He's Yours
Chapter Five
It had been three months and graduation for them was slowly approaching, the boys are almost done with their album and they’re calling it Nightmare. I sleep at Zackys almost every night and tonight we’re all going over to Jimmy’s to watch a shit ton of movies and eat a shit ton of food.
“Let’s go.” I whined excited to see Jimmy because he had been super distant lately
“Are you sure you’re up for it, you’ve been throwing up a lot lately?” He asked slipping on his left shoe.
I knew why I was getting sick and I needed to talk to Jimmy about it.
“I’m fine.” I said
“Are you sure you’re not pregnant?” He asked getting into the car I knew I was pregnant.
“No.” I said getting into the car.
“Then why are you getting—.” He said cutting off and looking at me. “Wait you’re not sure?” He asked
“No. Now drive I want to see my best friend.” I whined
“Are you pregnant?” He asked pulling out of the driveway and speeding off towards Jimmy’s house.
I ignored the question hoping he’d catch on and realize I was having his baby. We pulled up into Jimmy’s driveway and he shut off the car and looked at me. I looked at Jimmy’s porch and saw Brian and that was it. He was waiting on the rest of them. “Brice are you pregnant?” He asked me not letting me out of the car by holding my arm I wiggled out of his grasp and smiled grabbing the door handle.
“Yes.” I said running to Brian
“I’m waiting on the guys.” He said
“I’m not, I’m going in.” I said reaching for the door knob.
I opened it and closed it behind me.
“Jimmy!” I called
No answer.
I walked around the bottom level of the house calling out ‘Jimmy, Rev, James, James Owen, and Sullivan. But still didn’t get an answer. I walked up to his room and knocked. No answer when I pushed the door open I was horrified but still didn’t see Jimmy. There were beer bottles everywhere like normal and it smelled so bad. I wondered into his connecting bathroom and fell to my knees at the sight. Jimmy was laying on the bathroom floor, he was too still I had a bad feeling.
“Jimmy?” I asked touching his face.
He was cold.
“JIMMY!” I screeched letting tears over flow my eyes.
I heard running and slamming around until Zacky, Brian, Johnny and Matt were behind me as I laid over top of his dead body and sobbed.
“Jimmy.” I heard Brian say dropping down beside me
“Call 9-1-1 Matt.” Zacky said
“Jimmy wake up.” I cried shaking his cold dead body.
“You can’t be gone. Jimmy you’re my best friend.” Brian cried. I looked over to see one of the band members that never showed emotion crying.
“You were supposed to me the god father of my baby.” I cried not realizing who was in the room.
I heard sirens and people coming up the stairs. They lifted his body on a gurney and covered it with a body bag.
“JIMMY!” I yelled going after the body.
Zacky held be back and I slammed my head onto the door frame and bawled my eyes out. I held my stomach and tried not to throw up on Brian. Zacky pulled me away from the bedroom and Matt picked up Brian. Zacky took me out to his car and buckled me in.
“My place.” He said looking at Matt and the other guys
I started to hit my head on the back of the seat and Zacky stopped me and sped off to his house. When we pulled into the driveway the guys were already there, Zacky looked confused.
“Yeah, I’ll call them. Thank you bye.” I heard Brian talking
He was still crying, but he looked as serious as possible.
“Who was that?” Zack asked him
“The hospital. He’s going to get an autopsy tomorrow and we have to call his parents and help them make funeral arrangements.” He said
“They are going to be so heart broken.” Matt said
I thought about his parents and his sisters, they loved him even though they left him in the house by himself when he was eighteen and moved to an apartment in the city few minutes away. Zacky let us in the house and Brian got on the phone, he handed it to me.
“Hello?” Some deep voiced dude answered
“Hello Mr. Sullivan.” I said
“Brice Carter is that you?” He asked
“The one and only.” I said trying to hold back tears.
