No one has to know.
Sixteen: The mess we made of our lives.
To say that it was awkward the next day would be an understatement, don’t get me wrong I loved having Mason there, but when Zacky emerged from his room at around half one looking sleepy eyed and slightly ruffled I knew that he heard me last night.
There was a look on his face as he watched Mason and I together, I couldn’t tell what he was thinking, but the way that he was acting, it almost seemed like he was jealous of me, I know he told me that he was in love with someone else, but I think he still missed Gena.
“Zacky is starting to freak me out” Mason murmured as we sat on the couch eating cereal.
“How so?”
“He keeps looking at me like he wants to hit me every time I touch you”
“I think he misses Gena”
“Who?”
“His ex-girlfriend, she dumped him because of me”
“How do you fit into it?”
“Apparently he spends too much time with me and we’re ‘too close to just be friends’” I said
putting what she’d said in air quotes.
“I don’t think you are, you’ve just been friends ever since you were kids, it’s only natural for
you to be close”
“I still think that he misses Gena though”
X-X-X
Mason left at about four that afternoon, he took a shower with me before we left, but there was a lot of kissing in that shower.
“Riley can I talk to you about something?” Zacky asked knocking on my door.
“Yeah gimme a sec” I said pulled a shirt on over my head and doing it up, I opened the door
as I did the last button up. “What’s up?”
“I just wanted to ask you, next time he’s here, don’t talk about me like I can’t hear you?”
“What?”
“I heard you two earlier”
“Sorry” I mumbled looking at my feet.
“Don’t be” He laughed, well it was more like a sneer “Just get it right next time before you go gossiping about me with your boyfriend ”
“Zacky what is your problem?” I felt like I was gonna cry, why was he being so mean to me?
“What is my problem?”
“Yeah” I nodded at him, his expression changed a lot, he looked pissed off, and upset, and
annoyed. But I knew that he wasn’t going to tell me why. I could see that in his face. “Please tell me? You know I’m always here for you?” I took a step forward so that we were closer together. He looked like he wanted to tell me but he shook his head. “Please? I hate it when you’re upset”
He laughed.
“I’m not upset”
“Then what’s wrong?”
“You remember when I told you that I’d fallen in love with someone else?”
“Yeah”
“She doesn’t have a fucking clue, that’s why, you’d think she would have some idea that I liked her, but no, no fucking idea” He said running a hand over his face.
“Well tell me who she is, I’ll go talk to her”
“You can’t”
“Why not?” I was getting annoyed now, but he just looked pissed off now.
“God dammit Riley!” He yelled “I can’t tell you because you should already know!”
“How can I already know when you won’t tell me?”
“I shouldn’t have to tell you because you should have realise by now that I’m in love with you! It’s always been you!” And then he closed the gap between us, pressing his lips against mine and kissing me hard. I didn’t know what to do. Everything had just stopped, I couldn’t breathe, I could think, I couldn’t even move. The only thing running through my mind He’s in love with me .
I pushed him away, our lips disconnecting with a wet smacking sound.
“You can’t” I said
“I don’t get how it wasn’t obvious” He said
“You were with Gena, you never said anything, it was never obvious”
“It was obvious to everyone else”
“Like who”
“Well for one Brian”
“What?”
“Why do you think he never made a move on you, started dating Michelle, it’s because I’ve
been in love with you since the seventh grade!”
“What?”
“Riley I can’t… I know that you’re with Mason, but you just… you gotta know i feel”
“Zacky you… I’m not… get out”
“What?”
“Get out!” I yelled pushing him out the door and slamming it in his face.
“Riley?” His voice came from the other side of the door.
“Go away Zacky” I said
“I’m sorry”
“Go away”
I heard him sigh, and his footsteps going away from my door. I sat with my back against the door, running my hands through my hair. I slammed my head into the door.
“Fucking hell” I mumbled. He can’t do that; he must’ve known that this meant our friendship
was never gonna be the same again. I stood up and left my room, I was going to find him and talk to him about this. “Zacky!” I yelled. He emerged from the kitchen looking sheepish.
“Yeah?”
“What the fuck?!”
“Riley I’m sorry I just…”
“Zack how did you think that anything is ever gonna be the same after this?!”
“I didn’t I just… I had to tell you because it’s driving me crazy!”
“But you just… what… no you can’t do this I have a boyfriend!”
“Why do you think I had to tell you?! Do you know how jealous it makes me, to see him, all
over you, fucking hell, I heard you two last night”
“Pervert”
“Fucking hell Riley I can’t help the way I feel okay? I’m sorry, and I know that we can’t… fucking hell I know that you don’t feel the same way” Something twinged in my chest. Did I feel the same way, I knew that I loved him, but I wasn’t… in love with him. Was i?
