Sacrifice the Innocence
Hell Bent on Revenge
The ride seemed so long and I just couldn't figure out why. I guess I was really anxious to get there, get my shit and get out. I guided Shadows to my ex's house and we pulled into the drive and there was no car to be found. Thank the Lord God Almighty that David's stupid ass wasn't there. Shadows cut the engine and we all got out. I stood in front of the car and all those memories of him getting drunk or just being an asshole and taking his anger out on me. The thoughts of me never having to spend one more night in that house with him was such a blessing. I stared at the house and all I could picture was it burning down with David in it screaming as the flames engulfed him. A smile came to my face and as soon as it came to my face Shadows nudge me back into reality.
"Come on girl...Let's get your things." he said taking my hand in his.
"Yeah. Before he brings his stupid ass back." I went up to the front door and pulled out a key and unlocked the door. I kicked the door open with my foot and looked around the room. I went to my room and began packing my things and pulled a black box from under the bed and opened it.
I picked up a picture and it was a picture of my step-dad...the only one, besides my mom, who really treated me like a daughter. I really miss my step-dad...well my father. I put the picture back in the box and put the lid on it. A tear ran down my face and Shadows walked through the door. I quickly wiped the tears away and continued packing some clothes into my backpack.
"You need any help packing?"
"No...I'm almost done." I said placing the black box on the bed.
"What's in the box?"
"It's personal." I said zipping up my backpack and slowly bringing myself to feet. Shadows grabbed my arm and helped me to my feet. I smiled at him and his smile was just as beautiful as his eyes. I walked out of the room with my stuff and looked to see if there was anything else I needed. I looked at the pictures hanging on the walls of me and him and I took them down and stared at them. Shadows looked at me very confused. I hugged the picture and finally spoke.
"Bye asshole." I said and I smashed every picture of me and him that hung up on the wall. I knew Syn and Shadows were watching me and I looked and seen them both smiling. I felt good inside and I walked out of the house. I looked back after Syn and Shadows came out and I threw the key that I had into the house and slammed the door shut breaking the small glass window in the door.
I got back into the car and sat alone in the back seat of the car and as we drove off I looked back and all those memories of physical, emotional, and verbal faded away. I was free from him. All that packing and breaking pictures in his house tired me out. My ribs were still hurting so I laid down in the seat and drifted off to sleep. I was awaken by someone nudging me. I slowly opened my eyes to see Shadows standing over me with a big smile on his face, I couldn't help but smile back.
"Hey sleepy head."
"What time is it?" I asked rubbing my eyes and stretching.
"It's 2 in the afternoon."
"Wow." I said layin my hands on my sore ribs.
"Yeah you slept the day away. Are you hungry?"
"No not really." I said pulling the covers off of me and slowly sitting up. The pain was hard to hold in as I sat up. I knew Shadows could tell I was in so much pain still.
"You alright?"
"I'm fine. Still hurting a little." I said sitting on the edge of the bed.
"You don't look fine. Come on let's get you downstairs. I'll make you something to eat."
"I'm not hungry Shadows." I said trying to get to my feet.
"You need to eat Fienix. You haven't ate in 4 days."
"I know but I'm not hungry. I just need a cigarette." I said pulling my bag up to me and going through the compartments to find my cigarettes. I pulled out a new pack and my lighter.
"Can I smoke in here or go outside?" I asked as Shadows sat down beside me on the bed.
"You can smoke in here but if you want I can take you out on the front porch."
"Outside would be great. I need some fresh air anyways." I said again trying to get to my feet. Shadows grabbed under my arm and helped me to my feet. We walked downstairs and why they had so many steps in one house I'll never know. We walked into the Kitchen where everyone else was.
"Hey look who's up! About time you woke up." Johnny said and I flipped him off. Brian, Jimmy, Zacky and Syn laughed so hard at what I did.
"Where you 2 going?" Zacky asked taking a drink of his beer. Drinking now at 2pm they were crazy.
"She wants to go smoke. I'll be back in a minute." Shadows answered before I could.
"Oh okay." We walked on through the kitchen and out the front door. I sat down on the top step of the porch and took out a cigarette and lit it. I took a puff in and coughed and that really hurt my ribs. I looked behind me in case Shadows hadn't seen what happened but I didn't see him.
He left the door open for me. I took another hit off the cigarette and coughed again. Maybe I should quit smoking. I finally finished my cigarette and slowly tried to get to my feet. I fell back down on the porch and tried getting up again. I felt 2 strong arms under my arms and looked up and seen Zacky.
"Here let me help you." He pulled me slowly and gently to my feet.
"Thanks."
"Your very welcome." Zack said and we walked back into the house. He went back into the kitchen and I walked into the living room. Syn was spread out on the couch watching TV. I walked over and sat in the recliner. I held my ribs and the pain went across my face. Syn looked over just as I closed my eyes.
"Are you alright?"
"I'm fine Syn just a little sore still. It's nothing I cant handle." I said leaning back in the chair.
"Maybe you should see a doctor."
"I'm going into no hospital." I said sitting up.
