Promise Of A Lifetime
The Best Birthday Present Ever!
I was waken by Matt hovering over me shaking me to get up.
"What is it Matt? I was sleeping." I said yawning and stretching.
"Girl today is your birthday!" he said and I picked up my phone and seen the date. I smile big but I didn't feel any excited about being 18.
"What's the matter? Today is your 18th birthday. You should be happy." he said sitting down on the bed.
"Nothing is wrong. I mean I just feel a little off this morning." I said rubbing my eyes.
"You feeling alright?" Matt touched his palm to my head and it was normal.
"I'm just not feeling it today. I mean I'm drained. I guess because of me being excited last night." I said stretching again. I threw my legs over the bed and stood up. I knew Matt had to be staring at me. I could feel his eyes burning a hole in me as I walked to my closet to get some clothes.
"Yeah might be. Michelle told me the great news of them adopting you. Brian is such a giddy man now ha ha!" he said laughing and I couldn't help but laugh too. I brought my clothes out and laid them out on the bed.
"I need to take a shower and I'll be down in a few minutes alright?" I said getting a towel.
"Alright. I'll be doing something down there alright. If you need anything yell." He said and he walked out the door shutting it. I yelled his name loud and he came running back up to my room.
"What? What's wrong?" he panicked. I smiled and laughed at his worriedness.
"Just testing."
"You're just about as crazy as Jimmy is." Matt said and he left the room again. I couldn't help myself and besides he should have seen it coming. I took a nice hot shower. The warmth of the water pouring down my back relaxed me so much and I started regaining my energy.
I quickly wrapped the towel around me and walked out of the bathroom. I grabbed my black TRIPP pants and a Disturbed tank top and went downstairs to see why it was so quiet. Usually Jimmy is being loud and that was really strange that he wasn't making a sound. I got to the bottom of the stairs and went into the living room and there was no one there.
"If this is some kind of joke I'm going to kill all of you guys." I said to myself out loud. I walked into the kitchen and no one. I went all through the house and when I went to sliding glass door to go outside I was in for a surprise. Jimmy jumped up and down yelling out happy birthday like a madman. I swear he is loonier than a pet coon. I seen everyone here and I just couldn't help but smile.
"Guys you didn't have to do this!" I said smiling and blushing.
"We wanted your 18th birthday to be special and speaking of special, we have a huge surprise to lay on you in just a little while." Brian said smiling and he had a cute smile too but I couldn't do anything because he is now my father.
"I hate surprise especially when I don't know when it's going to happen." I said rolling my eyes.
"Then it wouldn't be called a surprise Aerial!" Jimmy yelled as he came over to me and gave me a bear hug. I rolled my eyes as he kissed my forehead and cheek just planting 18 kisses all over my face. I wiped off my face.
"Damn Jimmy. You miss me much or something?"
"Hell yeah girl! You're my best friend and I love you!" he hugged me tighter.
"If you want to keep me you're best friend you'll let go so I can breathe." I said as he let me go and I gasped for air. Johnny grabbed my hand and gave me a hug and led me to a chair and sat down.
"Now we have a few things for the birthday girl." Johnny said handing me a huge box. I ripped all the paper off and look into the box and it was full of Avenged Sevenfold and Disturbed Merchandise. I looked at everything and thanked Johnny and everyone else.
Brian handed me his gift and when I opened the box it was a little Jack Russell Terrier puppy. His brown spots mixed with the bright white fur made her absolutely gorgeous. I gave Brian a hug.
"What are you going to name her?" Matt asked.
"Well I don't know. She looks like she could get into shit all the time so how about...Rebel." I said petting the puppy. He smiled and so did I. I kissed the pup's head and put the collar on her that was with it. The collar had spikes all around it and it fit the name Rebel really well. Matt came over to me and stood there before he handed me a small box.