“Zacky shut up”
“What?”
“Just shut up”
There was a look on his face as he watched Mason and I together, I couldn’t tell what he was thinking, but the way that he was acting, it almost seemed like he was jealous of me, I know he told me that he was in love with someone else, but I think he still missed Gena.
“Zacky is starting to freak me out” Mason murmured as we sat on the couch eating cereal.
“How so?”
“He keeps looking at me like he wants to hit me every time I touch you”
“I think he misses Gena”
“Who?”
“His ex-girlfriend, she dumped him because of me”
“How do you fit into it?”
“Apparently he spends too much time with me and we’re ‘too close to just be friends’” I said
putting what she’d said in air quotes.
“I don’t think you are, you’ve just been friends ever since you were kids, it’s only natural for
you to be close”
“I still think that he misses Gena though”
X-X-X
Mason left at about four that afternoon, he took a shower with me before we left, but there was a lot of kissing in that shower.
“Riley can I talk to you about something?” Zacky asked knocking on my door.
“Yeah gimme a sec” I said pulled a shirt on over my head and doing it up, I opened the door
as I did the last button up. “What’s up?”
“I just wanted to ask you, next time he’s here, don’t talk about me like I can’t hear you?”
“What?”
“I heard you two earlier”
“Sorry” I mumbled looking at my feet.
“Don’t be” He laughed, well it was more like a sneer “Just get it right next time before you go gossiping about me with your boyfriend ”
“Zacky what is your problem?” I felt like I was gonna cry, why was he being so mean to me?
“What is my problem?”
“Yeah” I nodded at him, his expression changed a lot, he looked pissed off, and upset, and
annoyed. But I knew that he wasn’t going to tell me why. I could see that in his face. “Please tell me? You know I’m always here for you?” I took a step forward so that we were closer together. He looked like he wanted to tell me but he shook his head. “Please? I hate it when you’re upset”
He laughed.
“I’m not upset”
“Then what’s wrong?”
“You remember when I told you that I’d fallen in love with someone else?”
“Yeah”
“She doesn’t have a fucking clue, that’s why, you’d think she would have some idea that I liked her, but no, no fucking idea” He said running a hand over his face.
“Well tell me who she is, I’ll go talk to her”
“You can’t”
“Why not?” I was getting annoyed now, but he just looked pissed off now.
“God dammit Riley!” He yelled “I can’t tell you because you should already know!”
“How can I already know when you won’t tell me?”
“I shouldn’t have to tell you because you should have realise by now that I’m in love with you! It’s always been you!” And then he closed the gap between us, pressing his lips against mine and kissing me hard. I didn’t know what to do. Everything had just stopped, I couldn’t breathe, I could think, I couldn’t even move. The only thing running through my mind He’s in love with me .
I pushed him away, our lips disconnecting with a wet smacking sound.
“You can’t” I said
“I don’t get how it wasn’t obvious” He said
“You were with Gena, you never said anything, it was never obvious”
“It was obvious to everyone else”
“Like who”
“Well for one Brian”
“What?”
“Why do you think he never made a move on you, started dating Michelle, it’s because I’ve
been in love with you since the seventh grade!”
“What?”
“Riley I can’t… I know that you’re with Mason, but you just… you gotta know i feel”
“Zacky you… I’m not… get out”
“What?”
“Get out!” I yelled pushing him out the door and slamming it in his face.
“Riley?” His voice came from the other side of the door.
“Go away Zacky” I said
“I’m sorry”
“Go away”
I heard him sigh, and his footsteps going away from my door. I sat with my back against the door, running my hands through my hair. I slammed my head into the door.
“Fucking hell” I mumbled. He can’t do that; he must’ve known that this meant our friendship
was never gonna be the same again. I stood up and left my room, I was going to find him and talk to him about this. “Zacky!” I yelled. He emerged from the kitchen looking sheepish.
“Yeah?”
“What the fuck?!”
“Riley I’m sorry I just…”
“Zack how did you think that anything is ever gonna be the same after this?!”
“I didn’t I just… I had to tell you because it’s driving me crazy!”
“But you just… what… no you can’t do this I have a boyfriend!”
“Why do you think I had to tell you?! Do you know how jealous it makes me, to see him, all
over you, fucking hell, I heard you two last night”
“Pervert”
“Fucking hell Riley I can’t help the way I feel okay? I’m sorry, and I know that we can’t… fucking hell I know that you don’t feel the same way” Something twinged in my chest. Did I feel the same way, I knew that I loved him, but I wasn’t… in love with him. Was i?
“Zacky shut up”
“What?”
“Just shut up”
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