The God That Never Came
Being Followed
School is going good and instead of teaching today Mr. Sanders gave us our Friday off. I knew it would be a waste of time to teach on Friday and have everyone forget what he taught over the weekend. I looked out the window and seen a man with his arms crossed just staring at me with hate filled eyes. He looked exactly like Earl. I turned my head back down to my paper and then looked back but he was gone. What the fuck just happened? I shook it off and continued to draw but I would look out the window ever so often just to make sure. Maybe my mind if fucking with me?
Mr. Sanders was eating and texting on his phone while I checked over the list I made earlier. I had everything I needed and I really couldn't think of anything else to put on there. The bell sounded and everyone returned to the classroom. I continued to draw after putting the list back into my pocket. Mr. Sanders was still texting away and he would smile every now and then. He had a really cute smile and his dimples were so adorable.
Octayne! What are you doing? Mr. Sanders is your teacher and you can't be thinking about that shit! He's probably got a girlfriend!
I shook my head and sighed and finished the drawing and just laid my head down on the desk. I couldn't wrap my mind around why the vision of Earl appeared right in front of me. I stared out the window thinking about the day I left. It was the happiest day of my life. I wonder how John is doing? I haven't heard from him in 2 years. Maybe he's been busy with stuff. The dismissal bell rang at exactly 3 o'clock and I put my things into my bag and went up to Mr. Sanders desk. I sat down in a chair as he stayed on his phone a few more minutes before looking over at me.
"I'd like to talk to you for a few minutes and then you can leave."
"What about?" I asked.
"I've watched you over the past 2 days and you don't stand as fast as the others and last night at the diner, you begged that man to go away. Like he was going to hurt you. Octayne, I need you to bed completely honest with me. Have you been abused?"
"What are you talking about?" I asked acting confused.
"Octayne please don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about."
"What do you want from me? I'm not being abused. If I was I wouldn't hesitate to tell someone. I'm not stupid." I said looking up at him. I wanted so bad to tell him but no words would come out of my mouth.
"Alright I won't push it. Now I've got to run off some copies. Can you clean the board off for me?"
"Yeah." I said getting up and grabbing some board cleaning and cleaning it off as he walked out of the room. I put it away and went over to the piano that Ms. LaBeck kept in her room and sat down. My mother used to play for me when I was little and she taught me how to. Every day I came home from school I would play. My fingers danced on the keys and my voice took over the empty class room.
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I wanna let it go
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me
I can't hold on to me Wonder what's wrong with me?
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Don't wanna let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly Here in the darkness
I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go, let me go Darling,
I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes
I can't hold on to me Wonder what's wrong with me?
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, stay in love with mmm I'm gonna let it go
I finished and then heard the clapping. I looked around and see Mr. Sanders smiling from ear to ear. I stood up from the piano and went back over to my bag.
"Do you need me for anything else?" I asked.
"Just one question."
"What?" I asked putting my bag on my back.
"Where did you learn how to play and sing? Ms. LaBeck never told me."
"She never knew about it and to answer you question, my mom taught me how to play but I sing when I can." I said sighing.
"Alright and I have to say you have a wonderful set of pipes and you are very talented. Enjoy your weekend Octayne." I nodded and left his classroom. I exited the school and started walking back home. I know he was just saying that I'm good to make me feel better.
I know I'm not good. I'm not good in anything. The whole way home I have the feel I'm being watched so I walk a little faster than normal. I ran up the short driveway and into the house shutting the door behind me. I could hear the shower in the hall indecating that Sabrina was in the shower. I sat in the living room watching TV and waiting for Sabrina to get ready to go to work.
"Hey you ready?" I looked up and seen her all ready. She threw me the keys and I walked out the house and got into the car and drove Sabrina to the diner.
"While you're out getting new shoes can you get me some more socks?"
"Sure what size?" I asked.
"6." Sabrina pulled some money rom her purse and handed it to me, "Make sure they say Ankle socks."
"Okay. Text me when you're off." I said smiling and she nodded shutting the car door. I drove away from the diner and towards the mall. I pulled into a parking space and got out of the cal and walked into the building. The place was huge and I knew I would be coming here more often.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~EARL'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I watched as she got out of the car and walked carelessly into the building. This is going to get really interesting.
