Lexi’s P.O.V.

The rest of the party was a haze. I was going in and out of it. I was drunk so that didn’t help either. I just couldn’t stop thinking about what Brian wanted to do. I don’t know if I could do it. Do I even want to do it? This whole time I’ve been saying that I was set on Zack. Is this just the beer talking? I don’t even understand how one little thing he could say could change my whole entire mind set. This decision could very easily determine the rest of my life. I could spend it alone with Zack having more times like we’ve been having or I could spend it with Brian, the man who has been in my dreams since god knows how long. I don’t even know what to do.

I guess me not automatically saying no answers the question though. If I didn’t want to do it, I would’ve said no and not to ever talk to me again. Obviously, I still want Brian, but could I really pull it off? Would I be able to love the two of them the same? Could I break Zack’s heart or Brian’s if it wasn’t to work?

“Babe, are you okay?” Zack asked me once we were alone.

“Yeah, of course.” I smiled at him.

“You seem out of it. Something on your mind?” God, he knows me so well.

“It’s nothing. I promise.” I kissed him and he smiled at me. I wonder if I should talk to Val about this situation. Do you think she’ll judge me? Well, Michelle… Fuck no I can’t talk to her about this. I need some advice.

“Val, can I talk to you for a minute?” I asked her and she nodded. We both went inside and sat down.

“What’s up?”

“You’re going to fucking hate me for what I’m about to say.”

“Oh, god. You talked to Brian, huh?”

“Yeah, I did.”

“Don’t tell me you fucked him again.”

“No, god no.”

“Oh, good. So then what is it?”

“Well he wants to do something.”

“Like what kind of something?”

“A… experiment.”

“What kind of experiment? I don’t like where this is going.”

“Well, just know that I’m only telling you this to get advice. Honest advice. I don’t want any judgment and you can’t tell anyone.”

“Lex, you know me.”

“I know. I know. This is just a bizarre experiment.”

“Just tell me what the fuck it is.”

“He want to basically try out this dating thing behind Zack’s back. First, he wanted me to choose. Either him or Zack. I can’t choose, so he brought this up. I told him I couldn’t believe him and then he kind of explained further. It’s just to see if it’ll work. And it will help me decide. Finally decide. We would have a certain schedule and certain limitations, but I just don’t know.”

“You want my honest opinion?”

“Yes, that’s why I’m telling you this.”

“Do it.”

“What?”

“Do it.”

“Val, I don’t understand.”

“What were you expecting me to say? That you’re ridiculous and this could never work?” She laughed. “Lex you have to understand that I’m not oblivious to either of you. I can see it. He is trying really hard to get over this and it just isn’t working. Nothing is. But this could. You just have to promise to keep it a secret. You can’t act like you did before. You have to make sure this doesn’t leave you and me. You have to make sure that if they do find out that I don’t know about it. Just you and Brian. And you have to make sure to not go public.”

“I know. I still just don’t see how it’ll work.”

“If you want it bad enough, it’ll work. Just sit down with him and explain to him that there will be no phone calls, sweet texts, or anything like that. You’ll have to act like you guys always do when we have parties like this and you will definitely have to see him only on days you know you won’t see Zack. I guess it’ll be easier with you not living with him.”

“Yeah, do you really think I should?”

“Yes, I really do. It sounds bad, I know, but it’ll be good for the both of you.”

“I just don’t want to make another mistake and lose Zack forever.”

“If you’re good at lying, you’ll be good at this.”

“I don’t know if I am.”

“If my sister can fucking do it, Lex. You can do it.” She laughed.

I shrugged. “That’s true.”

“Just go out of your comfort zone for once. You can do it. I’ll be here by your side.”

“I really can’t believe you’re on my side with this. I expected you to flip out, because of Michelle.”

“Honestly, she deserves it. She’s cheated on him. They won’t last anyway.”

“Yeah, I know. Brian kind of had a meltdown earlier and poured out his heart about her.”

“Hell with you guys having your secret relationship, it might make theirs work.” She laughed. “Who knows?”

“Thanks, Val. For being so understanding.”

“That’s what I’m here for.” She smiled and hugged me and we made our way back outside. And finally I felt like I understood this situation. I felt like it was a good idea and that I could possibly do it. Now, I just have to get a plan.

Notes

I know it's been terribly long. I have a good reason though! Got kicked out, lost internet, then lost my word program and didn't have the money to buy it, but now it's all fixed! And I have two more chapters already pre-written, so I should update again soon ^_^

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