Indestructable
3 Years Later
Over these last few years it's been such a blast! Going on tour with the guys and writting more songs that reflected my life and performing songs I already knew. I was having one amazing time. My 18th birthday is in 2 weeks and my theme is a gothic theme and the girls knew exactly how to plan something like this. The men that were set out on parole was a mistake made by the courts and they were put back in jail. I was so happy to hear the news from the court in Nashville.
Anyways back to my birthday plans. The guys have been avoiding me and mostly they were keeping Jimmy away from me so he wouldn't tell me what they were planning. Jimmy could never keep a damn secret even if his life depended on it. The girls were evidently planning something as well because they sneak around at night when they think I'm gone to bed and asleep. Hell I'm such a good faker. I'm sitting up in my room playing Three Days Grace on my guitar when there was a knock on the door.
"Come in." I said putting my guitar down. The door opened and revealed Zacky.
"Hey Zacky come on in." I said smiling.
"Am I disturbing you? If I am I can come back later."
"No come here and sit down." I said and he shut my door and came over to the bed sitting down.
"Can I talk to you about something personal?"
"Sure Zacky. What's up?" I said putting my hands in my lap.
"I need some advice about marriage."
"Zacky...I'm not married. All I can tell you is not to rush." I said smiling.
"No that's not what I meant. I mean...I want to ask Gena to be my wife but I don't know how."
"Alright. Why not do it romantically? I mean like take her to a nice restaurant then a walk on the beach watching the sunset and when the setting of the sun on the horizon is just right. Get down on one knee and tell her how you feel about her and ask her to be you wife." I explained and he nodded.
"Sounds good. You think she will like it?"
"Hell yeah she will! You got the ring on you?" I asked and he nodded and pulled the box out of his pocket. I opened the box and it was a gorgous ring.
"Damn! You must have spent a fortune on this! She will deffinately be surprised." I said smiling and he smiled right back.
"Thanks for the advice. I think I'm going to propose to her when we go back on tour right on stage."
"Why not take my idea?" I asked confused.
"I...I don't know. I love your idea but I just don't know."
"Zacky...She will love it with you being all romantic. Trust me." I said putting my hand on his shoulder.
"Alright. I'll go with your idea. Thanks Ame." He hugged me tightly and I hugged him right back.
"No problem! I'm happy to help you. So when are going to do it?" I asked picking my guitar up.
"Soon. I mean I don't want to rush it you know."
"Yeah I know." I said and I looked down at my guitar.
"You going to play?"
"You want me to?" I asked.
"Hell yeah. I love hearing you play and sing."
"Alright. I'll play on one condition." I said smiling.
"What?"
"You get your guitar and play with me." I said and he smiled and got up anf left the room. He came back seconds later with his guitar and he sat back down on the bed again.
"So what would you like to play?"
"How about Bat Country?" I said smiling.
"Hell yeah! My favorite song to play." I smiled and we began to play and sing.
He who makes a beast out of himself
Gets rid of the pain of being a man
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay
I tried to drive all through the night
The heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights
No oasis here to see
The sand is singing deathless words to me
Can't you help me?
As I'm startin' to burn (All alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction
My confidence is leaving me on my own (All alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention
As I adjust to my new sights
The rarely tired lights will take me to new heights
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right
Mental fiction follow me
Show me what it's like to be set free
Can't you help me? As I'm startin' to burn (All alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction
My confidence is leaving me on my own (All alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention
I'm sorry you're not here
I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear
Now take a trip with me
But don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today
Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die
We look up towards the sky for answers to our lives
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by
Don't want your absolution 'cause I can't make it right
I'll make a beast out of myself
Gets rid of all the pain of being a man
Can't you help me? As I'm startin' to burn (All alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction
My confidence is leaving me on my own (All alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention
I'm sorry you're not here
I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear
Now take a trip with me
But don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem
I've known it from the start
All these good ideas will tear your brain apart
Scared but you, you follow me
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die
The song ended and I smiled because watching Zacky play is like watching myself play. We did everything almost the same way and I liked it. Zacky set his guitar down and I looked at him confused.
"You don't want to play anymore?" I asked raising a brow.
"No but I would like to talk to you about someone."
"Who?" I asked.
"Brian."
"What about him?" I asked still confused.
"Well...He..he likes you."
"I like him too Zacky. I like all of you." I said smiling.
"I didn't mean it like that." I sat there for a minute in silence and then knew what he was talking about.
"Brian likes me? Like better than friends?" I asked and Zacky nodded.
