Seize The Day
CH.26 - Waking The Fallen
Arianna's POV
It's been exactly three hours. For three hours, we all sat waiting to see what happen to Brian. I prayed to God silently that he won't die. I want to see him, alive, and with me.
Zacky and I were the first one to be at the hospital, follow shortly after were the guys and Chris. Jessie is on her way home. Apparently she went across the country to visit her family and now she catching the earliest flight back here to California. All of us are very concern of what happened to him, but the only thing we knew for sure was that he is still alive, just barely alive.
I felt like crying, to be honest. It was me that made him almost killed himself. He overdosed on cocaine. If Zacky and I didn't discovering him earlier, he would've been dead by now and it will be too late for me.
We sat there all in silence until a medical personnel walked towards us.
"Is anyone here relatives of Brian Haner?"
"We are his friends," Zacky said. "and band mates"
"I am his ex girlfriend." I said.
"His dad lived somewhere far away from California so we are the closest thing to him."
"Alright alright, slow down." He replied.
"So how's Brian doing? Please tell me he is good." I spoke.
"He's fine. He OD on benzoylmethylecgonine, which is known to you as cocaine. Lucky you discovered him before it's too late.. With the mixtures of alcohol he consumed, it must be a miracle for him to survive. If you waited any longer, he would've die since he already have develop vascoconstriction, which is the narrowing of blood vessels. This would limit the blood flow and can do severe damages to him." The doc said.
"So is he okay now?" I questioned him.
"He is fine now, we fixed the problems and we emptied his stomach. Do any one of you knew rather the patient is a frequent drug user?"
"He used it about 7 months ago but he cleaned himself up about 5 months ago." Jimmy replied.
"So it must be the first time he's back on the drug." Johnny added.
"Alright, just wondering."
"Is the patient awake yet? Can we visit him?"
"The patient is still rest up. We just finished a surgery to enlarge the arteries so it is best if you would visit him later but," the doctor continued, "since you guys are very worried, i will allow y'all to visit him, just beware to follow all the hygiene procedures. He is in ICU Rm. 401, I will take you there."
We followed the doctor until we reached the doorway to Brian's ICU (intensive care unit) room. We are supposed to go visit him two at a time, so Jimmy and Johnny went in first. Then it was Matt and Val. Last was Zacky and I.
The minute we were in the room, I noticed the death-like, pale look of Brian. God, he looked like he's been through hell. He really did. If we didn't save him, he would've die.
We went to his bedside and i held his hand,
"Brian, it's me, Arianna. Please wake up. I am sorry." I whispered as tears started to well up around my eyes.
"It's Zacky here. Wake up you fucker or we are kicking you out of the band." he said with a smile on his face, but deep inside, he seemed worried.
After that, he left the room, leaving only Brian and I. I am glad he do so cause i have a lot to tell him.
"Brian. I am sorry for everything. I should of never run away in the first place. I should let you explain yourself. I should not ignore you and act like everything is fine when it's not." i sobbed.
"I really hated myself for doing that, and slapping you in the face? That was ridiculous. I fucked up. I did. I admit it, alright? Now please, just wake up. If you don't, i will be guilty as shit. If it's not because of me and my hurtful shit, you wouldn't be here lying down looking like crap. It's my fault Brian." I cried and i am still holding his hand, which is warm.
Brian remained in the state he is in.
"I am afraid, Brian. I am afraid of starting a relationship with you again because i will get hurt, i am afraid of what will happen when history repeat itself, and i am afraid of admitting i still love you after all those things happen. If you wake up now, i don't care what will happen but i want to be with you. Ok? I love you. I do. I love you." I continued to sobbed when the hand i held began to move.
I looked up and saw Brian's brown eyes are looking at me, opened.
"Really?" he silently asked.
"Brian? Are you awake?"
"You said you love me. I knew it." he whispered with a grin on his face."
"Holy shit. You scared me to death. You know what happened to you? Are you okay now?"
