A Rockers Guide To Becoming A Father

Lesson Thirteen; Don’t talk to yourself; sure your innocent daughter will answer you! “Hey, it’s Jussi. No.” “Hey, it’s me” “No!” “Hey, with me” Again Brian shook his head, staring at his cell phone. Just one press on the button and he’d be calling Michelle. “She has caller ID anyway” Sophia, from her playpen, looked up to her father, a smile spread across her face. “What?” Brian smiled back, walking over to her, dropping himself onto his knees. “Do you wanna play? I know a thousandth things we could do, but for some you’re a bit too young still. I bet you don’t get hide and seek yet” Sophia just rambled in her own language, happily noticing her dad looked at her fascinated. His phone rang, making Brian jump up and run back towards the couch. “Yea hello?” “Hi” Brian had the feeling his heart fell down to the floor, his knees weak at once. “Hey girl” “Hey” Michelle said back, giggling a bit. “I was just wondering.. how you are and such” Sitting upon the couch Brian smiled, not remembering he ever enjoyed a phone call this much, even after only three sentences. “I’m doing okay.. I guess. Am babysitting my princess now, so someone’s keeping me busy” “Busy? Oh, I’m sorry then, I shouldn’t have called” Brian started at his phone as soon as he heard a ‘click’ on the other side. “No, girl please don’t tell me..” Calling back immediately, Brian hoped Michelle would pick up. “I didn’t mean to bother you” She said first thing. “You’re not, you could never bother me” On the inside Brian blamed himself. How could he start flirting with her already?! He still had to realize a lot of things had happened, and that they weren’t back to normal yet. Sighing, Michelle grew silent. “I don’t know what to say to you” Thinking of what Hailey said, Brian decided to give it a shot. “Well.. If you want to, you can come over, I am at Hailey’s now” “I don’t know Brian” “Why not?” He whispered back. “I.. I don’t know if I’m ready to see you yet” Michelle replied honestly. “What?! But girl, I mean, I’m not planning on getting into your pants or anything, I just wanna see you again. I missed you so much but I had promised not to call you and just..” Brian knew he had to stop speaking at the very moment. “I just love you” “No, don’t do this” Michelle sniffled a bit. “Don’t do this Brian, please” Standing up and pacing the length of the living room, Brian started to get desperate. “Just come over, we’ll have a beer and just talk about Sophia, okay? Or I could wrap her into warm clothes and come over to you, if you want to tell me where you live now.. I’ll do anything” “I know Bri, and that’s what makes this so hard. You’ll do anything, but I don’t trust myself, I just got over it to call you” Standing in front of the window again, bri’s eye fell upon a young woman, standing in the middle of a room, phone in her hand. “Well, we can continue talking for a bit or something” He mumbled, starring intensely at the woman. “Yeah, that’d be nice” Brian could hear the small smile in her voice, happily noticing the woman in the other house smiled too. “So, what are you wearing” He chuckled, making sure Michelle would know he was just joking. “A white tank top, and on top of that a black hoodie” Michelle smiled back, in her own house sitting upon her couch. She didn’t dare to look out of the window, knowing Brian would be in Hailey’s house. Sometimes she used to wave at Hailey as a joke, but now the thought of seeing Brian scared her a bit. “Are you wearing a shirt?” She giggled. Brian smiled, turning away from the window. He knew Michelle was there, and now he knew where to go to. “Yes I am. A MISFITS-one” Only one problem, Brian knew he had to find a reason to end the conversation. Scanning the room, his eye fell upon Sophia, whom was happily playing with her teddy. “I’m sorry doll face” He whispered, walking towards her. Michelle smiled, “Of course you are wearing that. Does Sophia like the band already?” Snapping the teddy out of Sophia’s hands, Brian threw it thru the room, making Sophia start to cry. “Oh Michelle, babe, I am sorry but Sophia just started crying and I gotta calm her down” “yeah.. sure, okay. Give her kiss for me, okay?” Michelle said hastily. “Oh, and Brian..?” Brian handed Sophia her teddy back, and stood straight up. “Yeah?” “I’d like to call again some time soon, okay?” Smiling, thinking that if only she would know, Brian spoke back. “Yeah, I’d love too. Bye babe” Hanging up, Brian threw his phone upon the couch, taking his daughter out of her playpen. “We’re going to search for warm clothes” He mumbled, walking into Sophia’s baby nursery. Wrapping Sophia into a warm sweater, warm socks and a pair of booties, he also wrapped a warm little scarf around her, and put a beanie on Sophia’s head. “At least your mommy knows that Huntington can be cold, and how to dress you up like a true rocker” He smiled to his daughter, whom looked back curiously, knowing they were about to go outside. And Sophia did look like a real rocker; just like her dad she was now totally dressed in black. With Sophia on his hip Brian walked towards the front door, setting Sophia down to quickly take on his hoodie and boots. “Ready, princess? Nothing to tight, like your scarf?” Brian smiled, picking his daughter up again. “Then here we go”

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