Brian's Letters To Matthew

Dear Matthew,

The day has come, meeting the family I picked for our son. I knew this day was coming. I mean, to look through dozen of families was hard. I wanted to make sure they were, well, perfect. Absolutely perfect for our son. But now to meet them will be harder. And to give our son a new family will be the hardest thing that I couldn’t imagine.
But I know that I can’t give what our son deserves. I can feel that in my heart. Suzy says I’d make a great parent and I don’t want to lose our son but if I am the parent Suzy say that I am then I must do what is best for our child. I was having troubles taking care of myself. I didn’t want the baby to grow up seeing such things.
I know now that he is taken care of with the best care. I remember seeing the couple’s faces. They’ve been trying for so long for a child. I could tell that they will treat ours like their own. I’ve found out they had their own children eventually but they still love and care for our son.
He’s cared for and that makes me happy. I thought about visiting him but I’m afraid of what that will stir. I’m afraid that our son will hate me for giving him to another family. I’m afraid he’ll hate me in general.
But that doesn’t stop me of thinking about him. Even after all these years, I still love our child. I know I’ll never stop.

If you met him, would you love him too?

With all my love,
Brian

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