That was a week ago.The day my best friend died, the day that I became alone, for good."Gabby it's time for the funeral.Open the door, please." Zacky's voice came from the other side of the door, muffled and hoarse from crying all morning.

I couldn't seem to find the strength to get out of bed the entire week let alone get up and go out to the funeral.I couldn't handle saying my last goodbye to my love of life.It just wasn't fair.It really wasn't.

"Come on Gabby we have to go." Now Val's voice came through from the hall, tired and overwhelmed.I looked over on my nightstand, seeing the only picture I had ever put up staring back at me.It was a picture me and Jimmy had taken on Halloween two years ago. I was Belle and he was the Beast.

But now that's just another distant memory, just like us and what we had.

I sucked in a short breath of air before sighing deeply, somehow managing to pull myself off of the bed and opening the door.The bright lights in the hallway blinded me, making my already raw and puffy eyes hurt even more.

I decided to wear the dress that I had worn the first time I met Jimmy.It was his absolute favorite and he always loved seeing me in it.

And it kills me to say this, but I have to say that this will be the absolute last time that I will ever wear it again."So you better hope that you can see it, Jimmy.Because I'm wearing it for you." I mumbled under my breath, feeling a tear run down my cheek.

Zacky and Brian had slung their arms over my shoulders, helping me out to the limo that was going to be taking all of us to the church and then to the cemetery afterwards.

Neither of us hadn't said really anything to each other except a simple "Sorry" or "Jimmy" that usually came out muffled and almost too inaudible to even hear.But I knew once we got the funeral, all of us were going to go up an say something.

Or at least try to, since it has barely been a week and everyone is still devastated over this.Especially me, I don't really think I can ever let this go.

I stared out blankly through the window, not knowing exactly what it was that I was looking for.Maybe I was just hoping for some sort of a sign, something to let me know that wherever Jimmy was that he was okay and that he knew that I loved him with all my heart.

But of course, nothing like that happened, and the only thing I saw were the dark grey clouds that were blocking the sun that begged to shine through.

All except for the small portion of bright blue sky that broke out between the clouds as we pulled up to the steps of the over crowded church, which oddly enough seemed to bring a heartbreaking smile to my face.

Probably because it reminded of the way Jimmy's eyes had looked.A big, bright, beautiful blue that held such life and mystery, you always wondered exactly just what was going through his mind.

Once inside we all made our way to the front row, scooting in beside Jimmy's mom, dad, and two sisters , whose faces were covered in tears and the look of hopelessness that had made itself clearly known on my face for the past week.

But one thing that didn't surprise me was the hundreds of people that gathered to mourn and say goodbye to Jimmy, because everyone he ever came into contact with would immediately fall in love with him and call him their best friend.

But that's just how he was.Whenever someone needed advice or some cheering up, Jimmy would always be the first person for the job.

As I sat and listened to all the different stories people said, some sad, some funny, and some that just couldn't help but bring a smile to your face, I felt like someone was watching over me the entire time, sending a chill directly up my spine.

Brian had read the most beautiful eulogy that could make you start bawling into tears all over again because everything that it said about Jimmy was all true.

Val had urged Zacky, Matt, Johnny, and even me to go up there and speak, but only the other two could hold it together long enough to talk.Johnny and I just held onto each other, greatly needing the support and comfort.

Jimmy's mom had given me the most hugs I had ever gotten in my life.She said how sorry she was that Jimmy and I never got to be officially together and I told her how sorry I was that I waited too long.

"Don't dwell on it, just smile now and know that Jimmy will always be with you in your heart, Gabby." She said to me, giving me another tight squeeze before leaving out of the church and to the waiting limo.

On the way to the cemetery, I hadn't said a word to anyone except a few quiet mumbles and whispers to myself.I guess I was just hoping that I could get an answer from Jimmy, as crazy as that sounds.

And now as we all stood around the casket that inside held the body of my deceased loved one, I felt my heart starting to break into a million tiny pieces.I wasn't ready to say goodbye.I wasn't ready to bury him into the ground, not unless I was going in beside him.

"Don't be afraid to let go Gabby.I'm right here beside you." I heard a voice whisper to me, sending that familiar chill up my spine, causing me to shiver.That voice had sounded a lot like Jimmy's

But I figured it was maybe just my mind playing tricks on me, so I wasn't about to get worked up over nothing.

So instead, I took the beautiful long stemmed red rose and gave it a soft kiss, before gently placing it on top."I love you Jimmy, forever and always.No matter what you will always be my best friend.Goodbye." I said quietly, feeling a few tears start to fall.

I looked up towards the sky, seeing the sun start to peek out between the clouds, causing the one piece of bright blue to come through.

I knew Jimmy heard me, I knew it was his way of telling me that he's okay.

I just knew it had to be.

Notes

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