Soulmates
Tonight Will Never Fade
Sierra's POV
It's been almost two weeks since that fight between Brian and Noel took place , and I'd done my best at avoiding Brian at all costs. Of course , the fact that we had shows on a regular basis did help a lot , as both of us were really busy . After each show , I'd go straight to our bus , avoiding any sense of human contact . And it wasn't all because of Brian . I was terrified of Noel too.
He had managed to track me down , to reach me without a single person noticing and in the end hurt a person I had grown feelings for . So , it was clear to me that noone was safe anymore . Noone that had anything to do with me . That was the main reason I had to keep away from as many people as possible .
I had to protect myself, and anyone I cared about ...
So tonight , after our show ended , I followed the same routine . I took a warm bath , as I always thought it was the easiest way to relax . After I got done with the bath , I threw a black top and a pair of shorts , and decided I'd watch a movie before going to bed . Jason and the guys had said something about going out to party with our roadies , so they'd be gone for most of the night .
I started searching for a good movie , and picked one of my all - time favorites . ''The Crow '' , with Brandon Lee . It's been my favorite movie since I was 10 , and I don't think any remake will ever compare to it.
I sat comfortably on my bunk , got my laptop and started the movie , after turning out all the lights . I do this anytime I decide to watch a movie , because I love the cinema's atmosphere . Darkness , I guess , has this strange power of releasing a mysterious sense of magic in the air anytime , anywhere.
I was so into the movie , even though I have watched it 100 times , that the sound of someone knocking on my door scared the life out of me . But , hey , you can't blame me : I was all alone in a dark bus , and it was almost midnight .
I stood up and slowly walked towards the door . I took a deep breath , and prepared my self to scream the moment the door opened . I had already taken hold of a bottle of Jack I found on Matt's bunk , as in my head it was the deadliest weapon of defense our bus contained.
So , after taking a couple of deeper breaths , praying to God that the person knocking on the door wasn't a serial-killer , and most importandly the serial killer I knew , I opened the door , only to come face to face with a shivering , and somehow sick-looking, Brian. I just stood there , not really knowing what to do .
'' Well , h..hello to you t..too '' , Brian said , still shivering . I felt sorry for him , since I knew it was pretty cold outside , but still remained sceptical about the reasons of his visit.
'' S...so , c..c..an I c...c..ome in , pl...l...e..ase ? '' Brian continued , and I came out of my trance state , realising that the whole time a man was freezing outside and I was probably looking at nowhere like a retard .
'' Oh My God , I'm soo sorry , come in ! '' I motioned for him to follow me , and shut the door behind me , locking it .
'' You must be freezing , but still you are only in a V- neck and a jacket ... '' I muttered , seeing as he still shivered lightly .
'' Yeah , loo..k..k w..wh..ho 's talking .. '' he said with a laugh , and I smirked .
'' Oh , well , I'm in a bus ... Plus , I'm not the one shivering ... '' , I said , '' Are you sure you are okay , though ? You look kind of ... well you certainly don't look healty ... '' I added , as I could now spot the black bags under his faded , brown eyes , his pale face , and his cheekbones slightly more apparent , something that could mean he'd lost some weight in the past few weeks .
'' Well , I'm not really doing that great ... Ever since the last time I saw you , and knowing you 've been avoiding me ... '' he responded , looking directly at me .
'' I haven't been avoiding you , Brian... '' I started , but even I could tell I was lying . '' I just ..- ''
'' You just what ? You happened to never show up in any party that took place ? All of a sudden you stopped fancying any type of social interraction ? '' he said , anger now evident
in both his tone and eyes .
'' What are you talking about ? And who the F**K gave you the right to YELL at me ? '' I said , and I already felt my self tensing . Believe me , one thing I can't do no matter how hard I try is control my temper .
'' I ' m not yelling at you , Sierra ... I just want to know why you ' ve been avoiding everyone .... If it's because of that asshole in that bar , I can deal with it ... I can talk to some people , and we can enforce security and all that shit .. '' Brian started .
