Disguised by Surroundings
Not Well
Papa Gates P.O.V
Matt and Brian had been off the wall since the girls had passed, it has been two days and the guys had completely moved into the new houses. When I went over to see Matt earlier he was writing lyrics… but the alcohol scared me. I went over to see Brian since we were heading back into the studio soon and they were gonna get busy… and losing those two girls was not good.
“Bri?” I called around and found Brian in the bedroom just lying in bed staring out the window
and I sat down at the end and I sat there with two or three magazines in my hand.
“What time is it?” He asked softly and I just sighed looking at the clock.
“It is one in the afternoon, you are starting to worry me and the guys… you need to get out of the bed and do something with yourself… maybe actually grieve Brian” I said and he just sat up and got out of bed walking over grabbing a shot glass and some whiskey and taking it down. He came back over and saw the magazines and he grabbed the one on the top and I sat there as he tried so hard not to cry from seeing reading about he and Erin while they looked at the house for the first time. He stood there silently for a moment and then threw it across the room.
“Can we just talk later dad, I really just need time to process this.. I just cannot take anything right now” He said and I just nodded and went to the girls old house to pick up the last of the stuff from Jimmy and he seemed… odd.
“What’s up Jimbo?” I asked him and he just shrugged and I just sighed.
“Is nobody gonna actually talk today?” I asked and he just took a deep breath and then hugged me.
“Just a lot to take in knowing that the two girls that we have spent so much time with and have fought for so long with are gone… its just weird” He said and I nodded packing up some stuff while we looked around the empty house.
“Have you seen Zack recently? He is the only one that I haven’t heard from in the past couple days” I said and Jimmy just rolled his eyes.
“He went on a rampage and told me that he was gonna go on a roadtrip to get his mind right… he acts like it was his fucking wife that died” Jimmy said like he was really tired of hearing Zack whine about it.
“Well Brian… he isn’t too good… and Matt is going into a whole new level of shitty” I said and knew that it was gonna take time but right now it was better to try and let go and focus on getting things right and music.
“They wanna stop doing this line of work completely but I just don’t know, I think that is letting go of the girls completely.. but I have backed off of people because I don’t wanna piss them off after that, just wouldn’t be fair” Jimmy said and I just sat there for a moment and then hugged him again grabbing the boxes and just sat in my car staring at the steering wheel.
Brian’s P.O.V
It didn’t help just seeing the tabloids… it was an open wound that somebody threw salt in… I
was angry, sad, scared and rather alone and it didn’t help knowing that next week we started opening up the next chapter of Avenged Sevenfold. I sat downstairs messing around on the guitar and I lied on the couch for a while just listening to music just trying to relax and when I looked at the mantel piece I just came face to face with Erin’s death. I got up and walked over grabbing the picture and then sitting back down and I rubbed the glass where she was and I just sat back holding it.
“I miss you” I said almost like she would hear me. I gotta admit that my father was probably right to worry about me because from who I was and taking this sort of thing… I wasn’t okay I was completely fucked in the mind.
“I just don’t understand why you had to leave me… we were supposed to be together longer! Have more time! You were too young for this!” I yelled rubbing underneath my eyes and I walked to the bedroom and her clothes were hung up in the closet and I saw the camisole that she was wearing when we fucked the first time. I ran my finger over the edge of it and I could still smell her perfume, I felt like she was still around. I sat on the bed and put my hands on my face and then grabbed a shirt walking over to Matt’s. He was working on a song but I just let myself in and grabbed some of his vodka that was sitting out.
“You ready for Monday” I said with a hint of sarcasm because I knew that he was doing about as well as me… which of course was… shitty. He took a huge drink nearly downing everything and didn’t answer he just wrote down lyrics.
“Well I can see that you just want to drink… so what do you say we just take this shit straight to the bar?” I asked and his head came up and he just grabbed his shirt and we walked down the street and right now… I am pretty sure that we were gonna get fucked up.