“Are you crying?” He asked
“No.” I lied
“What happened, what’s wrong?” He asked
“Is Mrs. Sullivan around?” I asked
“Sitting right here.” He said
“Can you put the phone on speaker?” I said
I heard the click and knew they could both hear me.
“Hi Brice.” She said in a chirpy happy voice.
“Listen guys I have something to tell you.” I said
“We’re listening.” Jimmy’s dad said
“I know this is a bad way to tell you, but I just can’t talk about it in person.” I started. “Did James knock you up?” His mom asked
“No. Just let me finish.” I snapped
“Okay.” She said
“Okay I just can’t do this in person because I know it’s going to be hard on you if it’s this hard on me and the guys. We went to see Jimmy today because I had something to tell him and he had been really distant lately. I went into the house and couldn’t find him so I went to his room and just saw bottles of beer and other alcohol. I walked into the bathroom and your son was lying dead on the floor. He’s going to get an autopsy tomorrow and you guys have to make funeral arrangements for him.” I said crying
“Oh my god” I heard his mom cry.
“Brice, we’ll talk to you later.” His dad said
I hung up the phone and looked at Brian.
“Why’d I have to do it?” I asked
“Because I knew you could.” He said
Brian laid on the couch and I laid right beside him, Jimmy was his best friend in the entire fucking world too and now he was gone. Brian pulled me to his chest and cried, I tried to comfort the sobbing man but it only made my sobbing worse.
It was finally the day after Jimmy’s autopsy and Brian was on the phone getting the results. I was watching his red-rimmed eyes look deader than they ever have, they even looked worse from the time his grandma died. What are we going to do without our Jimmy? Brian hung up his phone and came over and sat on the couch with me.
“They said it was an accidental overdose.” He said
“Our Jimmy.” I said
“Brice?” He asked
“Yeah?” I asked
“When were you going to tell us you were pregnant?” He asked
“Right after I told Jimmy. I wanted him to be the god father. When I have this baby Brian will you be the god father and teach this baby everything about his or her uncle Jimmy?” I asked
He nodded and laid back down, neither of us had really eaten anything since it happened, Jimmy was the one that helped me through my eating disorder and I didn’t know what to do anymore.
“Let’s go.” I whined excited to see Jimmy because he had been super distant lately
“Are you sure you’re up for it, you’ve been throwing up a lot lately?” He asked slipping on his left shoe.
I knew why I was getting sick and I needed to talk to Jimmy about it.
“I’m fine.” I said
“Are you sure you’re not pregnant?” He asked getting into the car I knew I was pregnant.
“No.” I said getting into the car.
“Then why are you getting—.” He said cutting off and looking at me. “Wait you’re not sure?” He asked
“No. Now drive I want to see my best friend.” I whined
“Are you pregnant?” He asked pulling out of the driveway and speeding off towards Jimmy’s house.
I ignored the question hoping he’d catch on and realize I was having his baby. We pulled up into Jimmy’s driveway and he shut off the car and looked at me. I looked at Jimmy’s porch and saw Brian and that was it. He was waiting on the rest of them. “Brice are you pregnant?” He asked me not letting me out of the car by holding my arm I wiggled out of his grasp and smiled grabbing the door handle.
“Yes.” I said running to Brian
“I’m waiting on the guys.” He said
“I’m not, I’m going in.” I said reaching for the door knob.
I opened it and closed it behind me.
“Jimmy!” I called
No answer.
I walked around the bottom level of the house calling out ‘Jimmy, Rev, James, James Owen, and Sullivan. But still didn’t get an answer. I walked up to his room and knocked. No answer when I pushed the door open I was horrified but still didn’t see Jimmy. There were beer bottles everywhere like normal and it smelled so bad. I wondered into his connecting bathroom and fell to my knees at the sight. Jimmy was laying on the bathroom floor, he was too still I had a bad feeling.
“Jimmy?” I asked touching his face.
He was cold.
“JIMMY!” I screeched letting tears over flow my eyes.
