Seize The Day or Die Regretting.

~Heather~
Positive.
“Fuck.” I muttered to myself, standing in the bathroom at work. It was too risky to do this at home so I went out and got the tests and did them in the bathroom stall.
“So?” I heard Melissa drag from the other side of the stall door. My heart sank deep inside my chest as I stared down at the threepositivepregnancy tests. Staring down at those taunting signs made my stomach turn violently. I sighed a quick breath and opened the stall door even though I wanted to stay and hide in there forever, I couldn’t. I needed to face the world. I stepped out of the stall to see the three girls standing there, Elise looked worried, standing in the far corner biting her nails. Georgia was pacing around anxiously and Melissa was sitting on the counter staring at me blankly. I swallowed down hard, trying to get rid of the dry lump in my throat and the tears swelling up in my eyes.
“Three positive tests.” I muttered throwing two of them into the trash and one into my bag before I rolled up the blue pin stripped sleeves to wash my hands. There was a sense of despair in the room as a disappointed sigh came from all three of them.
“Are you sure they were all positive? Maybe you miss read them.” Melissa tried to comfort me with that but we all knew the truth. The truth is I’m pregnant and I can’t afford it, mentally, emotionally or financially. There is no escaping it this time. But I am glad that we’re in a better place than what we were last time. We’re practically domestic which is good. Normal is very good. But I don’t know how normal things will be when I tell Brian about it. He might flip out and go on another robbery for the sake of being stable enough for this child or he might just handle this like an adult and keep those days behind him.Or,and this is my most irrational fear coming to play here, or he might just snap and kick me out. But it’s been a year since we’ve began trying again and he’s dead set on having a kid. How he’s able to work eight to fifteen hours a day then come home and try to make a human being, is a complete mystery to me. There are some nights where I doze off in the middle of it.
“No, they’re all positive.” I managed to say steadily. I leaned against the counter as I was beginning to feel faint. I was feeling dizzy and the room was spinning slightly.
“What’re you gonna do?” Georgia asked softly. I shrugged my shoulders, not wanting to speak about it anymore. I wanted to wake up and have this be a bad dream. It’s been my dream to be a mom but not like this, not when there is so much struggling between me and Brian. We are good together unless we’re worried about financial things and how we’ll work, that’s when things get a bit hairy.
“When did this even happen?” Elise asked curiously. I felt my cheeks heat up when I remember when and how this happened.

His deepening brown eyes watched me from across the dimly lit bar. He tried to hide the fact behind his pint of beer but I made it hard for him to take his eyes off me. I played with the ripe gleaming bright red cherry. I stood in my short black cocktail dress with my black hair fell over my shoulder in lingering curls and waves. I called to him with my eyes and he answered, he placed his glass down with his friends and coughed up the courage to come and talk to me. He was taller but I’m tall so I don’t mind. He ran his fingers through his hair and smiled charmingly as he leaned against the bar in front of me.
“I can’t help but notice you eyeing me up.” He smoothly spoke. I felt blush come to my cheeks as I went from the sassy mysterious girl across the bar to the shy girl that’s luring him in. I had already lured him in many times before; we’ve done this many times before. It’s like meeting all over again. My jungle red lips formed on my face shyly. I felt his hands slide slickly around my waist as I turned my back to him. His friends came to the bar and ordered their drinks after the awards ceremony. He stood behind me in a stunning tux. His arms wrapped around me tightly pulling me into him, my body went cold when I felt something big and hard press against me through his dress pants. My cheeks filled with redness as I pushed back against him.
“Y’know by doing that you’re asking for it.” Brian whispered huskily against my ear, his hot breath fell against the side of my face lightly. I smiled and turned my head to look at him with a cheeky smirk.
“And what’ll happen if I make you wait?” I asked in a low voice. I heard him chuckle lively as his arm loosened around me while the other stayed tightly holding me to his chest. His free hand slid down my stomach, lightly grazing my dress. His rough and cold hands met my hot skin, sneaking up my dress slightly; he didn’t need to travel too far up the short dress to find my already damp panties. I inhaled sharply when his thumb flicked me noticeably. His low voice whispered dirty things he wanted to do to me into my ear. I could see my breathing become heavy and hotter as he kept it up. When his hand left from under my dress and returned to around my waist, I whined softly.