Matt and Brian had been off the wall since the girls had passed, it has been two days and the guys had completely moved into the new houses. When I went over to see Matt earlier he was writing lyrics… but the alcohol scared me. I went over to see Brian since we were heading back into the studio soon and they were gonna get busy… and losing those two girls was not good.
“Bri?” I called around and found Brian in the bedroom just lying in bed staring out the window
and I sat down at the end and I sat there with two or three magazines in my hand.
“What time is it?” He asked softly and I just sighed looking at the clock.
“It is one in the afternoon, you are starting to worry me and the guys… you need to get out of the bed and do something with yourself… maybe actually grieve Brian” I said and he just sat up and got out of bed walking over grabbing a shot glass and some whiskey and taking it down. He came back over and saw the magazines and he grabbed the one on the top and I sat there as he tried so hard not to cry from seeing reading about he and Erin while they looked at the house for the first time. He stood there silently for a moment and then threw it across the room.
“Can we just talk later dad, I really just need time to process this.. I just cannot take anything right now” He said and I just nodded and went to the girls old house to pick up the last of the stuff from Jimmy and he seemed… odd.
“What’s up Jimbo?” I asked him and he just shrugged and I just sighed.
“Is nobody gonna actually talk today?” I asked and he just took a deep breath and then hugged me.
“Just a lot to take in knowing that the two girls that we have spent so much time with and have fought for so long with are gone… its just weird” He said and I nodded packing up some stuff while we looked around the empty house.
“Have you seen Zack recently? He is the only one that I haven’t heard from in the past couple days” I said and Jimmy just rolled his eyes.
“He went on a rampage and told me that he was gonna go on a roadtrip to get his mind right… he acts like it was his fucking wife that died” Jimmy said like he was really tired of hearing Zack whine about it.
“Well Brian… he isn’t too good… and Matt is going into a whole new level of shitty” I said and knew that it was gonna take time but right now it was better to try and let go and focus on getting things right and music.
“They wanna stop doing this line of work completely but I just don’t know, I think that is letting go of the girls completely.. but I have backed off of people because I don’t wanna piss them off after that, just wouldn’t be fair” Jimmy said and I just sat there for a moment and then hugged him again grabbing the boxes and just sat in my car staring at the steering wheel.
Brian’s P.O.V
It didn’t help just seeing the tabloids… it was an open wound that somebody threw salt in… I
was angry, sad, scared and rather alone and it didn’t help knowing that next week we started opening up the next chapter of Avenged Sevenfold. I sat downstairs messing around on the guitar and I lied on the couch for a while just listening to music just trying to relax and when I looked at the mantel piece I just came face to face with Erin’s death. I got up and walked over grabbing the picture and then sitting back down and I rubbed the glass where she was and I just sat back holding it.
“I miss you” I said almost like she would hear me. I gotta admit that my father was probably right to worry about me because from who I was and taking this sort of thing… I wasn’t okay I was completely fucked in the mind.
“I just don’t understand why you had to leave me… we were supposed to be together longer! Have more time! You were too young for this!” I yelled rubbing underneath my eyes and I walked to the bedroom and her clothes were hung up in the closet and I saw the camisole that she was wearing when we fucked the first time. I ran my finger over the edge of it and I could still smell her perfume, I felt like she was still around. I sat on the bed and put my hands on my face and then grabbed a shirt walking over to Matt’s. He was working on a song but I just let myself in and grabbed some of his vodka that was sitting out.
“You ready for Monday” I said with a hint of sarcasm because I knew that he was doing about as well as me… which of course was… shitty. He took a huge drink nearly downing everything and didn’t answer he just wrote down lyrics.
“Well I can see that you just want to drink… so what do you say we just take this shit straight to the bar?” I asked and his head came up and he just grabbed his shirt and we walked down the street and right now… I am pretty sure that we were gonna get fucked up.
Notes
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Ugh.. I'm paitent so i can wait.. i also wonder what you have up your sleeves
11/12/14