*MONTH AND A HALF LATER*

I paced back and forth with my head in my hands. This couldn't be happening to me! We had just started tour a week ago and now I have to deal with this?!
Leana sat across from me in one of the chairs with her elbows on her knees. We were backstage and the guys were almost done with the show. She sighed and sat up straight. "You're just going to have to accept it, Lizzy."
I shook my head and faced her. "But how did this happen?"
Leana rose an eyebrow. "Do I really have to explain it? I think you know how it happened."
"But the tour just started," i said taking a seat on one of the couches. "I don't want to go home."
"Who said you have to go home?" she asked. "This tour will only last four months."
I snapped my head up and looked her in the eyes. "I'm pregnant, Leana! That's most of my pregnancy. Do you really think the guys want me on tour like this?"
"That's after you tell Johnny. Worry about one thing at a time," she said.
"Tell Johnny what?" we heard from the doorway.
We both whipped our heads around to see Johnny standing there staring at us. I hadn't heard the music stop playing.
"Tell Johnny what?" Johnny repeated.
I stood and hugged him. "Nothing, babe. We'll talk about it after your meet and greet," I said, smiling.
He rose an eyebrow as he looked down at me. "Are you sure, babygirl?"
I nodded and kissed him. "One hundred percent sure. It's nothing to worry about."
he leaned down to kiss me one last time before the rest of the guys joined us in the room. Jimmy picked me up and swung me around, laughing when I shrieked. "Hey Ly-ly!"
I laughed when he finally put me on the ground. "Ew Jimmy you're all sweaty."
He wiped his hand down his naked chest and brought it up and smeared sweat across my face. I jumped back with a yelp trying to wipe it off with my shirt. Meanwhile, all five of the guys, Leana, Matt and Jason Berry were all near to collapsing on the floor they were laughing so hard.
I stood up straight and glared at all of them. "Ok, jerks. See if I forget that one."
Brian came up to me after he had stopped laughing and wrapped an arm over my shoulders. "Oh relax, Lizzy. Jimbo was just playing. You know how goofy he is."
I nodded. "Yeah I know."
"Hey isn't this room about to get full of a lot of fans?" Leana asked grabbing me by the arm. When Matt said yes, she started to pull me back to the exit on the other side of the room. "Then we will see you guys on the bus."
Before any one could protest, Leana had pushed me outside and closed the door behind us. We were on the back side of the building and the bus was just around the corner. Once outside, she leaned against the wall and sighed.
"I love those guys and i'm happy they have fans," she said. "But some of the girls that come in there get crazy that they are with us. And you're new to all this. I didn't want them to tear you up, little mama."
I rose an eyebrow. "Little mama?"
Leana laughed. "That sounds so cute with your accent. Yes little mama. That's what I'm calling you."
I leaned against the wall with her and closed my eyes. I was pregnant. There was no denying it anymore. I had started feeling nauseous about two weeks ago and Leana got suspicious so when she got away from the rest of us and bought ten pregnancy tests. I used every single one. They all said positive.
How was i going to break this to Johnny? I got pregnant my first time having sex and the father is a famous rockstar. There's no way he is going to want this child. I didn't know what to do.
I heard the back door open and we both looked over to see who had joined us. It was Jason Berry and I relaxed again. He lit up a smoke and sighed with relief then faced both of us.
"It got too crazy in there for me," he said with a small laugh.
Leana laughed as well. "I know the feeling. That's why I got Lizzy out of there as soon as possible. She's still new to all of this."
I didn't know much about being pregnant but I knew that smoke, even second hand smoke, was dangerous for the baby so I took a few steps back from Jason. When he saw that I had done this, he rose an eyebrow at me. "What? You can't stand to be near me now, lizzy?"
I shook my head. "No that's not it at all, Jason. I just...um..." I racked around in my brain for an explanation but thankfully Leana was quick to the draw.
"She's had a terrible headache all evening and cigarette smoke just makes it worse," Leana said with a wink towards me.
"Oh," Jason said as he stomped it out on the ground. "Sorry, Eliza. I'm gonna go back in. You two should hurry and get on the bus before crazy fangirls swamp back here."
We both nodded as he turned around and disappeared through the door. After he was gone, we headed to the bus and moved to the back where I immediately collapsed onto mine and Johnny's shared bunk with a loud sigh. Leana sat next to me on the cot and patted my knee.
"Look, sweetie," she started and I leaned up on my elbows so i could see her. "You don't HAVE to have this baby. And you don't have to tell Johnny. I'll take you to a clinic and--"
I sat up all the way in shock and interrupted her. "AN ABORTION?! Leana I can't do that! I was raised to not believe in them unless under extreme circumstances." I swung my legs over the bunk and sat up straight. "Besides, I do want this baby. There's no doubt about that. My worries are about Johnny. What will he think? Will he want this baby? Will he still want me?"
Leana gave me asmall smile. "if he loves you as much as I know he does, then he will support you in no matter your choice. And so will the rest of us."
Before I could say anything, we heard lots of screaming and chanting coming from outside the bus. I followed Leana out to the front of the bus to see dozens of screaming fans crowding around the bus. I leaned onto one of the couches by the window and looked out at all of them jumping around hoping to see just a glimpse of their favorite people.
