I'm Pregnant By A Rockstar. This Is Just Great.
"Now you want to talk?!"
"You're what?" Jess sat there and stared at me for a few minutes before it finally sunk in and he exploded. "YOU'RE FUCKING WHAT?!"
"Um...I’m pregnant." I said and tried to keep my voice calm and steady. I succeeded. [i]Yes![/i]
"How the fuck could you be so stupid to get pregnant? And with Matt Sander's baby? What the fuck were you thinking? You know what? You weren’t thinking, that’s what. How could you do this? You ruined your life just now. You can’t have this baby. God, how could you be so stupid?" He stopped his rant and looked at me.
"I wasn’t being stupid."
"Yes you were. YOU'RE FUCKING PREGNANT WITH SOME DUMBASS BABY! God Rebecca! I swear!"
"You swear what? Please tell me what you swear about?" I crossed my arms over my chest and glare at my brother.
"I swear I’m going to kill him. I don’t care what you said on what happens to me, I’m going to kill him." I scoffed at him.
"No you won’t because I won’t let you. He's the father of my baby." This is the point in the fight that my mom decides to come upstairs to see what was going on.
"What the hell is going on you two?" She asked, looking between the two of us.
"You're daughter got herself knocked up by some rockstar." Jess spat out.
"You did what? Who's the father?" My mom looks at me, shocked.
"It’s not like I wanted it to happen. It was an accident." I defended myself.
"How could you do this? God, I thought you knew better than this. You're so stupid." I stared at my mom.
"Are you serious?! I’m pregnant and you're calling me stupid and saying that I should've known better?! You always liked Jess better than me and didn’t care about me. The only person who ever cared about me was dad and now that he isn’t here anymore, it’s like I've been swiped from your memory." I yelled at my mother.
"Don’t you dare yell at me." My mom said.
"And you know that isn’t true Rebecca. I care about you. You know I do. That’s why I’m so protective of you. I don’t want to lose you or have you hurt." Jess looked at me and then started dialing a number.
"Well you're losing me now." He stopped dialing and stared at me.
"What?"
"Yeah. You're losing me now by being an asswipe. I come in here and tell you that I’m pregnant and you automatically start yelling at me and blaming me and saying that I’m the only one to blame. Well, you know what? I’m sorry that you couldn’t have a better sister. One who is perfect and isn’t ruining her life by getting pregnant." I was crying by this point. "It’s not like I want to be pregnant. Matt hasn't even spoken to me in two weeks."
"Becca-"
"Whatever." I said and then left my brother's room. I walked into mine and slammed the door. I lay down on my bed and cried into my pillow.
[i]It'll be okay.[/i] I heard my conscience tell me.
You happy now? I told him. Now fuck off.
[i]I can’t fuck off. I’m with you forever.[/i]
Why did he yell at me?
[i]He's upset. He doesn’t want to think of his little sister growing up so fast.[/i]
I’m going to grow up whether he likes it or not.
[i]Yeah and that’s what scaring him. He doesn’t want you to grow up and leave him. He loves you. He doesn’t want anyone else in the world to be happier than you. He'll do whatever he can to make sure that you're happy. Ever since you were born and your parents told him that he was a big brother, he was happy and wanted to do anything that made you happy. Even if he thought it was stupid or something like that, he wanted you to do it. So don’t be mad at him. He's scared and confused. He doesn’t know what to think now. So go to him and tell him that you are sorry for a being a selfish little princess bitch and be nice to him. While I go and spend some time with some of your dreams. Bye.[/i]
I thought about what conscience said and decided that she was right. Jess always did things that made me happy and never once complained about it. Until now. I shouldn’t be mad at him. I should be thanking him for being that way. I got up and walked out of my room, wiping my cheeks and walked into my brother's room. I was smiling until I walked into the room and heard my brother yelling at someone on the phone.
"....You stupid fuck. You could've slept with anyone else in the world, but you sleep with my younger sister. What the fuck is your problem? You stupid dumb shit. I hope you rot in hell. And now you got her pregnant! You stupid dumb fuck. “Jess continued cursed the person out and it took me a minute to realize that he was talking to Matt. I screamed. My brother looked at me. It was only then that I realized that I didn’t want Matt to know about the baby. It was my baby. Plus, I’m sure that he has forgotten about me. That’s probably why he didn’t talk to me.