"So what's your plan with killing this bitch?"
"I'll tamper with her brakes and maker her steering fuck up. To add finishing touches I'll run her off the road." I explained to Nancy.
"What if she survives?"
"I highly doubt she would." I said smirking.
"I love how evil you get." I looked over as she licked her lips and eying my up and down. I pulled her close and roughly kissed her.
"Let's fuck with the bitch's mind." We got out of the car and went into the building. I told Nancy to split up and we did. I stared at her as she went into a small shop called Hot Topic. She looked my way as the crowd cleared and I could see the fear in her eyes. She looked away and I blended in with the crowd and walked away.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OCTAYNE'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I looked into the eyes of the monster who hurt me all those times. Fear erupted from my body and I shook as I turned away. I looked back and he...he was gone. Was my mind really fucking with me? Am I going to have to lock myself away in my room and never come out? I finished shopping in Hot Topic andwent to a shoe store and foud the most comfortable shoes ever. It felt like I had no shoes on what so ever. I got Sabrina's socks and exited the mall. I looked over in the parking lot and I could've swore I seen Nancy. Maybe that's my imagination again? I got back into the car and headed to the grocery store to do my shopping. Just like at the mall, I found a parking space quickly and entered the store. I went up every isle picking up things on my list and getting a few things for myself before I was finally finished. I paid for my groceries and headed to the car ad loaded it up.
I looked around as I took the cart to the return and I didn't seen anymore of the people who looked like Nancy or Earl. I sighed in relief and got into my car and headed home. I watched a car follow me and I turned trying to escape it. I sped up and it sped up. I started getting closer to the house and the car turned a different way. I pulled into the drive and parked the car. I popped the trunk and started unloading the car of everything I had bought today. I put all the food away and took my shoes and other clothing I bought up to my room and took Sabrina's socks and laid them on her bed. I heard my phone ring signaling a text. I picked up my phone from the bed and it was Sabrina.
*I get off in 5.* ~Sabrina
~On my way.~
I grabbed my keys and headed out the front door and back into the car to pick up Sabrina. I pulled into the diner and she got in and I drove us back to the house. She filled me in on how work went and told me she would be off for the weekend to celebrate my birthday with me. It was really cool for her to ask off so I wouldn't be alone on my birthday. I really love living here.
Mr. Sanders was eating and texting on his phone while I checked over the list I made earlier. I had everything I needed and I really couldn't think of anything else to put on there. The bell sounded and everyone returned to the classroom. I continued to draw after putting the list back into my pocket. Mr. Sanders was still texting away and he would smile every now and then. He had a really cute smile and his dimples were so adorable.
Octayne! What are you doing? Mr. Sanders is your teacher and you can't be thinking about that shit! He's probably got a girlfriend!
I shook my head and sighed and finished the drawing and just laid my head down on the desk. I couldn't wrap my mind around why the vision of Earl appeared right in front of me. I stared out the window thinking about the day I left. It was the happiest day of my life. I wonder how John is doing? I haven't heard from him in 2 years. Maybe he's been busy with stuff. The dismissal bell rang at exactly 3 o'clock and I put my things into my bag and went up to Mr. Sanders desk. I sat down in a chair as he stayed on his phone a few more minutes before looking over at me.
"I'd like to talk to you for a few minutes and then you can leave."
"What about?" I asked.
"I've watched you over the past 2 days and you don't stand as fast as the others and last night at the diner, you begged that man to go away. Like he was going to hurt you. Octayne, I need you to bed completely honest with me. Have you been abused?"
"What are you talking about?" I asked acting confused.
"Octayne please don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about."
"What do you want from me? I'm not being abused. If I was I wouldn't hesitate to tell someone. I'm not stupid." I said looking up at him. I wanted so bad to tell him but no words would come out of my mouth.
"Alright I won't push it. Now I've got to run off some copies. Can you clean the board off for me?"
"Yeah." I said getting up and grabbing some board cleaning and cleaning it off as he walked out of the room. I put it away and went over to the piano that Ms. LaBeck kept in her room and sat down. My mother used to play for me when I was little and she taught me how to. Every day I came home from school I would play. My fingers danced on the keys and my voice took over the empty class room.