"I know it ain't much but I got you a little something." Matt smiled as I opened the box. I was shocked to find a beautiful heart shaped pendant and necklace. The pendant had the words Shadz loves the Raine on the back and a death bat on the front. I smiled as I tried to put it on. I handed it to Matt and he put it around my neck for me. I glanced down at it and hugged Matt around his waist.
"I love it Matt thanks. Thanks everyone for all the gifts I mean this is the best birthday I've ever had." I smiled and kissed everyone's cheek. I was wondering what the big surprise they had in mind for me. I could only imagine with these guys.
"So Aerial Raine Haner, would you like to hear you biggest and most hugest present of all time!" Jimmy was more excited than anyone in the room as Matt was talking to me. I can't believe he is that hyper.
"Yeah I guess."
"You will definitely love this." Johnny said smiling.
"What do you guys have up your sleeves?" I said cocking my eyebrow.
"I think your father should tell you." Zacky said looking over at Brian. He wasn't good at sharing information but he gave it a shot anyways.
"Well, we all talked to our manager and he said that it would be alright if you go on tour with us for 6 months. If, that is, you accept." Brian said smiling. I was too shocked to answer
"Hell yeah I accept!" I yelled and I ran over to him and hugged him around the neck holding him tightly.
"Girl I knew you would like it." Jimmy said excited more than the first time.
"Jimmy just don't be waking me up at all godly hours of the morning please."
"Oh I won't sweetheart....maybe." he smirked and I just rolled my eyes. The rest of my party went so well and shit and I was just jumping with excitement about going on tour with Avenged Sevenfold. We laughed and laughed about the crazy shit they did on their past tours.
MAYBE I'LL WAKE UP FOR ONCE....NOT TORMENTED DAILY BY YOU..
I looked at the number that shown on the screen of my phone as it rang and I didn't recognize the number so I answered it anyways.
"Hello?" I asked as I answered the strange number.
"Hey darling you remember me?"
"Who is this?" I asked again and the voice hit a familiar point in my body but for some reason I couldn't place it.
"You should know who this is."
"I asked you who the fuck this is and you better start fucking telling me." I said getting very angry.
"Your uncle Ray. God I miss fucking you every night. I'm going to find you bitch."
I got up and walked away from the guys. I was so pissed off for that son of a bitch to be calling me.
"Why the fuck are you calling me? What do you want?" I said calmly but I guess that angered him more.
"I want you to come home and if you don't I'll find your ass and drag you back here."
"I AM NOT COMING BACK! THAT ISN'T MY HOME!! I HAVE A FUCKING HOME NOW YOU ASSHOLE!" I yelled.
"Oh you'll come back. I'll be finding out where you are and I'll bring you back myself."
"YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME AND YOUR ASS WILL BE IN A GODDAMN PINE BOX BITCH!! I LEFT FOR THAT REASON AND I'M NOT COMING BACK. YOU COME ANYWHERE NEAR ME AND I SWEAR TO GOD THAT YOU WILL NOT BE GOING HOME ALIVE!" I clinched my fists and I heard Matt and Brian coming over to me. I looked their way with tears flowing down my face.
"Don't you threaten me young lady. You're already in a shit load of trouble for leaving Georgia and we will get you back."
"I DON'T THREATEN BITCH!! THAT WAS A MOTHERFUCKING PROMISE THAT I WILL KEEP IF YOU COME AROUND ME!!" Brian mouthed the words who are you talking to and I told him a rapist from my past. My eyes filled with so much anger and hurt.
"You won't do shit you little whore."
"YOU WANT TO FUCKING BET ON THAT!! YOU COME AROUND I WILL KILL YOU...I MIGHT JUST TORTURE YOU LIKE THE REST OF THE GODDAMN FAMILY DID!! I LEFT TO GET AWAY FROM YOU ALL AND THERE'S NO WAY IN FUCKING HELL THAT I WILL EVER COME BACK TO GEORGIA WHEN MY OWN FUCKING MOM NEVER PROTECTED ME FROM YOU, MY UNGRATEFUL BASTARD FATHER AND MY BROTHERS!! JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!" I yelled all those words and I could see that he was shocked at what I had said. I was tired of the fact that my mom actually wanted to be a mother but I am not falling for it because I know what will happen as soon as I go back. All the pain and suffrage I experienced when I was much younger will be back and I couldn't endure another round of hurt.
