He had such a nice bedroom and still he had slept on this fucking small and uncomfortable couch…
“I… I am sleeping here since we broke up… I couldn’t stand to sleep up there.. I don’t know.. it’s kinda dumb I know… but…” he shrugged his shoulders and took a sip of his water.
“Oh really, because of… me.. I mean us?!”I looked at him skeptically.
“Romy, I think you don’t understand how much this break up had hurt me and how much I suffered… I know I sound like a fucking sissy but that’s it… I missed you so damn much but I thought it would be better this way…”

Zacky’s POV

“...that I couldn’t make you happy and you deserve to be happy, Romy. I love you too much to see you miserable.” I finished and I didn’t have the strength to look into her eyes maybe now was the time she would be rejecting me, telling me that she loved me but only as a friend…
“Oh Zacky… that is what you were thinking?” Romy asked and I felt her hands on my cheeks, she moved my head up to look directly into her eyes, full of tears again.
“How can you think, that you are not making me happy?” Romy asked me honestly.
“How can I not?” I replied, “We fought so much, I accused you of cheating I was jealous I treated you not right… I was just so insecure when it came to you Romy… I can’t even describe how much I feared that you will leave me… that you will tell me that I am not the right man for you… that you finally will realize that you deserve so much better than me…” How can I make her see that I fucked this up?! That I knew it now… That I would work on me, if she would give me another chance, just one!?
“Oh damn, Zacky why didn’t you say something like that earlier… I love you Zack, I loved you since such a long time, you are the man for me… I love you from the bottom of my heart. I would never leave you, damn it… How could you think anything like that?” Romy kissed my lips but I was just perplexed… What did she just say?! She loved me and would never leave me?!
“Wait… wait… you still want to be with me? After everything? Romy, I promise I will never be such an idiot again… and I love you, I love you so damn much that it hurts every time when we were apart, these last weeks were a living hell for me, believe me…”
“Zacky, I felt the same… I just thought during these last couple of days that you… you know only wanted a friendship with me and not a relationship anymore… I thought…”
“Babe… how could you… do you know… how much strength it had cost me to let my fingers from you, not to kiss you senseless at every fucking chance I had…” I replied and my glace wandered to her mouth again, how many times had I wished that I could kiss these lips again, so many times that I had lost count…
“So… Romy and Zacky, back together? We will try it again?” Romy looked at me and a tear escaped her lashes.
I whisked it away with my thumb, “Yes, Zomy is back together.” I smiled and finally kissed her lips.

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