'' You can't do shit about it , Brian ... That's the f**king truth ... You DON'T know him , and you should have stayed away , like I told you to do in the first place ... '' I shouted , and forced myself to look down at my feet , taking deep breaths to stop the tears that were already threatening to make their way down my cheeks .
There were some minutes of silence , before I heard Brian whispering to me . Only then I realised he had moved and now stood beside me .
'' Noel .... That's his name .... I remember him saying his name to me .. I also remember him threatening me , while he held me against that wall .. Saying that he'd kill me or anyone that would try to stop him from getting to you ... Is that the reason why you 've been hiding ? '' he said , and I faintly nodded , still keeping my eyes on the floor .
'' You don't know him like I do , Brian .... You need to stay away from me , all of you ... When you decided to confront him , you really had no idea what kind of mess you were getting your self into .... '' I said in a quiet tone , and forced my felf to raise my head and look at the wall in front of me . It was much easier than having to look in Brian's eyes anyways ...
Brian's POV
I didn't know what to do .. I hadn't seen here for what seemed like ages . She'd simply disappear after every show , wouldn't show up anywhere else after , and I honestly felt my self fainting day after day... I barely slept or ate anything , I felt sick every morning and couldn't explain it .
So tonight , after the show ended , I was determined to find her . I didn't care about the weird glances I received from Matt when someone from Sierra's band told me that Sierra would be staying at the bus for the night , and that the rest of them would be going out , and my face suddenly lit up . This would be the perfect chance for me to talk to her , to explain that what I felt for her wasn't something I would be able to control or hide for much longer .
So I went to their bus , in barely any clothes as I didn't care about my appearance . Even though I knew I looked hideous and didn't want her to think I was ugly or something , I needed her to see the real me ... minus the make up , the perfectly styled hair , the eyeliner over my eyes . I needed her to love the dirty ,tired , love sick boy that I was at that moment ...
After a few minutes , in which I continued to slowly freeze to death , she opened the door , looking beautiful as ever ... She had no make - up on , she had her hair down , falling over her shoulders , and was only in a top and a pair of shorts .
She probably zoned out , but then came back to reality and let me in .
I wasn't really paying any attention to what she was saying , as the only thing that was on my mind was finding out the reason why she's been avoiding me the past weeks .
She asked me how was I doing , taking in my horrible appearance , and I responded .
'' Well , I'm not really doing that great ... Ever since the last time I saw you , and knowing you 've been avoiding me ... ''
She tried denying it , but I cut her off again .
'' You just what ? You happened to never show up in any party that took place ? All of a sudden you stopped fancying any type of social interraction ? '' I said , and probably she understood that I began getting furious .
'' What are you talking about ? And who the F**K gave you the right to YELL at me ? '' she said , clearly losing her composure .
'' I ' m not yelling at you , Sierra ... I just want to know why you ' ve been avoiding everyone .... If it's because of that asshole in that bar , I can deal with it ... I can talk to some people , and we can enforce security and all that shit .. '' , I said in a calmer tone , trying to make her understand that I was there for her no matter what ... It was a risk I was willing to take with her .
'' You can't do shit about it , Brian ... That's the f**king truth ... You DON'T know him , and you should have stayed away , like I told you to do in the first place ... '' , she shouted at me , and then looked down at the floor , not wanting to make eye contact with me .
I slowly took some steps towards her until I stood right next to her , and whispered ..
'' Noel .... That's his name .... I remember him saying his name to me .. I also remember him threatening me , while he held me against that wall .. Saying that he'd kill me or anyone that would try to stop him from getting to you ... Is that the reason why you 've been hiding ? '' , and saw her nodding before raising her head to look at the wall straight in front of her.
'' You don't know him like I do , Brian .... You need to stay away from me , all of you ... When you decided to confront him , you really had no idea what kind of mess you were getting your self into .... '' , she said not taking her eyes off the wall .