"I'll see you baby girl. I'll call you soon."
I was furious with him calling me that. My eyes had the stare of a psycho and I wanted to go on a rampage. I didn't care who I hurt with my words but I needed to make something clear to him before I hung up.
"YOU LISTEN HERE AND YOU LISTEN FUCKING GOOD. THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT EVEN GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME IS THE PEOPLE WHO ADOPTED ME BECAUSE YOU GOT TIRED OF ME AND THREW ME TO THE CURB!! I SWEAR TO GOD YOU BREAK THIS UP BETWEEN ME AND MY FRIENDS YOU WILL NOT SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY AGAIN!! OH AND IF YOU CALL ME AGAIN, I WONT ANSWER BECAUSE I WONT HAVE A PHONE TO FUCKING BE HARASSED BY YOU!!" I yelled and threw my phone against the brick wall and it shattered to pieces. I looked up and seen the looks on their faces and the tears that ran freely down my face. I wasn't going to take anyone's fucking shit any longer.
I needed to do tell that fucker off so damn bad and now I feel somewhat better. Jimmy had a strange look on his face when he seen the rage pulsating through the atmosphere. I backed myself against the wall and slid down bringing my knees to my chest and laying my head down. I felt like a bad person because I had never snapped that bad on someone before. Matt sat down beside me and wrapped his arm around me.
"What was that all about? Who was it?" Jimmy questioned. I looked up at Jimmy standing in front of me. I stood up and the look of pure rage and hate was still in my eyes.
"That, Jimmy, was one of the men that beat, tortured, and raped me daily from the ages of 4 to 16. My family did nothing to stop them from raping and beating me!! All the male members including my own father and brothers!! It hurt me so bad I just snapped. All the bottled up anger and aggression I wanted to take out on my family just now decided to pop out. I still have the scars from where they beat me and my own personal scars that I did to myself." I took my shirt off where I was only in my bra. I turned around and showed them the scars on my back. They shown up clear as day.
The healed burns and puncture marks from boards covered with either barbed wire or nails. I felt better after telling the guys about what happened to me. I hung my head. Matt pulled me into a tight hug petting my head. The rest of the guys piled in too along with the girls. I looked up at the sky and they all broke away. I looked at them with closed eyes and then opened them back up.
"Thanks for listening. I love all you all." I smiled and wiped my tears from my face knowing that they loved me so much.
"So when do we leave on tour?" I asked putting my shirt back on.
"In 4 days." Matt said smiling.
"Aerial I'm so sorry about what happened to you. If that asshole ever comes around you I'll make sure you never get hurt." Jimmy said and Johnny, Brian, Zacky and Matt all nodded with Jimmy.
"Thanks guys but if he does come around I won't hesitate to kill him but hell today is my birthday and I don't deserve to be depressed so how about a movie?" I suggested.
"Now you're talking! Movie night and sleep over!" Zacky said nodding.
"Hell yeah Zacky. Let's go." Jimmy said walking into the house. We all followed him into the house and I sat down on the couch along with Jimmy, Johnny, and Zacky. Matt came over and pulled me up and he sat down bringing me on his lap.
"Hey why does she always sit on your lap?" Jimmy pouted.
"She loves my lap."
"Matt...Jimmy I'll sit with you." I said getting up and sit on his lap. Jimmy smirked at Matt with a she's-all-mine smile. I looked at Jimmy and just rolled my eyes. Brian picked out a movie and we began watching it. I hate the opening credits to a movie. No one cares what movie is coming out whenever. Damn! I laid my head on Jimmy's shoulder and before I knew it I was overcome with the power of sleep.