"I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU TOLD HIM! HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW!" I broke down crying in my brother's room. I was on the floor crying and holding my stomach. "HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT THE BABY! IT'S MY BABY!" I cried and felt my mom's arms wrap around me.
"Shhh. Baby, calm down. We'll figure this out." My mom whispered to me and rocked me back and forth. I cried into her chest and my brother dropped the phone. "HE NEEDED TO KNOW! HE'S THE FATHER! IF YOU DIDNT WANT HIM TO KNOW THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TOLD ME!" I could faintly hear a "hello?" I’m sure it was Matt. I cried even harder.
I broke away from my mom, pushed past my brother, but he grabbed my arm. "Tell him that if he comes near you, I’m coming for him. And no one can stop me." He let go of my arm and walked out of his room. I cried harder and held the phone up to my ear.
"You got me pregnant! YOU! NOW YOU KNOW! YOU HAPPY?! YOU FUCKING KNOW! NOW GET BACK TO YOUR LIFE!" I hung up the phone and then ran into my room. I couldn't believe that my brother called Matt and told him about the baby. I slammed my door and locked it behind me. I felt my phone start vibrating. I didn’t bother looking at the caller ID. I just answered it. "Hello?" I mumbled out through tears.
"Rebecca?" I recognized that voice.
"What the fuck do you want?"
"I want to talk." Matt said. "Please?"
"Now you want to talk?! After two weeks of me calling and texting you, now you want to talk to me after my brother called you and cursed you out? Fuck you Matt." I hung up my phone and turned it off. I wasn’t thinking straight. I climbed into my bed and fell asleep holding my stomach and crying till my eyes hurt.
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Matt's POV
I was at the studio with the guys, thinking about our new tour that was going to happen in August. I sat on one of the couches next to Brian, who was talking to Zacky about getting some Jack Daniels and having a party tonight.
"So Matt, you going to come tonight?" Zacky asked me.
"I don’t know. Maybe." Just then one of the land line phones that we have here started ringing and one of the other guys who worked there answered it.
"Matt, you got a call from a very pissed off guy." The guy said.
"What line?"
"Line two."
"How pissed off is he?" I asked, thinking of who I pissed off recently. Only Val that I could think of.
"He said and I quote, 'Let me talk to that fucktard, Matt Sanders.'"
"Wow. He is really pissed off." Johnny mumbled. Jimmy nodded his head in agreement.
"Put it on speaker." Brian said.
"Alright. But no one else say anything." They all nodded and I pressed line two and then speaker. "Hello?"
"Is this Matt Sanders?"
"Yes is it. Who is this?"
"You stupid fuck. You could've slept with anyone else in the world, but you sleep with my younger sister. What the fuck is your problem? You stupid dumb shit. I hope you rot in hell. And now you got her pregnant! You stupid dumb fuck. “Who was this guy? I haven't slept with anyone- Oh shit. Rebecca. This was probably Rebecca's older brother.
"Are you Rebecca's older brother?"
"Yes I am."
"Look-" I was cut off by someone screaming. I looked at the rest of the guys. They all looked shocked and confused.
"I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU TOLD HIM! HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW!" I heard Rebecca scream at her brother. "HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT THE BABY! IT'S MY BABY!" I suddenly realized what her brother was talking about. Oh shit. I got Rebecca pregnant. Now that I think about it, we never did use a condom. I was just so caught up in the moment, I didn’t even realize.
"HE NEEDED TO KNOW! HE'S THE FATHER! IF YOU DIDNT WANT HIM TO KNOW THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TOLD ME!"
"Hello?" I said into the phone. "Hello?"
I faintly heard, "Tell him that if he comes near you, I’m coming for him. And no one can stop me." I didn’t know what to think when I heard that. And then suddenly, there was a sound and then someone saying into the phone.
"You got me pregnant! YOU! NOW YOU KNOW! YOU HAPPY?! YOU FUCKING KNOW! NOW GET BACK TO YOUR LIFE!" The phone was hung up just then and I sat there dumbfounded. It took me a few minutes to gather my thoughts.
"You got some girl pregnant?" Brian asked, looking at me confused.
"Yeah. Remember those two girls who came backstage before our concert in Long Beach?" When he nodded I continued. "Yeah, well that girl Rebecca is the one I got pregnant. Sarah is the one that you liked."
"Oh yeah."