I heard running and slamming around until Zacky, Brian, Johnny and Matt were behind me as I laid over top of his dead body and sobbed.
“Jimmy.” I heard Brian say dropping down beside me
“Call 9-1-1 Matt.” Zacky said
“Jimmy wake up.” I cried shaking his cold dead body.
“You can’t be gone. Jimmy you’re my best friend.” Brian cried. I looked over to see one of the band members that never showed emotion crying.
“You were supposed to me the god father of my baby.” I cried not realizing who was in the room.
I heard sirens and people coming up the stairs. They lifted his body on a gurney and covered it with a body bag.
“JIMMY!” I yelled going after the body.
Zacky held be back and I slammed my head onto the door frame and bawled my eyes out. I held my stomach and tried not to throw up on Brian. Zacky pulled me away from the bedroom and Matt picked up Brian. Zacky took me out to his car and buckled me in.
“My place.” He said looking at Matt and the other guys
I started to hit my head on the back of the seat and Zacky stopped me and sped off to his house. When we pulled into the driveway the guys were already there, Zacky looked confused.
“Yeah, I’ll call them. Thank you bye.” I heard Brian talking
He was still crying, but he looked as serious as possible.
“Who was that?” Zack asked him
“The hospital. He’s going to get an autopsy tomorrow and we have to call his parents and help them make funeral arrangements.” He said
“They are going to be so heart broken.” Matt said
I thought about his parents and his sisters, they loved him even though they left him in the house by himself when he was eighteen and moved to an apartment in the city few minutes away. Zacky let us in the house and Brian got on the phone, he handed it to me.
“Hello?” Some deep voiced dude answered
“Hello Mr. Sullivan.” I said
“Brice Carter is that you?” He asked
“The one and only.” I said trying to hold back tears.
“Are you crying?” He asked
“No.” I lied
“What happened, what’s wrong?” He asked
“Is Mrs. Sullivan around?” I asked
“Sitting right here.” He said
“Can you put the phone on speaker?” I said
I heard the click and knew they could both hear me.
“Hi Brice.” She said in a chirpy happy voice.
“Listen guys I have something to tell you.” I said
“We’re listening.” Jimmy’s dad said
“I know this is a bad way to tell you, but I just can’t talk about it in person.” I started. “Did James knock you up?” His mom asked
“No. Just let me finish.” I snapped
“Okay.” She said
“Okay I just can’t do this in person because I know it’s going to be hard on you if it’s this hard on me and the guys. We went to see Jimmy today because I had something to tell him and he had been really distant lately. I went into the house and couldn’t find him so I went to his room and just saw bottles of beer and other alcohol. I walked into the bathroom and your son was lying dead on the floor. He’s going to get an autopsy tomorrow and you guys have to make funeral arrangements for him.” I said crying
“Oh my god” I heard his mom cry.
“Brice, we’ll talk to you later.” His dad said
I hung up the phone and looked at Brian.
“Why’d I have to do it?” I asked
“Because I knew you could.” He said
Brian laid on the couch and I laid right beside him, Jimmy was his best friend in the entire fucking world too and now he was gone. Brian pulled me to his chest and cried, I tried to comfort the sobbing man but it only made my sobbing worse.
It was finally the day after Jimmy’s autopsy and Brian was on the phone getting the results. I was watching his red-rimmed eyes look deader than they ever have, they even looked worse from the time his grandma died. What are we going to do without our Jimmy? Brian hung up his phone and came over and sat on the couch with me.
“They said it was an accidental overdose.” He said
“Our Jimmy.” I said
“Brice?” He asked
“Yeah?” I asked
“When were you going to tell us you were pregnant?” He asked
“Right after I told Jimmy. I wanted him to be the god father. When I have this baby Brian will you be the god father and teach this baby everything about his or her uncle Jimmy?” I asked
He nodded and laid back down, neither of us had really eaten anything since it happened, Jimmy was the one that helped me through my eating disorder and I didn’t know what to do anymore.
Thank you.
8/26/13