"No no you won't have to leave the house. I'll have our doc come over and check you out. Let me go tell Shadows." Syn got up and went to get Shadows before he could hear my answer. I leaned back in the recliner again and closed my eyes with my hands on my sides. Syn and Shadows came into the room and I opened my eyes as Syn shook me gently.
"Yeah?"
"Fienix. I had Syn call the Doctor. He'll be over in just a few minutes."
"Shadows it's just a little bit of pain." I said kind of loud.
"That's not what I seen Fienix. I mean you were in a lot of pain just trying to sit down." Just then Zacky came into the room.
"Yeah Fienix. Please just let the doc check you over. I mean I had to help you up off the steps outside a minute ago." Zacky said crossing his arms across his chest.
"Alright alright. I'll him check me out but I ain't going into no fuckin' hospital."
"That's not your decision. If it's bad enough the doc will want you to go and get taped up." Shadows said and he knelt down beside me. I didn't say a word. I just stared at the ceiling and Shadows kissed my cheek. I couldn't help but take my eyes off the ceiling and look at Shadows and smile. A few minutes later a knock came to the door. Syn opened the door and a man walked in. I was guessing he was the doctor.
"Hey doc."
"Hey Syn how you doing?" the doctor said.
"I'm okay but you're not here to see me this time ha ha."
"Yes. So where is she?" he asked.
"She's right through here." Syn led him into the living room where I was.
"Fienix this is Dr. Bradley. He's going to check you out."
"Alrighty." I said pushing myself up gently while holding my ribs.
"I'll go get Matt." Syn left the room and Dr. Bradley pulled a chair up and sat beside me.
"So what Brian has told me over the phone about your condition is that you got beat up by a ex-boyfriend outside a bar."
"Yes. He kicked me several times in the ribs before I passed out from the pain." I said scratching the back of my neck.
"I need to examine your ribs so let me see you stand up on your own." I started to stand when Shadows stepped into the room and leaned against the wall with Syn standing right beside him. I pushed myself and fell back down. I grabbed my ribs once and the doctor helped me to my feet.
"Alright please lay down on the sofa." I did as he said and it didn't hurt as bad to lay down as it did to sit. He lifted up the bottom part of my shirt and the bruises from David's kicks shown bright. He pushed gently down on my side and I jerked.
"Ow damnit!" I yelled. The doctor walked over to Shadows and he was whispering something to him that I couldn't make out. I sat up slowly on my own holdling my ribs again. Shadows and Syn came over to me. Syn sat down beside me as Shadows knelt down in front of me.
"Fienix I'm sorry but you have to go to the hospital and get an x-ray to see if your ribs are broken or just badly bruised."
"I told you I don't want to go to no fucking hospital." I said putting my head in my hands.
"Sweetheart...Shadows and I care about you and only want to see you alright. What if there is something else besides your ribs that is hurt." I sat there for a second with no answer to either of them.
"Alright I'll go." I said smiling at Shadows.
"Come on girl...Let's get your things." he said taking my hand in his.
"Yeah. Before he brings his stupid ass back." I went up to the front door and pulled out a key and unlocked the door. I kicked the door open with my foot and looked around the room. I went to my room and began packing my things and pulled a black box from under the bed and opened it.
I picked up a picture and it was a picture of my step-dad...the only one, besides my mom, who really treated me like a daughter. I really miss my step-dad...well my father. I put the picture back in the box and put the lid on it. A tear ran down my face and Shadows walked through the door. I quickly wiped the tears away and continued packing some clothes into my backpack.
"You need any help packing?"
"No...I'm almost done." I said placing the black box on the bed.
"What's in the box?"
"It's personal." I said zipping up my backpack and slowly bringing myself to feet. Shadows grabbed my arm and helped me to my feet. I smiled at him and his smile was just as beautiful as his eyes. I walked out of the room with my stuff and looked to see if there was anything else I needed. I looked at the pictures hanging on the walls of me and him and I took them down and stared at them. Shadows looked at me very confused. I hugged the picture and finally spoke.
"Bye asshole." I said and I smashed every picture of me and him that hung up on the wall. I knew Syn and Shadows were watching me and I looked and seen them both smiling. I felt good inside and I walked out of the house. I looked back after Syn and Shadows came out and I threw the key that I had into the house and slammed the door shut breaking the small glass window in the door.
I got back into the car and sat alone in the back seat of the car and as we drove off I looked back and all those memories of physical, emotional, and verbal faded away. I was free from him. All that packing and breaking pictures in his house tired me out. My ribs were still hurting so I laid down in the seat and drifted off to sleep. I was awaken by someone nudging me. I slowly opened my eyes to see Shadows standing over me with a big smile on his face, I couldn't help but smile back.
"Hey sleepy head."
"What time is it?" I asked rubbing my eyes and stretching.
"It's 2 in the afternoon."
"Wow." I said layin my hands on my sore ribs.
"Yeah you slept the day away. Are you hungry?"
"No not really." I said pulling the covers off of me and slowly sitting up. The pain was hard to hold in as I sat up. I knew Shadows could tell I was in so much pain still.
"You alright?"
"I'm fine. Still hurting a little." I said sitting on the edge of the bed.
"You don't look fine. Come on let's get you downstairs. I'll make you something to eat."
