Matt's P.O.V

I'd stayed at Val's longer than I thought I would, as in, instead of leaving as soon as I was done with her I fell asleep from the exhaustion from today. When I woke, Val was in her kitchen making coffee and breakfast for us.

"Aren't you going to stay for breakfast?" She asked as I grabbed my keys and shoved my shoes back on my feet all while doing my belt back up.

"Of course I'm not going to stay for breakfast!" I snapped.

"Whoa, you just got laid and now you're snapping at me?" She chuckled, moving over and wrapping her arms around my neck in attempt to pull me down into a kiss, but I firmly moved her out of my way.

"I have to go, Val, I told you this was the last time, don't expect me to ever call you again, because I won’t, but I gotta go right now because Hannah will be awake soon,"

Before she could protest I hurried out her front door and jumped in my car. I didn't bother turning on the radio as I hurried back to Hannah and Erin's place as fast as I could. I was so worried that she would already be awake that my blood was running so cold my hands were going numb and I was shaking and felt sick to my stomach.

I pulled up outside and jumped out of the car, rushing into the house expecting Hannah to just be waking up, I could grab a glass of water and run back upstairs and tell her I'd just woke up. But that plan went out of the window when I walked into the house and saw everyone sitting around looking beyond pissed and Hannah, was sitting on the couch, a blank look in her eyes as she turned her head slowly to look at me, her chin started to tremble and she covered her mouth.

"Hannah..." I said and she just stood from the sofa and walked into the kitchen but I followed her "You were never supposed to find that out,"

"What?!" She yelled suddenly, making me jump "Just like I was never meant to find out you stalked me?!"

"Hannah, please, it was the last time and she meant nothing to me," I pleaded with her.

"Yet she was worth ruining our relationship!" She yelled again, this time throwing a plate at me, I ducked just in time and the plate hit the wall behind me, smashing into pieces.

"I didn't know for sure if there was a relationship to ruin!" I yelled back "I thought our relationship had died," I sighed.

"Well you sure had one Hell of a time at the wake," She scoffed before turning away from me and leaning over the sink, I knew she was feeling sick about this, I was too.

"Please, Hannah, let's talk about this, we can get through anything," I said softly.

"Alright," She said "How was she?" She asked.

"What?" I asked.

"Come on, you said you wanted to talk about it so let's talk about it," She laughed "How was she?"

I knew everyone else, if they were still in the living room, could hear us but right now I wasn't exactly caring, but I did wish the guys could help me out on what to say right now.

"She was..." I trailed off "She's different,"

"Good different?" Hannah asked.

"Nobody likes change," I said under my breath. Hannah didn't say anything, she just grabbed the closest thing to her which happened to be a magazine and started hitting me with it "Hannah, stop!" I said after letting her hit my arms and my head with it, I grabbed her arms and held her still and looked into her eyes "Please," Again, she didn't say anything, her eyes just filled with tears and she covered her mouth with her hand and turned away from me.

"What are we going to do?" She asked.

"Order pizza?" I joked.

"I don't want to eat," She sighed.

"Hannah, you have to forgive me," My voice was pleading her again.

"I don't have to do anything, Matt!" She snapped before falling into one of the kitchen chairs "typical, just when everything in my life is going perfect, something ruins it, I should have just had sex with you last night," She was more talking to herself than me.

I crouched in front of her, my face level with hers and my knees on the floor, i placed my hands on her thighs and leaned into her face, kissing the corner of her mouth, and then the other side, her cheeks and then her lips, she just closed her eyes and let me kiss her, it was one sided because she wasn't kissing me back.

"No," She said firmly, standing up and moving away from me "You can't just kiss me and expect this to all be okay," her voice started to shake as the tears threatened to spill again "You slept with another woman, Matt," She pressed her hands to her eyes to keep in the tears "And now I just can't stop picturing you with her," She took a deep breath and sighed "You should leave, I can do this without you,"

"No, no, no," I said over and over as I tried to pull her to me "We're in love, you love me," I said, my throat was tightening as I fought back the urge to cry.

"Not anymore," She whispered into my chest.

"I can't live without you anymore," I told her and held her at arms-length "Without these arms," I rubbed her arms up and down "And your huge heart," I placed the palm of my hand over her heart before getting down on my knees, pressing my forehead against her lower stomach and my hands on her hips "Please don't do this," I begged and she took another deep breath, it was shaky and I felt one of her tears finally fall, landing on my cheek as I looked up at her and it merged with one of my tears.

"You should leave," She said, removing my hands from her hips.

"No," I cried "Please forgive me," I begged.

"Could you forgive me? If I'd slept with Johnny last night?" She asked.

"Absolutely," I said without thinking.

"Really?" She asked "If you knew that I had been naked with him, he had touched me and made love to me,"

"Alright," I said, closing my eyes and holding up my hand for her to stop "It would have been hard, but I could do it,"

"Maybe you could, but you're a lot stronger than I am," She looked me in the eyes "Goodbye, Matt," She whispered, her hand that she's placed on my cheek sliding off before she turned and walked out of the kitchen, attempting to walk out of my life.