'' Sierra , please look at me .... '' I said , and she slowly turned her head towards me . I looked straight in her eyes , and took a deep breath before opening my mouth ..
'' I know he must be dangerous , and I know that you are scared of him , and not just because he might hurt you but because he might hurt all the people you care about ... or me ... But you know what ? The moment I saw that man bothering you , something inside me just forced me to protect you in any way I could ... I didn't and still don't care where I got myself into when I stood up for you ... Even if protecting you signaled the Italian Mafia to start hunting me down ..-''
'' He's much worse than the mafia , Brian ...'' she whispered and tried looking away again , but I raised my hand and forced her eyes to stay in contact with mine .
'' I 'd do it again in a heartbeat ... These past few weeks have been like hell to me , Sierra ... Believe me I 've barely slept at all ... My mind is always focused on you , on whether you are safe or not , and I can't help it .... '' I whispered at her , and brought my face closer to hers..
'' I wasn't lying when I told you that I feel things for you Sierra .... I can't bring myself to deny them anymore ... I can't pretend it ... I'm not that strong ... '' I said , and then pressed my lips against hers , and felt my heart colliding violently against my ribcase , my breath getting caught in my chest as I wished for this moment to last forever .
Sierra 's POV
The moment his lips connected with mine , I felt like nothing could go wrong . His kiss was the sweetest thing ever , it wasn't over-dominant or anything , and I felt like he was trying to make me realise what he felt for me... and I felt the need to do the same .
So I didn't stop the kiss , I didn't squirm away from his touch on my waist as I wrapped my arms around his neck , and both went to the bunk area .
I broke the kiss only to remove the laptop from my spot , basically just throwing it to the bunk next to mine , and climped in , Brian following me and laying beside me .
I though he would go further , but he didn't . He wrapped his arms around me , and kept on kissing me , and I did the same ... He stopped and locked his eyes with mine ..
'' You are much more to me than a simple f**k , Sierra .... '' and I nodded , burying my face in his chest.
'' Tell me something beautiful ... something that will make the nightmares go away ... '' I whispered ...
I felt him taking a deep breath , and starting ...
Brian's POV
I held her in my arms , and honestly I couldn't wish for something better at that moment ... She wasn't scared , I was going to keep her safe , her guardian angel ...
'' Tell me something beautiful ... something that will make the nightmares go away ... '' she whispered , and I started thinking about a story ... Until a quote from a book I'd read a long time ago came into my mind , and decided to modify it so it would fit the situation me and her were in ....
'' There is this thing I read somewhere , about a boy and a girl , a love story so unique it's hard to believe it ever happened for real , but it happened , it must have happened somewhere around the world , in a parallel unicerse that allows happiness to grow , that light does actually fight the darkness and nightmares never exist ... So , one night like this , the boy was holding that girl in his arms , that unique girl that felt like the most precious thing in his life .. but the girl was scared , and the boy had to say something to calm her down , to let her know how much she meant to him ... '' I stopped , seeing that Sierra had her eyes already closed , and a smile slowly started making its way on her face ... And after taking a deep breath , I leaned closer to her ear , and whispered to her ..
'' I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane...''..
I saw a smile had appeared on her face , and I genuenly smiled back... I wrapped my arms stronger around her , and allowed myself to close my eyes , feeling that no matter what happened the day after , tonight would never fade..
Sierra's POV
The words that came out of his mouth made my heart melt , and a smile to make its way on my seemingly sleeping face .. Brian probably thought I'd already slept , cause when I turned to meet his face , his eyes were closed , a smile on his face as well .
I carefully pecked his lips , and whispered..
'' You are no drizzle ... You are my hurricane ... '' and then allowed my eyes to close , as my head was resting right next to his chest.. The last thing I heard , though , before sleep took over me , were Sarah's words , coming from the movie that was still playing on my laptop...