"I'm not hungry Shadows." I said trying to get to my feet.
"You need to eat Fienix. You haven't ate in 4 days."
"I know but I'm not hungry. I just need a cigarette." I said pulling my bag up to me and going through the compartments to find my cigarettes. I pulled out a new pack and my lighter.
"Can I smoke in here or go outside?" I asked as Shadows sat down beside me on the bed.
"You can smoke in here but if you want I can take you out on the front porch."
"Outside would be great. I need some fresh air anyways." I said again trying to get to my feet. Shadows grabbed under my arm and helped me to my feet. We walked downstairs and why they had so many steps in one house I'll never know. We walked into the Kitchen where everyone else was.
"Hey look who's up! About time you woke up." Johnny said and I flipped him off. Brian, Jimmy, Zacky and Syn laughed so hard at what I did.
"Where you 2 going?" Zacky asked taking a drink of his beer. Drinking now at 2pm they were crazy.
"She wants to go smoke. I'll be back in a minute." Shadows answered before I could.
"Oh okay." We walked on through the kitchen and out the front door. I sat down on the top step of the porch and took out a cigarette and lit it. I took a puff in and coughed and that really hurt my ribs. I looked behind me in case Shadows hadn't seen what happened but I didn't see him.
He left the door open for me. I took another hit off the cigarette and coughed again. Maybe I should quit smoking. I finally finished my cigarette and slowly tried to get to my feet. I fell back down on the porch and tried getting up again. I felt 2 strong arms under my arms and looked up and seen Zacky.
"Here let me help you." He pulled me slowly and gently to my feet.
"Thanks."
"Your very welcome." Zack said and we walked back into the house. He went back into the kitchen and I walked into the living room. Syn was spread out on the couch watching TV. I walked over and sat in the recliner. I held my ribs and the pain went across my face. Syn looked over just as I closed my eyes.
"Are you alright?"
"I'm fine Syn just a little sore still. It's nothing I cant handle." I said leaning back in the chair.
"Maybe you should see a doctor."
"I'm going into no hospital." I said sitting up.
"No no you won't have to leave the house. I'll have our doc come over and check you out. Let me go tell Shadows." Syn got up and went to get Shadows before he could hear my answer. I leaned back in the recliner again and closed my eyes with my hands on my sides. Syn and Shadows came into the room and I opened my eyes as Syn shook me gently.
"Yeah?"
"Fienix. I had Syn call the Doctor. He'll be over in just a few minutes."
"Shadows it's just a little bit of pain." I said kind of loud.
"That's not what I seen Fienix. I mean you were in a lot of pain just trying to sit down." Just then Zacky came into the room.
"Yeah Fienix. Please just let the doc check you over. I mean I had to help you up off the steps outside a minute ago." Zacky said crossing his arms across his chest.
"Alright alright. I'll him check me out but I ain't going into no fuckin' hospital."
"That's not your decision. If it's bad enough the doc will want you to go and get taped up." Shadows said and he knelt down beside me. I didn't say a word. I just stared at the ceiling and Shadows kissed my cheek. I couldn't help but take my eyes off the ceiling and look at Shadows and smile. A few minutes later a knock came to the door. Syn opened the door and a man walked in. I was guessing he was the doctor.
"Hey doc."
"Hey Syn how you doing?" the doctor said.
"I'm okay but you're not here to see me this time ha ha."
"Yes. So where is she?" he asked.
"She's right through here." Syn led him into the living room where I was.
"Fienix this is Dr. Bradley. He's going to check you out."
"Alrighty." I said pushing myself up gently while holding my ribs.
"I'll go get Matt." Syn left the room and Dr. Bradley pulled a chair up and sat beside me.
"So what Brian has told me over the phone about your condition is that you got beat up by a ex-boyfriend outside a bar."
"Yes. He kicked me several times in the ribs before I passed out from the pain." I said scratching the back of my neck.
"I need to examine your ribs so let me see you stand up on your own." I started to stand when Shadows stepped into the room and leaned against the wall with Syn standing right beside him. I pushed myself and fell back down. I grabbed my ribs once and the doctor helped me to my feet.
"Alright please lay down on the sofa." I did as he said and it didn't hurt as bad to lay down as it did to sit. He lifted up the bottom part of my shirt and the bruises from David's kicks shown bright. He pushed gently down on my side and I jerked.
"Ow damnit!" I yelled. The doctor walked over to Shadows and he was whispering something to him that I couldn't make out. I sat up slowly on my own holdling my ribs again. Shadows and Syn came over to me. Syn sat down beside me as Shadows knelt down in front of me.
"Fienix I'm sorry but you have to go to the hospital and get an x-ray to see if your ribs are broken or just badly bruised."
"I told you I don't want to go to no fucking hospital." I said putting my head in my hands.
"Sweetheart...Shadows and I care about you and only want to see you alright. What if there is something else besides your ribs that is hurt." I sat there for a second with no answer to either of them.
"Alright I'll go." I said smiling at Shadows.
I don't really know why I wrote this with her only using their stage names...when this was posted on Mibba I really didn't know anything about writing a good solid story..
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