I was home now, looking at the wall wondering what in the world was happening. I miss my Jimmy and I miss my friends. I was home all by myself now with no one around. Zacky was texting me saying that they were getting ready for a show. I sighed, I was hating this.
‘I hate this’
I sighed and waited for him to text. I still couldn’t believe that my boyfriend, the one that I loved for so long slapped me across the face because I was yelling in his face. He was yelling at me and I didn’t hit him across the face.
‘I know hun, got to go were going to party after this just so you know I won’t text back’
I sighed and shut my phone off and went out and messed around just to get my head out of the gutter and to think of something other then Jimmy.
Jimmy’s P.O.V.
I can’t believe I hit her, why in the world would I ever hit my baby girl? She was everything to me, I was even planning on marrying her and now I moved her away from me. We weren’t together anymore, we weren’t ever going to be together again. I didn’t want her to be away. I loved her so much. She was my everything. I was scared that we were never going to be together ever again. That can’t happen though, she can’t slip away from me like that.
I sent her text after text telling her how much I loved her how much I cared about her and how sorry I was for doing that to her. I never meant to hurt her but I guess I did in the end.
I sighed, going behind my kit and getting ready for the concert, thinking about my girl and how much I loved her and missed her and how much I wished I would of never hit her.
When the concert was over, I was in the our changing room sitting on the bench by the lockers drinking a water looking down to my feet. I missed my baby, I wanted her so bad. Just to feel her hugs and kisses and her telling me how proud she was of me. I sighed, looking up seeing Brian coming out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around himself and him asking what was wrong and I just shrugged. He came to his locker and grabbed his clean clothes.
“Where’s Dee?” He asked me. I looked up at him with sad eyes and sighed and told him what happened. Next thing I know, he sitting beside me and hitting me on the back of the head, which I deserved.
“You’re an idiot you know that?” He told me and I sighed.
“You know, its bad enough she’s gone, you don’t have to rub it in,” I told him. He sighed and looked down to his knees.
“Don’t give up man alright?” He told me and I nodded and he got up and left, my friends telling me that we were going to go out and party and they left, me not having the heart to go out and party. Then there was someone knocking in the door, my heart perked up and I thought for sure that it was my Deanna coming inside but when Leana’s head peaked through the door, my heart crashed down to the floor. I wanted my Deanna, not her.
“You coming Jimmy?” She asked coming inside. I got up and nodded, grabbing my leather jacket and my sticks and I felt her hand in mine. I looked down to her hand and looked up to her eyes and saw this flow in her beautiful eyes that I loved.
“It’s going to be alright honey, she’ll be back,” He told me and gave me a reassuring smile. I smiled back at her and we left going to the bar and I was going to part till I couldn’t feel nothing anymore.
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“Will you dance with me Jimmy?” Leana asked me. I looked up at her and smiled. I actually wasn’t drunk as heck like I thought I would be. I was happy then anything. Deanna was out of my mind and my heart felt better but it still felt a bit numb.
“Sure babe,” I smiled and winked at her. She grabbed my hand, my eyes overlooking her amazing body. She was a lot .. Sexier then Deanna a bit. But maybe that was my other brain thinking. I wasn’t my normal self. I was looking for some type of attention, I was looking for the love from my Dee but whatever Leana was giving me, I loved it.
We danced, Leana was all over me. Zacky was out dancing with some other girls with my friends and it was just me and Leana. She was making me crazy too, she was feeling so good against me. I needed her, I needed Leana. I wanted her body against mine, to show her a good time all night.
When we kissed out in the car, it was hot and heavy and her hands were all over my body. I had a hard time driving to the hotel, going up to my room. I was messed up but Leana was showing me a real good time. She was so much better then Deanna in bed, she was the harlot that I needed and I must say, this was my little piece of heaven.