"What is it Matt? I was sleeping." I said yawning and stretching.
"Girl today is your birthday!" he said and I picked up my phone and seen the date. I smile big but I didn't feel any excited about being 18.
"What's the matter? Today is your 18th birthday. You should be happy." he said sitting down on the bed.
"Nothing is wrong. I mean I just feel a little off this morning." I said rubbing my eyes.
"You feeling alright?" Matt touched his palm to my head and it was normal.
"I'm just not feeling it today. I mean I'm drained. I guess because of me being excited last night." I said stretching again. I threw my legs over the bed and stood up. I knew Matt had to be staring at me. I could feel his eyes burning a hole in me as I walked to my closet to get some clothes.
"Yeah might be. Michelle told me the great news of them adopting you. Brian is such a giddy man now ha ha!" he said laughing and I couldn't help but laugh too. I brought my clothes out and laid them out on the bed.
"I need to take a shower and I'll be down in a few minutes alright?" I said getting a towel.
"Alright. I'll be doing something down there alright. If you need anything yell." He said and he walked out the door shutting it. I yelled his name loud and he came running back up to my room.
"What? What's wrong?" he panicked. I smiled and laughed at his worriedness.
"Just testing."
"You're just about as crazy as Jimmy is." Matt said and he left the room again. I couldn't help myself and besides he should have seen it coming. I took a nice hot shower. The warmth of the water pouring down my back relaxed me so much and I started regaining my energy.
I quickly wrapped the towel around me and walked out of the bathroom. I grabbed my black TRIPP pants and a Disturbed tank top and went downstairs to see why it was so quiet. Usually Jimmy is being loud and that was really strange that he wasn't making a sound. I got to the bottom of the stairs and went into the living room and there was no one there.
"If this is some kind of joke I'm going to kill all of you guys." I said to myself out loud. I walked into the kitchen and no one. I went all through the house and when I went to sliding glass door to go outside I was in for a surprise. Jimmy jumped up and down yelling out happy birthday like a madman. I swear he is loonier than a pet coon. I seen everyone here and I just couldn't help but smile.
"Guys you didn't have to do this!" I said smiling and blushing.
"We wanted your 18th birthday to be special and speaking of special, we have a huge surprise to lay on you in just a little while." Brian said smiling and he had a cute smile too but I couldn't do anything because he is now my father.
"I hate surprise especially when I don't know when it's going to happen." I said rolling my eyes.
"Then it wouldn't be called a surprise Aerial!" Jimmy yelled as he came over to me and gave me a bear hug. I rolled my eyes as he kissed my forehead and cheek just planting 18 kisses all over my face. I wiped off my face.
"Damn Jimmy. You miss me much or something?"
"Hell yeah girl! You're my best friend and I love you!" he hugged me tighter.
"If you want to keep me you're best friend you'll let go so I can breathe." I said as he let me go and I gasped for air. Johnny grabbed my hand and gave me a hug and led me to a chair and sat down.
"Now we have a few things for the birthday girl." Johnny said handing me a huge box. I ripped all the paper off and look into the box and it was full of Avenged Sevenfold and Disturbed Merchandise. I looked at everything and thanked Johnny and everyone else.
Brian handed me his gift and when I opened the box it was a little Jack Russell Terrier puppy. His brown spots mixed with the bright white fur made her absolutely gorgeous. I gave Brian a hug.
"What are you going to name her?" Matt asked.
"Well I don't know. She looks like she could get into shit all the time so how about...Rebel." I said petting the puppy. He smiled and so did I. I kissed the pup's head and put the collar on her that was with it. The collar had spikes all around it and it fit the name Rebel really well. Matt came over to me and stood there before he handed me a small box.