[i]'' Buildings Burn , People Die , But Real Love Is Forever .... ''[/i]
It's been almost two weeks since that fight between Brian and Noel took place , and I'd done my best at avoiding Brian at all costs. Of course , the fact that we had shows on a regular basis did help a lot , as both of us were really busy . After each show , I'd go straight to our bus , avoiding any sense of human contact . And it wasn't all because of Brian . I was terrified of Noel too.
He had managed to track me down , to reach me without a single person noticing and in the end hurt a person I had grown feelings for . So , it was clear to me that noone was safe anymore . Noone that had anything to do with me . That was the main reason I had to keep away from as many people as possible .
I had to protect myself, and anyone I cared about ...
So tonight , after our show ended , I followed the same routine . I took a warm bath , as I always thought it was the easiest way to relax . After I got done with the bath , I threw a black top and a pair of shorts , and decided I'd watch a movie before going to bed . Jason and the guys had said something about going out to party with our roadies , so they'd be gone for most of the night .
I started searching for a good movie , and picked one of my all - time favorites . ''The Crow '' , with Brandon Lee . It's been my favorite movie since I was 10 , and I don't think any remake will ever compare to it.
I sat comfortably on my bunk , got my laptop and started the movie , after turning out all the lights . I do this anytime I decide to watch a movie , because I love the cinema's atmosphere . Darkness , I guess , has this strange power of releasing a mysterious sense of magic in the air anytime , anywhere.
I was so into the movie , even though I have watched it 100 times , that the sound of someone knocking on my door scared the life out of me . But , hey , you can't blame me : I was all alone in a dark bus , and it was almost midnight .
I stood up and slowly walked towards the door . I took a deep breath , and prepared my self to scream the moment the door opened . I had already taken hold of a bottle of Jack I found on Matt's bunk , as in my head it was the deadliest weapon of defense our bus contained.
So , after taking a couple of deeper breaths , praying to God that the person knocking on the door wasn't a serial-killer , and most importandly the serial killer I knew , I opened the door , only to come face to face with a shivering , and somehow sick-looking, Brian. I just stood there , not really knowing what to do .
'' Well , h..hello to you t..too '' , Brian said , still shivering . I felt sorry for him , since I knew it was pretty cold outside , but still remained sceptical about the reasons of his visit.
'' S...so , c..c..an I c...c..ome in , pl...l...e..ase ? '' Brian continued , and I came out of my trance state , realising that the whole time a man was freezing outside and I was probably looking at nowhere like a retard .
'' Oh My God , I'm soo sorry , come in ! '' I motioned for him to follow me , and shut the door behind me , locking it .
'' You must be freezing , but still you are only in a V- neck and a jacket ... '' I muttered , seeing as he still shivered lightly .
'' Yeah , loo..k..k w..wh..ho 's talking .. '' he said with a laugh , and I smirked .
'' Oh , well , I'm in a bus ... Plus , I'm not the one shivering ... '' , I said , '' Are you sure you are okay , though ? You look kind of ... well you certainly don't look healty ... '' I added , as I could now spot the black bags under his faded , brown eyes , his pale face , and his cheekbones slightly more apparent , something that could mean he'd lost some weight in the past few weeks .
'' Well , I'm not really doing that great ... Ever since the last time I saw you , and knowing you 've been avoiding me ... '' he responded , looking directly at me .
'' I haven't been avoiding you , Brian... '' I started , but even I could tell I was lying . '' I just ..- ''
'' You just what ? You happened to never show up in any party that took place ? All of a sudden you stopped fancying any type of social interraction ? '' he said , anger now evident
in both his tone and eyes .
'' What are you talking about ? And who the F**K gave you the right to YELL at me ? '' I said , and I already felt my self tensing . Believe me , one thing I can't do no matter how hard I try is control my temper .
'' I ' m not yelling at you , Sierra ... I just want to know why you ' ve been avoiding everyone .... If it's because of that asshole in that bar , I can deal with it ... I can talk to some people , and we can enforce security and all that shit .. '' Brian started .