"Why hasn't he said something?" I asked.
"You're 17 and he's afriad of what Matt might say if he started dating you."
"Zacky, if I can tell you anything it's that I can handle Matt. He has no say so in who I date." I said calmly.
"I hate to say this but...as long as you're in his house, you go by his rules."
"Figures. I lost my parents and now my 2 close friends. I'm not going to be happy while living here I guess." I said getting up. Zacky grabbed my arm and I looked at him with a death glare.
"Let me go Zacky." I said calmly.
"Where are you going? You're not leaving are you?"
"No I'm not leaving. I just need to go take a walk." I said.
"Alright but promise me you'll be back before 4. Please."
"I promise." I lied. I was going to airport and going back to Tennessee where I belong. I need to be with my grandparents. I mean if they ain't dead. He smiled and hugged me tightly. I let him go and walked out of my room and down the stairs. I seen the guys in the living room and Val walked out of the kitchen.
"I'm going out for a walk. I'll be back at 3:30." I said and she nodded. I walked out of the house and down to beach where I liked to be alone. I sat there looking out over the horizon. I thought about my mom and my friends, how they left me and I had no one left.
I mean I had the guys but I made a pact with myself to never get closer to anyone every again. Tonight I will be leaving and going back to Tennessee. I don't care if they get mad or not. I'm leaving my phone in my room and leaving. No one is stopping me. I looked down at my phone and it was 3pm. I stood up and walked back towards the house. When I got closer to the house, Brian was sitting outside. I walked up the driveway and I could see him smiling. I put on a fake smile as I reached the porch.
"Have a nice walk?"
"Yeah. I need to keep in shape." I said laughing but he didnt.
"You don't need to keep in shape. I think you are beautiful just the way you are." I blushed madly and he smiled.
"Thanks but I still like to keep in shape. If I don't I feel like shit." I said.
"Oh. Go get something to eat and rest. You must be tired."
"Hell yeah I am." I said laughing. I went in and ate before walking up to my room and locking the door. I started packing my things in my bag and I put my guitar in it's case. I went into the bathroom and took a shower before heading to bed. I laid down in bed after brushing my hair out and starred up at the ceiling.
I looked at my phone and waited for midnight. With that entertainment job I made a whole lot of money playing for the crowds that came in everyday. It was about 30 minutes before I was leaving so I wrote a letter to the guys.
Hey guys....if your reading this obviously I'm not in my room. Matter of fact I'm not in the state. I went to Colorado to live with a relative of mine and I don't want you all coming to find me. I'm sorry for having to do this but after losing my parents and my friends I have nothing else to look foreward to. I'm going to persue my music career and I would like you not to do anything to keep me in your life. I'm sorry but I need to do my own thing. I'm not the right kid for you guys. I'm too screwed up and so is my past. I'm just going to find someone like everyone of you that is sweet and kind to me as you all have been. Don't ever forget about me. I love you all and I hope you love me too. I will see you all oe day again....
Love you all,
Ame
I put the note on my pillow and opened the door slowly. Everyone was asleep and I slowly and quietly walked downstairs and outside. I took one last look at the house before walking away. I made my way to the airport and paid for a flight. I boarded the plane and watched the city fade away into the darkness.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MATT'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up and went to check on Ame. I worry about her all the time since what has happened. I knocked on her door but there was no answer. I was guessing she was still asleep. I walked into her room and she wasn't there. I seen a piece of paper on the pillow and I picked it up and began to read it.
Hey guys....if your reading this obviously I'm not in my room. Matter of fact I'm not in the state. I went to Colorado to live with a relative of mine and I don't want you all coming to find me. I'm sorry for having to do this but after losing my parents and my friends I have nothing else to look foreward to. I'm going to persue my music career and I would like you not to do anything to keep me in your life. I'm sorry but I need to do my own thing. I'm not the right kid for you guys. I'm too screwed up and so is my past. I'm just going to find someone like everyone of you that is sweet and kind to me as you all have been. Don't ever forget about me. I love you all and I hope you love me too. I will see you all oe day again....
Love you all,
Ame
I read it and a tear ran down my face. I looked over and seen her phone was still laying there and there was no way I could call her and talk to her. I heard the door open and I wiped away my tears.
"Sweetheart? Where's Ame?" I looked over at Val and she seen my tear stained eyes. She walked over to me and read the note. Her hand went to her mouth. I didn't know what was going to happen to her. Val hugged me tightly, comforting me. I was never going to see my little girl again. I can only imagine what Brian and everyone else was going to do when they heard.
