All I Ask Is... Why?

The next morning I woke up around six-thirty and Brian was nowhere in sight. This scared me a little, what if what happened between me and Ryan really did scare him off? Or why would he leave without telling me? I feel like such an idiot for falling for his charm, just like every other girl did in the past. Now I'm just another one to add to the list. I sat there with my hands covering my face, until I heard the shower start running. He didn't leave, he was still here. A smile spread across my face as I leaped out of bed and made my way quietly to the bathroom. The door was open slightly and I snuck my way in, feeling so much like a creeper. Brian was humming a song as he was washing his hair and I could see his blurry silhouette from the glass door. I couldn't believe that I was looking at him somewhat naked. I felt nervous enough to where I gasped a little backing into his hair brush and knocking it down the floor. "Shit." I mouthed to myself.

Brian stopped washing his hair and froze in place. "Evelyn?"

I have no idea what he is going to think of me after this, psycho, creeper, I just don't know. "Uh, yes. I'm sorry, I just came in to brush my teeth. I didn't know you would be in here."

Brian chuckled. "Don't worry about it. Matter of fact I was hoping you would wake up. We don't leave until nine for San Antonio and I was hoping I could take you out for breakfast, if you'd like?"

Oh God, he's so perfect. "That sounds nice. Truth be told, I've never had room service breakfast before. Can we just do that?"

"Sure. Anything you want."

Yep, he's perfect. I smiled as I looked around for toothpaste in the large bathroom and I remembered the hotel carries extra in the lobby. "I will be right back, I just need to get my own toothbrush from the lobby."

"You can use mine if you want to. I don't mind. It will save you the trip of going all the way downstairs. That's if you want to though." Not long after he responded, he turned the shower off. Oh crap he was getting out already!

"Um, you sure? I can go get an extra no problem." I turned away to stare at myself in the steam filled mirror, which I attempted to wipe away only for that to fail.

Brian opened the glass shower door slightly to stretch out his long, muscular and tattooed up arm to reach for a towel. Pulling it in and I see his silhouette move around. "It's no problem. And don't worry about diseases. I don't have any and I'm certain you don't either. You look like a lady that knows how to take care of herself."

I smiled and grabbed his toothbrush. "Thanks." I started brushing my teeth and not long after I start, Brian steps out of the shower with the towel wrapped around his waist. His upper body exposing tattoos on his chest and back, as well as his famous sleeves and finger tattoos. His hair was slicked back and he still had some water drippings on his upper body. He was so hot when he was dry, and now that he's wet, it was making me wet as well. Once Brian noticed that I was staring, I quickly went back to brushing my teeth and he chuckled lightly. He walked closer to me slowly, and by the time he touched me, I was done rinsing out my mouth and his brush. I quickly spun around to face him and he was smiling down at me. His hands placed comfortably on my hips as he leaned down to kiss me passionately. I kissed him back and rested my hands on his chest, his toned, tattooed, warm and wet chest. Why did Ryan have to ruin this for me? Our bodies were pressing closer together and I was only seconds away from taking off his towel and begging him to love me, until his hands slid down and he squeezed my ass a little and the pain made the thoughts slip away. "Ouch!" I say as I pull my lips away from his.

"I'm sorry." Brian instantly let go of me and took a small step back. I felt so bad for him.

"Don't be sorry. You didn't do this to me." I said softly.

"Doesn't change that I am getting concerned about you. How bad is it?"

I took a minute to adjust to the pain before I could give him a full on answer. "Well, Ryan is pretty damn small even when he is hard, so he didn't do much damage to my insides. The only pains I really have are bruising on the back of my thighs, and of course my ass. But they are going away. The pain isn't as bad as yesterday."

Brian smiled at me and took my hands in his. "Well I'm glad to hear that. I think you should tell your sister about what he did to you. Your conscience won't be clear if I'm the only one that knows." He took the back of my right hand and kissed it softly before walking with me back to the bedroom area. I knew he was right, Mercedes needed to know the truth, and it's been eating me alive for a long time, but Ryan raping me was what pushed me over the edge.

