I flipped out a bit when a sharp pain attacked me. Was I in labor? I think I was, I waddled up the stairs to grab a pair of flip flops. I got back down the stairs, grabbed my keys and my phone and waddled out the door. The started driving and I pulled my phone out at the first red light
. “Hey baby you okay?” He asked
He sounded sort of drunk.
“Have you been drinking babe?” I asked
“Only a little but Brian made me.” He said
“Okay well I’m going to need you to sober up right now.” I said
“Why?” He asked
“I’m on my way to the hospital, my water broke.” I said
“Oh fuck!” He yelled
“Just hurry, I’m almost to the hospital.” I said
“She went into labor Brian come on.” I heard Zack say
I hung up the phone and continued driving, when I reached the hospital I locked my car and waddled in as fast as I could. The nurse at the counter knows me by name.
“Good evening Brice. Do you have an appointment today?” She asked
I doubled over from another sharp pain.
“No I believe I’m having a baby.” I said
“We need a room!” She shouted bringing in a wheel chair to me.
My breathing was jagged and I was in a lot of pain. They got me in a birthing room and laid me down.
“Brice!” I heard Zacky yell coming into the room.
My hair was up in a knotted pony-tail and I was sweating.
“Are you ready to have a baby?” He asked
“Fuck no!” I yelled
He came over and took my hand in his.
“You can do this.” He said
“Brice are you going to be doing this naturally or with the epidural?” My nurse asked me
“Epidural if possible.” I said having another contraction.
Why was my labor going to slow?
It’s been ten fucking hours and I’m not even dilated enough to get my fucking epidural, but my contractions were a lot closer together.
“How are we doing?” My doctor came in and asked checking me
“In a lot of motherfucking pain.” I said
“Well you’re ready to push this baby out.” He said
“What now? Where’s the epidural?” I asked
“You dilated to fast to have the epidural Hun.” He said
“Fuck.” I said
“You can do this Brice.” Zacky said
“I’m not doing this without Brian in here.” I said
“I’ll go get him.” He said getting up and leaving the room
“Brice you can do this.” I heard Brian say coming in.
“Bri I can’t.” I said
“Why not?” Zack asked
“I’m too tired.” I said
“Baby you can do this.” Zack said
“Brian can you hitch her left leg up and Zack can you get her left?” The doctor said They nodded and took their givin leg and hitched it up. It left really awkward like I were to get raped. I took Zacky’s free hand and squeezed it.
“Brice push.” The doctor said
I pushed and screamed at the same time.
“This is your fault Baker.” I said
I knew it wasn’t but Jimmy wasn’t here to tell that too. I thought about raising this baby and him growing up to be a carbon copy of Jimmy. I felt myself crying tears or sadness and not tears of pain.
“It’s really not but go ahead and blame me not him.” Zack said
I clawed his hand and pushed again.
“Only a few more Sweetie.” The doctor said I pushed again.
“One big one.” He said I pushed and let out a screech at the same time.
“Uh oh we have a problem.” I heard the doctor say