“Not a nice feeling when someone turns you on then leaves is it?” He growled into my ear in a husky voice. I rolled my eyes sadly when I knew what he was doing. I spun around to face him with a low growl.
“Is there a back room we can go to?” I asked softly, my voice sounded needy and eager. By the look in his eyes that’s what he was aiming for. His thin lips curled as he took my hand and led me over to Larry. Larry, a short man and stocky man who’d remind you of a con artist from the early nineties, his short chest nut brown hair is usually slicked back and his beady brown eyes always glinting with hope and desire. Brian whispered something to Larry while I stood there in desperate need of more physical contact. Larry looked at him with a sleazy laugh before looking at me, Larry handed Brian a set of keys.
“Don’t break anything.” He warned us with a lively tone. Brian lively chuckled and shook his head.
“No promises.” He told Larry truthfully. And then we were off. Brian led me all the way to Larry’s office; it was up a huge set up stairs and down a brightly lit hallway. The lights hung off the walls and looked like the ones in Central Park. Larry’s office was nice and big but not too big. He had a nice big oak desk with a laptop on it. A few stacks of papers cluttered the desk top. The walls had records on it with pictures of family and bands and other things. He had a few huge filing cabinets right by a nice big couch.
I quickly closed the curtains and made sure no one could see in. I smirked as he locked the office door behind us. That’s one of the good things about Larry, he’ll let us use anything if we ask and don’t break it.
“You have a rubber?” I asked before we got any further. Brian stopped and looked horrified for a moment before he shook his head.
“No, but I’ll pull out.”He promised. I smiled and in a swift movement Brian had his jacket off and had me perched up on the desk, my legs wrapped around Brian’s waist tightly pulling myself against him. His lips roughly pressed against mine with lustful force that left me with more desire to get him off. His hand found the zipper on my dress, dragging it down. He pulled the dress down passed my legs and onto the floor along with the shoes. He put me back up on the desk and gaped down at me with a horny school boy expression. I sat there with my legs linked around him tightly; I don’t even think a black strapless lace bra and black lace panties that left very little to the imagination should be declared as underwear. I grinned devilishly as I unhooked my arms from around his neck, trailing my finger down his chest to his belt. But before I could undo his pants his hands grabbed mine. I ran my gaze up to his; he had a devilish expression on his face. He unhooked my bra and threw it across the room.
“Lay down.” Brian instructed. I cocked an eye brow at him curiously before lying down on the cleared desk. He loomed over me; his lips caressed my skin softly as he moved down my body. His lips met my hard nipples as he sucked them roughly, ringing his tongue around them. I inhaled deeply and moaned his name softly. I heard him crackle at my moans of pleasure. He kept kissing down my body. His fingers found the black lace panties and slid them down carefully, his lips kissing my hips and pelvis gently. I felt his hands push my legs apart and his soft and warm lips meet me roughly. I arched my back as I threw my head back. My hips bucked down slightly.
“Oh God.” I whimpered softly. I loved what he could do without even trying. I loved that we didn’t need to have proper sex for him to make me feel like I was going to blow my top. Every inch of my body tingled with an overwhelming heat as a pressure built up inside me. My breathing grew heavier and quicker.
“I’m about to blow.” I notified him with a husky voice. Right before I blew he stopped and looked at me with a cheeky smile. I sat up on my elbows and pouted at him sadly. His eyes still said lustful and excited.
“Oh no you’re not.” He said pulling me upright. He pulled his pants down to his ankles and pulled me into his hips making his erection bury deep into me making me scream. He repeated that over and over again, making me scream each time. He buried himself into me, as his fingers knotted in my hair and his lips roughly fell against mine. His tongue invaded my mouth sucking, battling and dancing with mine.I felt myself tighten around him as he pulled out. Brian pulled his lips away from mine and he looked at me with a smirk that read desire.