"I know it ain't much but I got you a little something." Matt smiled as I opened the box. I was shocked to find a beautiful heart shaped pendant and necklace. The pendant had the words Shadz loves the Raine on the back and a death bat on the front. I smiled as I tried to put it on. I handed it to Matt and he put it around my neck for me. I glanced down at it and hugged Matt around his waist.
"I love it Matt thanks. Thanks everyone for all the gifts I mean this is the best birthday I've ever had." I smiled and kissed everyone's cheek. I was wondering what the big surprise they had in mind for me. I could only imagine with these guys.
"So Aerial Raine Haner, would you like to hear you biggest and most hugest present of all time!" Jimmy was more excited than anyone in the room as Matt was talking to me. I can't believe he is that hyper.
"Yeah I guess."
"You will definitely love this." Johnny said smiling.
"What do you guys have up your sleeves?" I said cocking my eyebrow.
"I think your father should tell you." Zacky said looking over at Brian. He wasn't good at sharing information but he gave it a shot anyways.
"Well, we all talked to our manager and he said that it would be alright if you go on tour with us for 6 months. If, that is, you accept." Brian said smiling. I was too shocked to answer
"Hell yeah I accept!" I yelled and I ran over to him and hugged him around the neck holding him tightly.
"Girl I knew you would like it." Jimmy said excited more than the first time.
"Jimmy just don't be waking me up at all godly hours of the morning please."
"Oh I won't sweetheart....maybe." he smirked and I just rolled my eyes. The rest of my party went so well and shit and I was just jumping with excitement about going on tour with Avenged Sevenfold. We laughed and laughed about the crazy shit they did on their past tours.
MAYBE I'LL WAKE UP FOR ONCE....NOT TORMENTED DAILY BY YOU..
I looked at the number that shown on the screen of my phone as it rang and I didn't recognize the number so I answered it anyways.
"Hello?" I asked as I answered the strange number.
"Hey darling you remember me?"
"Who is this?" I asked again and the voice hit a familiar point in my body but for some reason I couldn't place it.
"You should know who this is."
"I asked you who the fuck this is and you better start fucking telling me." I said getting very angry.
"Your uncle Ray. God I miss fucking you every night. I'm going to find you bitch."
I got up and walked away from the guys. I was so pissed off for that son of a bitch to be calling me.
"Why the fuck are you calling me? What do you want?" I said calmly but I guess that angered him more.
"I want you to come home and if you don't I'll find your ass and drag you back here."
"I AM NOT COMING BACK! THAT ISN'T MY HOME!! I HAVE A FUCKING HOME NOW YOU ASSHOLE!" I yelled.
"Oh you'll come back. I'll be finding out where you are and I'll bring you back myself."
"YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME AND YOUR ASS WILL BE IN A GODDAMN PINE BOX BITCH!! I LEFT FOR THAT REASON AND I'M NOT COMING BACK. YOU COME ANYWHERE NEAR ME AND I SWEAR TO GOD THAT YOU WILL NOT BE GOING HOME ALIVE!" I clinched my fists and I heard Matt and Brian coming over to me. I looked their way with tears flowing down my face.
"Don't you threaten me young lady. You're already in a shit load of trouble for leaving Georgia and we will get you back."
"I DON'T THREATEN BITCH!! THAT WAS A MOTHERFUCKING PROMISE THAT I WILL KEEP IF YOU COME AROUND ME!!" Brian mouthed the words who are you talking to and I told him a rapist from my past. My eyes filled with so much anger and hurt.
"You won't do shit you little whore."
"YOU WANT TO FUCKING BET ON THAT!! YOU COME AROUND I WILL KILL YOU...I MIGHT JUST TORTURE YOU LIKE THE REST OF THE GODDAMN FAMILY DID!! I LEFT TO GET AWAY FROM YOU ALL AND THERE'S NO WAY IN FUCKING HELL THAT I WILL EVER COME BACK TO GEORGIA WHEN MY OWN FUCKING MOM NEVER PROTECTED ME FROM YOU, MY UNGRATEFUL BASTARD FATHER AND MY BROTHERS!! JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!" I yelled all those words and I could see that he was shocked at what I had said. I was tired of the fact that my mom actually wanted to be a mother but I am not falling for it because I know what will happen as soon as I go back. All the pain and suffrage I experienced when I was much younger will be back and I couldn't endure another round of hurt.
