I tried to forget about the whole situation that just happened. I tried my best to have a good lunch with my fiancée. I hope nothing changes. I was finally happy and once again Brian was trying to take that away from me. Maybe I just need to get away from him. There's no way though. Without leaving Zack anyway.

“Babe.” Zack snapped me out of my thoughts.

I smiled a fake smile. “Yes? Sorry.”

“Everything will be okay. I don't even know why I brought that up. Okay?”

I nodded. “Okay. I need to get back to work soon.”

“Well let's go then.” He smiled and stood up and took my hand. We walked back to the car and got in.

“Lex, I promise you we'll get married and have the life you want. Brian isn't going to ruin it for us.”

“You just said that you don't know if you can do it so I'm not going to hold you to that.”

Zack sighed and started the car and pulled out of the parking lot. The rest of the ride was silent. I was stuck in thought about this whole situation. I don't know what was going to happen but all I know is I want to spend the rest of my life with Zachary James Baker without Brian in the picture. Sometimes I just wished he would go back to Michelle.

We pulled back up to the shop and I got out. Zack hurried and got out also. I think he had the impression that I didn't want to see or talk to him. But that's not it.

“Lex baby please.” He walked in front of me.

“What Zee? I'm trying to make this work. I want to spend the rest of my life with you without Brian in the picture. He isn't going to take me away from you. And I will not settle for not having you with me. I love you and I hope you know that.” I started to walk away.

“Well I hope you know I love you back.” I turned around and looked at him with tears in my eyes.

“If you loved me enough you wouldn't even think about us not working.” I pushed through the door of the shop.

“Lex everything okay?” Zoe asked. I looked at her with a few tears falling from my eyes.

“Let's just say my life isn't that great right now.” I snapped and walked back to my station. I slammed the door and sat down and cried.

Moments later Zoe opened the door. “What do you want?” I asked.

“Lex if you need to go home. I'll cancel any appointments.”

“I can't go home.” I looked up at her. “Zack told me he doesn't know if he will be able to make us work with fucking Brian in the picture.”

“What?” She had the sympathetic look in her eyes.

I shrugged my shoulders. “He claims he loves me but you know what if he did he shouldn't care that Brian still has feelings for me. I don't have feelings for Brian anymore. I love Zee and I just don't know if it's enough.” I pulled out a cigarette and lit it and took a few drags off of it. “I just hope Brian gets the picture soon because if not he wrecked my life.”

“Well Bri and I are back together and I can assure you he'll leave you alone. I'll make sure of that. I'll have a talk with him.”

“You don't have to do that Zoe. It's our situation that I should be able to fix.”

“But you're not fixing it Lex. Look at yourself. You're a wreck. You are engaged to the man of your dreams. The guy you love so much and would literally die for. While all the while you are sitting here telling me that you're fixing the situation by sleeping with Brian.”

I narrowed my eyes at her. “I only slept with him because I was hurt! I had caught Gena and Zack together and I took it wrong, okay! Don't fucking even start with me on that!” I yelled.

“Sleeping with Brian wouldn't have fixed anything even if Gena and Zack had something going on. You screwed up there Lex and there's nothing you can do about it but deal with the pain you caused. Zack has to learn to trust you again. You know every time Zack sees you with Brian that's the first thought in his head.”

“Get out.”

“Lex please.”

“Get out!” I yelled. Zoe backed up and slammed the door.

I burst out into tears. I know Zoe is right but it's just she doesn't have a right to tell me that I'm not fixing the situation. I know I fucked up by sleeping with Brian I know Zack will probably always have the fear that I will do again but the thing is I won't.

I sat there and cried and thought everything through. Well tried. I heard the door open and I really did not feel like seeing Zoe again.

“Leave me the fuck alone Zoe!” I snapped.

“Well I'm not Zoe.” Zack said. I turned my head and looked at him.

“What are you doing here?” He walked in and shut the door. I stood up. He turned around and looked at me. I just ran up and wrapped my arms around him and cried.

“I'm sorry.” I pleaded.