“Fuck, a year of sleeping with you. And you still know I love that.” He growled at me. I smiled an angelic grin and let him bury himself into me again. My breathing became heavier and quicker, as did his. His deepening thrusts became harder and faster. He had the bulky desk shaking and rocking as he came closer and closer to blowing his top. I was almost there as well. I smiled slightly and ran my hand between us and helped him pump into me as used the arm I had around his neck to hoist me up so I wasn’t sitting on the desk anymore. My knees tightened around his waist as his lips met mine roughly. With one last thrust we blew our tops. I fell back onto the desk. My eyes were wide in shock.
“Brian, pull out, pull out!” I reminded him over again in a loud voice. Before he could pull out I knew he released into me only a little bit though. I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned against him as he leaned against me in relief. He breathed heavily. His sweaty head rested on my shoulder.
“Fuck that was amazing.” He said in a pant. I smiled widely and kissed his neck tenderly. I knew that he didn’t need to use his member in order to make me scream, he’s talented that way. We should’ve really used a condom instead of the pull and pray method. But I really didn’t want to wait until we got back home to do this.
“Happy Birthday, babe.” He told me with a steady voice that made me smile. I nodded and we got up and began to get dressed to rejoin everybody. My dress wasn’t wrinkled which I was thankful for. But I highly doubt it’ll cover the love bites and hickies I have on my inner thighs. And there are a few on my neck and chest. But he had a huge one just under his ear that I caused. I made myself presentable and followed Brian out to the bar where Larry gave us a hardy laugh when he saw us. Most people probably didn’t even notice we were gone but we got a few glances. We made our way to the bar where everybody else was.
“You two have fun?” Larry asked as we met up with everybody else at the bar. Georgia gave us a curious look along with the guys. I felt blush invade my cheeks brightly as an ashamed smile fell across my face. Brian handed Larry the keys to the office with an embarrassed smile.
“I suggest tightening the screws in the legs of your desk before using it.” He suggested sullenly with a low voice. I nodded in agreement. Larry laughed again and shook his head, leaving everybody wanting to know where we got too. Well this is ever so slightly awkward.
“Where did you two go?” Melissa asked curiously. My jaw fell slightly as blush coloured my face. I looked back at Brian as we tried to figure out what our next move was. He hardily chuckled and hugged me from behind. I think we’ve been caught. I think us trying to come up with an explanation has given us away since the guys started chuckling and shaking their heads. The girls were a little bit in awe since they figured it out.
“In public?!” Elise exclaimed giving me a shocked expression. I felt a cheeky smile cross my face.
“It wasn’t in public; we were in a room with the door locked.” I explained sullenly.
“And you couldn’t have waited until you got back home?” Matt questioned curiously. I nodded. I think I just made him go greener than I did in January when I made that comment. But either way his expression was immense. Brian held me tighter in his arms, my back against his chest.

“I. . .I have no idea when this happened.” I lied, trying to save myself from having to tell them about that. We were at an office party and he started it. Georgia, Elise and Melissa all looked at me as if they knew I was lying.
“You’re gonna need to tell Brian pretty soon.” Elise said bluntly. I felt my stomach drop when I knew that was true. I was going to need to tell him soon too. I can’t put this off like I did last time. I sighed, rubbing my temples tiredly.
“What’re you gonna do? How are you gonna break the news to him?” Melissa asked softly, sitting on the counter beside me. I know she’ll keep all of this a secret and I know Georgia and Elise will keep it to themselves. That’s when the idea popped into my head suddenly. I shuffled through my bag to find my phone.
“Oh you’re not going to text it to him.” Elise said bluntly. I shook my head.
“He’s most likely going to be working late so I’m going to go home and make a nice dinner for him and break it to him that way.” I said typing my message away. I think this is perfect. It’s a nice way to break shocking news.
Gonna be late at work, won't be home until 9-ish. :( I made pasta last night and you never ate it so you can reheat it if you want. See you at home. Xoxo. :)
I pressed send and stayed in the bathroom. I was still in complete shock that I was going to be a mother, hopefully. The girls were there to comfort me like the amazing friends they are. I felt my phone buzz in my hand. I opened the text message, knowing exactly what it was going to say.
I’m gonna be late as well, see you at home.

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