Letting Go, Moving Forward
Chapter 2
When I got in my car, I drove back to Michelle’s. I know it was probably a huge move to just show up there, uninvited. But I felt in a way they owed me something. I don’t have really anyone else that I can just go to. I shakily got out and walked up to the door and knocked twice. Michelle opened the door.
“Lexi, what are you doing here? Are you okay?” She asked concerned.
“Um, I’m sorry to kind of just barge in here. I know this is a huge step and I don’t blame you if you say no, but do you think I can stay with you tonight. I’ll sleep on the couch. I won’t be a problem at all.” I told her.
“Of course you can. After what you’re doing for me, I’ll do anything for you. Why aren’t you staying at your house?”
“I just walked in on Brandon cheating on me with some blonde bimbo.”
She put her hand up to her mouth. “Oh my god, Lex. I am so sorry! Here come in.” I walked in and sat back down on the familiar couch. “He’s a dick.”
“I know.” I began to cry. “We’ve been together for ten years and married for one and he just threw it all away.”
“Sounds to me like he’s an asshole that doesn’t deserve you.”
I sighed. “I don’t even know what to do.”
“Oh, honey.” She rubbed my back. “I don’t know really what to say. I’ve never been in this situation.”
I nodded and wiped my face. “I know. Thank you.”
“It’s no problem. Are you going to get a divorce?” She asked.
I shrugged. “I’m not exactly sure yet. I know I’m taking a break, though. I just need time to decide if I want to throw it all away. It is my fault why he did it.”
“Lex, this isn’t your fucking fault. Excuse my French. He cheated on you. He wasn’t faithful.”
“He said it was because he was so alone.”
“But you had no control over that!” She exclaimed. “Don’t ever say this was your fault.” I nodded. “I’m serious, Lex.”
“Okay, let’s just drop the subject, though. Where’s your hubby at?” I asked leaning back in the couch.
“He’s probably out with the guys.”
“Have you ever felt like he was cheating?” I asked.
She shook her head. “Nope. I know he loves me and he gave up his life for me.”
“God, I wish I could have a relationship like your guys’.”
She laughed. “It isn’t a piece of cake. Trust me. It takes a lot of trust.”
“I can only imagine.”
“Well, I do have to run over to my sister’s house for a little. You’re free to stay here, though. I shouldn’t be gone long.”
“Oh, okay. I’ll just lay here if that’s okay.”
“Of course it is! I shall be back later. If you need anything at all, call me.” She scribbed a number down and handed me the paper. I smiled at her and she left. I laid down and the next thing I knew I was asleep.
“Who the fuck is this?” I heard a faint voice. I slowly opened my eyes to see a Zacky very close to my face.
“What the hell, dude.” I laughed a little. “I didn’t even know I fell asleep.”
Brian walked in. “Lex, why are you here?” He looked confused.
“Um, as weird as it may sound, I’m here for the night. It’s a long story.” I told him.
He cocked an eyebrow. “Everything okay?” I sat up.
“Yeah, I just walked in on my husband cheating on me with some blonde bimbo.”
“Oh my god, I’m so sorry.”
I shrugged. “I don’t need your sympathy. It happened. I just can’t stay there tonight, so I asked Michelle if I could stay here for the night.” He nodded.
“Well who is it?” Zack urged.
I laughed. “I’m Lexi.”
“Yeah, this is who’s helping me dude. Chelle’s friend.”
His eyebrows rose. “Ah, I see.” He leaned over and whispered in my ear. “He thinks you’re sexy.”
“Oh really?” I laughed.
“I’m guilty.” He shrugged.
“I have to agree. You are pretty beautiful.”
“Well thank you, Zacky. But Brian you’re married and I don’t take kind words like that from married men.” I laughed. “My marriage is shot and I don’t need yours shot too.”
He nodded. “Good. However, let’s take you out for drinks.” He smiled.
“You know how to fix any woman’s broken heart.” I laughed and got up. I grabbed Michelle’s number and entered it in and sent her text saying that the guys invited me out. I’m sure she won’t mind.
“So is there a chance that I can have you tonight?” Zack winked.