"God, I can’t believe I got her pregnant. I didn’t even think about it at all." I ran a hand down my face and pulled out my phone.
"Who you calling?" Johnny asked.
"Rebecca." I flipped through my contacts and found Rebecca's number. I hit send and waited for it to go through. After a few rings, I heard a faint, "Hello?"
"Rebecca?" She didn’t sound good.
"What the fuck do you want?"
"I want to talk." I didn’t know where to start. Me not talking to her or her being pregnant. That is if she wanted to talk to me. "Please?"
"Now you want to talk?! After two weeks of me calling and texting you, now you want to talk to me after my brother called you and cursed you out? Fuck you Matt." She hung up the phone then and I sat there with the phone still to my ear, listening to the dial tone. I pulled my phone away from me ear and shut it.
"So what did she say?" Jimmy asked.
"She said 'Fuck you Matt' and then she hung up."
"Oh." Was the only reply. [i]Great! Now what I have done?[/i]
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Rebecca's POV
I was having a very interesting dream.
[i]I was walking through a meadow. Just walking away from this big, beautiful house in the countryside. I stopped walking, looked up at the sun and then just closed my eyes. Absorbing the sun into my skin. I started thinking about how great my life is. I have a gorgeous husband. Two amazing kids, with another on the way. My brother comes by to visit with his wife, who is also expecting a child, every week to see how things are. My thoughts were interrupted when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and someone kiss my neck.
"What you thinking about?" A voice asked from behind me.
"My life."
"How’s it looking to you?"
"It looks great." I turned around and smiled up at my husband. I kissed his lips and smiled. Just then, a pair of arms came around my legs.
"Momma, what are you and daddy doing?" Xavier, my oldest son, asked.
"Well, we were kissing." I smiled and picked him up. "Matt, I think it’s time to go inside."
"I think you're right." He said and picked up Jayden, our other son. We headed to the house and were just about to walk inside-[/i]
I shot up out of my bed, breathing heavy. Whoa. What the fuck? How could I have a dream like that? Especially with Matt in the country. I mean really. Can you imagine Matt in the countryside? I wiped a hand over my face and then fell backwards.
"This is going to be one hell of a pregnancy." I said and then went back to sleep.
"Um...I’m pregnant." I said and tried to keep my voice calm and steady. I succeeded. [i]Yes![/i]
"How the fuck could you be so stupid to get pregnant? And with Matt Sander's baby? What the fuck were you thinking? You know what? You weren’t thinking, that’s what. How could you do this? You ruined your life just now. You can’t have this baby. God, how could you be so stupid?" He stopped his rant and looked at me.
"I wasn’t being stupid."
"Yes you were. YOU'RE FUCKING PREGNANT WITH SOME DUMBASS BABY! God Rebecca! I swear!"
"You swear what? Please tell me what you swear about?" I crossed my arms over my chest and glare at my brother.
"I swear I’m going to kill him. I don’t care what you said on what happens to me, I’m going to kill him." I scoffed at him.
"No you won’t because I won’t let you. He's the father of my baby." This is the point in the fight that my mom decides to come upstairs to see what was going on.
"What the hell is going on you two?" She asked, looking between the two of us.
"You're daughter got herself knocked up by some rockstar." Jess spat out.
"You did what? Who's the father?" My mom looks at me, shocked.
"It’s not like I wanted it to happen. It was an accident." I defended myself.
"How could you do this? God, I thought you knew better than this. You're so stupid." I stared at my mom.
"Are you serious?! I’m pregnant and you're calling me stupid and saying that I should've known better?! You always liked Jess better than me and didn’t care about me. The only person who ever cared about me was dad and now that he isn’t here anymore, it’s like I've been swiped from your memory." I yelled at my mother.
"Don’t you dare yell at me." My mom said.
"And you know that isn’t true Rebecca. I care about you. You know I do. That’s why I’m so protective of you. I don’t want to lose you or have you hurt." Jess looked at me and then started dialing a number.
"Well you're losing me now." He stopped dialing and stared at me.
"What?"
"Yeah. You're losing me now by being an asswipe. I come in here and tell you that I’m pregnant and you automatically start yelling at me and blaming me and saying that I’m the only one to blame. Well, you know what? I’m sorry that you couldn’t have a better sister. One who is perfect and isn’t ruining her life by getting pregnant." I was crying by this point. "It’s not like I want to be pregnant. Matt hasn't even spoken to me in two weeks."