I smiled when i thought about the fact that just a few months ago I was one of those fans doing everything I could to be at one of their concerts. But look at me now! I'm living with one, the adopted sister of most of them and having the child of another. I was living a dream every fangirl has ever had.
I had made up my mind. I was keeping this baby no matter what because it was just more proof of how much my life had changed for the better.
Soon, we saw security come out and part the crowd in order for the guys to get through. They came out lead by Matt and they each stopped to quickly sign autographs. It took them a few minutes but when they finally reached the door to the bus, they waved goodbye to their fans and came up the steps.
Leana pulled away from the window and wrapped her arms around Jimmy who had found his shirt somewhere. I smiled at them as Johnny came around to pull me into his arms and kiss me.
"Hello, gorgeous," he said with a huge smile on his face. "I missed you."
"I missed you too, Johnny," I said giving him a small kiss as we sat down with his arm over my shoulders. We all sat there for several minutes while we waited for our driver and for the fans to clear out.
Jimmy was sitting across from me and he patted my knee, taking my attention away from a conversation i was having with Zack about guitars. Jimmy held up a small stuffed panda and smiled as he unzipped the back of it and pulled out a package of Twizzlers.
I laughed as I took them from him. "Now how did they know I was craving these?"
Jimmy grinned. "I might have mentioned at one of our earlier concerts that they were my favorite candy."
Finally, the driver showed up and we got on our way to a hotel since the guys were playing here again tomorrow night. Once on the road, I looked out the window, marvelling at the night life of Chicago.
At the Hotel, we each got our own rooms with Leana and I sharing ours with our men. In our room, Johnny was kissing me hard as soon as the door had closed. I kissed him back but shortly placed my palms on his chest and gently pushed him away.
He looked down at me with a sad yet confused look. "What's going on, Lizzy? Is everything ok?"
I nodded slowly and sighed. Might as well get this over with. I looked him in the eyes and grabbed his hands. "Depends on how you look at it." He tilted his head and i ignored how cute that was and kept going on with my mission. "Johnny...I'm pregnant."
His eyes got wide as he took a step back and pulled his hands out of mine. "What?! H-how? We've been so careful every time."
I shook my head slowly. "Not EVERY time, Johnny."
"Your birthday," he sighed and turned away from me running his hands over his semi-shaved head. "Fucking perfect. The one time I don't wrap it up..."
I put my hand on his arm but he quickly pulled away which hurt me more than it should. Why was he acting this way? I knew this could go good or bad but i never thought he'd pull away from me. "Johnny?" I said quietly trying to get his attention.
He whipped around and stared me down. "You can't keep it, Eliza. You're only twenty, we've only been together three months and let's not forget the fact that I'm in a famous band who is in the middle of touring. I can't have a child right now."
I gasped. "Valary is pregnant. Matt was more than excited."
"They're married!" He shouted and I took several steps back. "And they've known each other almost their whole lives! I love you, Eliza, but you can't keep it. I won't allow it."
At that, I narrowed my eyes and straightened up. "EXCUSE ME?! You won't allow it? Did you really just say that?"
Johnny opened his mouth to answer me but I held up my hand. "No. You don't get to talk right now. It is my damn body therefore it is my choice if I want to have this baby."
"It's my child!" he yelled.
"It's also mine!" I spit. "You don't have to want it, but I do and I'm having it."
I grabbed my bag that was laying next to the door and opened it. "If you want to talk to me about being part of this baby's life, then come find me. If not, we're through," I said without looking at him before I slammed the door behind me.
Out in the hall, I saw Zack leaning against his door frame with his arms crossed. When he saw me, he sort of waved. "Now where would you be off to?"
I shrugged. "I was going to go down to the front desk and get a room of my own. Johnny and I had a bit of a fight."
"A bit?" Zack said chuckling. "I think the whole fifth floor knows you had a fight."
I looked up and down the hall. "If we were so loud, then how come you're the only one out here? Usually the other guys would be out here ready to hurt someone."
He nodded. "True. But Jimmy and leana are making noises of their own, Matt sleeps with music playing in his headphones while on tour and I imagine that Brian is Skyping with Michelle." Zack stepped forward and took my bag from me. "And since Gena really didn't want to talk to me and I hate sleeping alone, I came out to see if you needed anything."
"I'm fine, Zacky, thanks. I'm going to go get a room of my own," I said reaching for my bag but he just simply carried it into his room and held the door open, waiting for me.
"Nonsense. Just sleep in here tonight. You won't have to go through all of that sign in crap and it'll help with my sleeping alone problem. It's a win-win."
"Are you sure?" I asked, not sure about sleeping in the same bed as my boyfriend's (maybe ex?) best friend. "Won't Gena be angry?"
Zack shrugged. "Why would she? We're not going to do anything. Just sleep."
I looked back at the door I had just exited and with a deep sigh, I followed Zack into his room.

Notes

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Eliza's outfit