Hannah’s P.O.V
Yesterday’s events made for a restless night’s sleep, making for an exhausted Hannah the next morning.

How could I go from planning by girlfriend’s wedding party and picking out my wedding dress to reading texts on my fiancée’s phone from another woman he’s been seeing behind my back?
I stood under the spray in the shower for thirty minutes longer than I meant to. The water was running cold by the time I got out. I stood in the mirror, completely naked, my towel dried hair hanging down my back. On the counter in front of me were my pain meds, the ones I’d be on for the rest of my life, and my anti-depressants, the one’s I’d been on since I was younger, on and off for years.

I looked at my reflection, taking in every scar, from the stabbing by Andrew to the wire Kyle tied me up with around my wrists and ankles. My mind wandered to Andrew and how everything had been a lie, he never loved me from the start, but he made me fall for him, believe that he was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, that we’d have children and grow old together in Scotland, but that all went to shit when I wanted to come to America, it was clear now why Andrew didn’t want to come out here with me, he knew I’d work the whole thing out, he knew Sarah would come into the picture and everything would be revealed. But still, I loved him, but I was young and naïve when I did. Now, Matt was the man I loved.
I thought Matt loved me too, obviously I was wrong. The start of our relationship was rocky, I’ll admit that, then Val came into the picture and he was still fucking her, then I fucked her, and then… Matt and I got engaged, and now? He’s cheating on me again, he’s vanished with his whore and no one knows where he could be.

“Fuck it,” I said to myself with a shake of my head. I popped two of each of my pills and started working on getting myself ready for my morning with Erin, Val and Gena.
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An hour later I was ready. I was dressed in a white blouse, black skinny jeans, black heels and a black blazer. My hair was pinned up neatly in a bun with my bangs hanging down to frame my face. My makeup was natural, but more than normal to cover the bags under my eyes and the paleness of my skin.

“You sure you want to do this today?” Erin asked me as she pulled up outside the café where we were meeting the girls.

“Honestly?” I asked, she nodded her head “All I want to do today is hide under my covers in the dark and drink myself into a coma, but I can’t just do that because Matt bailed on me a month before our wedding,” I told her “I can’t let this ruin me, I’ve been through so much and I’ve come so far, this isn’t the worst thing to happen to me,”

“You’re right,” She smiled at me “Plus, you’re still wearing your ring, why is that?”

“I don’t know,” I told her honestly, looking at the ring and playing with it a little “Something inside of me doesn’t want to believe that he would do this to me, a part of me wants to believe that he’s going to come back to me one night and tell me he just… ran off to clear his head because he got cold feet and that he wasn’t burying his dick in some two dollar whore,”
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When we finally entered the café the ladies greeted us with big hugs and light kisses on the cheeks.

I was sat across from Val, beside Erin, who was across from Gena. I was drinking coffee and getting myself pretty buzzed off of the caffeine since I hadn’t eaten anything, so I ordered myself a triple chocolate muffin and a tea to calm myself down.

“Hannah,” Val cooed softly at me, reaching across the table and taking my hand, her thumb brushing across the top of my fingers and my engagement ring “I know that this is hard for you right now, but I promise, when he turns up again, whatever happens, I’m here for you as well as Erin, okay?” I nodded, pressing my lips into a firm line as tears started to form in my eyes. I felt Erin’s hand on my back, rubbing soft, small circles.

“Hey,” I chuckled, wiping at my eyes quickly to stop a few tears “We should comfort you too,” I turned to Erin, my hand still in Val’s “You don’t know anything about where Brian is, how are you holding up?” I asked, holding her hand with my free one.

“I’m holding up,” She smiled weakly “I had a restless night, I know you did too, but they found his car and it didn’t look too bad, there was no blood and no sign of injury anywhere, so I know he’s alright, I just want to find him,”
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After coffee the girls talked us into some retail therapy, we got our nails done and shopped around a little before deciding it was time to get some dinner and head home.

“Could you… maybe…” I sighed, I hated asking for things, especially when they made me look weak “The three of you, wanna stay at my place tonight?” I asked quickly “I really don’t want to be alone right now, maybe we just go back there and get shitfaced?” I asked with a nervous laugh.

“You two head back to Hannah’s,” Gena said, pressing a quick kiss to Erin’s cheek “And we’ll be over in an hour with alcohol and takeout,”

“Sounds good,” Erin and I said in unison.
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Erin and I got back to my house, we changed into something comfortable for sleeping in and found some good movies to watch, nothing action packed with car crashes and nothing romantic, they were all comedies. We were in need of a good laugh.

“I think today went pretty well,” I admitted to Erin as I dropped myself onto the sofa beside her and rested my head on her shoulder.

“Me too,” She smiled down at me as I looked up at her “Can I ask you something?”

“You just did,” I chucked she gave me the ‘come on now’ look “Okay, fine, what?” I laughed.

“What did it feel like?” She asked.

“What did what feel like?” I asked, sitting up to look at her face better.

“When you… read that text,” She sighed “When you saw that, what did it feel like?” She asked
“Because when Brent came in here and told me about Brian being missing from the crash I just felt numb, I worried, but my entire body just went… cold and I couldn’t process anything,”

I took a deep breath and thought for a minute. I looked around the room and saw Matt’s phone on the coffee table and some of the feeling came back to me.

“It was like someone reached inside my chest, pulled out my heart, ripped it, squished it, threw it on the ground and stepped on it, stabbed me in the stomach over and over again, kicked me and beat me with everything they had until… my world stopped,”

“Is that what you feel like now?” She asked “Like your world has stopped?” I nodded.

“It’s certainly slowed down,” I chuckled light heartedly “I’m not planning a wedding anymore, nor trying for a baby, I’m probably about to call off a wedding and pray I’m not already pregnant,”

The one thing I wanted was for Matt to burst through the door and into my arms and tell me that he was in the car with Brian, that they got out and lost, but that they were alright and I was his woman, we were still going to get married and live our lives together. But I was harshly brought out of that daydream when Val and Gena rushed into the house with booze and food, snapping me back to the harsh reality that was my life… for the time being.

Something was seriously wrong.

Notes

This chapter is balls, i know, Im sorry, please dont hate me i love you ALL!!! MWAH
More to come from me, her chapter shall be amazing!

- LMV x