Nothing else matters

Ana's POV

I got a message from Romy, she wanted to meet me tomorrow - I would rather not go out and meet her here but she wrote me not buts… so I don’t get a choice in this.
And maybe I should try to live on? Maybe I should try harder to forget about Brian?
Oh damn you, Ana! Trying not to love him, only makes me love him more.
Okay, I'll go meet her for an hour, she will be happy and she will see that I'm okay.
After that I had to concentrate only about my new work and about finding a new flat.

To be honest, I was scared that if I would cancel this date with her she would give up on our friendship and I will push her away and she wouldn't be talking to me anymore and that our contact will run out.
We're going to celebrate my new job. I really like it there, the people were so nice, my colleague Amanda asked me about Brian she had recognized me from the photos, but I told her that I don't want to talk about it and she understood it.
"Ana, you look so bad…" That was the first think Romy said when she saw me.
"Hi Romy, It's nice to see you, too" She started to laugh. And yes I know that myself that I look like shit."So where we're we going?"
"Oh, you'll like it! It's a new bar ‘The Corner’" Romy replied while driving us there.

This new place looks really nice. Not too many people here, just normal place to sit, drink and eat. We ordered drinks and sat on one of tables in the back.
"And how was your first workday?" Romy asked when we were settled down.
"It was good." I said briefly. She just smiled, and I knew that something was wrong here.
Maybe something wrong with Zacky? Or maybe with Brian?! Oh no no please
"Hey Romy is everything okay?!" she just nodded and looked nearly every moment back to the exit or on her mobile. She looked so nervous and now I was sure that something was wrong.
Suddenly she smiled and stood up. I turned around to see what made her smile like that and my heart stopped. Jimmy walked towards our table with a big smile on his face, then I felt a tingling sensation all over body, those feeling which I only felt when Brian was near. Just a few seconds later he walked in and my legs buckled and I needed to hold on to the chair to keep me from falling.

Brian's POV

"No way, I am not going anywhere!" I didn’t want to talk about going anywhere.
"C'mon, you must finally go out! How many weeks have passed since the last time you were somewhere else then the fucking liquor store?"
Must he always be so pesky? "Is it so hard to understand it, I said I am not going anywhere?!"
"Damn it, Brian. You can't stay here forever, you have to live again. Your life goes on. You have friends, family, you've work to do and you used to love it. Okay, I understand, she is more then just any girl. I love her, too, really, but you're one of the most important persons in our band and you know it. We can't go on without you, so take your ass from this couch and come eat and drink something with me." Jimmy was getting on my nerves with his speech.
"If I go with you now, will you leave me alone?"
Jimmy started to smile from ear to ear.
"Okay then just give me 20 minutes" I went to the bathroom to take a quick shower.
I know that he was right, I can't leave the band, they are my best friends and music was my life.
But anyways my only hope was that if I would go out with him, he'll stop to torture me for the next couple of days and just leave me alone. I looked at the mirror, fuck, I look like shit, if Ana saw me like this I'm sure that she wouldn't like it.
Should I continue to lie to myself? I know that she will never come back to me but deep down in my heart I still have a little hope that someday I just wake up and she will be lying next to me still asleep and everything was just a nightmare.
I put on some clean clothes and my sunglasses to cover my bloodshot eyes.
"Okay, let's go." I said to Jimmy.
"Where are we going again?" I knew that he haven’t said it and I wasn’t interested but I asked anyway.
"There is a small bar without many people. I thought you wouldn’t handle too many people at once." We arrived at the new bar and Jimmy looked way too excited and I know that something bad is about to happen. We went inside and he walked straight to the back of the bar.
I looked around and stopped abruptly, winked a few times to make sure that it wasn’t just my imagination. Ana was standing in front of me.

Notes

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