The Ugly Side of Me Is Strong

i had to be dreaming. I was in a dark place. A place i didnt know. Voices filled my head, more like murmers of things I didn't understand. A face came into my thoughts. Brian's.
He was dead. My grand father had killed him. The sight of the wood being shoved into his hest replayed over and over again.
I was scared. I didnt know where i was. Then i remembered the faces of my family. My mom. Oh God, where was she? The thoughts of my mom brought back memories of a time when i was very young that everything was ok. Or at least i thought it was. I was with my parents, dad hadn't left yet.
We were swinging on the swings. Dad was beside me, mom was pushing me. I remember feeling so free and safe and happy.
I remember dad leaving. Sitting on the couch while my parents fought in the other room, i looked out the window. There he stood all high and mighty against his truck. Dad had a bag in his hand as he came over to me.
"Listen, i love you more than anything Kitty Cat. but this is the way it has to be." He spoke quietly as tears formed in his eyes.
He stood and walked out the door. that was kast i saw of him for a very long time.My grandfather had gotten to him.
My life flew byfrom there. I dont remember feeling much.
I was here now. Voices filled my ears. One stuck with me though. Brian's. He was always thee. He had been hee. he was trying to save me. Save me from what?
"CAT!! Come on! Please dont leave me!" He cried.
I felt this cool hand on my face gently tapping it. I could hear him but i couldnt gather the energy to open my eyes or make a sound.
"Brian, its starting." a voice spoke calmly.
What was starting?? What was happening?
The memories flooded my head again. This time very quickly. It was hard to breathe. My head was clouded and the memories began to fade into darkness. I couldnt see anything but i.couldnt hear.
"Its almost over."Brian spoke softly.
I understood.what he meant now. My could feel everything. My heart was beating rapidly and my breathing was ragged.
After a while, it slowed. It was like nothing i had felt before. I saw a finally.flash of Brian's face before i saw nothing and slowly faded.

Notes

So sorry i haven't updated in a while. Been very busy. I hope you all had a great Christmas!! Thank you for reading! Dont forget to comment with your thoughts!
Oh and sorry for any typos. I'm updating on my phone. lol
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