Finding where i belong

As soon as the bell rang I packed up my stuff and bolted out of the classroom, Johnny and his friends were already ahead of me. The tall lanky member of his pack held the door open for me, i nodded in appreciation realizing he was the one i had made intent eye contact with from across the classroom earlier.
"thanks" i mumbled with a small grin, keeping myself friendly for now- this guy seemed somewhat approachable and friendly himself.
"Sure!" he said and grinned right back at me.
"I see you're making friends with Will, jimmy" johnny Winked at the both of us, he seemed to be the most well- lets say excitable member of their little pack. Jimmy didn't seemed phased by his commentary, and extended a hand towards me.
"hey, im Jimmy" He shook my hand softly and smiled at me.
"i've realized you've already met Johnny, and Syn?"
"yeah, they bummed a cigarette off me this morning" I poked a little fun at them, not realizing my friendly manner and surprising myself somewhat. The boys got a kick out of this and laughed, pushing syn and Johnny in a joking manner.
"Hitting on the new girl first thing in the morning?" laughed one of the boys, he was tall and muscular. He wore a Nirvana T-shirt and a bandana, he seemed to lead the group a little bit, he was quite good looking with silver tunnels and a lip ring.
Right away i felt my face flush but i kept a solemn expression and raised my eyebrows in slight amusement.
I realized these boys had followed me right to the front school doors, it was time for me to part ways with them and get the hell out of here. I tried to leave but Johnny put a hand on my shoulder
"Hey will, come get acquainted with us for a little bit?" He nudged me pointing towards the school field.
"Ive really gotta go.."
"C'mon new girl" one of the boys chimed in, this one was slender with dark hair and facial piercings.
"fine, an hour" i sighed