Ryan was never like this during the two years that we were together and it made me question myself as to what I did wrong when he first exposed the devil inside of him four months ago a day after he proposed to me. Ryan was my first real love and I desperately did not want to lose him, but now that I met Brian, he makes me feel like Ryan didn't even exist. Only thing is I have no idea if Brian even likes me like that or if he's just using me to clear his thoughts of Michelle. Brian ordered room service and ordered me blueberry pancakes as well as eggs and bacon and iced coffee, and then placed his order. As he was getting dressed, a million thoughts were running through my mind and a random question slipped out of my mouth. "Brian, was I intended to be a one night stand?"

Brian stopped what he was doing and looked at me. Wondering where the question came from. "What?"

Oh crap, what did I just do? My mind wasn't on the same page as my mouth and no matter what I tried to do to stop talking, the rest came out. "I know that you are going through a lot right now, I was just curious if I was intended to be just a one night stand and never see you again. If that's what this is then maybe I should leave."

"No. No, please stay." He sighed and kneeled down in front of me, his chocolate brown eyes connecting with mine. "I didn't intend for you to be a one night stand and I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. After meeting you and getting to know you yesterday, I really wanted to see you again because not only did you help me forget about Michelle in those two hours, but you also helped me in letting Jimmy rest peacefully for the first time in four years. I've been miserable since he passed away, and nobody was able to pull me out of that until I met you. I will admit that things escalated a little quickly last night, but I don't regret it at all." He held my hands in his, his eyes not once leaving mine.

His words had me shocked, and before I was able to answer, there was a knock. "Room service!" The man called out from the other side. Brian looked over to the door, and then back at me. "I will be right back."

I nodded as he stood up and walked out of the room. I was still processing his words into my brain, and it warmed my heart to hear it from him. My phone vibrated in my purse and I quickly went over to get it. Mercedes was calling me.

"Hello?"

"Hey sis, where are you?"

"I'm still at the hotel. Syn and I are about to have breakfast."

"No way! Shut up!"

"I shit you not sis."

"Wow, you two really must have hit it off. Zacky and I did too. To my surprise we just stayed up talking. We didn't bang or anything." Shocker!

"Wow really? Us too. But I probably wouldn't have anyway because of Ryan..."

"Fuck that asshole, don't let the thought of that jerk ruin your good time. I say whatever happens today, just go for it. And if it happened last night then good for you."

I paused for a moment, thinking it all over. "Yeah, sis I will call you back. There's something I have to do."

"You go girl. Use a condom and be safe. Tell me all about it later after they leave. Love you!"

She hung up and I placed my phone back in my purse. Brian was getting the food and giving the worker an autograph. The time was seven fifteen and as soon as I noticed the worker walking out of the room, I quickly undressed to just my black panties and placed on a robe that showed a little cleavage. I stood next to the door and waited for Brian to walk back in. Walking straight into the bedroom and not noticing I was hiding was working out nicely. "Evelyn, breakfast is he-" he said before noticing I wasn't in sight.

I smiled as I closed the door and he turned around. Biting down on my lower lip as I started to untie my robe. "What you said to me earlier had to be the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me." I made my way over to him and his eyes never left me. When I reached him, I gently placed both of his hands inside my robe to touch my bare waist. His touch giving me goosebumps. "Did you mean it?"

He smiled at me. "Every word of it Evelyn."

I smiled back and tip toed to kiss his thin lips. He kissed me back and his hands gently started caressing my body. When he grasped my hips, his fingers twirled with the sides of my panties. I pulled my lips away from his and stared into his eyes. "Take me Brian." I whispered.

"Are you sure you want to?" He whispered back to me.

I nodded. "Yes, I'm sure. Please take me."

