It was 4:23 and for about the past half hour Brian and I had been watching Finding Nemo, since I practically begged him to watch it with me, but he didn't really protest so I kinda felt stupid for bugging him about it.
Now would be a good time to tell him about the whole apartment situation.
"so". I said turning to face Brian, a very tired looking Brian. A cigarette hanging loosely between his lips.
"Yes"?
"Well". God I didn't think it would be this hard to ask him if I could stay with him, but honestly I felt like I was asking some one out. Well, what I'm assuming it would feel like to ask some one out. "You know how Lilli is living with Zack"?
"Hmm". His eye's never left the TV.
"Well The apartment is kinda to expensive for me to keep, especially now since I am out of a job. Would there be any chance I would be able to stay with you til I can save up some money to get my own place"? I would love to live with Brian, but I don't know how he would react to me asking him if I could live with him.
"I was waiting for you to ask me". Wait, what?
"You were"? I asked.
"Yea. I kinda figured since Lilli is living with Zack, and everyone knows you hate living by your self". Very true.
"So, is it a yes"? I smiled very unsure of his answer.
"Nope get the fuck out". I deadpanned. When he saw the expression on my face he let out a very raspy laugh. "Do you really think I'm gonna kick you out when you have no where else to go? seriously Harlow". He slid an arm behind me and pulled me towards him.
"I have to ask you know". I said leaning into him.
"I know. I actually was gonna ask you eventually if you wanted to be my roommate. Get's kinda lonely around here. These past 6 weeks have been awesome. It's nice to have company that doesn't bitch about everything". I still will never understand why or what he saw in Ashley.
"Do you mean like for good"?
"Yup". I could hear the smile in his voice."If you want we can get your stuff tomorrow, well later today. If your not doing anything". Wow. I'm living with Brian now. Well that went easier than I though it would.
"You sure"? I gotta ask one more time to make sure he's serious.
"Harlow". His voice stern. He was sure.
"Uh...All I have to do tomorrow is call the place's I've put application's in at".
"Sounds good beautiful". I caught my breath. I instantly started blushing. My whole body stiffened. That's the first time he's ever called me beautiful in person.
"Change of subject". He said suddenly after a yawn.
"OK"?
"Since me calling you beautiful raised your body temperature a good 10 degree's". I blushed even more. "What do you want for your birthday"?
"My birthday isn't for like...Oh wow the 31st is like 6 day's away". I really should keep track of time, but a lot has happened in a short time.
"Time goes by fast when your with some one this sexy".
"Haner". I said Slapping his bare chest cringing at the noise that echoed through his bedroom.
"OW"! He said loudly pulling away from me.. "Dammit you damaged my precious man boob"!
I covered my mouth laughing.
"I love you"? I said not knowing what else to say, that didn't make me sound like a bitch.
"You do huh? Your gonna think this is real funny". I tried to climb off the bed before he could grab me but I wasn't fast enough. He ended up pinning me on my back. He straddled my leg's so I couldn't move them. He was a tad heavy.
"I heard your ticklish". He said. His breath smelt like mouth wash and cigarettes.
"Brian no". I said seriously, trying to hide the fact I was smiling. I hated being tickled.
"Well it's not like you can really go anywhere". He said, his lips brushed against my ear sending shivers down my spine. "So what are you gonna do"?
I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. No sound. It's like I was paralyzed. I'm sure you would be to if A gorgeous man was straddling you on his bed. My heart was beating so hard I'm sure he could feel it.The mood had changed. It felt like it was just Brian and my self. Everything else surrounding us seemed to disappear. I could feel his eye's on me. We just stared at each other. The light from the TV barely illuminating his face.
"Brian....hey..oh whoa sorry". Zack said appearing in the door way and just as quickly disappearing. "Sorry man".
"Shit". Brian mumbled under his breath pushing him self up off his bed. "People always know when to show up at the perfect fucking times". I exhaled trying to steady my heartbeat.
"sorry I gotta..". He didn't finish before walking out of the room. I was left in his bed room very disappointed. We could have kissed. That would have been nice. I bet it would have been amazing.
I sighed a sat up smoothing down my hair with my hands. I stood and started for the door when Brian walked back in. I didn't get a chance to say anything before his lip's crashed into mine. Both hand's on the side of my face. It felt like electricity shot through out my body.
He pulled away making me gasp. His hands still on my face.
What the hell just happened? Brian kissed me. He actually kissed me.
Before I knew it he was gone again. Out of the room. Once again I was alone. I felt oddly empty and in shock. My limb's felt like jello. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that he kissed me. We've been friend's forever and nothing he has ever done has shocked me, but this did.
What shocked me even more was how it made me feel. even though it was only for a split second a kiss had never made me feel like the one that had just happened between Brian and my self. I knew my feelings for him would only get stronger. It seemed like everyday I felt just that much more for him. It was such a better feeling that what had been happening in my life.
Finally It felt like thing's were going right.