"Becca-"
"Whatever." I said and then left my brother's room. I walked into mine and slammed the door. I lay down on my bed and cried into my pillow.
[i]It'll be okay.[/i] I heard my conscience tell me.
You happy now? I told him. Now fuck off.
[i]I can’t fuck off. I’m with you forever.[/i]
Why did he yell at me?
[i]He's upset. He doesn’t want to think of his little sister growing up so fast.[/i]
I’m going to grow up whether he likes it or not.
[i]Yeah and that’s what scaring him. He doesn’t want you to grow up and leave him. He loves you. He doesn’t want anyone else in the world to be happier than you. He'll do whatever he can to make sure that you're happy. Ever since you were born and your parents told him that he was a big brother, he was happy and wanted to do anything that made you happy. Even if he thought it was stupid or something like that, he wanted you to do it. So don’t be mad at him. He's scared and confused. He doesn’t know what to think now. So go to him and tell him that you are sorry for a being a selfish little princess bitch and be nice to him. While I go and spend some time with some of your dreams. Bye.[/i]
I thought about what conscience said and decided that she was right. Jess always did things that made me happy and never once complained about it. Until now. I shouldn’t be mad at him. I should be thanking him for being that way. I got up and walked out of my room, wiping my cheeks and walked into my brother's room. I was smiling until I walked into the room and heard my brother yelling at someone on the phone.
"....You stupid fuck. You could've slept with anyone else in the world, but you sleep with my younger sister. What the fuck is your problem? You stupid dumb shit. I hope you rot in hell. And now you got her pregnant! You stupid dumb fuck. “Jess continued cursed the person out and it took me a minute to realize that he was talking to Matt. I screamed. My brother looked at me. It was only then that I realized that I didn’t want Matt to know about the baby. It was my baby. Plus, I’m sure that he has forgotten about me. That’s probably why he didn’t talk to me.
"I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU TOLD HIM! HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW!" I broke down crying in my brother's room. I was on the floor crying and holding my stomach. "HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT THE BABY! IT'S MY BABY!" I cried and felt my mom's arms wrap around me.
"Shhh. Baby, calm down. We'll figure this out." My mom whispered to me and rocked me back and forth. I cried into her chest and my brother dropped the phone. "HE NEEDED TO KNOW! HE'S THE FATHER! IF YOU DIDNT WANT HIM TO KNOW THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TOLD ME!" I could faintly hear a "hello?" I’m sure it was Matt. I cried even harder.
I broke away from my mom, pushed past my brother, but he grabbed my arm. "Tell him that if he comes near you, I’m coming for him. And no one can stop me." He let go of my arm and walked out of his room. I cried harder and held the phone up to my ear.
"You got me pregnant! YOU! NOW YOU KNOW! YOU HAPPY?! YOU FUCKING KNOW! NOW GET BACK TO YOUR LIFE!" I hung up the phone and then ran into my room. I couldn't believe that my brother called Matt and told him about the baby. I slammed my door and locked it behind me. I felt my phone start vibrating. I didn’t bother looking at the caller ID. I just answered it. "Hello?" I mumbled out through tears.
"Rebecca?" I recognized that voice.
"What the fuck do you want?"
"I want to talk." Matt said. "Please?"
"Now you want to talk?! After two weeks of me calling and texting you, now you want to talk to me after my brother called you and cursed you out? Fuck you Matt." I hung up my phone and turned it off. I wasn’t thinking straight. I climbed into my bed and fell asleep holding my stomach and crying till my eyes hurt.
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Matt's POV
I was at the studio with the guys, thinking about our new tour that was going to happen in August. I sat on one of the couches next to Brian, who was talking to Zacky about getting some Jack Daniels and having a party tonight.
"So Matt, you going to come tonight?" Zacky asked me.
"I don’t know. Maybe." Just then one of the land line phones that we have here started ringing and one of the other guys who worked there answered it.
"Matt, you got a call from a very pissed off guy." The guy said.
"What line?"
"Line two."
"How pissed off is he?" I asked, thinking of who I pissed off recently. Only Val that I could think of.
"He said and I quote, 'Let me talk to that fucktard, Matt Sanders.'"
"Wow. He is really pissed off." Johnny mumbled. Jimmy nodded his head in agreement.
"Put it on speaker." Brian said.