Without saying another word, Brian leaned down and kissed me deeply. With one swift move, Brian removed my robe and picked me up to where I wrapped my legs around his waist. As we kissed, I gently tug on his hair and he growls in my mouth. I'm so turned on that I knew there was no turning back now for the both of us. He carries me to the bed and lays me down gently to where my legs were dangling off the edge. Brian slowly removes my panties and tosses them aside. He kneels down a little and places each leg on his shoulders leaning in closer as his tongue starts playing with my clit. I let out a moan and it gets louder the more he eats me out. One of my hands is gripping tightly to the bed sheets as the other grips at his hair. I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted him and I had to have him now. "Brian! Please stop teasing me!"

He sits up and I do too, instantly kissing him and taking off his shirt. Half naked in the heat of the moment, i fall into his arms and we fall backwards leaving Brian on his back on the floor. I start undoing his jeans and pull them and his boxers off. Getting them off, I notice Brian's full on erection. Good God he's huge! I smirk down at him and make my way to where my lips were touching the tip. "My turn now." I whispered. He smiled as I placed most of it in my mouth, sucking it up and down and massaging it with my tongue. He moaned and panted until he couldn't take it anymore. When I let it out of my mouth for air, Brian gently pulled me up and turned me over to be on top of me. He looked in my eyes and smiled before kissing me. He held my hands and our fingers intertwined as he slowly slid himself inside of me. "Oh God, Brian!" I moaned in pure pleasure.

My legs wrapped around his waist and he continued to gently thrust inside, hitting pleasure spots I didn't even know I had. I continued to moan his name and he moaned mine, biting down and sucking at my neck and shoulders made me moan even more. After thrusting in slowly and gently, Brian started picking up the pace and going in a little harder, he felt so good I didn't want him to stop. I gave him a nudge to turn over and he did with no problem. I sat on top of him and started grinding my hips into his. He grasped a hold of my hips and pushes himself deeper into me, causing me to scream his name. A climax was coming and I could feel it building up, my panting starts escalating and my pitch gets a little higher with each hard thrust, I was close and he knew it. He then picks me up and keeps my legs around his waist, laying me down on the bed and he stays standing up, thrusting in a little faster and harder. With the last thrust, I suddenly feel a release of pure ecstasy take over my body as I came all over Brian's penis. At the same time, he released his seed inside of me and takes a few deep breaths before pulling out and looking at me with a smile on his face. We were both too out of breath to say anything right away. Instead, we just took our places under the blanket on the bed. Brian lit up a cigarette and took a few deep drags as he took me in his arms.

"Brian, that was amazing." I finally spoke.

He chuckled a little. "Yes it was. I'm curious, what made you so turned on all of a sudden?"

I shrugged a little. "I guess I felt that this would be my only chance if I never see you again after today."

The thought brought us both a look of disappointment. Brian looked at his phone to see the time and it was ten minutes until nine. He shrugged it off. "I can catch up with them later."

I looked at him a little confused. "How?"

He smiled. "Remember Matt? The guy that came looking for a costume with me? Well he's pretty much my bitch when we are on tour. He will pick me up." We both shared a laugh. He looked at me once more. "As far as you and me go, I don't want us to stop anything. We may live far apart, but I don't want to lose you. I really hope you and I can make this work."

"Are you asking me to be yours?" I was bracing myself for both possible answers on this.

"Well I can't at the moment because I am still legally married to Michelle, but I would love for us to give it a test drive to see if this is what we really want. And if so, then I will file for divorce and we can start our new life together. Right now everything is still fresh to us. Let's give it some time. I will come to see you when we are taking a break from touring, but I will keep in touch with you everyday when I can. Is that okay?"

At this point, I was scared of things not working out, but I really do like him and I want us to find a way. If this is what it takes to realize that Brian is the man for me, then it's worth the shot. "I can agree to that." And we sealed the deal with a kiss.

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