Finding where i belong

Wills Pov

I spent the entire day thinking about Jimmy’s proposal. He wanted to meet me at the park across from my house at four. Syn came to try and make amends for him, and I can’t help it, i believed every word. I would feel stupid to attach myself to someone I hardly knew, I had to keep aloof and most of all I couldn’t fall for him. I’m surprised the thought occurred in the first place, I had never before found myself falling for anyone. I was skeptical about his intentions, I always was skeptical about any intentions unknown to me.
As the day drew closer to noon I picked myself up from my bed and stuck myself in the shower, for hours I stood there letting my thoughts race wild, I had to make the decision on showing up to see him.
My body seemed to have made the decision before I had, dressing me in jeans and a long sleeved black shirt and combing my hair back, unknotting the collection of tangles that progressed in growth over the days I had spent in bed. It was the first time since school started that I had the motivation to take care of myself, and go out. I finished up my eyeliner and put on warm socks, the weather was nippy and windy out today. It grew closer to 4 a clock and my stomach was turning with nervousness and regret, I didn’t want to make mess of things, I didn’t want to fall for him. I also did, I wanted him to fall for me too, there was that longing in the back of my mind for his touch, I was hooked on it.
I wrapped myself in a warm jacket and slipped on my sneakers, taking a deep breath and opening the door. I stopped in my tracks as I approached the end of my block, nearing the park and brought a cigarette to my mouth. I fumbled around for a lighter in my bag, flicking it and taking a slow drag hoping it would calm my nerves. I made my way to the park, it was 7 minutes after four and i predicted jimmy had left. I strolled into the park, the leaves were just turning brown and red contrasting with the green all around. I saw no sign of jimmy, walking further into the grass. I sighed, turning on my heels preparing to return home when I saw him, he was I sitting on a bench flicking a lighter and impatiently tapping his foot. I took another slow drag of the half dead cigarette and made my way towards him. His eyes lit up as he saw me and he immediately jolted from his seat making his way towards me.
“Will, I haven’t seen you for days. Have you been ok?” Jimmy’s voice was friendly and familiar.
“Yeah, you know just catching up on sleep”
He grinned and tugged on my sweater in a cute manner.
“Is this keeping you warm?”
“Yeah, I’m fine”
He grinned, putting his arm around me anyways.
“Can we put the past behind us?” His voice softened as he looked in my eyes with intent with curiously.
“Yes” I came off more genuine than I would have wanted to sound.
“I’ll be blunt, I truly like you will”
Jimmy smiled, not expecting me to reply, just giving off the loving tone he was known for.
I mustered up some courage and grabbed his free hand with mine, violently pulling it towards me and intertwining our fingers. He chuckled at this.
“Romantic.” He smirked at me, raising his eyebrows. I shoved him, he stumbled backwards at this taking me with him because of our clasped hands, next thing I knew I was directly in line with his body, standing so close to him that I could feel the warmth of his chest. His thumb rubbed softly on the back of my hand as he pulled me into his embrace, we stayed this way for what seemed like a long time, just rocking back and forth in the park holding one another. He told me about his music, and the songs that he wrote and his mother. I told Him about the pieces i used to conjure up on the piano, stories about my dad and his band which I managed to make him laugh in which he’d throw back his head, or put his forehead on mine. I realized how easy it was to talk to jimmy, how he pulled me close to him only to ask me my favorite song, and he picked me up and spun me around when I least expected it. I took a couple steps back from where we stood, and got a good look at his smile. He grinned at me, his eyes squinted slightly in happiness.
“Would you like to come see the boys for a bit?” He asked
“Sure” I smiled at him and took his hand.

Notes

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