'' You can't do shit about it , Brian ... That's the f**king truth ... You DON'T know him , and you should have stayed away , like I told you to do in the first place ... '' I shouted , and forced myself to look down at my feet , taking deep breaths to stop the tears that were already threatening to make their way down my cheeks .
There were some minutes of silence , before I heard Brian whispering to me . Only then I realised he had moved and now stood beside me .
'' Noel .... That's his name .... I remember him saying his name to me .. I also remember him threatening me , while he held me against that wall .. Saying that he'd kill me or anyone that would try to stop him from getting to you ... Is that the reason why you 've been hiding ? '' he said , and I faintly nodded , still keeping my eyes on the floor .
'' You don't know him like I do , Brian .... You need to stay away from me , all of you ... When you decided to confront him , you really had no idea what kind of mess you were getting your self into .... '' I said in a quiet tone , and forced my felf to raise my head and look at the wall in front of me . It was much easier than having to look in Brian's eyes anyways ...
Brian's POV
I didn't know what to do .. I hadn't seen here for what seemed like ages . She'd simply disappear after every show , wouldn't show up anywhere else after , and I honestly felt my self fainting day after day... I barely slept or ate anything , I felt sick every morning and couldn't explain it .
So tonight , after the show ended , I was determined to find her . I didn't care about the weird glances I received from Matt when someone from Sierra's band told me that Sierra would be staying at the bus for the night , and that the rest of them would be going out , and my face suddenly lit up . This would be the perfect chance for me to talk to her , to explain that what I felt for her wasn't something I would be able to control or hide for much longer .
So I went to their bus , in barely any clothes as I didn't care about my appearance . Even though I knew I looked hideous and didn't want her to think I was ugly or something , I needed her to see the real me ... minus the make up , the perfectly styled hair , the eyeliner over my eyes . I needed her to love the dirty ,tired , love sick boy that I was at that moment ...
After a few minutes , in which I continued to slowly freeze to death , she opened the door , looking beautiful as ever ... She had no make - up on , she had her hair down , falling over her shoulders , and was only in a top and a pair of shorts .
She probably zoned out , but then came back to reality and let me in .
I wasn't really paying any attention to what she was saying , as the only thing that was on my mind was finding out the reason why she's been avoiding me the past weeks .
She asked me how was I doing , taking in my horrible appearance , and I responded .
'' Well , I'm not really doing that great ... Ever since the last time I saw you , and knowing you 've been avoiding me ... ''
She tried denying it , but I cut her off again .
'' You just what ? You happened to never show up in any party that took place ? All of a sudden you stopped fancying any type of social interraction ? '' I said , and probably she understood that I began getting furious .
'' What are you talking about ? And who the F**K gave you the right to YELL at me ? '' she said , clearly losing her composure .
'' I ' m not yelling at you , Sierra ... I just want to know why you ' ve been avoiding everyone .... If it's because of that asshole in that bar , I can deal with it ... I can talk to some people , and we can enforce security and all that shit .. '' , I said in a calmer tone , trying to make her understand that I was there for her no matter what ... It was a risk I was willing to take with her .
'' You can't do shit about it , Brian ... That's the f**king truth ... You DON'T know him , and you should have stayed away , like I told you to do in the first place ... '' , she shouted at me , and then looked down at the floor , not wanting to make eye contact with me .
I slowly took some steps towards her until I stood right next to her , and whispered ..
'' Noel .... That's his name .... I remember him saying his name to me .. I also remember him threatening me , while he held me against that wall .. Saying that he'd kill me or anyone that would try to stop him from getting to you ... Is that the reason why you 've been hiding ? '' , and saw her nodding before raising her head to look at the wall straight in front of her.
'' You don't know him like I do , Brian .... You need to stay away from me , all of you ... When you decided to confront him , you really had no idea what kind of mess you were getting your self into .... '' , she said not taking her eyes off the wall .