"I'll see you baby girl. I'll call you soon."
I was furious with him calling me that. My eyes had the stare of a psycho and I wanted to go on a rampage. I didn't care who I hurt with my words but I needed to make something clear to him before I hung up.
"YOU LISTEN HERE AND YOU LISTEN FUCKING GOOD. THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT EVEN GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME IS THE PEOPLE WHO ADOPTED ME BECAUSE YOU GOT TIRED OF ME AND THREW ME TO THE CURB!! I SWEAR TO GOD YOU BREAK THIS UP BETWEEN ME AND MY FRIENDS YOU WILL NOT SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY AGAIN!! OH AND IF YOU CALL ME AGAIN, I WONT ANSWER BECAUSE I WONT HAVE A PHONE TO FUCKING BE HARASSED BY YOU!!" I yelled and threw my phone against the brick wall and it shattered to pieces. I looked up and seen the looks on their faces and the tears that ran freely down my face. I wasn't going to take anyone's fucking shit any longer.
I needed to do tell that fucker off so damn bad and now I feel somewhat better. Jimmy had a strange look on his face when he seen the rage pulsating through the atmosphere. I backed myself against the wall and slid down bringing my knees to my chest and laying my head down. I felt like a bad person because I had never snapped that bad on someone before. Matt sat down beside me and wrapped his arm around me.
"What was that all about? Who was it?" Jimmy questioned. I looked up at Jimmy standing in front of me. I stood up and the look of pure rage and hate was still in my eyes.
"That, Jimmy, was one of the men that beat, tortured, and raped me daily from the ages of 4 to 16. My family did nothing to stop them from raping and beating me!! All the male members including my own father and brothers!! It hurt me so bad I just snapped. All the bottled up anger and aggression I wanted to take out on my family just now decided to pop out. I still have the scars from where they beat me and my own personal scars that I did to myself." I took my shirt off where I was only in my bra. I turned around and showed them the scars on my back. They shown up clear as day.
The healed burns and puncture marks from boards covered with either barbed wire or nails. I felt better after telling the guys about what happened to me. I hung my head. Matt pulled me into a tight hug petting my head. The rest of the guys piled in too along with the girls. I looked up at the sky and they all broke away. I looked at them with closed eyes and then opened them back up.
"Thanks for listening. I love all you all." I smiled and wiped my tears from my face knowing that they loved me so much.
"So when do we leave on tour?" I asked putting my shirt back on.
"In 4 days." Matt said smiling.
"Aerial I'm so sorry about what happened to you. If that asshole ever comes around you I'll make sure you never get hurt." Jimmy said and Johnny, Brian, Zacky and Matt all nodded with Jimmy.
"Thanks guys but if he does come around I won't hesitate to kill him but hell today is my birthday and I don't deserve to be depressed so how about a movie?" I suggested.
"Now you're talking! Movie night and sleep over!" Zacky said nodding.
"Hell yeah Zacky. Let's go." Jimmy said walking into the house. We all followed him into the house and I sat down on the couch along with Jimmy, Johnny, and Zacky. Matt came over and pulled me up and he sat down bringing me on his lap.
"Hey why does she always sit on your lap?" Jimmy pouted.
"She loves my lap."
"Matt...Jimmy I'll sit with you." I said getting up and sit on his lap. Jimmy smirked at Matt with a she's-all-mine smile. I looked at Jimmy and just rolled my eyes. Brian picked out a movie and we began watching it. I hate the opening credits to a movie. No one cares what movie is coming out whenever. Damn! I laid my head on Jimmy's shoulder and before I knew it I was overcome with the power of sleep.
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