The God That Never Came
Gone Too Soon
Why did they have to leave me? I don't understand it! I'm fucking stuck here in this foster home fighting to keep myself alive. These people beat the living shit out of me every chance they get but I have a plan. I'm leaving here and never looking back. A friend, well he's more like an aquantance, is making me a fake ID, Birth Certificate, and even a Social Security Card. He also has given me a file with papers saying that I've been home schooled all my life. My phone started ringing and I picked it up.
"Hello?" I said.
"Butayne, I have everything ready but I need a name to put on them."
"Alright how about Octayne? Octayne...Viscar." I said packing up my things into my back pack.
"Nice name. I'll be over in a few minutes to bring you your things."
"Just come to bedroom window." I said smiling.
"I will. I even got you some hair dye so you'll match the ID."
"Thanks John." I said placing my pack under my bed.
"When are you leaving?"
"What is this 20 questions?" I asked laughing.
"Sorry, I was just wondering. I might come visit you."
"I'm planning on leaving tonight after you bring me the stuff. I'm going to Huntington Beach, California." I said as I heard the door slam downstairs.
"I got to go. They're back." I said hanging up the phone and shoving it under my bed with my back pack. My door flew open and my foster mom rushed over to me and grabbed me by the hair and drug me down to the kitchen. She threw me down hard making my face slam hard onto the kitchen floor.
"You are a worthless peice of fucking shit." my foster father spat as I looked up at him. He grabbed something off the stove and I backed away. Nancy, the foster bitch. held me tightly as Earl stuck the hot metal to my bare stomach over and over again. I screamed loudly but was cut off when Earl kicked me hard in my ribs. My fucking rubs were already injured from the beating yesterday. Earl grabbed me by the hair and looked into my eyes with a burning hate.
"Get out of my sight before I give you what you really deserve." he violently pushed me away and I ran out of the kitchen and back to my room locking the door. I could taste the blood in my mouth and feel it pour out of my nose. I heard my phone vibrate on the floor and I rushed and picked it up. Open the window John. I went over to the window and opened it as he slowly climbed up. He handed me an envelope and a plastic bag.
"Here's everything. They got you bad this time. Didn't they?" I wiped the blood from my nose and lifted up my shirt to show him the burns.
"Those people deserve to die. I guess you're leaving tonight after all."
"Right after my hair is dyed." I said looking through the envelope.
"Text me and I'll drive you there so you won't have to walk."
"Alright. Thanks John." I said smiling.
"No problem. I'll be glad to get you awy from them."
"'ll be far away from them so I'll be safe and happy." I said wiping more blood from my mouth and nose.
"I better get going. I'll see you later."
"Alright and thanks again." I said as he climbed down. I gently shut my window and sat down on the bed. I could hear those monsters downstairs clinking bottles together to celebrate what they did to me. Some victory celebration. I grabbed some clothes and the hair dye John brought me and I went into the bathroom locking the door.
I followed the instructions before applying the dye to my hair. I waited for the dye to set into my hair before stripping off my clothes and getting into the shower to wash it out and make the burning on my stomach cool down. I watched as the dye mixed with the shampoo and run down my body. I finished up my shower and wrapped my hair int the towel as I dried off my body. I grabbed the hair dye container and put it into the very bottom of the trash can and taking my dirty clothes out of the bathroom with me. I folded them up and place them into my bag. I made sure everything was in my bag and placed the ID into my wallet. I sure as hell wasn't coming back for something I forgot. I put on my mother's necklace and my dad's class ring and picked up my phone.
*You still want to take me to the airport?*
~Of course. You want me to come and get you or you walking to my house?~John
*I'll walk. I think Nancy and Earl passed out downstairs.*
~I wouldn't doubt that for a second. I'll be waiting for you on the front porch.~John
*Alright. Im on my way now.*
I placed my bag on my back and opened the window quietly and climbed down to the ground. I looked into the window to those idiots fucking each others brains out. I rolled my eyes and started over to John's house. I'm so glad to be leaving here for good. No one should ever go through the shit I went through. I couldn't do shit about it anyways. I seen John's house and just like he said, he was sitting out on his porch. When he seen me, he made his way over.
"So were they passed out?"
"No they were fucking each other like goddamn rabbits." I said bluntly.
"I didn't need that image." he laughed as we got into the car and headed down the road to the airport. I watched the houses I worked in fly by as John drove. I will miss working for them but I won't and I fucking mean I won't regret leaving. Those idiots don't deserve to take care of children. John pulled into the parking lot of the airport and pulled into a space.
"You take care of yourself."
"You know I will. I plan on applying for a job when I get there and getting into a school." I said looking down.
"I put my number down in case they want conformation on the home schooled shit."
"Thanks. I better get going. I'll see you when you come and visit." I said smiling.
"Good luck." I nodded and stepped out of the car with my things. I waved as he drove away and I made my way into the building. I went over to a desk to purchase a ticket.
"I would like to purchase a ticket to Los Angelos please." I said polietly.
"ID please." I took out my wallet and handed the woman my ID. She looked at it and give it back. I handed her soem money and went through the security check before sitting down to wait for my flight.
"Flight 165 for Los Angelos, California is now boarding. That's flight 165 to Los Angelos, California is now boarding." I grabbed my bag and gave the attendant and she handed it back to me. I boarded the plan and easily found my seat. I strapped on the seatbelt and I couldn't wait for the plane to get into the air. I felt the plan take off minutes later and I looked out the little window and watched as the buildings got smaller and smaller. I can't wait to be in California. I'll be free from those monsters forever. I laid my head back against the seat and closed my eyes. I sighed lowly in satisfaction and slowly drifted to sleep.