'' Sierra , please look at me .... '' I said , and she slowly turned her head towards me . I looked straight in her eyes , and took a deep breath before opening my mouth ..
'' I know he must be dangerous , and I know that you are scared of him , and not just because he might hurt you but because he might hurt all the people you care about ... or me ... But you know what ? The moment I saw that man bothering you , something inside me just forced me to protect you in any way I could ... I didn't and still don't care where I got myself into when I stood up for you ... Even if protecting you signaled the Italian Mafia to start hunting me down ..-''
'' He's much worse than the mafia , Brian ...'' she whispered and tried looking away again , but I raised my hand and forced her eyes to stay in contact with mine .
'' I 'd do it again in a heartbeat ... These past few weeks have been like hell to me , Sierra ... Believe me I 've barely slept at all ... My mind is always focused on you , on whether you are safe or not , and I can't help it .... '' I whispered at her , and brought my face closer to hers..
'' I wasn't lying when I told you that I feel things for you Sierra .... I can't bring myself to deny them anymore ... I can't pretend it ... I'm not that strong ... '' I said , and then pressed my lips against hers , and felt my heart colliding violently against my ribcase , my breath getting caught in my chest as I wished for this moment to last forever .
Sierra 's POV
The moment his lips connected with mine , I felt like nothing could go wrong . His kiss was the sweetest thing ever , it wasn't over-dominant or anything , and I felt like he was trying to make me realise what he felt for me... and I felt the need to do the same .
So I didn't stop the kiss , I didn't squirm away from his touch on my waist as I wrapped my arms around his neck , and both went to the bunk area .
I broke the kiss only to remove the laptop from my spot , basically just throwing it to the bunk next to mine , and climped in , Brian following me and laying beside me .
I though he would go further , but he didn't . He wrapped his arms around me , and kept on kissing me , and I did the same ... He stopped and locked his eyes with mine ..
'' You are much more to me than a simple f**k , Sierra .... '' and I nodded , burying my face in his chest.
'' Tell me something beautiful ... something that will make the nightmares go away ... '' I whispered ...
I felt him taking a deep breath , and starting ...
Brian's POV
I held her in my arms , and honestly I couldn't wish for something better at that moment ... She wasn't scared , I was going to keep her safe , her guardian angel ...
'' Tell me something beautiful ... something that will make the nightmares go away ... '' she whispered , and I started thinking about a story ... Until a quote from a book I'd read a long time ago came into my mind , and decided to modify it so it would fit the situation me and her were in ....
'' There is this thing I read somewhere , about a boy and a girl , a love story so unique it's hard to believe it ever happened for real , but it happened , it must have happened somewhere around the world , in a parallel unicerse that allows happiness to grow , that light does actually fight the darkness and nightmares never exist ... So , one night like this , the boy was holding that girl in his arms , that unique girl that felt like the most precious thing in his life .. but the girl was scared , and the boy had to say something to calm her down , to let her know how much she meant to him ... '' I stopped , seeing that Sierra had her eyes already closed , and a smile slowly started making its way on her face ... And after taking a deep breath , I leaned closer to her ear , and whispered to her ..
'' I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane...''..
I saw a smile had appeared on her face , and I genuenly smiled back... I wrapped my arms stronger around her , and allowed myself to close my eyes , feeling that no matter what happened the day after , tonight would never fade..
Sierra's POV
The words that came out of his mouth made my heart melt , and a smile to make its way on my seemingly sleeping face .. Brian probably thought I'd already slept , cause when I turned to meet his face , his eyes were closed , a smile on his face as well .
I carefully pecked his lips , and whispered..
'' You are no drizzle ... You are my hurricane ... '' and then allowed my eyes to close , as my head was resting right next to his chest.. The last thing I heard , though , before sleep took over me , were Sarah's words , coming from the movie that was still playing on my laptop...
[i]'' Buildings Burn , People Die , But Real Love Is Forever .... ''[/i]
Notes
Pretty cheesy I know :PCOMMENTS :D
10/29/13