All I Ask Is... Why?

Since I met Synyster Gates earlier this afternoon, my smile has never left my face. I still cannot believe that he was in this store and I was able to help and get to know him in a little over two hours, and to receive two backstage passes in the end for being of good help to him! Please tell me that this isn’t a dream. Brian has been my ultimate celebrity crush since I first listened to Waking the Fallen when it was released. My sister has been a fan of them since she saw them live after their very first album Sounding of the Seventh Trumpet was released. One time I caught her in the act of copying Valary’s screaming in the song The Art of Subconscious Illusion and at first it sounded hilarious until she got really good at her screaming. I could not wait to tell her that we have a chance to meet them in person, even though she met them before, back when I was still too young to even go to a concert, but I knew it was true because she brought back an autographed poster just for me. That was all back when we lived in California with our mom, but since then our mom left us for the life of drug and alcohol abuse with our dad in Utah. When my sister, Mercedes, got accepted for art school in Texas, she and I moved over there and we both lived in her dorm room until I was old enough to start working and she was able to make time for work so we could get our own place.

It was now five-thirty and normally Mercedes gets out of work around six-thirty on Fridays, she works at Buffalo Wild Wings and luckily today was payday for both me and her, and paydays always equal sister’s night out, starting with an on the house dinner and drink at her work. I was never able to order a beer by myself until today now that I am of legal age, but that hasn’t stopped Mercedes from letting me taste an alcoholic mix drink from time to time. Brian left the store about three hours ago and Matt and Candice were still in the back doing their thing. Since the day I met Candice, I sometimes I envied her simply because she has all of the plastic in the world to get any man she wanted. And today, even though he’s married, I was shocked that she didn’t pull a Sookie Stackhouse move and hypnotize Brian into her vagina trap. I had the better advantage on that, seemed like he enjoyed spending time with me anyway, and I did too, I will admit that I even flirted with the man but it didn’t seem like he noticed. At least I hope he didn’t, because I am a terrible flirt. Makes me wonder how I even got my fiancé to even like me.

After I clocked out for the day, I made my way to my shitty old school baby blue Volkswagen Beatle. The reason I say shitty is because there are a million things wrong with this car and I can’t ever explain properly since I am not an expert in that department. All I know is it wastes gas like water, the paint is chipped, the interior is jacked, and the breaks are bad. I’ve never had the money to get a new/used car and my sister is already in debt with the school by five thousand dollars, so pretty much our entire checks go to either rent, bills, food, or car payments. Every once in a while we get a check free to ourselves for being caught up with payments and this weekend was our lucky weekend, especially since Avenged Sevenfold and Deftones will be performing tomorrow night, our two most favorite bands.

Before I pull out, I see Matt making his way out of the shop and he is tucking his shirt in at the same time. I snicker to myself before pulling out of the parking lot and making my way to my sister’s work.

Traffic was being a bitch today and I was an hour late to Buffalo Wild Wings. Mercedes was already sitting down and having a drink with another bottle of Bud Light Lime and two baskets of wings ready, waiting for me. I rushed over to the table and took my seat across from her. “Sorry I’m late. Traffic was insane!”

Mercedes smiled at me. “That’s okay little sis. I already ordered your favorite lemon peppered wings. I figured you were stuck in traffic.” Everything was already smelling so good and my stomach was growling away, but I knew I couldn’t hold in what happened today for much longer. My smile was coming back and Mercedes knew that something amazing happened. “What are you smiling about? Did Candice finally give you that raise?” She asked lifting an eyebrow.

I quickly shook my head. “Nope. Even better.”

She was now getting suspicious. “A promotion? A raise and a promotion? Oh wait! This might not even involve work. Did that asshole Ryan break up with you? Or you broke up with him? Ah the suspense is killing me! Just tell me already.”

I let out a loud laugh. “Well, no, no, and no he hasn’t although I wish he would. And no I haven’t but I’m still working up the courage to do it. But anyway, the reason why I am so happy is because, I met Synyster Gates today!”

Mercedes was in the middle of drinking her beer and she almost choked on it a little. She coughed twice before looking up at me with her grey eyes wide. “Holy shit! Shut up!”

