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I returned to our bus , only to meet a furious - looking Michelle . She stood there glaring at me , resting her one hand on her waist .

'' Where have you been ? '' , she asked in an angry tone .

'' Why do you care , 'Chelle ? It's not like this is the first time you go out without me ... '' , I replied with a smirk .. '' But really , where have you been should be the question , seeing as my lovely wife has been missing for some 4-5 hours ... '' I added , now walking closer to her ..

'' A bar , Michelle ... Right ? Probably you decided to spent the night , one more night , partying like crazy , huh ? Drinking , dancing , flirting with guys ... '' I said , venom dripping from my words ... '' But let me guess , that didn't work out for you , now did it ? '' I asked , being only a few centimeters away from her face ...

'' Brian , what the hell are you t - '' she tried to start , but I cut her ..

'' We both know the truth here , Michelle ... There is absolutely no point in denying it .. Obviously you failed to find a decent piece of ass to f*ck tonight , so you made up your mind to come to me ... '' I smirked again , and leaned closer to her ear , whispering ..

'' Well that's not happening tonight ... '' , and immediately stood away from her again , and started making my way to my bunk , until I realised something ..

I don't want to sleep with her , I don't even want her to lay beside me anymore ...

Now one could say that it was my ''mood'' talking , that what me and Sierra had said to each other only hours ago had clouded my vision and couldn't really see straight . However , I actually felt like I could now see things brighter than I ever could .

So I turned around , and said to her ...

'' We are not sleeping together tonight ... I'll sleep on the couch ... '' and went to my bunk only to get my pillow and a blanket ..

'' Brian what the f*ck is wrong with you ? '' Michelle said ... '' Are you drunk or high ? '' she asked , her mouth open in disbelief as I started to prepare my ''bed'' for the night ...

'' Sober as f*ck , baby ... '' I replied bitterly as I finally managed to lay myself to the couch , which felt surprisingly comfortable ...

I heard Michelle muttering a faint '' whatever '' as she walked away from the room , probably to head towards the bunks .

Don't get me wrong here , I really felt hurt . It didn't feel right talking to her that way , being so cold to her , but it was time I did something about it . For the past 2 , maybe 3 , for all I know , years she's been cheating on me and I just sat there pretenting I didn't understand anything . I felt betrayed , I felt like she had constantly been stabbing me in the chest for so long I could no longer feel pain .

But it was there , and I could understand that the pain , the betrayal , the constant knowledge of the fact that I was married to a woman that found nothing wrong in flirting , kissing or f*cking other guys when I was away was always eating me apart , ripping me to pieces and just left me there , unable to save myself ...

But Sierra changed that . She resembled the light in my life .. From the first moment I saw her , I felt there was something special about her . I couldn't explain it , but I felt that she was the one to save me from my misery . But I'd let her down , because I couldn't find it in me to fix my mistakes , to make it all better and control my life ...

Because I wasn't strong enough to let go ...

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Sierra avoided me at all costs . She wouldn't even look at me .. But I couldn't really blame her ..

Michelle decided that for the whole f*cking day she'd stand by myside , especially after learning that photographers would be around every corner . So , she was always holding my hand , kissed any spot she could catch at any time given and generally showing how we , as a couple , were doing perfectly fine ...

Thank God we had a show , and a show = soundcheck , a.k.a. some time away from my ''dear'' wife , and probably some minutes closer to Sierra ...

But that didn't happen , because Sierra wouldn't even stand in an area where I'd be present .

And that broke me beyond repair , 'cause I had realised how I felt about her and just wanted to let her know about that too ... No that it would change anything , though , because I knew exactly what I had to do in order to change things ... And I didn't have the power to do it ...

So the day went by just like that , me being lost in my thoughts and Michelle not even realising it ... Or at least acting as if she couldn't understand anything .

And minuter before the show started , it hit me : I couldn't understand why I was with her ... We , as a couple , had managed to get to the point of twisting each other's minds about our own relationship ... We didn't have love ... Our marriage had turned into a pointless routine , a ''thing'' that had to be there for absolutely no reason , and it didn't evel feel okay . We had to end it .

I had to end it ...

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I walked in our bus , and took a quick shower , before walking out and noticing that not a single other person was there .

Weird ... Michelle should be here ... , I thought to myself , and after dressing my self in just a pair of jeans and a white v-neck , I stepped out of the bus again , looking around in hopes of finding Michelle .

And it didn't take long for me to find her , talking to some random guy while touching his chest . He was also touching her , more like grabbing , her ass and generally it was an '' oh- so- lovely '' sight for me ...

I walked towards them and grabbed Michelle's arm , yanking her away from the guy ...

'' Don't worry , she'll be back with you in a second ... '' I smirked at the guy as I practically dragged her to our bus . I got us both in and then slammed the door shut , and after I locked it , I looked at Michelle .

'' Brian , c'mmon I was only talking to the kid ...'' she started ''apologising'' but I cut her off ..

