My heart had been wounded, taken out of my body, and destroyed. I haven’t done anything to the person who stole it, but they did and they loved to cause me that pain.
“Elise… Elise wake up, follow me, and let me please you.” A voice whispered in my ear. It was the same voice as before, in all my other dreams.
I knew he was in prison. He had to be.
“That’s what they want you to believe, but really I’m here. I’m here, waking you.” He laughed darkly. He could hear my thoughts. This was only a dream. It had to be.
I wanted him to go away. Far away. I felt tears gushing out of my eyes.
“Oh, my precious, don’t feel so bad, it can get better.” The voice tickled my ear. “Obey me, and it will get better, I promise.” I didn’t want to know what I had to do to make it get better. I don’t think it could get better because I probably have mental damage because of this man and his voice.
I questioned what I had to do, and soon that voice rang around in my head.
“Kill yourself…”
Then I was awake and alert. I wiped the tears away from my eyes. Kill yourself…
“Good morning, Cisi!” Jimmy hollered into my room. I could tell he was back to his normal kiddy self. I slowly got out of bed and gave him a funny look.
“There’s my Cisi. Come on, smile for Jimmy!” He pinched my cheeks and laughed. I glared at him. He knew that I hated being played with this early in the morning; especially this morning, because of that disturbing dream last night. I pulled away from him, and walked down to the kitchen. There were all the other guys, and I gave a small lifeless smile to them.
“Hey, Elise, can… Can we talk?” Brian spoke up. “Zacky also has to talk to you, but he’s not here.” I looked around and noted that Zacky was not here. Good. I gave a small nod towards him, and we walked away from Jimmy and Johnny.
“Oooh! Gates is gonna ask!” Johnny hollered then the two started laughing, Brian looked at me.
“I know you and Zee, had a thing. That was awhile ago, and I know you don’t want to talk now, but I’m hoping I could help…” He talked softly, and stared at the ground. Honestly, I always that Gates was handsome, and that he was a good listener, but he loved giving shit, and maybe now that I think back, I guess I always had a crush on him. “So, I guess, I was wondering if you’d go out with me.” He looked at me, and I gave a true smile, the one that reached my eyes and made them shine; the smile I used to always have on my face. I gave him a hug, and nodded into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me, and I knew he was grinning like a fool. I guess, I don’t need to be emotionless and lifeless, I can live, and I just don’t have to talk.

Zacky’s PoV-

I had to go over to Matt’s, just to check up on him and to see what his deal was. I knocked on his door and he answered. He looked worn out and just plain miserable.
“What’s up man?” I walked in.
“I can’t get her out of my head, I can’t forget what happened to her, and I still can’t get it out of my mind that I was part of it.” He spoke.
“Then go back to Val. She’ll happily start fucking you again.” I explained.
“That’s the thing. Val got old and quick, but Elise, she always had something new.” He spoke softly, like he didn’t want anyone to hear.
“I know, but you have to think, what would she do if she saw you and she freaked? Matt, you caused her some serious problems, but I’m not gonna say it was your entire fault, because it was also Ren’s fault too. You two fucked her up.” I sat on the couch after grabbing a beer from the fridge. “She doesn’t even talk now…” I whispered.
I heard Matt sigh as he sat next to me with a beer in his hand. “Man, she’s really messed up now isn’t she?” I just nodded. It had been awhile since me and Matt just sat around and chatted. Now that we are, I could finally see what he was talking about. He had told me he wasn’t doing well anymore. When he said that I thought he meant that he was sick. Now, that I take a closer look at him, he was worn down. He actually looked ten years older than he was. He had bags under his eyes, his eyes were blood shot, and he had things wrong with him that I wouldn’t have thought that would happen to Matt.
“I want to see her. I need to see her.” He announced after a few minutes of silence. I looked at him.
“What?” I asked incredulously. “I just told you that you couldn’t. She’ll freak if she sees you. You should know that by now.”
“She won’t see me. That’s the thing. We can go to the beach, in disguises and watch her from afar.” He said. I gave him a blank stare. He was turning insane too.
“No. Just wait till she’s better then you can.” I stood up. “I should go now.” At that time I walked away, not looking back. I could only wonder why Matt would want to see Elise. I mean I could understand and all, he had loved her, but he even told me that he didn’t anymore. Hence the fact he did what he did to her, and that’s why I was curious as to why he would want to see her again.
I took my time going back to Jimmy’s house. I didn’t really want to see everybody. I knew they would question me as to where I had gone, but I didn’t want to answer their questions on how Matt was. We knew that we couldn’t talk about him or Ren around Elise. If we did it could cause her more damage and none of us wanted that. We just wanted her to start talking again. Although most of us knew by now it was probably never going to happen. Elise had seen dark and dangerous sides of life, and none of us wanted her to go through that again. But Matt and Ren had different plans for her, plans that none of us could contradict. Even though, we knew the plans, those horrible plans, we didn’t want to end up as the same fate that Elise had. She had that fate, but ended with something so much worse.
I stopped at the door of Jimmy’s house. I stared at it, and let my memories take me back.

