Forbidden love, Hidden lust

I walked into the house, hoping that she would let what I said sink in and follow me. I sat down on the couch and turned on the TV, flipping through the channels. I sat there hoping that she didn't tell or any of the other guys didn't see what had just happened. I didn't really care if they did, at that point. I had broken.

I meant what I had said to her too. She was mine. Not Brian's. I had never has so much dislike for him before until now. I couldn't fucking stand the thought of her being with him. All there was left to do was to let the dates happen. I didn't want him to think anything. I didn't know how they would react, knowing that I was all about my sister.

"Zack." I heard her say from the kitchen. I turned in her direction.

"I'm in here." I mumbled. She walked up behind me, wrapping her arms around my neck, from behind.

"Zack, I'm sorry." she said, against my skin. "I wont go on those dates with Brian." I leaned my head to the side and looked at her with a smile.

"It's not even about that Zay." I sighed. "I'm your brother not your boyfriend. It really shouldn't be that way."

"It don't stop you from wanting to be though." she said crawling over the back of the couch to sit next to me. I looked at her.

"No. It doesn't. " I admitted. I didn't know what it was about her. We had this instant connection that was way too hard to ignore. I thought that maybe I was falling in love with her. It was a ridiculous thought though. She reached over and took my hand, looking me in the eyes.

"Zack. I really like you." I smiled. I knew that she was probably not just telling me that to make me feel better. I was pretty sure she meant it and that made me happy. I looked at her with a smirk.

"Really?" I said in a low tone. Leaning toward her.

"Mmhm." she said. I smiled as I leaned and captured her lips into mine, once again, as I smiled against them. The kiss heated and I found myself running my hand up and down her sides. She pulled away.

"We can't do this." she said. "They're still here." I knew that she was right. Mom and Dad were still there and so were the guys. I smiled.

"We'll finish this up later?" I stated, more of a question. She smiled them leaned down and kissed me on the cheek.

"You betcha." she said. "Now let's get back out there and spend some time with the guys. I growled at the thought.

"As long as Brian keeps his hands off you, then we should be ok." I stated. She looked at me with a serious look on her face.

"Zack. You know we can't let them get suspicious about anything." She smiled, with a wink. I understood.

"Yeah I know." I said, with a smile. Although deep down I really didn't give a fuck who knew, but I knew it wasn't right, and I knew she did too, but we really didn't care. She reached up and ran a hand through my damp hair.

"Hey guys," I heard Jimmy's voice from behind us. "You guys wanna get some pizza, I'm starving." I laughed.

"Yes, Jimmy, I will get some pizza and feed your ass. You need it, believe me." Zaylyn laughed at the joke that I had made about Jimmy's weight. I think that maybe she thought the same thing that I did, but didn't want to hurt his feelings. After all, Jimmy could be a big cry baby at times. I laughed as he danced his way back out to the beach, happy about the pizza.

"He's such a nut." she said, with a smile. I smiled, with a sigh.

"Well, we better get that pizza ordered." I said as I pulled out my wallet, fingering through it for some cash.

"Holy shit, Zack, You have a credit card." she asked in an excited tone. I looked at her with a smile.

"Yeah. I work, I make my own money, am I not allowed to have one?" I asked, with a hint of sarcasm. She smiled punching me in the arm again. I cringed.

"What the fuck, Zay?!" I yelled. "Where the hell did you learn to punch like that?" She smiled.

"When you're moved around from home to home, you come across a lot of asshole, teenage, guys. I kinda had no choice." I looked at her with a confused look. Before she continued. "The last place I was at, I beat the shit out of the guy that was there, because he tried to rape me." My face softened.

"Are you serious?" She nodded.

"Yeah. The took me out and I sat in foster care for another 6 months until I got found by Mom and Dad." I looked at her with a look of sympathy. I felt sorry for her that she had to go through the things that she did. I took her into a hug, holding her tightly.

"I'm sorry, Zay." I said. I hated the fact that she had to go through that shit, but, she was here now, with me and there was no way in hell anything like that was gonna happen again. I felt that it was my job to take care of her, and that's what I was planning on doing.

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