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Hannah's P.O.V

When I walked out of the kitchen everyone jumped in the living room and tried to do something to make me think they hadn't just listened to everything that went on between Matt and I. Not that I cared, actually, it was a good thing because then I wouldnt have to explain to them what happened and why Matt, hopefully, wouldn't be coming back.

I was about to lose it so I hurried into my bedroom, closing the door behind me and leaning back against it. I covered my mouth with my hand and let a loud sob escape before I slid down the door. Once I landed on the floor I pulled my knees to my chest and tucked my head down and sobbed harder than I've ever sobbed before. My heart had been shattered into a million tiny pieces in my chest and I could feel it. I needed to numb the pain.

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I'd snuck out of my window and down into the back yard, walking off to the nearest liquor store where I bought three bottles of JD and one bottle of Vodka, yeah, that seemed like enough for tonight.

When I got back, nobody had been into my room to look for me, good, they didn't know I'd been gone. Erin knew that the best thing to do when I was in a state was to leave me alone for a while, but i'll admit that I actually just wanted my best friend with me right now, I needed someone to hold me while I cried because holding myself wasn’t working.

I changed into one of Matt's t-shirts he had left here a while ago, it hadn't been washed so it still smelled like him. I stripped out of everything else and sat on the floor in the t-shirt and my pants. I'd had to clean my face of smudged makeup and tear stains and I'd tied my hair up for when I threw up later I wouldn't get it in my hair. I hit play on my iPod and Anthrax poured through the speakers at an appropriate volume so that nobody would hear my sobs as they racked my body.

'Maybe someone will join me later' I thought to myself as I cracked open the first bottle of jack, putting the bottle to my lips and let the liquid burn my throat before I started crying again. See? I feel better already.
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I’ve been drinking for about six hours now, it’s getting dark and I can smell food cooking downstairs. I think Brian came up and knocked on my door a few hours ago but I slurred obscenities at him and he left. I was starting to sober up and the numbness was wearing off so the pain from the heartbreak was coming back.

There had been so many questions flowing through my head. How many times had he snuck out during the night to fuck that whore? Were they still a couple when we got together? Are they still a couple now?

“Hannah?” I heard Johnny ask from the other side of the door with a soft knock, when I didn’t reply, he tried again and I still didn’t reply.

“Come on Hannah, let us in,” Jimmy said and Johnny agreed with him, I told them to come in
“Oh my God,” Jimmy gasped when he saw all of the empty bottles on the floor and then me. My eyes were red and puffy but I was out of tears, my bandages around my hands were blood stained again, if I remember correctly I pretended my wall was Matt and Val.

“Are you alright?” Johnny asked and I shot him a look while Jimmy smacked the back of his head.

“Of course I’m not alright,” I tried to speak normally but it came out as a rough croak from all of the crying I had done “My heart was just ripped out of my chest and shredded right in front of my eyes, the man I loved cheated on me,”

“You still love him though, right?” Jimmy asked.

“Yeah, you two are meant to be together,” Johnny added.

“No,” I breathed, shaking my head “He’s a totally different person to me now,”

“Will you be okay eventually?” Jimmy asked and I nodded.

“I have booze and other men to numb my pain,” I chuckled dryly.

“What do you mean other-“ Johnny started to speak but I cut him off by pressing my lips againt his, a totally innocent kiss though, no tongues, no wandering hands, just my lips against his

“What was that for?” He asked when I pulled away.

“Yeah, is that really such a good-“ Jimmy started to speak too but I did the same thing to him “Idea? Yes, yes it is,” He laughed making Johnny and I laugh “What was that for?”

“I wanted to kiss my other two favourite band members, I’m not going to kiss Brian or Zack, so I wanted to kiss you two,” They both looked at me as though I was crazy, but they were smirking at the same time “Oh calm down, it was just a kiss, nothing else,”

“Dinner!” Erin called from downstairs and for the first time since this morning I was going to leave my room.

I stood off of the bed and wobbled a little, both men catching me before I collapsed.
“You alright there?” Johnny asked.

“Yeah, I’ve just spent most of my day sitting down or lying down,” I told him.

I wouldn’t let them help me down the stairs so Johnny went in front and Jimmy behind in case I fell either way one of them could catch me. When we got into the kitchen everyone was there except for Matt, Erin had made my favourite, Spaghetti Bolognaise and poured me a huge glass of coca cola. Everyone knew throughout dinner that what went down was terrible, conversation was small and I barely ate any food, just downed three huge glasses of juice and shoved the food around, eventually apologizing to Erin for not eating it.

“Don’t worry about it,” She smiled softly and sympathetically as she picked up my plate “I’ll keep it for you, you can re-heat it when you’re hungry,” She kissed the top of my head and set about cleaning up.

“I’ll help,” I said, moving over to the sink where she was washing so that I could dry.

“You don’t have to do that,” She said.

“I want to,” I told her and she smiled.

“Do you wanna talk about it?” She asked.

“Not yet,”

I wasn’t ready to talk about him or see him, I don’t know when I would be.

Notes

Okay, it MUST be over for Matt and Hannah now right?! What could he possibly do to make it all better again?!
Stay tuned for E!!

- LMV x