“Well, Zack, it depends on how drunk I get.” I laughed. He looked shocked, but smiled.
“Bring on the tequila.”
“Lexi, what are you doing here? Are you okay?” She asked concerned.
“Um, I’m sorry to kind of just barge in here. I know this is a huge step and I don’t blame you if you say no, but do you think I can stay with you tonight. I’ll sleep on the couch. I won’t be a problem at all.” I told her.
“Of course you can. After what you’re doing for me, I’ll do anything for you. Why aren’t you staying at your house?”
“I just walked in on Brandon cheating on me with some blonde bimbo.”
She put her hand up to her mouth. “Oh my god, Lex. I am so sorry! Here come in.” I walked in and sat back down on the familiar couch. “He’s a dick.”
“I know.” I began to cry. “We’ve been together for ten years and married for one and he just threw it all away.”
“Sounds to me like he’s an asshole that doesn’t deserve you.”
I sighed. “I don’t even know what to do.”
“Oh, honey.” She rubbed my back. “I don’t know really what to say. I’ve never been in this situation.”
I nodded and wiped my face. “I know. Thank you.”
“It’s no problem. Are you going to get a divorce?” She asked.
I shrugged. “I’m not exactly sure yet. I know I’m taking a break, though. I just need time to decide if I want to throw it all away. It is my fault why he did it.”
“Lex, this isn’t your fucking fault. Excuse my French. He cheated on you. He wasn’t faithful.”
“He said it was because he was so alone.”
“But you had no control over that!” She exclaimed. “Don’t ever say this was your fault.” I nodded. “I’m serious, Lex.”
“Okay, let’s just drop the subject, though. Where’s your hubby at?” I asked leaning back in the couch.
“He’s probably out with the guys.”
“Have you ever felt like he was cheating?” I asked.
She shook her head. “Nope. I know he loves me and he gave up his life for me.”
“God, I wish I could have a relationship like your guys’.”
She laughed. “It isn’t a piece of cake. Trust me. It takes a lot of trust.”
“I can only imagine.”
“Well, I do have to run over to my sister’s house for a little. You’re free to stay here, though. I shouldn’t be gone long.”
“Oh, okay. I’ll just lay here if that’s okay.”
“Of course it is! I shall be back later. If you need anything at all, call me.” She scribbed a number down and handed me the paper. I smiled at her and she left. I laid down and the next thing I knew I was asleep.
“Who the fuck is this?” I heard a faint voice. I slowly opened my eyes to see a Zacky very close to my face.
“What the hell, dude.” I laughed a little. “I didn’t even know I fell asleep.”
Brian walked in. “Lex, why are you here?” He looked confused.
“Um, as weird as it may sound, I’m here for the night. It’s a long story.” I told him.
He cocked an eyebrow. “Everything okay?” I sat up.
“Yeah, I just walked in on my husband cheating on me with some blonde bimbo.”
“Oh my god, I’m so sorry.”
I shrugged. “I don’t need your sympathy. It happened. I just can’t stay there tonight, so I asked Michelle if I could stay here for the night.” He nodded.
“Well who is it?” Zack urged.
I laughed. “I’m Lexi.”
“Yeah, this is who’s helping me dude. Chelle’s friend.”
His eyebrows rose. “Ah, I see.” He leaned over and whispered in my ear. “He thinks you’re sexy.”
“Oh really?” I laughed.
“I’m guilty.” He shrugged.
“I have to agree. You are pretty beautiful.”
“Well thank you, Zacky. But Brian you’re married and I don’t take kind words like that from married men.” I laughed. “My marriage is shot and I don’t need yours shot too.”
He nodded. “Good. However, let’s take you out for drinks.” He smiled.
“You know how to fix any woman’s broken heart.” I laughed and got up. I grabbed Michelle’s number and entered it in and sent her text saying that the guys invited me out. I’m sure she won’t mind.
“So is there a chance that I can have you tonight?” Zack winked.
“Well, Zack, it depends on how drunk I get.” I laughed. He looked shocked, but smiled.
“Bring on the tequila.”
12/30/12