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I wanna let it go
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me
I can't hold on to me Wonder what's wrong with me?
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Don't wanna let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly Here in the darkness
I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go, let me go Darling,
I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes
I can't hold on to me Wonder what's wrong with me?
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, stay in love with mmm I'm gonna let it go
I finished and then heard the clapping. I looked around and see Mr. Sanders smiling from ear to ear. I stood up from the piano and went back over to my bag.
"Do you need me for anything else?" I asked.
"Just one question."
"What?" I asked putting my bag on my back.
"Where did you learn how to play and sing? Ms. LaBeck never told me."
"She never knew about it and to answer you question, my mom taught me how to play but I sing when I can." I said sighing.
"Alright and I have to say you have a wonderful set of pipes and you are very talented. Enjoy your weekend Octayne." I nodded and left his classroom. I exited the school and started walking back home. I know he was just saying that I'm good to make me feel better.
I know I'm not good. I'm not good in anything. The whole way home I have the feel I'm being watched so I walk a little faster than normal. I ran up the short driveway and into the house shutting the door behind me. I could hear the shower in the hall indecating that Sabrina was in the shower. I sat in the living room watching TV and waiting for Sabrina to get ready to go to work.
"Hey you ready?" I looked up and seen her all ready. She threw me the keys and I walked out the house and got into the car and drove Sabrina to the diner.
"While you're out getting new shoes can you get me some more socks?"
"Sure what size?" I asked.
"6." Sabrina pulled some money rom her purse and handed it to me, "Make sure they say Ankle socks."
"Okay. Text me when you're off." I said smiling and she nodded shutting the car door. I drove away from the diner and towards the mall. I pulled into a parking space and got out of the cal and walked into the building. The place was huge and I knew I would be coming here more often.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~EARL'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I watched as she got out of the car and walked carelessly into the building. This is going to get really interesting.
"So what's your plan with killing this bitch?"
"I'll tamper with her brakes and maker her steering fuck up. To add finishing touches I'll run her off the road." I explained to Nancy.
"What if she survives?"
"I highly doubt she would." I said smirking.
"I love how evil you get." I looked over as she licked her lips and eying my up and down. I pulled her close and roughly kissed her.
"Let's fuck with the bitch's mind." We got out of the car and went into the building. I told Nancy to split up and we did. I stared at her as she went into a small shop called Hot Topic. She looked my way as the crowd cleared and I could see the fear in her eyes. She looked away and I blended in with the crowd and walked away.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~OCTAYNE'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I looked into the eyes of the monster who hurt me all those times. Fear erupted from my body and I shook as I turned away. I looked back and he...he was gone. Was my mind really fucking with me? Am I going to have to lock myself away in my room and never come out? I finished shopping in Hot Topic andwent to a shoe store and foud the most comfortable shoes ever. It felt like I had no shoes on what so ever. I got Sabrina's socks and exited the mall. I looked over in the parking lot and I could've swore I seen Nancy. Maybe that's my imagination again? I got back into the car and headed to the grocery store to do my shopping. Just like at the mall, I found a parking space quickly and entered the store. I went up every isle picking up things on my list and getting a few things for myself before I was finally finished. I paid for my groceries and headed to the car ad loaded it up.
I looked around as I took the cart to the return and I didn't seen anymore of the people who looked like Nancy or Earl. I sighed in relief and got into my car and headed home. I watched a car follow me and I turned trying to escape it. I sped up and it sped up. I started getting closer to the house and the car turned a different way. I pulled into the drive and parked the car. I popped the trunk and started unloading the car of everything I had bought today. I put all the food away and took my shoes and other clothing I bought up to my room and took Sabrina's socks and laid them on her bed. I heard my phone ring signaling a text. I picked up my phone from the bed and it was Sabrina.
*I get off in 5.* ~Sabrina
~On my way.~
I grabbed my keys and headed out the front door and back into the car to pick up Sabrina. I pulled into the diner and she got in and I drove us back to the house. She filled me in on how work went and told me she would be off for the weekend to celebrate my birthday with me. It was really cool for her to ask off so I wouldn't be alone on my birthday. I really love living here.
3/18/13