"I am fine, Arianna. My head just hurts like hell. But answer my question first. What you said to me, are those true?"
I remained silent.
"Um..." i stuttered. "I guess you heard everything?"
"Just the last part." He said, trying to resist the falling eyelids.
"Sure. I guess." i admitted.
"So are you going to be my girlfriend or not?"
I smiled, then frowned. "What happened to Jessie?"
"She'll be fine with it. We both knew our relationship is like brother and sister more than lovers."
I smiled again. "Yeah yeah yeah. Blah blah blah." He smiled and i continued.
"But seriously, did you know what the fuck did you do? You kept us all worried about you."
"I just remember the powder and darkness. It felt great for minutes and then i slowly faded."
"You overdosed on coke, asshole. You were going to die if Zacky and I didn't find you earlier. If we discover you some hours later, you wouldn't be here talking to me."
"So i am in the hospital?"
"No shit. This is the fucking garden." i replied sarcastically. "The reason why you are hurting so much was because they just finished a surgery on you. Some vessels were closing up so you don't have enough blood in you."
"Wow. I didn't know that was going to happen."
"If you touch those powder and alcohol again, i swear to God, i will fucking kill you and leave you."
He chuckled. "Ouch. My chest hurt." The surgery. Right.
"I won't, promised princess." he replied.
"Want me to get the guys in? They actually were here minutes before."
"Nah. Seeing you is enough. Tired." he yawned.
"Go to sleep, sweetie. But i got to call the doctor though, to let him know and examine you."
"Night." Brian said.
"Goodnight." I said and i walked out the door.
Outside the door, i saw the doctor speaking to the guys. I walked behind him and poked his shoulder.
"Just want to let you know, he woke up." I remarked and all of them looked at me.
"Really? I want to see him!" Matt exclaimed.
"He doesn't want to see you." I paused. "yet. He is really tired so he fall back asleep."
Matt nodded and the doctor went in to check on Brian.
"I am just glad he is awake." Valerie added.
"Yeah." i said, smiling. Knowing what just had happened in that room had just change my life and had myself a redemption.
It's been exactly three hours. For three hours, we all sat waiting to see what happen to Brian. I prayed to God silently that he won't die. I want to see him, alive, and with me.
Zacky and I were the first one to be at the hospital, follow shortly after were the guys and Chris. Jessie is on her way home. Apparently she went across the country to visit her family and now she catching the earliest flight back here to California. All of us are very concern of what happened to him, but the only thing we knew for sure was that he is still alive, just barely alive.
I felt like crying, to be honest. It was me that made him almost killed himself. He overdosed on cocaine. If Zacky and I didn't discovering him earlier, he would've been dead by now and it will be too late for me.
We sat there all in silence until a medical personnel walked towards us.
"Is anyone here relatives of Brian Haner?"
"We are his friends," Zacky said. "and band mates"
"I am his ex girlfriend." I said.
"His dad lived somewhere far away from California so we are the closest thing to him."
"Alright alright, slow down." He replied.
"So how's Brian doing? Please tell me he is good." I spoke.
"He's fine. He OD on benzoylmethylecgonine, which is known to you as cocaine. Lucky you discovered him before it's too late.. With the mixtures of alcohol he consumed, it must be a miracle for him to survive. If you waited any longer, he would've die since he already have develop vascoconstriction, which is the narrowing of blood vessels. This would limit the blood flow and can do severe damages to him." The doc said.
"So is he okay now?" I questioned him.
"He is fine now, we fixed the problems and we emptied his stomach. Do any one of you knew rather the patient is a frequent drug user?"
"He used it about 7 months ago but he cleaned himself up about 5 months ago." Jimmy replied.
"So it must be the first time he's back on the drug." Johnny added.
"Alright, just wondering."
"Is the patient awake yet? Can we visit him?"
"The patient is still rest up. We just finished a surgery to enlarge the arteries so it is best if you would visit him later but," the doctor continued, "since you guys are very worried, i will allow y'all to visit him, just beware to follow all the hygiene procedures. He is in ICU Rm. 401, I will take you there."