"Hello?" I said.
"Butayne, I have everything ready but I need a name to put on them."
"Alright how about Octayne? Octayne...Viscar." I said packing up my things into my back pack.
"Nice name. I'll be over in a few minutes to bring you your things."
"Just come to bedroom window." I said smiling.
"I will. I even got you some hair dye so you'll match the ID."
"Thanks John." I said placing my pack under my bed.
"When are you leaving?"
"What is this 20 questions?" I asked laughing.
"Sorry, I was just wondering. I might come visit you."
"I'm planning on leaving tonight after you bring me the stuff. I'm going to Huntington Beach, California." I said as I heard the door slam downstairs.
"I got to go. They're back." I said hanging up the phone and shoving it under my bed with my back pack. My door flew open and my foster mom rushed over to me and grabbed me by the hair and drug me down to the kitchen. She threw me down hard making my face slam hard onto the kitchen floor.
"You are a worthless peice of fucking shit." my foster father spat as I looked up at him. He grabbed something off the stove and I backed away. Nancy, the foster bitch. held me tightly as Earl stuck the hot metal to my bare stomach over and over again. I screamed loudly but was cut off when Earl kicked me hard in my ribs. My fucking rubs were already injured from the beating yesterday. Earl grabbed me by the hair and looked into my eyes with a burning hate.
"Get out of my sight before I give you what you really deserve." he violently pushed me away and I ran out of the kitchen and back to my room locking the door. I could taste the blood in my mouth and feel it pour out of my nose. I heard my phone vibrate on the floor and I rushed and picked it up. Open the window John. I went over to the window and opened it as he slowly climbed up. He handed me an envelope and a plastic bag.
"Here's everything. They got you bad this time. Didn't they?" I wiped the blood from my nose and lifted up my shirt to show him the burns.
"Those people deserve to die. I guess you're leaving tonight after all."
"Right after my hair is dyed." I said looking through the envelope.
"Text me and I'll drive you there so you won't have to walk."
"Alright. Thanks John." I said smiling.
"No problem. I'll be glad to get you awy from them."
"'ll be far away from them so I'll be safe and happy." I said wiping more blood from my mouth and nose.
"I better get going. I'll see you later."
"Alright and thanks again." I said as he climbed down. I gently shut my window and sat down on the bed. I could hear those monsters downstairs clinking bottles together to celebrate what they did to me. Some victory celebration. I grabbed some clothes and the hair dye John brought me and I went into the bathroom locking the door.
I followed the instructions before applying the dye to my hair. I waited for the dye to set into my hair before stripping off my clothes and getting into the shower to wash it out and make the burning on my stomach cool down. I watched as the dye mixed with the shampoo and run down my body. I finished up my shower and wrapped my hair int the towel as I dried off my body. I grabbed the hair dye container and put it into the very bottom of the trash can and taking my dirty clothes out of the bathroom with me. I folded them up and place them into my bag. I made sure everything was in my bag and placed the ID into my wallet. I sure as hell wasn't coming back for something I forgot. I put on my mother's necklace and my dad's class ring and picked up my phone.
*You still want to take me to the airport?*
~Of course. You want me to come and get you or you walking to my house?~John
*I'll walk. I think Nancy and Earl passed out downstairs.*
~I wouldn't doubt that for a second. I'll be waiting for you on the front porch.~John
*Alright. Im on my way now.*
I placed my bag on my back and opened the window quietly and climbed down to the ground. I looked into the window to those idiots fucking each others brains out. I rolled my eyes and started over to John's house. I'm so glad to be leaving here for good. No one should ever go through the shit I went through. I couldn't do shit about it anyways. I seen John's house and just like he said, he was sitting out on his porch. When he seen me, he made his way over.
"So were they passed out?"
"No they were fucking each other like goddamn rabbits." I said bluntly.
"I didn't need that image." he laughed as we got into the car and headed down the road to the airport. I watched the houses I worked in fly by as John drove. I will miss working for them but I won't and I fucking mean I won't regret leaving. Those idiots don't deserve to take care of children. John pulled into the parking lot of the airport and pulled into a space.
"You take care of yourself."
"You know I will. I plan on applying for a job when I get there and getting into a school." I said looking down.
"I put my number down in case they want conformation on the home schooled shit."
"Thanks. I better get going. I'll see you when you come and visit." I said smiling.
"Good luck." I nodded and stepped out of the car with my things. I waved as he drove away and I made my way into the building. I went over to a desk to purchase a ticket.
"I would like to purchase a ticket to Los Angelos please." I said polietly.
"ID please." I took out my wallet and handed the woman my ID. She looked at it and give it back. I handed her soem money and went through the security check before sitting down to wait for my flight.
"Flight 165 for Los Angelos, California is now boarding. That's flight 165 to Los Angelos, California is now boarding." I grabbed my bag and gave the attendant and she handed it back to me. I boarded the plan and easily found my seat. I strapped on the seatbelt and I couldn't wait for the plane to get into the air. I felt the plan take off minutes later and I looked out the little window and watched as the buildings got smaller and smaller. I can't wait to be in California. I'll be free from those monsters forever. I laid my head back against the seat and closed my eyes. I sighed lowly in satisfaction and slowly drifted to sleep.
3/18/13