I sat in the field with these new acquaintances id somewhat made, or been forced into making. They each introduced themselves one by one, I already knew Johnny he was the first i met. He had short spiky hair and hazel eyes, he was the shortest of the group but he fought to make his presence felt. The next was brian, or 'Syn' I had met him earlier today too. He was slightly unfriendly looking, the most intimidating member i would say so far. he had messy black hair and a slender face with prominent cheek bones. A small gold nose ring decorated the right side of his face. The next i had met today was jimmy, who's hand i had shook earlier today in the hall. He was by far the most intriguing member of their group, in looks and well how he acted.
He was very tall and slender, his hair was parted to the sides and messy in the back and he had a small labret piercing under his bottom lip. The two i hadnt met were Matt and Zacky, matt was the muscular one who i had already scanned over in the hallway today, he had a toothy grin and dimples. I could see that girls swooned over him, he was quite charming. Zacky was darked haired with A septum piercing and snake bites, another interesting look in this peculiar group of boys. A couple of other girls sat with us, one introduced herself to me as tat she had short blonde hair and an eyebrow piercing. her blue eyes were beautiful, i could see why she caught others staring at her so often. The other was lila, she had long brown dread locks and a friendly smile.
"So Will, you're new here" Zacky pointed out the obvious
"yeah" i mumbled
"its super fucking shitty hey?" Tat scoffed
"hey dont intimidate the girl" Matt laughed and punched tats shoulder flirtatiously.
" like, will, right? You're like super cute" Lila smiled in my direction. I couldn't help but smile back at the compliment. I wasn't quite sure what to say so i laughed awkwardly.
"Jimmy seconds that" Johnny poked fun at jimmy catching him directing a smile towards me.
"fuck off" Jimmy pushed Johnny over onto the grass. The girls laughed at this, they were so perky i did not feel like i was in the right place.
"So Will, where do you live?" Jimmy changed the subject. The group got a kick out of this too, chanting some 'oohs' and 'looks like jimmys interested' I explained that i lived a couple blocks from here down in greendale, i told them my adress 26 greendale drive. I kicked myself for this, they didn't need to know.
" In all seriousness, nice shirt" Jimmy shyly pointed at my old Metallica sweater.
"Thanks, i got it when they came here,"
"shit really you went to their gig?" zacky chimed in "fuck we wanted to go so badly, it was way past our budget though. You must be loaded." In all reality i wasn't, and i didn't want to make the rich snob impression on them.
"Well my dad got free tickets, he played in a local band here." i pointed out. Jimmy seemed interested in this.
"really what band?" he prodded. i didnt feel like explaining, fortunately Matt cut him off.
"we play in a local band here too, were just getting started but were getting a little more well known. If you like Metallica you should check us out. We live in greendale too, maybe we could come by with a cd?"
"matt stop Promoting the band constantly." Syn argued with Matt.
"wait, Will what band was your dad in?" Jimmy asked me intently, he nudged his glasses slightly. He was extremely cute. Why did i just think that? I hope he couldn't tell. Out of sheer embarrassment at my own thoughts i obliged to tell him the facts.
" he played in Minor Murder" i replied.
"No fucking way!" Zacky exclaimed.
"theyre super intense, i saw them years back" Tat stated.
The boys were thrilled by this.
" No, seriously Will they were one of our major influences years back, thats fucking awesome!" said matt excitedly.
I should have been proud but it wasn't, the topic was too close to tragedy. something i didn't talk about- ever.
"Will, thats so cool, its a shame the band broke up." jimmy pointed out to me.
"yeah." i muttered, i was this close to leaving. I felt a wave of anxiety wash over me.
"wait, which member was your dad?" asked Johnny. Why were they so fucking curious. I shrugged and they all seemed confused.
"Let me guess, drums?" Matt elbowed Jimmy and winked, i guess thats what he played in their little band.
"no."
"he was totally the bass player man." Johnny added
"uh, no" i stated.
"cmon tell us!" zacky whined. i choked, i wasnt supposed to feel this way when explaining small matters of past issues.
"he was the lead guitarist." i muttered, dusting off my pants and preparing to stand up leave.
The group fell silent, they all knew of the event that broke up the band. They all knew he killed himself, my face felt flushed and i felt weak, why did they bring this up.
"He was awesome, Will." Jimmy broke the silence, he put it hand on my shoulder in an act of consoling. The group agreed and in turn each smiled at me, not bringing up the topic of his suicide.
I then stood up.
"nice meeting you." i squeaked out, my throat felt horse. fuck dont let the past affect you will, dont fucking cry.
"Hey wait-" Jimmy stood up after me, but i was walking away already. He hurried after me.
"Will, i live a couple blocks from you and i was wondering if i could join you?" He asked me.
i nodded at him, i didnt want to seem like a bitch in front of these new people. They all gawked at him and joked around in the group as we walked away together, the awkward silence of the topic at hand before i left seemed to fade from the group as they laughed and smiled at each other. They were all so carefree, fuck i was intrigued and embarrassed.
Jimmy took quick steps to catch up with me, he was very friendly and in his friendliness he didn't hide any bit of affection. For his friends, and even for me, practically a stranger.
"Will, it seems you didnt want to talk about your dad, im sorry. We all Knew what happened to him, it was a big thing around here years ago and im sure you got the brunt of it. So i just wanted to say im sorry." Jimmy smiled at me and brushed his hand against my side. The sensitive topic grinded my nerves but this boy, he was soothing and sincere. What did he want from me?
"Dont worry about it." I stuttered. Fuck why was i a nervous wreck? I wanted no attention from any of them. I brushed the topic off of me and regained my composure smiling at jimmy.
"Good, you seem like a strong girl Will." Jimmy sincerely stated. i laughed awkwardly at this which made him blush.
"Im sorry, it hits close to home man." Jimmy regained his manly position, but his sentence made me wonder.
"how so?" i asked.
"my mom suffered the same- well fate."
"oh." i stated. Fuck where was my sympathy?
"im sorry, thats awful." i said. i decided to go on. "Ive recovered from the accident i mean it was years ago, im not a fan of the topic myself but thats not why i left the group." i said clearing up my actions.
"no no its okay!" he laughed. "Well will, im glad its gotten easier for you!" he put his arm around me and squeezed me with a toothy grin. Fuck it was adorable, fuck fuck fuck. I laughed and shot a smile in his direction.
"so you dont mind talking about it, with a complete stranger?" I asked him.
"No, ive found it helps... hey will can i clear something up with you?" he asked me. " i knew who you were from the moment i saw you, i mean you were all over the news years ago. It was a really big deal around here. im sorry i prodded you when we were in the group talking."
I was slightly irritated at this, he knew who i was? He knew what happened and yet he still bothered to bring it up and ask further questions. I kicked a stray pinecone in our path as we walked.
"i see" I mumbled.
"no hard feelings, right?" He asked me.
"sure." I kept one word replying him. he could tell i was pissed off.
"I wanted someone to talk to about it, im sorry i was selfish im a jerk." Jimmy laughed embarrassed and shameful at the same time.
"its okay!" i managed a smile in his direction. "im here if you ever want to talk about, im sure you're over it by now though..." i said to him.
"4 months ago." Jimmy said. I was confused.
"what?" i asked
"four months ago she killed herself, it still bugs me, it confuses the hell out of me like yknow?" jimmy looked down and kicked at the sidewalk. "this is my stop." he changed the mood.
"im sorry-" i was cut off mid sentence.
"id really like to see you again Will, i enjoy your presence" Jimmy smiled at me as we arrived at his block. and before i knew it we were looking in each others eyes . I looked down out of embarrassment, he was so sweet but i barely even knew him.
"here." i wrote down some digits on a piece of paper and handed them to him.
"this is my house phone, if you ever need to talk give me a ring."
He smiled and took the paper from my hands and stuffed it in his pocket.
"perfect."
We stood there for a moment before he grabbed my hand and squeezed it.
"ill see you tomor-" Jimmy was cut off mid sentence by a rampage of his friends coming down the sidewalk at full speed.
"GET THE FUCK INSIDE GO GO GO" squealed Johnny. They were running down the sidewalk like maniacs, jimmy still holding my hand pulled my inside his house.
"What the fuck is the matter?" jimmy said as they slammed the door.
"get down." Syn said as he pushed me towards the ground, stumbling he fell on top of me putting a finger to my mouth.
"shhh" he said.
Matt tackled Jimmy to the ground just as we all heard a cop car zoom down the road full speed.
A minute passed as we got up and dusted ourselves off, i was blushing as syn pulled himself off of me. Jealousy stirred in Jimmy's expression but it faded as Matt pulled out 3 cartons of beer.
"eeeeeeeh?" he shook the cartons at us and the boys fell to the ground with laughter.
"you guys robbed a liquor store?" i asked with amusement. Matt winked at me and put his arm around me.
"yes Will, guess whos getting drunk tonight?!" The boys cheered. Even jimmy, who was still a little shaken from their sudden interruption.
"have fun guys" i laughed. "ive gotta go."
Matt wouldn't let go of my shoulder.
"wait Will check out our demo first" he shoved the cd at my face.
"Fine."i nodded goodbye at the boys as they cheered their beers.Jimmy smiled at me and patted his pocket with my number in it as i shut the door.

Notes

A lot of this is completely fictional such as Wills dads band 'Minor Murder' and jimmy's mom.