'' I don't care Michelle ... I really don't care about listening to you justifying yourself and your actions , taking in your pathetic excuses ... It's not the reason why I dragged you in here ... '' I said , and heard thunderstrucks from outside ...

Guess that's Jimmy talking ...

'' Then why did you get me in here .. ? '' she asked in disbelief , and I took a deap breath .
This is it ...

'' I want a divorce , Michelle ... '' I said in a serious tone , and she immediately widened her eyes in surprise ...

'' You can't be serious ... '' she muttered ..

'' Serious as a heart attack ... I want out of this , Michelle .. And believe me , deep down inside you want the same thing .. '' I said , maintaining my tone .

'' But no , baby , I don't want that ... What happened to you saying that we 're soulmates , huh ? What happened then ? '' she started getting angry and I couldn't believe it ; after everything that she had done ...

'' Soulmates don't do this to each other ! Soulmates , Michelle , don't go and sleep around with any person they find ... Soulmates don't lie to each other . The truth is that back then I had never felt anything even closely resembling the feeling of ''finding that someone '' ... And you were the person with whom I could faintly reach that feeling .. But then .. ''

'' Then what ? You met someone ? '' she asked still in an angry tone ..

'' Yes I did ... And she made me feel things I didn't even know I could feel .. '' I said in a slightly calmer tone ... Sierra always seemed to have that effect on me , even when I was just thinking about her ...

'' So you cheated on me , huh ? Right ? And you even have the nerve to accuse me of - '' she started ..

'' I NEVER slept with her ... Never ...'' I stopped her , and she silenced .
I sighed and sat to the couch . I put my head in my hands and inhaled deeply . After I let out a huge amount of air , I said to her .

'' I want you out of here by tomorrow ... I don't know where you'll go .. And also I need you to start packing your things from the house . By the time this tour comes to a stop , I want you out of there ... '' I said and looked at her .

To my surprise , she wasn't crying or anything ... But again , maybe she had that much alcohol in her system that didn't allow her to show emotions .

'' Whatever , Brian ... This is just one of your phases again ... It will once again pass and you'll come running back to me ... '' she said with a smirk ...

'' It's not a f*cking phase Michelle ! It's real ! I'm kicking you out of my life ... For good ... '' I said in an angry tone , looking directly in her cold eyes .

'' Whatever ... '' she waved off and went to the bunk area ..

I rubbed my face and stared at the mirror . I could now see something I hadn't seen for a long time on my face : a sense of relief , and maybe a spark of something else I couldn't explain .

And right then I knew what I had to do ...

I had to find Sierra

So I run out , in the rain , not caring at all about the fact that I was only in a t-shirt . I stopped to think where Sierra could possibly be , and the most obvious answer would be the bus . So I started walking towards there , slightly shivering as the rain had now managed to get me completely wet and shivering .

The moment I reached the door though , it opened , and revealed a stunning looking Sierra , throwing a weird look at me ..

'' Well , I 've b-been w-a-iting all these hours for you to show up ... '' I joked , in hopes of gaining some sympathy from her , but my attempt probably failed as she replied

'' How did you know I'd even be willing to go out in the rain ? '' ... ,

'' I remember you telling me how the rain is , basically , the love of your life and all ... '' , I replied , and she simply nodded . I took a deep breath and started ..

'' Any-yways ... I need to tell you something ... '' , I said to her , and tried to get closer to her , but she pushed me away , following me in the rain ...

'' No, Brian , we talked about that already ... There's nothing going on between us ...'' she replied , but I cut her off by gently placing my finger on her lips .

'' I broke up with Michelle .... Sierra ... I-I-I 'm ...'' I tried saying , but the shivering was overpowering my ability to speak .. That and of course Sierra's beautiful glance as she waited for me to tell her something . So , I took a deep breath , and said to her ...

'' I'm in love with you , Sierra ...'' , and then crushed my lips on hers , and smiled as I felt her not rejecting it . The moment our lips touched I felt my whole body tensing , as if every cell in my body slowly went numb and my heartbeat , I thought , could be heard all across the globe . The rain kept on going and going , and thunderstrucks multiplied , making Sierra jump slightly , something that made me hold her tighter against my body , securing her from the coldness and allowing her to feel safe in my arms ...

We kept on kissing for what seemed like forever , until we necessarily stopped in order to catch our breaths . I looked in her eyes as she was now panting ,along with me , and saw the same spark I knew was evident in my eyes . And then she smiled , a smile unlike anything I've ever seen before , a smile that had my insides going crazy and made me feel like I was in a place that nothing could hurt me ..

I smiled back at her and hugged her even closer , just in order to allow my body to transfer as much heat as possible to hers . She had her hands wrapped around my neck , and her fingers were playing with my completely wet hair ... I placed my head over hers as she rested her head on my chest ...

So we sat there , like fools in the rain , not caring about what anyone would think of us . Because for those few minutes , the world existed only for me and her ...

That wouldn't last for long , though , as I heard a voice from behind me ... a female voice asking ...
'' So , that's her , huh ? ''