"Val call the guys and tell them that Ame is gone. They'll want to know." She nodded and grabbed her cell and called the guys. I knew the guys were mad and they had every right to be. Today is Ame's birthday.......
Anyways back to my birthday plans. The guys have been avoiding me and mostly they were keeping Jimmy away from me so he wouldn't tell me what they were planning. Jimmy could never keep a damn secret even if his life depended on it. The girls were evidently planning something as well because they sneak around at night when they think I'm gone to bed and asleep. Hell I'm such a good faker. I'm sitting up in my room playing Three Days Grace on my guitar when there was a knock on the door.
"Come in." I said putting my guitar down. The door opened and revealed Zacky.
"Hey Zacky come on in." I said smiling.
"Am I disturbing you? If I am I can come back later."
"No come here and sit down." I said and he shut my door and came over to the bed sitting down.
"Can I talk to you about something personal?"
"Sure Zacky. What's up?" I said putting my hands in my lap.
"I need some advice about marriage."
"Zacky...I'm not married. All I can tell you is not to rush." I said smiling.
"No that's not what I meant. I mean...I want to ask Gena to be my wife but I don't know how."
"Alright. Why not do it romantically? I mean like take her to a nice restaurant then a walk on the beach watching the sunset and when the setting of the sun on the horizon is just right. Get down on one knee and tell her how you feel about her and ask her to be you wife." I explained and he nodded.
"Sounds good. You think she will like it?"
"Hell yeah she will! You got the ring on you?" I asked and he nodded and pulled the box out of his pocket. I opened the box and it was a gorgous ring.
"Damn! You must have spent a fortune on this! She will deffinately be surprised." I said smiling and he smiled right back.
"Thanks for the advice. I think I'm going to propose to her when we go back on tour right on stage."
"Why not take my idea?" I asked confused.
"I...I don't know. I love your idea but I just don't know."
"Zacky...She will love it with you being all romantic. Trust me." I said putting my hand on his shoulder.
"Alright. I'll go with your idea. Thanks Ame." He hugged me tightly and I hugged him right back.
"No problem! I'm happy to help you. So when are going to do it?" I asked picking my guitar up.
"Soon. I mean I don't want to rush it you know."
"Yeah I know." I said and I looked down at my guitar.
"You going to play?"
"You want me to?" I asked.
"Hell yeah. I love hearing you play and sing."
"Alright. I'll play on one condition." I said smiling.
"What?"
"You get your guitar and play with me." I said and he smiled and got up anf left the room. He came back seconds later with his guitar and he sat back down on the bed again.
"So what would you like to play?"
"How about Bat Country?" I said smiling.
"Hell yeah! My favorite song to play." I smiled and we began to play and sing.
He who makes a beast out of himself
Gets rid of the pain of being a man
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay
I tried to drive all through the night
The heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights
No oasis here to see
The sand is singing deathless words to me
Can't you help me?
As I'm startin' to burn (All alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction
My confidence is leaving me on my own (All alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention
As I adjust to my new sights
The rarely tired lights will take me to new heights
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right
Mental fiction follow me
Show me what it's like to be set free
Can't you help me? As I'm startin' to burn (All alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction
My confidence is leaving me on my own (All alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention
I'm sorry you're not here
I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear
Now take a trip with me
But don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today
Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die
We look up towards the sky for answers to our lives
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by
Don't want your absolution 'cause I can't make it right
I'll make a beast out of myself
Gets rid of all the pain of being a man
Can't you help me? As I'm startin' to burn (All alone)
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction
My confidence is leaving me on my own (All alone)
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention
I'm sorry you're not here
I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear
Now take a trip with me
But don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem
I've known it from the start
All these good ideas will tear your brain apart
Scared but you, you follow me
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die
The song ended and I smiled because watching Zacky play is like watching myself play. We did everything almost the same way and I liked it. Zacky set his guitar down and I looked at him confused.
"You don't want to play anymore?" I asked raising a brow.
"No but I would like to talk to you about someone."
"Who?" I asked.
"Brian."
"What about him?" I asked still confused.
"Well...He..he likes you."
"I like him too Zacky. I like all of you." I said smiling.
"I didn't mean it like that." I sat there for a minute in silence and then knew what he was talking about.
"Brian likes me? Like better than friends?" I asked and Zacky nodded.
"Why hasn't he said something?" I asked.
"You're 17 and he's afriad of what Matt might say if he started dating you."
"Zacky, if I can tell you anything it's that I can handle Matt. He has no say so in who I date." I said calmly.