I nodded quickly. “Yes it’s true! He came by the shop today with his roadie Matt and they were looking for Halloween costumes. Well, Syn was. Matt was too busy with Candice ‘testing another product’. But we talked for a little over two hours and he asked if I was going to the concert tomorrow and I said I’m going with you, and he said for being of good service to him,” I reach into my purse to pull out the two backstage passes. “He gave me these.” I put them on the table and Mercedes takes hers in her hand.

She stares at it with wide eyes and then looks back up at me. “Are you fucking serious? Eve you better not be yanking my chain!” She said in excitement.

“I’m not! I swear. These are legit.” I said with as much excitement.

We both screamed and hugged each other tightly. Even though Mercedes met them before, they weren’t as famous back then as they are now and ordering backstage passes for tomorrow night’s show was becoming a real bitch for her. Seeing as that’s what she wanted to surprise me with along with the tickets. We spent the rest of the night drinking and eating for free until my sister was already feeling tipsy.

We make it back to the apartment around eleven-thirty, and Mercedes had a few more drinks along the way back. It’s times like this when I’m so glad we live in a two story apartment. The door is always on the ground level, so I don’t have to worry about Mercedes falling on the outside steps. As soon as I help Mercedes inside the house, I hear another car lock, right next to my car. Fucking shit, Ryan was here. He made his way quickly over to me and my sister and attempted to help her inside with me, only for her to reject him quickly. “Let go of me asshole. I-I don’t like you, and I know you treat my sister like shit. You and your stupid boy band blonde hair. If I wasn’t drunk right now, a-and I wasn’t seeing three of you, then I would so kick your fucking ass. And d-don’t try to use that whole ‘I know kung-fu’ shit on me. Just because you’re Chinese…Japanese…Asian…or whatever the fuck you are, don’t mean shit. Believe that bitch.” All night Mercedes’s words were slurry, but she made that statement perfectly clear to Ryan, and I could tell he didn’t like it.

“Mercedes, you’re drunk. Just let me help you get to bed.” Ryan said, trying to grab her arm, but Mercedes quickly went defensive.
“What part of ‘don’t touch me’ do you not understand?! Back the fuck up and get the fuck out of our apartment! I don’t ever want to see you here or around my sister! Just because you’re her fiancé don’t mean shit to me!” She shot at him.

Ryan was already getting impatient with her, and knowing him, he wouldn’t hesitate to hit her if I didn’t do anything. Mercedes doesn’t know that Ryan has hit me a few times and threatened to kill me if I were to ever call everything off with him. I didn’t want her to worry and I was scared of Ryan. An ex-girlfriend has warned me before of Ryan’s ways, he will seem perfect at first until he gets you were he wants you and then he will let his true colors out. I was so in love with Ryan at the time that I didn’t want to believe her, until a week after we got engaged, was when the devil in Ryan came out and he’s been like that ever since. Ryan looked at me with anger and I sighed a little. “Sis, calm down. You’re drunk and you need to get some rest. We have a long day tomorrow.” I said softly. Mercedes looked back at both me and Ryan before answering with a response.

“Fine. I will go to bed, but only because you told me to.” She said to me. She then looked at Ryan dead in the eyes and pointed at him. “And you. By morning, you better be out of here. I don’t like you, and I don’t trust you. If you even touch my sister in the wrong way, I will call the police and you will be locked up and getting ass raped by a guy named Ted faster than you can say ‘oh shit’.” With that, she turned around and left her door open just a smidge before turning off her lights and plopping down on her bed.

Ryan stared at me for a moment and looked at the couch. I knew that he wanted me to make it seem like we were watching something on TV to convince Mercedes that nothing was wrong. We waited for about an hour before Ryan went in to Mercedes’s room to make sure she was fully asleep, and she was. As he was checking, I made my way upstairs to my room to find my knife and Taser that my sister gave me for my birthday, just in case Ryan tried anything funny. As I shuffled around in my purse, Ryan bursts into my bedroom and it startles me. As soon as I turned around he was already a few inches from me and backhand slapped me as hard as he could, making me fall to the floor as well as my purse and a few items from inside. He sits on top of me and pins both of my wrists down to the floor, staring at me dead in the eyes. “You fucking bitch! How dare you let your sister talk to me like that! You must like what I do to you. Is that it? You like me being the asshole?”