"Alright. But no one else say anything." They all nodded and I pressed line two and then speaker. "Hello?"
"Is this Matt Sanders?"
"Yes is it. Who is this?"
"You stupid fuck. You could've slept with anyone else in the world, but you sleep with my younger sister. What the fuck is your problem? You stupid dumb shit. I hope you rot in hell. And now you got her pregnant! You stupid dumb fuck. “Who was this guy? I haven't slept with anyone- Oh shit. Rebecca. This was probably Rebecca's older brother.
"Are you Rebecca's older brother?"
"Yes I am."
"Look-" I was cut off by someone screaming. I looked at the rest of the guys. They all looked shocked and confused.
"I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU TOLD HIM! HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW!" I heard Rebecca scream at her brother. "HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT THE BABY! IT'S MY BABY!" I suddenly realized what her brother was talking about. Oh shit. I got Rebecca pregnant. Now that I think about it, we never did use a condom. I was just so caught up in the moment, I didn’t even realize.
"HE NEEDED TO KNOW! HE'S THE FATHER! IF YOU DIDNT WANT HIM TO KNOW THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TOLD ME!"
"Hello?" I said into the phone. "Hello?"
I faintly heard, "Tell him that if he comes near you, I’m coming for him. And no one can stop me." I didn’t know what to think when I heard that. And then suddenly, there was a sound and then someone saying into the phone.
"You got me pregnant! YOU! NOW YOU KNOW! YOU HAPPY?! YOU FUCKING KNOW! NOW GET BACK TO YOUR LIFE!" The phone was hung up just then and I sat there dumbfounded. It took me a few minutes to gather my thoughts.
"You got some girl pregnant?" Brian asked, looking at me confused.
"Yeah. Remember those two girls who came backstage before our concert in Long Beach?" When he nodded I continued. "Yeah, well that girl Rebecca is the one I got pregnant. Sarah is the one that you liked."
"Oh yeah."
"God, I can’t believe I got her pregnant. I didn’t even think about it at all." I ran a hand down my face and pulled out my phone.
"Who you calling?" Johnny asked.
"Rebecca." I flipped through my contacts and found Rebecca's number. I hit send and waited for it to go through. After a few rings, I heard a faint, "Hello?"
"Rebecca?" She didn’t sound good.
"What the fuck do you want?"
"I want to talk." I didn’t know where to start. Me not talking to her or her being pregnant. That is if she wanted to talk to me. "Please?"
"Now you want to talk?! After two weeks of me calling and texting you, now you want to talk to me after my brother called you and cursed you out? Fuck you Matt." She hung up the phone then and I sat there with the phone still to my ear, listening to the dial tone. I pulled my phone away from me ear and shut it.
"So what did she say?" Jimmy asked.
"She said 'Fuck you Matt' and then she hung up."
"Oh." Was the only reply. [i]Great! Now what I have done?[/i]
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Rebecca's POV
I was having a very interesting dream.
[i]I was walking through a meadow. Just walking away from this big, beautiful house in the countryside. I stopped walking, looked up at the sun and then just closed my eyes. Absorbing the sun into my skin. I started thinking about how great my life is. I have a gorgeous husband. Two amazing kids, with another on the way. My brother comes by to visit with his wife, who is also expecting a child, every week to see how things are. My thoughts were interrupted when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and someone kiss my neck.
"What you thinking about?" A voice asked from behind me.
"My life."
"How’s it looking to you?"
"It looks great." I turned around and smiled up at my husband. I kissed his lips and smiled. Just then, a pair of arms came around my legs.
"Momma, what are you and daddy doing?" Xavier, my oldest son, asked.
"Well, we were kissing." I smiled and picked him up. "Matt, I think it’s time to go inside."
"I think you're right." He said and picked up Jayden, our other son. We headed to the house and were just about to walk inside-[/i]
I shot up out of my bed, breathing heavy. Whoa. What the fuck? How could I have a dream like that? Especially with Matt in the country. I mean really. Can you imagine Matt in the countryside? I wiped a hand over my face and then fell backwards.
"This is going to be one hell of a pregnancy." I said and then went back to sleep.
Notes
Another chapter.A long one this time.
I love writing this story.
And please, to those readers who are quiet and dont tell me what you think, please tell me what you think. I want to know if its good and you if you like it. Or if its bad and I need to change some things. But I thank you for reading anyway. Love all of ya'll lots.
7/9/13