We followed the doctor until we reached the doorway to Brian's ICU (intensive care unit) room. We are supposed to go visit him two at a time, so Jimmy and Johnny went in first. Then it was Matt and Val. Last was Zacky and I.
The minute we were in the room, I noticed the death-like, pale look of Brian. God, he looked like he's been through hell. He really did. If we didn't save him, he would've die.
We went to his bedside and i held his hand,
"Brian, it's me, Arianna. Please wake up. I am sorry." I whispered as tears started to well up around my eyes.
"It's Zacky here. Wake up you fucker or we are kicking you out of the band." he said with a smile on his face, but deep inside, he seemed worried.
After that, he left the room, leaving only Brian and I. I am glad he do so cause i have a lot to tell him.
"Brian. I am sorry for everything. I should of never run away in the first place. I should let you explain yourself. I should not ignore you and act like everything is fine when it's not." i sobbed.
"I really hated myself for doing that, and slapping you in the face? That was ridiculous. I fucked up. I did. I admit it, alright? Now please, just wake up. If you don't, i will be guilty as shit. If it's not because of me and my hurtful shit, you wouldn't be here lying down looking like crap. It's my fault Brian." I cried and i am still holding his hand, which is warm.
Brian remained in the state he is in.
"I am afraid, Brian. I am afraid of starting a relationship with you again because i will get hurt, i am afraid of what will happen when history repeat itself, and i am afraid of admitting i still love you after all those things happen. If you wake up now, i don't care what will happen but i want to be with you. Ok? I love you. I do. I love you." I continued to sobbed when the hand i held began to move.
I looked up and saw Brian's brown eyes are looking at me, opened.
"Really?" he silently asked.
"Brian? Are you awake?"
"You said you love me. I knew it." he whispered with a grin on his face."
"Holy shit. You scared me to death. You know what happened to you? Are you okay now?"
"I am fine, Arianna. My head just hurts like hell. But answer my question first. What you said to me, are those true?"
I remained silent.
"Um..." i stuttered. "I guess you heard everything?"
"Just the last part." He said, trying to resist the falling eyelids.
"Sure. I guess." i admitted.
"So are you going to be my girlfriend or not?"
I smiled, then frowned. "What happened to Jessie?"
"She'll be fine with it. We both knew our relationship is like brother and sister more than lovers."
I smiled again. "Yeah yeah yeah. Blah blah blah." He smiled and i continued.
"But seriously, did you know what the fuck did you do? You kept us all worried about you."
"I just remember the powder and darkness. It felt great for minutes and then i slowly faded."
"You overdosed on coke, asshole. You were going to die if Zacky and I didn't find you earlier. If we discover you some hours later, you wouldn't be here talking to me."
"So i am in the hospital?"
"No shit. This is the fucking garden." i replied sarcastically. "The reason why you are hurting so much was because they just finished a surgery on you. Some vessels were closing up so you don't have enough blood in you."
"Wow. I didn't know that was going to happen."
"If you touch those powder and alcohol again, i swear to God, i will fucking kill you and leave you."
He chuckled. "Ouch. My chest hurt." The surgery. Right.
"I won't, promised princess." he replied.
"Want me to get the guys in? They actually were here minutes before."
"Nah. Seeing you is enough. Tired." he yawned.
"Go to sleep, sweetie. But i got to call the doctor though, to let him know and examine you."
"Night." Brian said.
"Goodnight." I said and i walked out the door.
Outside the door, i saw the doctor speaking to the guys. I walked behind him and poked his shoulder.
"Just want to let you know, he woke up." I remarked and all of them looked at me.
"Really? I want to see him!" Matt exclaimed.
"He doesn't want to see you." I paused. "yet. He is really tired so he fall back asleep."
Matt nodded and the doctor went in to check on Brian.
"I am just glad he is awake." Valerie added.
"Yeah." i said, smiling. Knowing what just had happened in that room had just change my life and had myself a redemption.
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