Tears were already streaming down my face and my voice was getting raspy and choked up. “Rye, p-please. I-I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, please.” I beg.

Ryan looks up and notices the backstage pass that fell out of my purse. He holds both of my wrists with one hand and stretches to get the pass in his free hand. He looks and notices my favorite band on the cover. “What the fuck is this? You going to go meet those faggots? Huh?! Or are you just going to be their little whore?” I didn’t answer because I started crying even more. I was afraid he was going to destroy it, and when he looked at it, I was sure that came through his mind. “Nah, I’ve got a better idea.” He then tossed the pass under my bed and quickly started turning me over to lay me down on my stomach. Taking my pants and underwear off as well as his. “Any of those faggots try to touch you, they are gonna know that you are all mine.” He took off his shirt and stuffed enough of it into my mouth to sound proof my screams, as well as pinning my hands down to the floor as he shoved himself inside of me from behind.

He was hurting me so bad and I tried stomping my feet on the floor, in hopes that Mercedes would hear, but he caught on and the more I attempted to make noise, the more rough he was getting. It was getting worse by the minute and I was praying for death to come to take me out of this misery, but instead of death, I passed out.



The next morning, I woke up in my pajamas and laying comfortably in my bed. I was praying to God that what happened between Ryan and me was just a horrible nightmare, but as soon as I made the motion to sit up, I felt the terrible pain run from the back of my thighs to my ass. Ryan left a note next to me on my bed, as well as a bottle of pain killers. ‘Take two of these as soon as you wake up and give them an hour to kick in. Your sister won’t suspect a thing.’ As soon as I finished reading it, I heard a knock at my door. “Come in.” I called out.

Mercedes opens the door and I quickly slip the note and pills under my pillow before she even noticed. “Hey sis, big day today. You excited?” She asked, still a little hung over.

“Yeah! I’m really excited.” I smiled widely.

She smiles back. “Well I am going to go get breakfast because I don’t feel like cooking and I after breakfast we can start getting ready to go to the stadium before other people start getting there. I really want to be in the front.”

“Me too. And that sounds good to me.”

She then looked around for a second in my room. “Ryan leave last night?”

I nodded. “Yeah, he stayed about an hour and then he left. Just came by to say hi.”

I knew she didn’t believe me, but since he wasn’t anywhere to be found in my room and my closet was wide open, she didn’t want to question anymore. “Well that’s good. I’m sorry if I said anything that offended you last night, but just know that I don’t like him and I don’t trust him. I’m just looking after you.”


After she said that, she left the room and left for breakfast about ten minutes after that. During those ten minutes, I was able to make my way to the bathroom and take two pills as well as perform my usual bathroom duties. I took a shower than seemed to last almost the entire hour and I just couldn’t help but think over what happened last night, it was replaying over in my head and it wouldn’t stop. By the time I got out, the pain surely did go away to help me move easier, but the thought didn’t. I played out the rest of the morning as if nothing had happened and morning went to afternoon with the sister and by six, we were already at the door, waiting to get inside.


Hours go by and we are enjoying the concert for both Deftones and Ghost B.C., and when Avenged came out and played, Syn seemed to notice me in the crowd because I was right in front of him. When he wasn’t looking at his guitar, or making small glimpses at the crowd, he was staring at me, and me alone. I never took my eyes off him, and for the first time all day, I forgot all about Ryan. When the concert was over, Mercedes and I quickly make our way to go backstage and Matt leads us back there. “Hey, you’re that one chick that works at that costume shop right? The one with the slutty boss?” Matt asked me.
I laughed. “Yeah that’s me. I’m surprised you remembered what I look like.”

He and Mercedes both laughed. “Oh I never forget a pretty face, plus Syn keeps talking about you and he said he expected you to be here after the show. By the way, your boss conned me twenty bucks. Not cool.”

Mercedes laughed again, but what he said shocked me so much. Holy fuck, Syn was actually talking about me! I just hope he didn’t have to say anything embarrassing about me. Now I was nervous about meeting everyone.