It was early November, we were all still in high school. I had my arm slung around Elise’s shoulders. Our relationship was good, we were the best couple, at least to our eyes we were. We were laughing at a joke one of the guys said, earlier in our meeting we had decided we would go to our hide out and have a party. None of us expected to have it crashed so early. Eventually we had our parents convinced we were going to each other’s houses to spend the night; nothing unusual for all us. We got to our hideout at night, when the sun had just dunked down under the horizon. We knew we couldn’t make too much sound for the chance of being caught. Although we all knew we loved getting in trouble, we didn’t really want the police chasing our asses down the road.
As the night got darker, and it got cooler, Elise started getting cold. Matt had her wrapped in his arms, at first I wasn’t worried about it, all the guys did that to her. She was our groups little mascot. It wasn’t till I saw him flirting with her, that I got jealous. The guys knew she was my girl, and they listened to that. We knew when and when not to flirt with a girl that was taken by one of our members or not. I kept an eye on him for awhile, and when I saw he wrapped his arms more like a lover would, around her that I had a problem with it, and she seemed to have a problem too.
“Matt, let go of me.” She said quietly. Back when she had her voice, it was soft; almost innocent.
“Why should I?” He squeezed her closer. I stood up.
“She said so, and I suggest you do.” I said lowly. She was mine. I heard a soft whimper from her, my heart squeezed, my mind telling me to kill Matt. My fists clenched together, a dark gleam came into my eyes. I could tell by Elise's look on her face; fear. "Let her go, Matt" I said lowly. He did that time, and I could tell she was thankful. She ran up to me and wrapped her arms around me, her eyes watering.
"Zee, let's go... I wanna go to bed." She whispered to me, tugging on my shirt like a little kid. I glared at Matt, he gave me the same hard look back. We both knew this was gonna end badly. "Zee..." I heard his whisper again.
"So you think you can try to steal my girl?" I asked, giving a directed look at Matt who sneered at me.
"I ain't stealing nothing from you! She was the one all over me!" Matt started. I removed Elise from my grasp, not caring - at that moment - where she landed.
"Elise would never hurt me like that! She likes me! I'm her boyfriend!" I screamed. I was infuriated and I was past that point where someone could stop me. Matt scoffed.
"As if. She likes you because she has to, not because she wants to." Matt said.
"I do not! I like him because he was the first to gain my trust out of this group!" I heard Elise screech. We both looked over at her, expecting her to continue. "I love Zacky. He, I hope," She gave a glance at me, "loves me too. If you have a fucking problem with it, talk to me about it. Don't try and steal me away! If this group is only going to fight over me, then I'm finding a group of girls to hang out with!" Her voice was getting louder and louder as she continued, and we all got scared when we heard the sirens. Jimmy was the first to run, Matt second, Johnny third, me and Brian split together, as far I knew Elise stood there.

"Hey... Man... Are you just gonna stand there all day or are you gonna come in?" I shook my head and looked at Jimmy. He looked at me like I was crazy. "You've been standing there forever." He let the sentence die.
I walked in, muttering a; "Matt..." as I walked by. I kept walking till I saw Syn and Elise cuddled together on the couch. My anger started to flare.