Today we turned in our projects and to say that I got everything done in record time would be an understatement. I had just finished all my drawings for the album and the songs as well last night. It was getting pretty late last night when I had finished it and I asked Sabrina this morning to borrow one of the guitars which she let me do. I was very excited but also nervous about performing in front of everyone. I sat there listening to the people as they performed each of their 3 songs and some of them were really good but the preppy blondes who were in class...well they just couldn't sing for shit. I mean if I had a dog, mine would be able to sing better than them. They sounded like cats were strangling them. We each clapped for them out of respect but I could tell Matt was wanting the torture to stop.

"Next up is Octayne." Matt said and I hobbled up to the front of the class and grabbed the guitar from it's case. Matt looked at me and I nodded.

"This first song is called Sweet Sacrifice." I said and I began playing.

It's true, we're all a little insane.
But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.

One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.

I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.

Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice

Everyone looked on in shock. They've all barely heard me talk but they never knew I could sing. It was my little secret. I smiled as they clapped and cheered me.

"Thank you now this song is dedicated to a special someone that came into my life and showed me that I am good enough. And that's the title. Good Enough." I said and I wakled over to the piano and my fingers glided effortlessly over the ivory keys.

Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
It's been such a long time coming
But I feel good

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything

This good enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me
'Cause I can't say no

The same reaction to my singing and playing made the class completely insane. I loved this feeling. It brought back those feelings of when my mom and dad were so proud of me when I sang and played either the guitar or piano.

"My last song I've personally dedicated to the 2 people who have taught me how to play. I owe them everything. This is for you mom and dad....It'd called Fiction." I said and I began playing once more. It had more of an upbeat to it but it was still a slow song.

Now I think I understand
How this world can overcome a man
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end I gave my life for you

Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find
Heard there's peace just on the other side

Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin,
let it burn

Let this life just set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid

Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn under my skin,
let it burn

I hope it's worth it
Here on the highway, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you

So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I hope you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight

I hope it's worth it
What's left behind me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you

So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight

I ended the song and stood to my feet as the whole class, even those blonde girls, stood to their feet and clapped and cheered me. I bowed as good as I could and made my way back over to my desk. Matt stood in front of the class and they all sat down.

"Everyone did an amazing job but I forgot to mention something. I want you to vote on who the winner of this should be. That person who wins, I will be announcing what they won at graduation. Now you can't vote for yourself. Please take out a small peice of paper and write who you think should win." I got some paper and wrote just a random name and passed it up to the one in front of me and she took it up to Matt's desk. He looked through them all before he finished and stood back in front of the whole class.

"Who do you all think won?" Matt asked propping against the front of his desk.

"I think Octayne should win! She has a beautiful voice!" I looked up and seen the same guy I voted for.

"Do the rest of you think that?" Matt asked again and they all yelled out yes. I was really taken back.

"You guys guessed it right. Everyone voted for Octayne." he said smiling. I couldn't believe it.

"Octayne I'll see you at graduation and tell you what you have won." I nodded happily. I would have said something but there was too much emotion in me to even speak. The time that was left of the day was spent talking to people who haven't talked to me ever in this class and I was really having a good time.

I just couldn't stop smiling. When the dismissal bell rang most people said they wished they would've talked to me because I was such an awesome person but at least they gave me their phone numbers. Most of the guys did too but I wasn't going to text them. The only man I want and need is Matt. The whole way home I was bugging the hell out of Matt to at least tell me what the prize was but he wouldn't let up. He said that I would just have to wait until graduation. Man this is going to drive me absolutely crazy but in some weird way, I like how he's going to surprise me.

Notes

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