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Romy’s POV

We were at Zacky’s home. It wasn’t so late so we still had some time together. I felt bad for Brian, he was so out of his mind that he even wanted to start a fight with one of his best friends. I felt like we hadn’t done enough. I thought that Ana and I could really be friends and now she just vanished like that. There had to be something wrong.
“Come on Romy, we have some time for ourselves now. I have a good idea where we can share them…”, he smiled at me and motioned towards his bed.
Then I got an idea I could try at least one last thing for today. “Sorry Zack, I got an idea. I will try one last thing then I come back home, ok?” I kissed his lips and wanted to go but he already grabbed my waist and pulled me into a tight embrace.
“Noooo… Romy… please don’t leave me alone. I want you here by my side, right now. We didn’t have any time together since we are… well together.” He kissed me again.
“I know Zack, and I promise I will just try this and then I am all yours, ok? Come on, please. It won’t take that long.” I kissed him again and grabbed my bag.
“Then let me come along, please?!” Zacky tried again.
“No, Zack that wouldn’t be a good idea. I will go alone, but babe, I will be back as soon as possible.” “Oh damn, Romy. Ok, but hurry up.” I kissed him one last time and went to my car.

I drove over to Ana’s parent’s house and wanted to try one last thing, they didn’t open the door for Brian but maybe if I go there alone and tell them that I was with Ana at the Uni they will tell me where she is at. I knocked at the door and a few minutes later a woman opens the door. “Hi, I am Romy. I was with Ana at the Uni and wanted to talk to her again. Is she at home?” Ana’s mother shook her head, “No, she doesn’t live here anymore. Try to call her.” “Yes, I already did that. But I couldn’t reach her, can you tell me the address where I can find her? I just wanted to catch up with her I didn’t see her after Graduation, you know.” “Oh, ok… try it at her friend’s house Kate. I will give you the address, wait a second.” Her mother went back inside and gave me a small note with an address. I thanked her jumped back into my car and drove over. It was not too far away.

Again I knocked at the door. It took some time before someone opened. “Hi, I am Romy. I heard that Ana is here, can I talk to her, for a second?” The girl at the door looked me up and down, “I gotta go to work so… Come in, second door on the right. Bye!” The girl took a bag from the door grabbed her jacket and walked outside. I closed the door and went to the second door on the right. Ana sat there on the couch. “ANA!” I ran towards her and hugged her to me. She looked at me shocked, “What are you doing here? And how did you find me? Are you alone?!”
“Yes, I am alone. I was at your parent’s house and told your mother I went to the Uni with you, so… she gave me this address. Damn it, Ana! Why did you leave like this and hide here? Do you know what Brian is going through?! What we are all going through?! We searched the whole goddamn city for you. And Brian… he is a complete mess… how you leave him like this. And I won’t leave her until I have all the answer’s believe me. And I am just one fuckin’ moment away to call Brian and Jimmy and tell them where you are… When I think about it.. I will call them right now!” “NOO! Stop it! Please, Romy. I will… I will try to explain, ok. But promise you won’t tell Brian where I am. You need to keep this a secret.”

Ana's POV

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck.. I can't believe that she found me here. I thought that I was safe here.
I haven’t thought about telling my mom not to tell anybody where I am.. I just said don’t tell Brian where I am.. Damn it..Stupid Ana!
And what can I tell her now? What if she goes straight to Zacky or even worse to Jimmy and Brian? Should I lie or tell the true?
"Soo, I am waiting… explain it" Romy looked at me angrily.
"Romy, Please.. Promise me that you don't say anything to anyone.. don’t tell Brian anything.. You have to promise me."
"Okay, Okay, I promise. You can trust me, Ana“, she grabbed my hand.
And I start talking. I told her everything, the articles on the newspapers, my discussion with Larry. "Oh my God, Ana. I didn't know. No one knew any of this. Damn Larry. How could he do that? But you gotta listen to me, Ana. You have to get back together with Brian. You love him.
And wow Ana, look at you, you really… look horrible…you lost so much weight and you've dark circles under eyes, I bet that you are crying a lot, just like Brian.."
What? Brian was crying? Because of me? Oh no..
"I can't do that Romy. I just can't, it will be better this way, believe me."
"Better? Better for whom? For sure not for the two of you. Brian is depressed, we never saw him like this. He is drinking all time, he is not playing his guitar anymore, every time when he was sad, he just played, now is different. We really worry about him. I can't look at him; he looks so bad, so bad just like you. He loves you, Ana."
I couldn’t listen to it anymore, tears running down my face again.
"Hey, don't cry" she said, and embraced me, that only make me feel worse.
"Oh Romy.. I miss him so fucking much. But I can't.. I can't change my decision, now"
"Ana, please..", she really begged me.
"No, Romy, I can’t be the reason to destroy his career, his life… I just can’t!" I shook my head at her.
"Ana, you don't understand. His career will be destroyed if you won't go back to him. He has no strength to work, to think about anything else then you."
" But I know that, in a few days, maybe a few weeks he will be good again. He will forget about me, and will be okay"
Really? I want him to forget about me? My heart screamed NO!
"Oh Ana, please, think about it, maybe change your...." Romy tried again.
"Stop it! I love him too much to mess with his life. And you promised me that you'll keep my secret." "If that really is what you want. I will keep it, but Ana, promise me that we will be in contact, okay? And that you think about it. And please keep in mind that I will always help you if you need me." "Thank you Romy." I hugged her.
"Oh Ana, we all miss you"
"I miss you, too." I sobbed.
"Ok, I gotta go back to Zacky.” she smiled a little.
We said goodbye, and I started to cry again. What if she is right? What if I should go back to Brian, try to explain the whole situation? What if he really can't work now? The last thing I want, was to hurt him in any way. I did all this exactly to try to not hurt him. Oh… really want it, to be back in his arm, feel his body next to mine, see his smile, and say that I love him, and hear that he loves me too. But it's impossible. He will hate me now, it will be even worse if I would go back now. I must learn to live with that, and everything will be okay. And tomorrow, I have my first job interview, I should look good. I need to stop the crying.

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