We made our way back out to the locker room where the boys were hanging out and they all looked at us. They all said hi and greeted us with open arms. A lot of the guys asked Mercedes if she was the Evelyn chick that Brian was talking about, but when she pointed out that the Evelyn chick was me, they all looked at me with shocked expressions on their faces, taking them each a moment before they all greeted me as well. Brian was in the bathroom when the introductions were going on, but when he came out, he looked at me and smiled, instantly walking over to me and embracing me. “Hey, I was worried you weren’t going to come.” He said in my ear.

I smiled wide and blushed a little. “I wouldn’t miss this for the world.”



The entire time we were there, Mercedes mingled with the rest of the guys and two more people with passes came in to meet everyone. Mercedes explained to them that she got to meet them when they were on tour with their very first album, and the only person that seemed to recognize her was Zacky. So for the rest of the night, they talked, but I didn’t pay any attention because Brian and I were having conversations of our own. We got to know each other a little more, our likes, dislikes, things we had in common, etc. etc. After a while, he started opening up to me about his problems with Michelle and what she’s really like and that shocked me because she seemed so sweet. After he told me all about her, I started telling him all about Ryan and what he’s like to me.

Shadows was already calling out that they all needed to head back to the hotel to get ready to leave tomorrow morning and this made me sad.

“Hey, I know this may sound weird, but would you like to come back with me? I won’t ask anything of you, but I really like spending time with you.” Brian said with a smile.

Instant reaction caused me to say yes to him. And then I looked at Mercedes who was still talking with Zacky. “Let me tell my sister really quick.”

He nodded. “Okay.”

I made my way over to Mercedes and pulled her away from Zacky. “Excuse us for a moment.” I smiled at him.

“Dude, really? What is it?” She asked

“Sorry to interrupt, but Syn just invited me back to his hotel room to hang out with him. Can I go? Please?” I made puppy eyes at her as she looked back at me and Syn.

“Well, normally I would say no, but you’re old enough to do what you want. Plus Zacky just asked me the same thing, so sure. You better be safe.” She smiled and I hugged her tightly.

“Oh, thank you! You won’t regret it! I promise!” I said in excitement.

“Yeah, yeah. Now if you don’t mind, I have a little vengeance to take care of.” She laughed as we let go and she went back to Zacky and I to Syn.

“I’m assuming she gave you permission?” Brian asked with a small smirk.

I nodded and we liked arms as we all made our way to the tour bus that took us all to the fancy hotel the three bands were staying for the night. Brian and I made our way to his suite and he poured us both champagne and we sat on the floor in front of the fireplace. We talked for another hour, and soon that talking led to flirting with each other. After thirty minutes of flirting, I was getting turned on and I could tell he was too.

He took my hands and led me to the bedroom, closing the door behind him. I took a minute to observe the room, it was bigger than my room and closet put together. Brian was taking his shoes and socks off and made his way over to me. We stared at each other for a moment as we moved closer and closer to each other, until our bodies touched. “You’re so beautiful.” He whispered.

I bit down on my lower lip and he wrapped his arms around me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he leaned in a little closer, pecking my lips oh so softly, before we both kissed gently and full of passion. His tongue made its way into my mouth and it danced with mine as we slowly backed into the bed. He gently laid me down and stayed on top of me, our lips never leaving each other’s. I wanted him so bad, but the more intimate we started getting, flashbacks of last night started coming back, and it was scaring me. I started resisting the kiss and started pushing Brian off of me. “No Brian, stop.”

He instantly released me and sat down next to me. Worried just took over his face. “I’m sorry. Did I go too far?” He asked.

“No, it’s not that. I just scared myself.” Tears started running down my face, as I was sure I screwed everything up. “Last night, while my sister was asleep, Ryan came over and…and…he raped me.” I cried.

Brian took me in his arms instantly and tried to relax me the best he could. “I’m so sorry Evelyn. You’re staying with me tonight. Okay?”

I wrapped my arms around him and nodded. We slowly laid down side by side and Brian spent the rest of the evening relaxing me and kissing me until I forgot all about Ryan again. I didn’t expect him to do much, being that he didn’t know Ryan well enough to even do anything, but I could tell that he was being extra gentle when he would touch or kiss me, and right now, that was all I wanted from him, until he sung me to sleep in his arms.

Notes

This chapter probably came out half-assed only because it didn't come to me until 1:00 in the morning and I didn't finish till almost 4:30. But anyway, I hope you guys like it and by the way HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :) <3