"I hate to say this but...as long as you're in his house, you go by his rules."
"Figures. I lost my parents and now my 2 close friends. I'm not going to be happy while living here I guess." I said getting up. Zacky grabbed my arm and I looked at him with a death glare.
"Let me go Zacky." I said calmly.
"Where are you going? You're not leaving are you?"
"No I'm not leaving. I just need to go take a walk." I said.
"Alright but promise me you'll be back before 4. Please."
"I promise." I lied. I was going to airport and going back to Tennessee where I belong. I need to be with my grandparents. I mean if they ain't dead. He smiled and hugged me tightly. I let him go and walked out of my room and down the stairs. I seen the guys in the living room and Val walked out of the kitchen.
"I'm going out for a walk. I'll be back at 3:30." I said and she nodded. I walked out of the house and down to beach where I liked to be alone. I sat there looking out over the horizon. I thought about my mom and my friends, how they left me and I had no one left.
I mean I had the guys but I made a pact with myself to never get closer to anyone every again. Tonight I will be leaving and going back to Tennessee. I don't care if they get mad or not. I'm leaving my phone in my room and leaving. No one is stopping me. I looked down at my phone and it was 3pm. I stood up and walked back towards the house. When I got closer to the house, Brian was sitting outside. I walked up the driveway and I could see him smiling. I put on a fake smile as I reached the porch.
"Have a nice walk?"
"Yeah. I need to keep in shape." I said laughing but he didnt.
"You don't need to keep in shape. I think you are beautiful just the way you are." I blushed madly and he smiled.
"Thanks but I still like to keep in shape. If I don't I feel like shit." I said.
"Oh. Go get something to eat and rest. You must be tired."
"Hell yeah I am." I said laughing. I went in and ate before walking up to my room and locking the door. I started packing my things in my bag and I put my guitar in it's case. I went into the bathroom and took a shower before heading to bed. I laid down in bed after brushing my hair out and starred up at the ceiling.
I looked at my phone and waited for midnight. With that entertainment job I made a whole lot of money playing for the crowds that came in everyday. It was about 30 minutes before I was leaving so I wrote a letter to the guys.
Hey guys....if your reading this obviously I'm not in my room. Matter of fact I'm not in the state. I went to Colorado to live with a relative of mine and I don't want you all coming to find me. I'm sorry for having to do this but after losing my parents and my friends I have nothing else to look foreward to. I'm going to persue my music career and I would like you not to do anything to keep me in your life. I'm sorry but I need to do my own thing. I'm not the right kid for you guys. I'm too screwed up and so is my past. I'm just going to find someone like everyone of you that is sweet and kind to me as you all have been. Don't ever forget about me. I love you all and I hope you love me too. I will see you all oe day again....
Love you all,
Ame
I put the note on my pillow and opened the door slowly. Everyone was asleep and I slowly and quietly walked downstairs and outside. I took one last look at the house before walking away. I made my way to the airport and paid for a flight. I boarded the plane and watched the city fade away into the darkness.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MATT'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up and went to check on Ame. I worry about her all the time since what has happened. I knocked on her door but there was no answer. I was guessing she was still asleep. I walked into her room and she wasn't there. I seen a piece of paper on the pillow and I picked it up and began to read it.
Hey guys....if your reading this obviously I'm not in my room. Matter of fact I'm not in the state. I went to Colorado to live with a relative of mine and I don't want you all coming to find me. I'm sorry for having to do this but after losing my parents and my friends I have nothing else to look foreward to. I'm going to persue my music career and I would like you not to do anything to keep me in your life. I'm sorry but I need to do my own thing. I'm not the right kid for you guys. I'm too screwed up and so is my past. I'm just going to find someone like everyone of you that is sweet and kind to me as you all have been. Don't ever forget about me. I love you all and I hope you love me too. I will see you all oe day again....
Love you all,
Ame
I read it and a tear ran down my face. I looked over and seen her phone was still laying there and there was no way I could call her and talk to her. I heard the door open and I wiped away my tears.
"Sweetheart? Where's Ame?" I looked over at Val and she seen my tear stained eyes. She walked over to me and read the note. Her hand went to her mouth. I didn't know what was going to happen to her. Val hugged me tightly, comforting me. I was never going to see my little girl again. I can only imagine what Brian and everyone else was going to do when they heard.
"Val call the guys and tell them that Ame is gone. They'll want to know." She nodded and grabbed her cell and called the guys. I knew the guys were mad and they had every right to be. Today is Ame's birthday.......
2/18/13