I'll Be Your Guardian Angel
Take One Last Breath
It was just like any other day in the Avenged Sevenfold household.Matt and Val were watching movies, Zacky and Brian were arguing over what songs they liked the best so far off of the new album, while Johnny and I waited for Jimmy and Lacey to come over like they always did around noon.
But instead of that bright burst of sunshine that always filled my day with joy and the will power to keep living appearing through my front door, it was only a grief stricken Lacey with make up and tears running down her face.
We all immediately ran to her side, both anxious and nervous to know what was wrong, why she was so upset, and more importantly where was Jimmy.
"Lacey, what is it? Wheres Jimmy? What's going on?" I begged, starting to feel an overwhelming sense of panic starting to overtake me.She simply collapsed to the floor and began sobbing uncontrollably, not even being able to utter out a single word to me.
So I did the next best thing and decided to call Jimmy's phone.It rang and rang about four times until a familiar female voice answered the phone.It was Jimmy's mom, and I could tell from the way she answered that it had to do with Jimmy.
"I'm so sorry, Gabby.But Jimmy has passed away." She cried, saying nothing more and nothing less to me before hanging up.
And at that moment, I felt my legs give way and I fell onto my knees, dropping my phone hard on the floor.I wasn't able to speak, I wasn't able to breathe, I wasn't even able to cry.
One by one, all the guys had started to break down into tears, screaming and yelling at the open air.Johnny and Zacky turned before running over to me and hugging onto me as tight as they could before we all started to cry.
They knew how important Jimmy was to me, and they all also knew that I had planned to make things official between us on New Years Eve.
But now that wasn't going to be able to happen, because he was gone, forever and there wasn't a single thing that either of us could do about it except accept that sad, cruel, and miserable fact.
That my best friend, my big brother, my only real love in life was now gone.
And that I was now going to be alone.
But instead of that bright burst of sunshine that always filled my day with joy and the will power to keep living appearing through my front door, it was only a grief stricken Lacey with make up and tears running down her face.
We all immediately ran to her side, both anxious and nervous to know what was wrong, why she was so upset, and more importantly where was Jimmy.
"Lacey, what is it? Wheres Jimmy? What's going on?" I begged, starting to feel an overwhelming sense of panic starting to overtake me.She simply collapsed to the floor and began sobbing uncontrollably, not even being able to utter out a single word to me.
So I did the next best thing and decided to call Jimmy's phone.It rang and rang about four times until a familiar female voice answered the phone.It was Jimmy's mom, and I could tell from the way she answered that it had to do with Jimmy.
"I'm so sorry, Gabby.But Jimmy has passed away." She cried, saying nothing more and nothing less to me before hanging up.
And at that moment, I felt my legs give way and I fell onto my knees, dropping my phone hard on the floor.I wasn't able to speak, I wasn't able to breathe, I wasn't even able to cry.
One by one, all the guys had started to break down into tears, screaming and yelling at the open air.Johnny and Zacky turned before running over to me and hugging onto me as tight as they could before we all started to cry.
They knew how important Jimmy was to me, and they all also knew that I had planned to make things official between us on New Years Eve.
But now that wasn't going to be able to happen, because he was gone, forever and there wasn't a single thing that either of us could do about it except accept that sad, cruel, and miserable fact.
That my best friend, my big brother, my only real love in life was now gone.
And that I was now going to be alone.
4/14/13